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chapter 9

• * * I now lay limp and unconscious on a hospital bed. MY tongue lay slightly out of my muzzle my fur sticky and matted down with saliva and cum. It took a while for Ramon to come around. He had passed out from the blood lose. He lay in the bed with a cast around his arm as he looked up at the ceiling. He didn't know where anyone was as he was worried about Kitai. I slowly came around mumbling a bit. "Tiggy?!" I called weakly blinking as I looked around trying to clear my eyes and trying to remember where I was. Ramon didn't hear him as he was in the other room. But, watching him was Zech who had been going from room to room keep track of Kitai and Ramon. "Ramon is in another room." He replied. "He will be here in a while." I smiled goofily at the terrier. "Oooh, Doggy? Do you know Tiggy?" I asked my words slurring a bit. "I wonder where Tiggy is." I told him. Zech rolled his eyes. 'I wonder what he sees in you.' He thought. "I'm going to go see if he is up. You just lay there." He left the room and headed down the hall to Ramon's room. "Oh your up. Kitai is looking for you." He replied. Ramon looked over at him. "Really?" Zech nodded and with his help Ramon was able to walk down the hall to Kitai's room. I blinked when the tiger came into my room. "Hey, Doggy just went to get Tiggy" I told him. Obviously the drugs hadn't worked out of my system yet. "You should stay and meet him." I told him matter of factly. "He's my boyfriend" I said nodding, my eyes still not focusing right. Ramon walked over and took Kitai's hand. "I'm right here Kitai." he said. Zech just shook his head again. It was going to be a while for the drugs to be completely clean from Kitai's system. I looked at Ramon as he took my paw. "Oh hi." I said happily. "Now that you're here, There were people here that I wanted you to meet." I told him. I glanced around the room "Oh... They must have left." Ramon smiled at Kitai. "Its ok. I can meet them later." He sat down on the bed next to Kitai. Hr brought the husky's paw to his face rubbing his cheek against it. "I'm just happy you are all right." I smiled goofily. "Did doggy find you alright?" I asked. "He went to get you before." I pointed out. I looked around and found Zech. "Hey doggy, Did you meet my boyfriend?" I asked looking back to Ramon. Zech nodded. "Yes I did." He replied. "We are actually old friends." I smiled at that. "Oh ok" I said happily. "That's good." I told him. I looked back at Ramon. "You have pretty fur." Ramon couldn't help, but raise an eyebrow at all this. A doctor walked in to check on Kitai. "Ah you are both here. I'm Doctor Tasha." She said. "I take you have noticed that your friend is a bit delirious. It will go away with time." She looked of at Ramon. "As for you, Ramon Fenrir, your arm is going to be in that cast for a while." I looked between Ramon and the doctor. "Hey tiggy, I dated a doctor once." I told him. "Hmm I wonder what ever happened to him." I mused deliriously. "Did I ever tell you about him?" Ramon nodded to the doctor. "Is... is my mom here yet?" He asked. Zech shook his head. "She should be here by tomorrow. She said she was flying in as soon as she could." Ramon nodded. The doctor smiled. "I'll be back in a while." She said after checking Kitai's blood pressure and the machines he was hooked up to. After she left the room Ramon turned to Kitai. "Yes, you did. I'm afraid he won't be asking you out again." "awww that's too bad." I told him. "But that's ok, You're my boyfriend now anyway." I commented smiling a bit. "I'm gonna take a nap, Night Tiggy, Night doggy." I told them and laid my head on the pillow slowly closing my eyes. Ramon nodded and leaned in kissing his forehead softly. Getting up he went to the bed next to Kitai. Laying down he lay looking at Kitai. "is he going to be ok?" he asked Zech. Zech nodded. "He should be. Just give it time. I'm going to go check on Chris." Ramon nodded. Once the terrier left Ramon began to snooze and soon found himself asleep. I slept soundly through the rest of the night and probably a lot of the next day snoozing happily next to the tiger. I had wrapped my arms around the tiger and held him close. Ramon didn't move at all. He had lost quite a bit of blood and must have slept as long as Kitai. Sleeping next to him like he did he slept very soundly. He just hoped that Kitai was going to be ok. "TIggy?" I whispered gently into his ear after waking and blinking a bit. "Wake up tiggy." I whispered stroking my paw along his side. Ramon blinked several times and then yawned a bit stretching his arms out from the bed. "Huh?" he looked around. "Oh yeah we are the hospital." he said sitting up. I