Potential Regret.
?Who is this kid? - I heard.
I slowly woke up, hearing complaints and grumbles from to adults. I was wearing just my sopped diaper and had a robe covering myself like a blanket. I blushed and tried to hide myself, but noticed that I was cornered. "What is happening?", I asked to myself, but then remembered what happened. I was só involved with my pawing last night, that I didn't stop to think where I was pawing. It was some sort of trash dump, with paper, old armors and a nasty smell of dog territory. I smelled roses.
Where are your parents? - asked one of them, a cheetah.
I don't know, sir - I said, embarrassed.
What were you doing? Why aren't you clothed properly? - asked the second, a whale.
I... can't remember - I answered.
Are you into wine?
No! No, sir... - I tried to hide my diaper behind the robe.
Get yourself clothed before the superiors caught you - said the cheetah.
Yes...
They left. I looked at my right handpaw, feeling guilty. My habit had put me in several problems. I was starting to consider cutting off masturbation, cold turkey. But, deep inside, I knew I can't live without pawing. I looked down at my diaper. It was soggy, smelly and itchy, not to mention it was also cold. I sighed tried to rub it, shivering at how cold it was. I needed a bath and needed change. I quickly took my diaper off and wore the robe, that was stinky because of the place I had slept.
My bladder was half-full, I had gotten a cold, I needed a bath and certainly rash cream. I was also unsure about continuing or not to paw regurarly, mainly because of the probelms I have been into because of this. I needed to get the supplies with Liontari and go to the bathroom. I was also missing some food.
I felt like trash. I felt like those guys who drink too much alcohol and end up sleeping on alleys. There's nothing wrong with pawing, but it's getting me in só much trouble that it would be wise to either lower the frequence or quit. I needed to get myself under control.
I went to the basement to talk to Liontari. I smelled roses and everyone could feel that. I found Liontari still asleep on the same place. I tried to wake him up.
What is up? - he asked, waking up.
The ceilling - I joked. - I need to talk to you, in private.
We walked to the yard, where the traffic of furries were slower. I wanted to both talk to him about his problem and my problem. Plus, the talk I had with the alien. I was unsure about telling some parts of the story that happened during the dawn, but I could tell most of the things.
We were in the south part of the fort. No one was around, just me, Liontari and some insects. The sunlight was warm and gentle. The sky had a lot of clouds, signalizing that the day would be cold later.
Look, we gotta talk. First off, I have a problem, as you know. I'm addicted to masturbation.
Yes - he said. - I know it pretty well.
So, Liontari, you also have a problem. You are...
Yes, what is the point of this again? - he cut me off.
Look, we can take care of each other. I know that it's probably hard for you to deny yourself and I gave in to my urge during this dawn...
Yure! - his voice changed the tone to a more serious one. - You did it in public?!
I nodded.
Wow... - he slowly got hard, but tried to fight his impulses.
Liontari, you know that I accept you 100%, right? - I asked, tenderly.
Yes, Yure. I also accept you, but don't think you should do it in places you don't know...
I know, right? - I said, looking sad. - So, I was gonna ask you help. You know that I'm actually an adult, right? I am worried because, if you deny yourself for long time, you may not be able to sleep or maybe do something that you might regret.
Liontati paid attention. It had happened before. You can't really deny your sexuallity completely. The most you can do is find a way to manage it. Some can, some can not.
Are you worried about me? - he asked.
Yes, I am - I said. - I have this addiction and I have no willpower to fight it back. I started to wonder if you are having difficulties in managing yourself. Because you brought me here with the main purpose of... - I look down. - Well, abuse of me, right?
Liontari looked down.
I'm só sorry - he said.
But you also want a friend, someone to talk to, right? - I asked.
What is the point of this again?
Would you be okay to have some... well, "yiffy" fun with me if it's consensual?
Wind blew. It was time to eat and food would soon be server at the hall, the basement and the yard. We kept staring at each other, I was awaiting for his reply. He was thinking.
We went to the basement; we needed to eat something and we could talk in our "room". We needed time to think. It wasn't easy choice. We sat after getting our dishes with meat at the entrance of the basement.
We sat down and started the conversation.