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Monster I Have Become

Chapter 4

**Just want to say that I am extremely happy that this is more viewed than what I thought it would be. Although nobody comments, PLEASE COMMENT!! PLEASE!! I REALY WANT KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS THINK!! This chapter is very horrible on Ryun, and therefore, anyone who has grown close to him over these five stories should look away. But I doubt you guys will do that! Other than that, there is just one thing. Rukan would like to say something! (FINALLY!)

Rukan: YOU PEOPLE BETTER READ SOUL WOLF'S STORY OR I WILL GET RYUN TO RIP YOU ALL TO SHREDS!!! Thanks, Soul, back to you.

XD Well, you guys heard him, READ!**

"Guess you haven't forgotten who I am. This just makes it easier." He said to me.

"W-Why are y-you here?" I said extremely nervously while ducking my head to look submissive but keeping my eyes on his face. *What are you doing! Stand tall and beat this guy so hard he...he will...* 'Rukan, this is my dad.' I thought to Rukan solemnly. *SO! You can still kick his ass! Just let me take over and I can handle this.* 'No! I am not doing that again!*

Then my father decided to break the silence. "There is a simple reason I am here, Ryun. It is so simple I am pretty sure your tiny, seed sized brain can figure it out." He said to me, but when he got to "tiny" he changed his tone and it made him sound more intimidating than Rukan. *Hey!*

"You're here to burn the forest." I said to him with defeat. At this, he broke out in laughter and I looked up to see him looking at the sky and laughing. 'Why is he laughing?' *Ryun.* I heard Rukan in that weird back of my mind kind of way. He sounded serious for once. *He isn't here to burn the forest he's here to-" But before he could finish, my father's voice broke into my thoughts.

"I am not here to burn the forest, Ryun. I am here to kill someone. And do you know who that someone is?" He said to me. 'Why would he do all this to kill one 'mon?' I thought to myself.

Before I could tell him I didn't know, I was hit with a headbut in the side. The attack threw me into a tree and I hit it with an audible crack.

"Damn, that hurt." I said under my breath. *Ryun! He is here to kill you!*

"I am here to kill you, Ryun." My father said to me.

I shakily stood up and turned to look at my father. "Why?" I finally choked out.

"Because, Ryun, there is a war going on beyond this forest; that war is between Fire-type Pokémon and Dark-type Pokémon. I wanted a son who could live on to be my heir to the title of Head of Army. But you decided to betray your own father and become the enemy. So now, I am going to kill you. That is how war is. I never cared for this forest anyway."

My anger had been slowly rising since he started talking. "So you just decided to bring a WAR to a tiny forest that has nothing to do with you?!" I had gotten up and was looking at the Flareon with anger in my eyes.

"Yes, that is exactly what I did! I am just so glad that you understand that. Now, I am going to slit your neck and watch your blood stain the ground. Kay?"

I was growing even angrier by the second and the Flareon talking to me was not making it better. "No." I said under my breath and so quietly that the Flareon barely heard me. "What did you say?" He asked me.

I pounced on him and pinned him on his back. My forepaws were on his forelegs and my back paws were on his back legs. My claws were out and I had the intent of making this Flareon feel so much pain that he would have rather died right now. I leaned in so that my muzzle was next to his ear and he could hear me even if I whispered. "You killed these innocent people to get to me; and for that, you are going to feel the pain they did." I whispered into his ear with the most threatening tone of voice I could make.

He growled at me and threw me off of him. I landed on my feet several feet away and charged the Flareon as he was getting up. But he was faster than I thought he was. He jumped to his feet and met me head on. We hit each other with a headbut.

I was instantly sent skidding backwards. My head was spinning, I was seeing stars, and I was bleeding from my forehead. 'But I won't back down!' I charged at him again, this time with a plan in mind.

He stood there bracing for another headbut but I bunched up my back legs at the last second. *This is all in slow motion.*

He jumped up to meet my path of jumping over him, but only ended up exposing his milky white underbelly. I used the power from bunching my legs to jump slightly in the air and sail over the ground. As I came closer to him, I stuck my paws over my head and raked his underbelly. I touched the ground and slid away from his falling body.

*End of slow motion.*

I heard a thump behind me and a scream of pain. "You are going to regret ever being born!" He said with malice. He charged me with a Fire Claw attack. He tried to rake it across my face but I jumped back each time. When he stopped for a second to breathe and regain his energy, I made a run for it.