grinned a little looking at the tiger. "Hi tiggy" I told him smiling. "Wakey wakey" I told him. "Where's the kitchen? I need to make breakfast" I told him. Ramon rubbed his eyes. "You don't need to worry about that." he said. "I'll just call the nurse to get us food." "Nurse?" I asked blinking. "When did we get a nurse?" I asked. "And why cant I make the food?" Ramon rolled his eyes. "We are at the hospital" he replied. "Plus you need to keep laying in the bed as you are hooked up to some machines." He pushed the button to call the nurse. She came in and Ramon asked for some food. She nodded and left to get them something to eat. I looked around at the machines. "Why are we in the hospital?" I asked. "Last thing I remember is having sex with you and then nothing else." I told him. "But I guess having sex with my boyfriend isn't a bad last memory to have." Ramon sighed. "You went on a date with a wolf. He and his friends hurt you a lot. My friends and I saved you, but we I got hurt in the process to. You... you have drugs in your system that are affecting you right now." He said answering Kitai's question. "You saved me?" I asked grinning. I hugged him tightly. "I knew you would always be there for me." I said happily. "But are you ok?" I asked. Ramon nodded. "I'll be fine. It's just my arm hurts a bit." He said showing him the cast. He shook his head though. "Am I really that special to you? I mean I'm your boyfriend? Since when?" I blinked looking at him curiously at the question. "Of course" I told him. "ummmm I cant.... remember" I told him blinking seeming really disconcerted by that. Ramon looked puzzled by all this. "I'll be right back. Just going to use the bathroom." He had to use it, but he also wanted to ask the doctor some things. Stepping out he found her near the nurses desk. "Umm Doctor, I'm wondering if you can explain what is happening with Kitai?" He asked. She sighed. "I'm afraid your friend's mind is suppressing the memories of the events that have occurred. I've seen it happen in many rape and drug cases." She replied. "Sadly there is nothing we or anyone can do until he decides for himself to come out of it. If he ever comes out of it." Ramon looked shocked by that. "What do you mean 'if'?" he asked. She sighed again. "In some cases the person is so traumatized that they never seem to recover fully enough mentally that they stay in the reality they have created for themselves. It is rare, but it is possibility we may have to consider." Ramon nodded thanking the doctor and walked away thinking about it. I laid in the bed waiting for my Tiger to return. It was weird that I really couldn't remember when Ramon had become my boyfriend. I shook it off, maybe it had something to do with getting hurt. I sighed softly and closed my eyes as I waited. Ramon soon returned lost in thought. He may have to consider the fact this version of Kitai would be permanent. He didn't mind being the husky's boyfriend, but it felt odd. He sat down next to Kitai just as the nurse came in with trays of food for them. It turned and hugged Ramon as he returned. "Hi, tiggy." I said happily watching as the nurse brought the food to them. "I love you." I told him nuzzling his shoulder. Ramon smirked and blushed from that. He had always been the one to say he loved Kitai. To hear it back made him smile. It felt odd though. He knew he was just going to have to get used to it as he took the tray from the nurse and dug into his food. I grinned a bit and happily took my own food digging in. I ate slowly making sure not to get any mess on my fur, actually managing to stay completely clean. Ramon watched Kitai a bit as he ate. He couldn't believe the husky was actually eating so he stayed clean. This was so unlike the Kitai he knew who ate fast and made a mess. He swallowed his last bite of food and set his tray aside. "Are you sure your ok?" he asked Kitai worried. I looked at him curiously and nodded. "Yea, I'm fine." I told him. "Why?" I asked him. Ramon nodded. "Nothing. Just a bit of paranoia really." he said. "Must be from my arm getting busted like it is." He ate some more and smiled at Kitai. I chuckled. "You're always paranoid." I teased and leaned over to kiss him lightly. I went back to my food, eating cleanly. Ramon blushed a little. This Kitai was going to take some getting use to. Finishing up he set his tray aside again. He then lay down next to Kitai thinking as his tail swayed from side to side. I grinned a little and it took me awhile to eat as I was keeping my fur clean and white. After finishing I put it off to the side. I turned and snuggled into the tiger. "Love you my tiggy." I told him holding him close. Ramon couldn't help but snuggle a bit into