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Ok, so i deicded to do something different here. I decided to write this chapter from Seigi's point of view. Its basically a repeat of Ch. 4, but told by Seigi. Hope you like. :)

I woke up from my little nap, and Kausn was no where in sight. I got up and looked around for a moment, but then I went back to the couch and sat down. He must be looking for food or something. I chuckled at the thought of Kausn search the halls feverously for food. As I sat there, I reflected on what happened only and hour or so ago. I can't believe he did that. I can't believe I got a record deal with him. This seems all too surreal. As I sat there thinking about tonight, I felt my cell phone vibrate. Who could that be? I glanced at the caller I.D. and my body instantly went rigid with dread. "Hello?" My heart rate quickened, and my fur stood on end.

"Hello, son."

"Father, I can explain..."

"There's no need to." His voice was full of hatred and spite. "I saw the concert. I saw you and that.... that fag kiss. I'm telling you that's unacceptable. I'm going to give you a choice. You can come home, forget about that faggot, and live with us. Were going to send you to a camp where they will fix you. He is just controlling your mind. You don't know what you want."

"That fag is my boyfriend. And I do know what I want. I want him. He makes me happy, which clearly you can't see. I don't need to be 'fixed'. I'm perfectly happy the way I am." I could feel tears forming at the edges of my eyes. I cherished Kausn, but that love for him is costing me my relationship with my parents.

"Then you leave me no choice. Seigi, you are barred from this house. I never want to see your muzzle around here ever again. Just know, when that Husky leaves you for another guy, that I was right. You don't know what love is, and you won't ever know." That statement stung a little, and I felt the tears start to fall.

"No, you are wrong. Kausn loves me, and he would never leave me." My voice cracked a little, and my father knew I was close to breaking. My father continued, sounding satisfied that I was crying.

"He will. He's just like every other horny guy in this universe. He will get bored of you, and he'll go off to find something new, something better. You'll just be another mistake, another boyfriend that wasn't meant to be anything more. Your confusing lust with love." He said it with a twinge of satisfaction in his voice, as he knew he hit a nerve.

"He will never leave me. He loves me, and I love him. We are devoted to each other. Besides, I didn't choose him, he chose me. He chose to spend time with me. I was the one that came out to him. I love him and he loves me. Love is Love, no matter who you find it in." My voice was starting to fill with anger, but there was a hint of fear in there. My tears started to fall even faster and harder, as I took in what he said.

"Well, if you believe that, then you are a complete idiot. You forced him into it. As soon as he realizes that this could ruin his music career, then he will drop you faster than I disowned you. No son of mine is going to be a faggot. Don't even bother coming by for your things. Everything has been burned." After that sentence, the line went dead.

I sat there, taking in what he said. Kausn would never leave me, would he? After what my father said, I wasn't so sure anymore. Am I just one more of his boyfriends? Will I be tossed aside when he finds something better? It seemed impossible, but the more I thought about it, the more I started to fear that my dad was right. Tears were falling freely now, my fur soaking in everything that fell. I sat there, crying for about 5 minutes before Kausn came in. I looked up, and saw the pain in his eyes. He ran over to me.

"What's wrong honey?" I could see that he was on the verge of tears himself.

"My....my parents.....they..." I choked between sobs. I couldn't tell him what my father said. It hurt way too much. "They called me. They saw the concert." I could see that he knew where this was going, and he hugged me. I hugged him back, glad that he was in my arms. It made the pain almost bearable. "They called me and dad said... 'No son of mine is going to be a faggot.' They disowned me, Kausn. They burned all of my belongings. I have no place to go. They don't love me anymore." I felt my crying start to subside, but I still looked like a wreck.

"I still love you Seigi. If your parents can't accept you for who you are, then they don't deserve to know you. You are an amazing person, and they clearly can't see that. That is why I'm so happy to have you." I looked into Kausn's light blue eyes, and he looked back into mine. We embraced each other in a way that told me that he understands. At that moment, Kausn's cell phone rang. I saw him look down, and a look of fear crossed his face. We let go and he flipped open his phone.

"Hello?" I couldn't hear what the person on the other end of the line was saying, but they were definitely mad. "Yes dad, I am. I love Seigi." With that sentence, I knew what was coming. His parents had called him, and were accusing him of being gay. I could tell from Kausn's tone that he was trying to stay strong, but his eyes told a different story. There was more yelling on the other end, and I caught words like 'faggot' and 'gay ass'. Kausn spoke again, still with no hint of emotion in his voice. "That's fine by me. I don't care what you think. I have a wonder boyfriend who loves me, and that's all that matters." I heard more yelling before I finally heard silence. He just stood there, trying to stay calm and control his emotions, but I could tell by his eyes that there was no use. He fell onto the couch, sobbing even harder than I had. I tried to comfort him, putting my paws around him. Why does this have to happen to us? Why right now, at the same time? I tried to tell Kausn that it would be alright, but I wasn't sure if it would.

