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Silnis

*****

I was there again, with him. We were on a sunset beach, taking a pleasant walk on the shore as the waves rolled in and out. He had his arm around me as he drew me closer to him, kissing my head with a soft peck. This moment was so perfect...so beautiful. I wish it could last forever.

We stopped to sit on the sand, watching as the sun slowly sank beneath the sea water. The warm orange light made the water sparkle like gems floating out on the open sea. I felt him nuzzle me, giving me a loving lick on my cheek before wrapping his arms around me, drawing me into a deep embrace.

"It's beautiful, just like you," he said, nuzzling me again. I giggled, drawing our names into the sand with a heart around it.

"Markus and Silnis, Together Forever," it read. Wait...Markus? I looked up at him and suddenly jumped back, seeing that he was Markus.

"Silnis wait!" he shouted, just as I tripped over a half-buried log. He reached out for me but I kept growing farther away from him. I felt myself fall into the water, Markus crying out my name. I sank deeper into the black sea, hearing the word "soulmate" whispered into my ears, until I woke up screaming. My mom ran into my room along with my brothers and sister, cradling me in her arms.

"It's okay sweetie, what happened? Was it another dream?" she asked me. I simply nodded my head, still too shocked to speak a word.

"What's wrong?" Markus asked, coming into my room. We met eyes and my dream suddenly replayed itself in my head, tears falling down my eyes. I couldn't help it anymore and cried hard into my mom's shoulder as the scene kept replaying itself in my head. No...Markus couldn't be my soulmate! He just couldn't....

Markus

*****

Why was he crying? He just looked at me and suddenly broke out in tears. I've never seen Silnis cry this hard before, not since yesterday after the "thunder" incident. I couldn't just stand here and watch Silnis cry like this. I had to do something...anything at least. I sat down beside him and gave his mom a quick look, a silent conversation going between us.

"Sweetie, listen, I'm going to go downstairs and make breakfast for your brothers and sister. You can come downstairs when you're feeling better, okay?" she said, getting up and moving the kids out. Silnis had stopped crying, but still had tears falling from his eyes. Again, I was unsure on what to do to comfort him, but I took my chances knowing that he might yell at me. Slowly, I wrapped my arms around him and brought him closer to me, my heart pounding. He stiffened up when I touched him, expecting him to shake me off, but he surprisingly let me draw him closer to me. Soon, he was against my chest, sniffling every so often but at least he stopped crying.

"You okay?" I asked. He just nodded his head.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked, kind of regretting asking that question. He shook his head, pushing himself away from me.

"Can...you leave...for just a minute? There's...something I have to do," he asked me, pointing to the door.

"Sure..," I said, closing the door behind me. Hearing the click of a pen and flipping of pages, I already knew what he was going to do.

Silnis

*****

March 4, 2011

Dear Diary,

I was back in that wonderful dream of mine. Everything was so perfect...until that moment. Before, I never saw how my soulmate looked. He was only a black figure in my first dream of him, but in my recent dream he was...Markus. After seeing that he was Markus, I shortly woke up afterwards, the dream still replaying itself in my head as I write. I heard whispers in my dream, saying one constant word to me...soulmate. When Markus came into my room and we met eyes, I heard that one word ring loud in my head. Markus...can't be my soulmate...can he? I...I don't know anymore. My heart tells me that he is and that I should accept him, but my head is reminding that I swore not to get into another relationship. What should I do? Who should I listen to?

My diary was the only thing that I could share my feelings and thoughts to, something that I would always need every once in a while. It was too bad that my diary couldn't give me advice when I most needed it, especially now. My alarm clock suddenly blared, signaling that it was time to get up for school. Well...I can think on this more later on. Now it was time to put on my mask and costume, acting my part for the world.

I stashed my diary in my nightstand's drawer and went downstairs, putting on a serious face as I sat down at the table besides Markus. Everyone ate in silence as they noticed my sudden change in character, Markus giving me a few glances. We all finished breakfast and I went back upstairs to get ready for school. I dug through my closet until I found some decent clothes to wear, a black t-shirt with a pair of jeans and a loose belt to hang around my waist. As I was changing, I heard the door creak open.