Kitai. He sighed. This Kitai was nice. But, just so different. It was as if everything bad that had happened to him was gone. It was frightening and odd at the same time. He took Kitai's paw in his rubbing it softly. "Since I cant seem to remember when we became boyfriends can you tell me?" I asked. "I hate not knowing, I guess when I got hurt, I forgot it." I sighed softly. Ramon shrugged. "I don't remember it exactly either." he said. "We were roommates long before we were ever boyfriends. Of course we hit it off from the start and things went from there." It wasn't a complete lie, but he knew he had to play along some what as only Kitai could break out of his new reality. "You know what I just realized.... You never met my parents." I told him. "You should meet them someday." I added. Seems that the trauma suppressed a lot more than just the recent rape. Ramon nodded. "In time I probably will." he said. He knew Kitai didn't have any parents. "You will probably be meeting my mom today." He added. I smiled brightly. "Really?" I asked. "DO you think she'll like me?" I queried. "I hope she likes me." Ramon nodded. "She will like you. In fact if you don't remember you were going to send her a resume so you could work for her." He replied. I blinked. "I don't think I got one together. I don't have any thing ready to show her." I whimpered softly. "I'm never gonna get a job. Ill be stuck working at some fast food place for the rest of my life!" I joked. Ramon shook his head. "Don't worry about it. She can wait a bit to get it." he said squeezing the husky's paw slightly. "First is to get out of this hospital." I nodded smiling as he squeezed my paw. "Well when did the doctors say we could leave?" I asked curiously. Ramon shrugged. "I don't know. I guess we will just have to wait and see." He rubbed Kitai's paw lightly as they lay there. I sighed softly looking at him. "I cant even remember getting hurt" I commented. "Were my parents called?" I asked. Ramon looked over at Kitai. "Ummm Kitai, you don't have any parents. Any that I know of anyways." I blinked hearing this and shook my head. "That's not funny" I snapped. "Of course i have parents." I glared at him with an almost nervous look. His words shook me oddly. Ramon had a serious face on when he looked at Kitai. "Kitai as far as I know you have lived on the street most of your life. Your parents died a long time ago." I sat up pulling away from the other. "No.... no" I felt my body begin to shake. I clamped my paws over my ears as I heard an odd screaming followed by a loud bang. But it was all in my head. Ramon sat up and looked at Kitai. "Kitai I'm only telling you what I know." He tried reaching out to Kitai, but the way he was pulling away he could tell he didn't want to be touched. I shook heavier pulling away from the others paws. "No, It cant be true." I mumbled blinking away tears. I shook my head. "No!" I snapped. "I need to sleep. please move back to your bed." I told him softly before laying down. Ramon looked shocked by all this, but nodded slowly. Getting up he moved back to the bed next to Kitai's and sat there looking down. He wanted to say something, but couldn't. He had to talk to someone about this. He had to know more of what was going on. Getting up he went to find the doctor. I rolled over and curled up shaking. It just couldn't be true. 'I have parents, right?' A doctor, hearing the yells, had come to check on the room and met Ramon right when he walked into the hallway. "Is something wrong?" The black cat asked, his long wiry tail swaying behind him. Ramon nodded. "Sort of." he replied closing the door. "My friend is suppressing memories and such is acting strange. He was asking for his parents. As far as I know he doesn't have any and when I told him that he got upset. Did I say something wrong or is telling him the truth the way to go?" The cat sighed softly as he listened. "It depends on who you talk to." He told him. "Some say that you need to let them come to terms with the truth on their own...." He shifted as he fixed the glasses sliding off his nose. "Others say that its better to not let them stay in their fake reality, that they need to be told the truth." He sighed softly. "Personally, I think they need to be told the truth, the faster they know the truth, THe faster they can come to terms with what happened and recover." Ramon nodded. "I can see where you are coming with that, but it hurts seeing him like that. He seems so happy in his made up reality." Ramon sighed. "Now if only he will let me close to him again to tell him everything." He said that last part as more to himself then the doctor. The cat sighed. "Its gonna be hard, But you have to think. DO you wanna leave him