I ran away from him and into the forest. I ran past blazing fires and burning homes and burned corpses. 'At least this will calm me down.' *But he will catch up eventually. And I don't think he is gonna like you running away in the middle of a fight.* 'Who cares, I needed to calm down or you would have been able to take over.' *Honestly, I think that is your best choice right now.* 'If it is a choice, then I will wait until I know everyone is out of the forest, then you can have some fun for once.' *Good. It sucks just being here in your mind. It is pretty empty back here.* 'That is because you are there.' *Alright, smart guy, focus. He can catch up at anytime.*

I came back to reality (surprising he didn't run into a fire during that right?) to see a wall of fire approaching me. I stopped in front of it and turned around to see another wall of fire. I looked around but was surrounded by a wall of fire that wasn't about to let up one bit.

"The little boy tried to run, but he just couldn't get away from big daddy, could he?" I heard the Flareon say from somewhere beyond the wall of flames. 'He's mocking me now. He is getting desperate. Though that run should have tired him out, especially with the blood pouring from that wound I gave him.' "Oh, by the way, the blood stopped pouring from that little gift you gave me." 'That TOTALLY figures!'

"Come out and I'll fight you." I yelled out at the flames. A shadow appeared at where I was staring at the flames. As I looked on, the shadow became bigger and took on the form of a Flareon. He stepped through the fire and into the little clearing the fire wall made.

"Nice trick. Now, stop showing off and get to the fighting." I said angrily at him. "Oh, come on, Ryun. Can't we just talk for a little while?" He said caringly while sitting down. "No!" I yelled out as I pounced at him and bowled him over. We wrestled for quite some time before we broke apart and jumped away in opposite directions. He had a couple scratches over his body, but that wound I gave him earlier didn't seem to be affecting him at all. I had a lot of scratches and cuts all over my body. And I was bleeding from every single one of them.

"Want to take a break, Ryun?" The Flareon asked me. "No." I said simply. "Fine by me." He said with a shrug. He pounced at me and I ducked under him. As he sailed over me, I felt claws rake over my back. I turned around and pounced on his back before he could turn around. I raked my claws on his back and head over and over. At some point, my slashes turned into Shadow Claws.

Screams of pain were all I could hear as I continually clawed his body. I stopped and quickly ran away from the screams. I jumped over the flames because they had died down. I guess the Flareon made the flames and when I hurt him they slowly started dying.

I ran for as long as I could. *You can't run from it forever, Ryun. I know what you are thinking regardless of what I said. You're thinking that you didn't enjoy clawing apart your father, but I am in the deepest part of your mind. And this is where you put all the thoughts that don't appeal to you. And I read every one of them. You know just as well as I do that you enjoyed it. You need to stop denying it. I did and look at me.* 'Your evil, Rukan. Not helping.' *For once, not my point. I mean that I have clear thoughts and that I can think quickly and decisively because I have a clear mind and I know who I am.* 'But who am I, Rukan? Who am I and why do I deserve to live in this world?' *How should I know? You need to think about this on your own. I can't help with it. Now, I could help you with-" 'Not yet, Rukan. But you will. I can already feel you taking over anyway.' *Damn, was thinking you weren't noticing.*

I looked up to see that I had stopped at the river where I played in as a kid. The waterfall was still running freely. I walked to the edge of the river and looked in. What stared back at me from the water scared me. I could see myself, and I was an Umbreon, but I had blue stripes, not yellow stripes. What scared me even more, though, was that my stripes were currently alternating between blue and a black that matched my fur. Also, my eyes were black when I looked into the water but when I had stepped back out of shock and looked in again, they were the regular red eyes of an Umbreon. 'Weird. Well, that just strengthens the question of who am I.' I turned around and lay down a little bit away from the waterfall.

'The fire hasn't gotten as far as 20 feet from the shore. I wonder why.' I thought to myself as I cleaned the wounds on myself. Suddenly, I felt another tongue cleaning me on my back while I had been cleaning my forelegs. I stiffened and then heard a voice.

