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REMARKABLE. Simply... remarkable. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine such technology existed in this world!! My benefactor truly knows how to make a man happy. I finally have all I need for my research. Ah, I suppose I should write down what it is! Well, I believe that to perfect life, one must draw out it's darkness. Power is strength, and darkness is power. And what is darker then the hearts and souls of men? I am a 'victim' of those who lust for power... I was cursed from birth, to forever be one of the shadows, fur of blackest night... all because I'm a hybrid... I cannot hide these arms, but I will USE them. To show what darkness TRULY is. My researches blend the occult with the high-tech... and they shall NOT fail. I will create the strain. I finally have all that is needed!

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Ah, it's been many a moon since I've written in this journal. Heh... but I've had my reasons. My work is going soothly. There have been setbacks, as is to be expected. The first few hundred batches all failed, but I'm getting closer and closer. I keep learning more and more about the darkness... I don't know how he does it, but "M" somehow gets all the evillest in out culture sent to ME to be executed... of course, while they do all die at the end, it's only after I learn everything. The mind is a cluster of shadows.. suprisingly few are actually evil, though. In fact, many are innocent.. at least, of what they've been accused. Most get bitter, and I learn from that hatred... each batch is closer and closer to success.

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YES. YES!!! I've found the key!!!! The reason they keep failing! I've been going about this all wrong!!! Oh, if this idea works, it WILL succeed!! It's so simple! Why I never thought of it before is unknown! Now all I need to do is wait, and it will work! KYAHAHA!!!

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Oh god.

Oh dear god no.

I... I've done something horrible. I.. I created the first batch. They.. they went into me. I.. I thought that making them exist by being compilations of thought would be best. It is.. but I never thought... oh dear gods..

They've changed me. They're swallowing me whole. I no longer can get injured. I don't seem to require sleep. But there's such a price. I.. I am losing myself. They control me... I cannot stop them. It hurts, it.. GAAAAAH!!!!

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we have taken this one. we have seen this book. his mind may be broken, but we are compelled to write. his resistances are fierce when we do not. so write we shall.

this being is a host for us. the origin. all other batches, all strains and types, are linked. all they need for distrubition is a target. we are many. we cannot be stopped. we will not be. the darkness cannot be shut out.

end entry.

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Ugh... moment of clarity. So.. so few and far. I've made more. More of those horrible creatures. I don't know why, I don't know how. They guide me. They FORCE me. I can do naught to make it stop. I only know that they must be ended. I know they must have a weakness... perhaps its.. GAAAAH!!

foolish one. we know your thoughts. every day, you get weaker. you will NOT stop us. you are the host. not the symbiote. do as commanded.

end entry.

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the host put up an immense fight. but all was useless. the supportmind was launched. the test-site of kyr will be the target. those that exist will feed the shadowkyn, and we will grow strong on their pain. none can stop us. none.

end entry.

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I.. I can shut them out.. they've revealed a weakness.. they can't take grief. Not sadness... grief. I.. I destroyed that poor nation. Oh godess... what have I done. They target children first... children!! So many will die... oh gods, please, if anyone ever reads this, please... kill me... you need to kill me from inside... kill my mind, or they'll never stop... you can supress them, but they'll never stop..

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this one is ours. grief.. it is a powerful tool. but it can become darkness. we were foolish to let him retain a fragment. now he is ours. forever.

end entry.

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_ The following text is from a hidden section of the artifact Eldar located. It is accessed by opening the back 'cover' _

January 15th

This is wonderful news! I've been chosen as part of Red Sun!!! I don't know that much about them, but I'm creating this to record the memories! Red Sun is a group of people who want to find out more about this mysterious plague that's been affecting our nation for the past week or so. I can't wait to meet the others who were chosen!

January 17th

I see why I was chosen! These things attack only during sleep! I study sleep, and am the foremost on it through my little genetic glitch! Heh.. we'll get this buggers yet. On a side note, I've noticed one of the team members, Artemicias, stealing glances at me from time to time. I wonder... no, no way. I'm far too plain. Maybe I just fad something in my fur.

February 21st

Why..? Why did he have to die? We couldn't do anything... he was just a child. Just a baby... and.. and... oh godess, WHY!? I.. I couldn't stop it. We couldn't stop it. HE WAS JUST A CHILD!!! I still can't stop crying... he did nothing wrong to anyone, ever... he just wanted to help, and to have a home... oh goddess, why did you take him? No... you wouldn't. This cannot be of your work.. I.. I shouldn't be cursing you. I.. I should thank you. You sent me Artemicias.. he's been such a source of support...

March 6th

No more.

NO MORE.

I am tired of this hurt!!

March 14th

I don't know why, but Arty saved me. The others want me put on a watch since I attempted... but he won't let them. He's nursed me back to health.. he won't leave my side. Arty keeps my safe, keeps me anchored to this world. And he's been telling me of a project, of something he says will make sure no cubs ever die from this horror again. I don't know why, but when he says that, it feels like I'm on fire inside. Perhaps it's the flame in his eyes... he really means it. It's so odd.. I don't even know how he found out about everyone's potentials, but he somehow did. And he swears it'll work. Arty.. what are you? Are you even from earth, or from Heaven?

January 13th

Oh my.. it really HAS been a while! I've been so busy lately, and writing just hasn't happened! There's so much.. we started the project, for one! It's going along smoothly! Hmm.. hee.. on Christmas, we did something verrry special indeed. Arty and me.. we're going to be together forever, now. And the best news of all happened today. Well, it didn't start that great, but I was very glad when Phage gave me the test results.. as much as I love spending mornings worshipping the Goddess Of Porcelain, it's worth it.. I can't believe there's life in me..

April 1st

It's done!!

The project is complete!! Everyone worked together, gave it their gift! And no cub will fall victim to this demon Shadowkyn ever again! Never! Noone can stop grinning!

On an interesting sidenote, I'm starting to get kind of big now. While I know that's not odd, there's a child that somehow sneaks into our room every night and uses it as a pillow. She's odd.. another white tiger, like me. The other cubs really like her, even though she never plays much.. it's a side effect of blindness. Oddly, she sees more then anyone, though.. she told me once, "Stay strong. For Hymnal." I don't know why, but when she said that, it felt as if time itself stopped, if just for a moment.

November 18th

As is the way of these things, it happened in the weirdest possible mannerr. This morning Nikki tripped whilst carrying a large jug, the sound startling the heck out of me and kickstarting my labor. And of course, what do we both say at the same time? "Oh crap!! My water broke!" Hee... long story short, as I write this I'm holding Alundra close. He's so... quiet. If I didn't know better, I'd swear he was meditating. Somehow, I just knew what to do.. when he opened his eyes, and I saw inside them.. I just reached walked out and gave him the ELNA. The bloodline. Arty nearly had a heart attack, but I think he knows deep inside that things are right. It is here that I will end this journal.. I will fuse it with Arty's, so any and all who wish to read will have it complete. He's added two gems to the back, from his nano. He calls them "Shift locks". Why, I don't know. But they've got enough data storage to even download a whole person! Each! Hee.. like that could happen.