in that reality and have him find something that tears him from it without you there to help him cope?" He asked simply. "Just tell him. and be there when he needs you." Ramon steeled himself and reentered the room looking at the husky. "Kitai. I know I'm probably the last person you need to hear this from, but you need to know the truth. For starters your parents... your parents are dead. That is probably the last thing you want to hear. Lastly you need to know.... know what happened to you." Ramon sighed before he slowly started talking about the date, the rape and the rescue. He didn't know everything of course, but he did tell Kitai what he knew. I lay in bed listening to all this. I started to cry into my paws. "No, its some sick joke, I hate you." I snapped. "It cant be true..... Why would I be dating? You're already my boyfriend... Or is that a lie too?!" Ramon sighed. "We never officially became boyfriends. In fact I'm your roommate who until a week ago you didn't know actually loves you." He was still looking down. "I don't know why you went on the date. Probably to show me up to show that someone else besides myself loves you for you instead of your.... your sleeping around nature." "Its a lie, All of it a lie!" I snapped and rolled over to bury my face into the pillow and start sobbing. "I... I..." Things were flashing through my mind, images of Sleeping with different guys, A car being hit by a truck, even the rape. Ramon looked up at Kitai and then looked down. "I'm sorry to be the one to tell you all that. I don't want you living a lie. It hurts me seeing you hide from everything like you were. Further more I can... understand if you need to be alone right now." He got up and walked over to his own bed and laid down facing away from Kitai. "Just know I do love you. I may not be your boyfriend, even though I wish I was, I do care about you a lot. If you need to talk about it or anything, I'll be right here." I was sobbing into the pillow heavily as I half listened to the tiger. "Get out...." I sobbed, barely understandable. "Get out!" I snapped as i looked at him my muzzle fur all askew and wet. I was shaking hard as I was assaulted by a plethora of memories, His words struck me to the core. Ramon looked shocked by this, but slowly just nodded. "Ok." He replied looking down at the floor. He walked out like that with his tail also nearly dragging behind him. The last thing he wanted to do was upset Kitai, but he obviously had done just that. Further more he didn't have the energy to argue with Kitai about it. The Black cat doctor had just so happened to still be nearby when Kitai shouted and Ramon wandered dreadfully out. The feline eyed the tiger and licked his lips lightly. Walking over he put on a gentle smile. "YOu ok? You did the right thing" I lay in my room furiously clawing at the pillow now, getting an odd pleasure of watching its feathered insides come spilling out. Ramon nodded feeling very upset. "I know I did." he replied. "I just wish it didn't hurt him so much." He replied to the doctor. The doctor nodded. "If only everything could be done with out hurting someone else." He told him softly. "He'll get over it, But its gonna take time." HE added. I now sat up on the bed in the midst's of the ravaged pillow panting softly. I glanced around the room nervously, suddenly everything seemed strange and foreign. Ramon nodded. "Thanks doc." he replied. "But, right now I would just like to be left alone." He looked down at his paws as he sat in the chair near the room he just came out of. He was upset because he felt like he had lost everything he ever wanted. The cat nodded simply and wandered off. I curled up amidst the mess and yanked an IV from my arm when it kept me from getting into the position I wanted. Hiding my head in my arms I closed my eyes and drifted off, Not realizing I had just yanked my painkillers out and i was in for a major headache. Ramon sighed as he sat there feeling lost. He couldn't just leave Kitai alone. Lets face it the husky needed him at that moment more then ever. Still he didn't want to upset Kitai any more then he already had. This of course didn't stop Zech from noticing as he was coming around to check on them. Sighing the Terrier sat down next to Ramon and giving a small cough. "You know he might be upset, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want you." He said some how reading the tiger's mind. My sleep was racked with nightmares, leaving me a sweaty whimpering mess in the bed. Memories of my whole life came rushing back to me. The day of my parents death reoccurred several times. Zech pushed Ramon softly in the shoulder. "Cheer up and get in there. He needs your comforting personality." Ramon