"Where were you?" I relaxed and let out air I hadn't noticed I had been holding. "Relax, Shadow. I got into a fight with the 'mon who were burning the forest." She immediately stopped and I could tell she had gotten up. I heard her footsteps circle around me and stop at my front. When they stopped and hadn't moved for a couple seconds, I opened my eyes to see Shadow's staring right back. She had a look of relief, but her eyes held fear, admiration, and something I couldn't place. "Are you saying that somebody is burning the forest down?" She asked me calmly. "Yes. I fought them and almost lost, I ran away from the 'mon I was fighting." I explained to her. "Why?" She asked me the one question I didn't want to hear right now.

So I proceeded to explain the reason that I was fighting, why I ran twice, and how I ended up here. (Nothing about Rukan though. Shadow cannot know!) "Well, now that you're done with that, we need to get going. Everyone is waiting near the edge of the forest." Just then, I thought of the little Eevee, lying beside her mother's corpse crying. "Where is she?!" I screamed out all of the sudden.

I started looking around frantically, trying to spot her chestnut brown fur somewhere in the foliage surrounding us. "Ryun! Calm down!" Before I could look at her and ask her, "What are you talking about?" I heard a pained grunt and a sound similar to something hitting the ground...hard. I turned around to see a Typhlosion holding Shadow against a tree. He was holding her neck with his hands and had his body pressed against hers so that she couldn't move. "Let her GO!" I screamed out. *Ryun. Calm down. I want to kill this guy for no reason, but you can't be letting me out all the time. I may never go back in. But, hey, if you're for it I am totally fine with it.* Shadow was giving out pained gasps and grunts, trying to force air into and out of her lungs. But the Typhlosion wasn't letting go. I think he had no intention of letting her go.

"I will kill you if you don't let go!" I screamed out once again. I could tell Rukan was about to break free of my mind and be able to control my body. He was already starting to control my voice. "I have no intention of letting this one go until the others get here." The Typhlosion said in a slightly deep and gruff voice. Then, I heard it.

There was crying coming from somewhere in the woods. It was a woman's voice. And as it grew louder, I realized that it wasn't a woman's voice...it was the little eevee...crying. And it wasn't just any regular sobbing. This sound was filled with the most pain and grief that a single body shouldn't be holding it. My heart lurched and I stumbled. I looked at the ground and shut my eyes. "No...no...this isn't happening. It can't happen to her. IT WON'T HAPPEN TO HER!" I was speaking under my breath at the beginning, but when I neared the end, I looked up and screamed it to whoever had her.

At that moment is when the Flareon (He doesn't want to call him 'my father' anymore) came bursting through the bushes slightly to my right. He was holding eevee...and she was still crying. Before I could do anything, a Blaziken stepped out of the darkness of the trees directly in front of me. He was dragging something behind him. 'That better not be-' Before I could finish my thought, the Blaziken flung the object over his shoulder and it landed on the ground with a thud...and a cry of pain. It was Blades.

He was almost as bloody as the night with the Mightyenas. Nothing looked broken, but that isn't want made me snap. What made me snap was the complete look of utter defeat and failure in his eyes. My last rational thought came to me. 'He is thinking we are all going to die because he couldn't protect us. He thinks he failed to be our guardian and he feels there is nothing left.' *But he is wrong.* I heard Rukan whisper, as if he was whispering to me right next to my ear. 'Yes, he is. Because I am here!'

*WHAT?! NO! LET ME OUT! LET ME OUT! LET ME OUT OF HERE!* His voice slowly dwindled from my mind. All that was here was me and someone else.

"Who are you?" I asked tentatively. "I am you." When the 'other me' said that, I instantly knew. His voice radiated with anger and rage.

'He is all the rage that I keep inside. He is what became of my rage." I thought. "Yes, I am. Now, Ryun, you have a choice here. You can take them on by yourself, or, you can let me handle it and everything will be okay. The second choice means I kill them all. The first choice means you die, and your friends die." He said to me in a deadpan tone.

"So I have a choice?" I answered with my own question. "Yes." He answered me.

"You do it. But...leave the Flareon alive. I want him for my own." I said to him.

**PLEASE COMMENT!! I worked hard on this one, guys! Oh, and vote, too! If anyone has any ideas about the story, please feel free to say so. I kind of got lost half way through writing this because I couldn't think of anything. But don't worry! I absolutely have the next one planned out!

Ryun: Hey Soul?

Me: Yeah, Ryun.

Ryun: Don't lie.

XD Well then I will just have to work on it.

Rukan: DON'T JUDGE HIM!!

XD Well, that was, VERY, weird. Hope you guys fav and vote! AND PLZ COMMENT!