"I don't know why this has to happen to us, but we have each other, and that's all that matters." It was all that mattered. But for how long? Will he end up leaving me, just as my father said? Kausn looked into at me, and all I could see was pain in his eyes. Slowly he stopped crying, and got up.

"I'm sorry honey, but I'm going to go talk to Mr. Wolfe. He might be able to help us with our living situation."

He left me sitting on that couch. I watched him leave, and I wondered if my dad was right. Would Kausn leave me? If he does, did I throw my life away for something that I thought was love? I needed to get away. I was reluctant to leave Kausn alone, but I needed to think. I went down to Mr. Wolfe's office, and he greeted me with a sympathetic smile.

"I heard what happened. I'm deeply sorry." "It's ok."

"Listen, I arranged for you guys to stay at a hotel, and I gave Kausn two sets of keys for company cars." "Thank you very much."

"You're very welcome. Don't bother coming in to the studio tomorrow. I can see you guys need to recover." "Thanks Mr. Wolfe." With that, I made my way back to the dressing room. No sooner than I walked through the door and sat down, Kausn came in holding two sets of keys.

I tried to act a little happier, but the pain was still there. That thought that Kausn could leave me any second still crept into the back of my mind. Kausn left to get his guitar, and I couldn't take it any more. I left Kausn a note, I grabbed my things, and left.

I found a silver Dodge Charger waiting for me in the parking lot. I climbed in and started it up. I pulled out onto the highway and accelerated up to 70 mph in no time. I kept accelerating, thinking if I traveled faster, I could leave what happened to me back in the past. The next time I looked down at the accelerometer, I was traveling at 110 mph. The thought that Kausn could leave me filled my brain. Is that jackass of a father right? My vision started to blur with tears as my speed kept climbing. Suddenly, out of the corner of my eye, I saw what looked like a deer running, and I swerved to miss it. As soon as I did that, I knew that I was in deep trouble.

I felt the car's center of gravity shift, and the car started to roll. Everything felt like it was happening in slow motion. The car rolled about 5 times before it finally came to rest on its roof on the side of the road. I registered the pain all over my body. The side window and front windshield had shattered, covering me in shards of glass. I looked down at my fur, and gasped at the sight. Slowly, a patch of red started staining my fur, and dripping down onto the roof. Slowly, my vision started to blur, and blood loss was happening at an exceptionally fast rate. I thought of Kausn, my family, this night, and everything that had happened to me lately. Now I might be the one departing Kausn. That thought brought tears to my eyes. I would be the one to leave him, not him leaving me. He was completely and utterly faithful, and my damn father put thoughts in my head that shouldn't have been there. Now this was the result. I was possibly dying, and Kausn would never know. "I love you Kausn. I know you love me and wouldn't leave me, and I'm sorry that I couldn't see that. I regret everything that I thought about you. You are perfect in every way." I said this, hoping that someone, anyone would here it. But alas, no one was around, non one cared. As I sat upside down, I thought of what I could have done differently. _I should have ignored my father. I knew Kausn would be faithful. He found love in me, and I found love in him. I should have left with him. I wish I could tell him goodbye, kiss him one last time. This might actually be the end. _I tried to fight the urge to let go and submit to my drooping eyes, but it was no use. I could feel myself slipping into unconsciousness. "Kausn, I love you." The last thing my conscious mind registered was the sight of a brown paper bag blowing in the wind.

A few times, I slipped in and out of consciousness. The first I remember was falling onto something soft and white. I wasn't really thinking, so I didn't think that I needed to get out of the car. Heck, I didn't even know where I was. The next thing my mind registered was being pulled out of the car, and the pain that I experienced as my leg broke while being pulled out. The last thing my mind registered was Kausn staring at me. What happening? I tried to speak to Kausn, but the words were caught in my throat as I started to slip away again. I remember Kausn looking at me and falling to his knees. I love you, honey. I couldn't speak, but it was the thought that counts. Then, nothing.

I know its a little short, but hey, it happens. Anyway, thanks for reading. Also, if anyone knows how i can link chapters together like i've seen on quite a few other stories, could you let me know? Thanks. :)