still looked down though. "He doesn't need me in there at all." Zech looked skeptical at that. "He reminds me of a certain friend about a year ago. Angry at the world after a tragic event. Wanting to go into his own reality and forget it ever happened. If I remember correctly he needed a kick in the pants and a whole lot of company." Ramon looked at him and sighed. "Ok, I'll go back in. Remind me to think of some way to get back at you for this later." Zech just smirked as Ramon shook his head while heading back into Kitai's room. My whimpering became louder as Pain joined my nightmares as the last of the morphine wore of. My face was a grimace of pain, I clawed desperately at the bed. When Ramon saw Kitai thrashing about in he ran over and shook him a bit to wake him up. "Kitai!" He said worried. It was hard to do with only one hand. He noticed that Kitai's IV was pulled out. "Did you pull this out?" he asked. I woke with a start and immediately pulled away from the tiger. I Whined and whimpered as pain seemed to emanate from my body. Besides pain from my abused tailhole my whole body hurt, I didn't know why but my whole body felt like one huge bruise. Ramon pushed the nurse's button and the nurse came shortly after. She was a bit perplexed by the pulled out IV, but shortly put it back into Kitai's arm after finding another spot for it. "Now young man I would suggest you don't pull this out again. I'm going to go get you some medicine to also take before the pain killers kick in again." She looked a bit upset as she left and Ramon gave a sigh. "I guess I forgot to mention the drugs and the pain you will probably be in without the IV." I stayed in a semi fetal position my arm now held out with the IV in it. I still whimpered softly waiting for the for the pain to stop. "It hurts." I whined softly. Ramon sat down on the bed next to Kitai rubbing Kitai's back softly. He didn't know what else to say as he just wanted to comfort Kitai at that moment. The Nurse came back and handed Ramon it, so he could give it to Kitai to take. "Here." he said as she left. "She said you should take these and that it is going to be a couple days before the IV can be removed again." I shied from Ramon's touch but took the meds. I groaned softly when told I was stuck here for the next few days. Tears threatened my eyes as I glanced nervously at Ramon. Ramon sighed looking down and not at Kitai. He was upset because he felt rejected. "I'm stuck here too Kitai. Can't be helped with the broken arm from that gun shot." I suddenly burst into tears and turned to hug Ramon tightly. "Why am I hated?" I asked my tears dripping down my muzzle. My ears folded back my tail laying limp behind me. Ramon slowly wrapped his arms around Kitai. "I don't know why a lot of people hate you Kitai. It is probably because they see you as a whore. Just a sexual object they can abuse because you will do anything for money. I don't know if that is right or not. All I know is you aren't hated by everyone." He hugged Kitai close. "I don't, Zech and Chris don't. Alex, our RA, doesn't. My Mom certainly doesn't. There are people out there that don't hate you." I sobbed into his neck as I listened. "Its not my fault" I sobbed. "I cant change my past." I muttered. I clung to him tightly crying deeply. Ramon nodded. He rubbed Kitai's back with his free hand. "Everything will be ok." He said comforting Kitai. "I know we can't change your past, but we can certainly find ways to change your future." He replied smiling a bit. He moved his hand up wiping some of Kitai's tears. "You know I'm always here for you." I sniffled a bit and just held to him tightly. I slowly pulled away and sat back in my bed looking at the tiger. I sighed softly, gulping heavily. "How could I have been so naive.... stupid?" Ramon sighed. "You fell for him as much as I did too. I actually thought for once there might be someone else like me out there that actually liked you for you. I was jealous of course, but I was just as blind." He looked down. "I hope that bastard gets what he deserves." I nodded slowly. I sighed looking at the tiger and leaned in to kiss his lips. "I just need sometime alone." I told him softly. Ramon nodded. "I know. I'll be just outside then if you need me. I need to see if my mom has gotten here yet." He ran a hand along Kitai's chin. "Just promise me you won't do anything that will hurt yourself, like pull that IV out again." I nodded. "Tell your mom that I don't think I'm up to meeting her right now." I said softly. "I promise." I replied. Ramon nodded and kissed Kitai lightly on the lips. "I'll be back in a while to check on you. I'll see about some food for us both later as well." He got up letting go of Kitai and smiled at the husky as he walked out. I nodded and laid back a small smile on my lips. I sighed softly and slowly drifted off into a light sleep. Ramon walked down the hall with a smile on his face. After using the bathroom he came back and sat down in the chair he had used before. Zech came by a little later and said his mom had just got off the plane. She would be there soon. He felt nervous. He hadn't seen here in months. Seeing her hurt like he was would be weird. When Zech had to leave again the only other time he was disturbed was when he had to take some painkillers for his arm given to him by a nurse. Other then that he sat there nervous. I slept soundly barely moving at all, except for my ears witch twitched slightly. My sleep wasn't disturbed by nightmares this time, nor dreams for that matter. When Ramon saw his mom he bolted out of his chair nearly running to her and putting his free arm around her. Their size difference was very apparent as she was smaller then Ramon by quite a bit, what with being a fox and all. Unmei smiled up at her son. "Oh Ramon. I'm so glad you are alright." She said nearly tearing up. "Oh mom." Ramon said noticing this and just hugged her back. "No, no if anything were to happen to you..." She was really crying this time as she hugged her son. I shifted slightly, the crying reaching my sleeping ears. "Hmmm?" I asked sleepily as I grudgingly opened my eyes, Unmei finally pulled away from her son and just looked a bit ashamed. "I'm sorry. You know how emotional I get." Ramon nodded and had a few tears falling down his face. "Now tell me all about what happened and how you been?" She asked taking his free arm as Ramon went into a long talk about what happened walking them over to sit down in some chairs near Kitai's room. "The poor dear." Unmei replied as Ramon talked about the rape. I sighed softly, just barely able to hear Ramon and his mom talk. I nearly began crying again as he got to the rape. I tried stifling my slowly building crying. Unmei nodded a bit as she listened to what happened. "I'm glad you two are alright." She said at the end. "I can understand if Kitai doesn't want to see me right now. A bit frightening meeting the mother of the person you like." She had a British accent at times while she talked. Though American now she still talked with a British accent from time to time. "You tell him that I do hope he gets better and I would love to see him soon. Now about you Ramon. Are you still taking your medicine?" Ramon looked a bit shocked. "In all this stuff going on I forgot all about it." Unmei looked a bit upset by this. "Well you should take some soon before..." It was a little to late as if mentioning the medicine caused Ramon to sweat and shake from the memories hitting him. "Nurse!" Unmei called. "Get a doctor!" She called. I gasped hearing the sudden yell. "Ramón?!" I called and couldn't help but tear from the bed, the IV ripping from my arm leaving a hole in my arm. I also tore off the heart monitor. "Ramon?!" Unmei held her son as a bed was rolled over and a couple of nurses and the doctor helped get him. "I need some sedative stat." He said, "A respirator as well." Ramon was having a hard time breathing in and out as he gasped for air. Once he was hooked up to some air though he opened his eyes. He was delirious though from the images he saw and couldn't hear anything. He must have blacked out as well as he didn't remember anything else beyond that. They rolled him into Kitai's room. Unmei was standing back about to cry again. The doctor was busy trying to get his breathing stable. I watched nervously and made my way to the Fox standing back, a paw clamped over my arm trying to stop the bleeding. "It'll be ok." I told her and hugged her, just because. Unmei nodded, but still held on to the spot as it felt like the only thing she could do at that moment. The doctor sighed and nodded as he stood up straightening is back. "He will be fine now." he said. "He is asleep. The sedative we gave him will keep him out for a while as his breathing returns to a more normal stat. I will like to keep him on the respirator a while longer until he wakes up." He put a hand on Unmei's shoulder. "You have one lucky son there." He replied before walking out. Unmei started crying letting go of Kitai and sitting down next to Ramon's bed. A nurse took Kitai to his bed and started putting the IV back in and the heart monitor with a look that said she was upset. I groaned as I was given the look and couldn't help but look away. "You should just stop trying." I told her chuckling softly,. She just shook her head and went about doing it anyways. "I'll see what the doctor says about removing you from these. If he says it is ok then by all means I'll let you take them out. But, next time be careful or wait for me to remove them." She sighed shaking her head as she walked out. Unmei still sat next to her son as she tried to stop crying. "He.... he has always had these attacks." She said wanting to tell Kitai what was going on. "Ever.... ever since we adopted him. As a baby he was in a fire. His parents died and he..... he almost didn't make it out of it alive. I knew his mother very well as we were best friends. I couldn't leave her son alone. So we adopted him, but from then on he has had these attacks and as much as we tell him what happens he just doesn't want to remember any of it." I blinked listening intently. "Its hard coming to terms with the horrors in your life." I responded softly, knowing quite well that to be the truth. My arm hurt and i stretched it unconsciously trying to relieve the pain of having torn out the IV a second time. She nodded wiping her eyes from the tears. She stood up and looked down at Ramon as he slept. She looked up at Kitai. "I'm sorry you had to find out about all this." She said, "But, for some reason my son loves you a lot and I just know he would want you to know." She rubbed her arm. "I just wish I could stay to see him wake up." She sighed. "But, I wasn't expecting all this. Will... will you watch over him? I have to go take care of the court stuff for you two." I smiled and nodded. "Of course...." I told her. "He's done so much for me......" I added softly. "I would do anything for him." I looked over at the Tigers unconscious body, and couldn't hide the love in my eyes. The love that had grown over the past days. But was I ready to tell Ramon? Unmei nodded and leaned over her son kissing him on the forehead. "You get better." She said to him smiling, but still teary as she stood up. She smiled and nodded at Kitai again before leaving the room kind of reluctantly. Ramon didn't move much at all, but his tail hang over the bed swaying a bit as he breathed in and out. I lay and stared at Ramon for a long moment. I wanted to go to him, to touch his fur. But I didn't think that the nurse would appreciate having to put the IV in again. Ramon was dream free as he slept. His unconscious body though seemed to know Kitai was there as his free paw fell between the beds trying to reach across the gap. There also came a whimper from the tiger's mouth. The nurse from before reluctantly came back in with a chart to check on Ramon. Writing some things down she turned to Kitai. "The Doctor said I can remove the IV and heart monitor. The Doctor just asks that you take these." She put down some pills and a glass of water. "The drugs that were placed in your system should be all gone now, but if you feel any severe pain please push the call button." She moved forward and removed them and after shutting the machines off she left. I chugged the pills and as soon ass the nurse left, I abandoned my bed and pulled a chair to the side of Ramon's bed and took the paw that hung from it. I stroked it gently, listening to the tigers breathing. Ramon didn't move at all except for his tail which seemed to sway more when his paw was being rubbed. His breathing was shallow and deep as he slept with no dreams. I held that paw, as if letting go would end both our lives. I held onto that paw until I drifted off from exhaustion again falling asleep in the chair, my paw clinging weakly to his. It was hours, many hours later that Ramon began to slowly wake up. What he first noticed was that his paw was being held. Blinking slowly and opening his eyes a little he noticed Kitai asleep in a chair near his bed. He smiled stroking Kitai's paw a little as he was too out of it to do anything else. "hmmmmm?" I asked sleepily when i felt my paw rubbed. I reached up with my free paw and rubbed my eyes tiredly, not quite realizing Ramon was up. Ramon slowly smiled at Kitai. "Hey there." he whispered as he closed his eyes a bit and then reopening to look at Kitai. "R- Ramon?" I asked blinking looking at the tiger. "RAMON!" I squealed happily and couldn't help but nearly throw myself on him and give him a tight hug. Ramon groaned as Kitai landed on his arm. "Watch it." He said looking at his arm in the cast. He smiled up at Kitai though a little more awake. "What happened?" he asked. "I feel like I was hit by a bus." I rubbed my head sheepishly and shifted so I was laying with him but avoiding his arm climbing into the bed. "Umm You had an episode? I didn't exactly see what happened. I was listening to you talk to your mom and you went silent and then she started yelling for a doctor, Apparently you fainted or something, Mom said its been happening for a long time." Ramon nodded to what Kitai told him. "I take it she told you why they happen?" he asked. He wasn't upset by it like he would be with other people. Kitai knowing made him feel relieved. I nodded and kissed him lightly. "Yea." I said softly. I smacked his good arm playfully. "Never scare me like that again!" I told him, sounding a lot more serious than I meant to. Ramon sighed and nodded. "I'm sorry." he replied closing his eyes and breathing in deeply. "I just don't want to remember any of it." He said seeming to stare past Kitai. He wasn't having an episode, just remembering more of what happened. "But you have too. Its a part of who you are, the good and the bad." I told him. "I cant just forget about the rape, my parents dying and the whoring, can I?" I asked. "No, even though I try sometimes." Ramon sighed. "It is harder then you think. I was a baby. What I remember is bits and pieces. Screams, fire and heat. That is about it. Yet, every time I try to remember I go into my episodes." I sighed softly and snuggled against him. "Well, then we can just hope for the best." I told him. "One day, you wont have to worry about them, But until then, you take your medicine." I warned. Ramon nodded feeling a bit sheepish about missing his medicine. "Speaking of which its in my front pocket." He said. "Can you get it for me?" He asked. "You are kind of on top of me." I grinned and happily reached into his pocket, Perhaps taking a bit longer than necessary. I grinned extracting the bottle finally and holding it up to him. "How many? And do you need water?" Ramon nodded. "I need 2 and yes I need water." He lay there looking up at Kitai. "Took a bit longer to get it out I see." He said commenting on the fact he had felt his sheath being brushed. I smirked as I got up to get a glass of water for him. "Hmm well it has been a day or two." I commented grinning as I poured the water and then got two pills out for Ramon and then handed the tiger the water and medicine. Ramon took his medicine and sighed laying back a bit handing the glass back to Kitai. "If I was in any condition to do anything I would consider doing it here." He said smirking at Kitai. I smirked as i put the glass on a night table and got back into bed with Ramon laying partly on top of him. "I don't think the nurses would appreciate having to clean up that mess." I commented smirking. Ramon chuckled a bit at that. "True, but they need something else to do in this place." he nuzzled Kitai's chin lightly and then sighed. "I just want out of here as soon as possible." I smiled and nodded my agreement. "Same here." I told him. "I convinced the nurse to take out my IV after I yanked it out twice and pulled off the heart monitor." Ramon chuckled. "You should have been more careful. Still you couldn't be laying with me if they weren't removed." He nuzzled Kitai's chin again and kissed him lightly. "Now we are just waiting on me getting better for us to leave." I smiled a bit and nodded. "Yea, IF my body doesn't decide that I haven't healed enough, and removing the painkillers is just gonna leave me incapacitated once the last of the morphine wears off, But it has been a few hours." Ramon nodded a bit. "We will just have to wait and see then." he said. He nuzzled Kitai again and then settled down a bit finding the position very relaxing. "Weeks ago I would never have thought of you would want to lay with me like this." I smiled a bit and put my arm gently across his chest looking at him. "Well you are the only person, I think I can really trust. I know how you feel and I know you would never hurt me." I replied softly. Ramon smiled at that. "Well not with a bit a pleasure involved, no." He said smirking a bit. He kissed Kitai softly again. "But, your right I'm not going to hurt you like those rapists did." I murred softly at the kiss and nodded. "I know." I said softly leaning my head on his shoulder. Ramon lay his head back and snuggled close to Kitai. He was drifting back into sleep again. He soon found himself in a dreamless sleep as he lay close to Kitai. I lay there staring at the tiger. Wondering, Was I ready? Could I truly make a commitment to one other person. If I said those three words, Would it be the truth? Ramon breathed in and out with his chest rising each time. He free arm was around Kitai holding him close as his tail wagged slowly from side to side. A small smile was on his face as he slept. I kept a silent watch over the tiger for a long while listening to his breathing. I shifted to nuzzle his cheek and took a sniff of his scent. 'hmmm he smells so good' I thought unconsciously. I lightly nuzzled his ear. "I love you." I said it softly, lovingly, Knowing the other was sleeping, but wanting to say it anyway.