"Aaron, if you need some clothes than go into the laundry room or something. Mom just folded some fresh clothes so I don't see why you need to borrow my clothes," I said, thinking it was him.

"Stop pretending to be something you're not Silnis," he said. What? I turned around and saw Markus standing there, a serious expression on his face.

"What...what are doing in my room!? " I exclaimed, quickly pulling on my shirt and jeans.

"Don't act like nothing happened. You were crying and broken just a few minutes ago and now you act like nothing happened," Markus said, leaning against the wall. I snapped on my belt and gave him a glare.

"Ever heard of privacy? You can't just waltz into someone's room like that! You have a lot of nerve to walk in while I was changing Markus. Now get out!" I shouted, trying to avoid the topic and get him out at the same time.

"You're just trying to avoid answering. Tell me, why do you keep playing the tough and cold Silnis when all you want to be is the real Silnis?" he asked me.

"Get out!" I yelled, marching up to him. If he wasn't going to get out willingly, than I would have to make him get out. I was going to push him out when he grabbed both my wrists, pinned me to the wall, and moved his face closer to me.

"Tell me...why are you acting like this?" he asked in a more soft tone, his eyes staring right into mine.

"Let go of me!" I demanded, struggling to get out.

"I won't let go until you tell me why you keep acting like this. You're a good and sweet person at heart and it's unnatural of you to act like this," Markus said. I stopped struggling as soon as I heard what he said about me.

"How do you know that?" I asked him.

"Garrett, your mom and brother told me. They all said you weren't always like this...before you dated Luke. I also...read your diary when you were asleep yesterday," he admitted, his eyes still on me.

"What...," I choked out on the brink of tears again.

"Don't get mad at them. I was the one who asked them but they would only tell me a little bit about you. Besides...I wanted to know more about you because...I like you," he confessed, loosening his grip on me. I just stood there, tears falling from my eyes, as I took in all this new information.

"It's the truth Silnis," Markus said. I did the only thing that I could do and that was to punch him. I threw him a punch across the face and sent him staggering into my nightstand, knocking everything over. My lamp crashed and shattered against the floor, my mom up in my room in an instant.

"What happened!?" she asked, looking between me and Markus. I was too angry with Markus to answer my mom, throwing anything I had at him.

"Just leave me alone!! I don't need anyone to like me!!" I shouted at him, throwing my container of pens at him. I was about to throw my notebook when my mom grabbed my arm, stopping me.

"Silnis, stop this right now!" she yelled at me, tears running down her eyes. I stopped immediately when she said that, dropping what I had in my hands to the floor. I looked angrily at Markus before turning to leave, grabbing my backpack. I slammed the front door before sprinting to school, wanting to avoid Markus at all costs.

Markus

*****

"Just leave me alone!! I don't need anyone to like me!!" Those words hurt more than the blow to my face that Silnis did. So that was it for him? He didn't want to be loved or give love. He just wanted to be alone for the rest of his life? I refused to believe that. I wasn't going to give up on him now.

Throughout the whole school day when Silnis and I had the same class, I could feel how tense the room felt when we were together. He never made eye contact with me or even got as near as five feet from me. He was avoiding me, but I would give him a chance to calm down enough to talk. As soon as school had ended, I made my way down to the club room, Silnis not here yet.

"Hey, Markus, what's up with Silnis? He's been acting unusual today," Garrett asked me.

"I told him that I asked you and his family about him. He got mad and started throwing things at me, even threw a punch at me," I told him, showing the bruise on my cheek.

"Ouch, that must've been a shocker," Garrett said.

"Not as much as what he said to me," I muttered.

"Hey Silnis!" someone greeted. We both looked to the door to see Silnis walking in, still the same from this morning.

"Afternoon...," he mumbled, making his way to a seat in the far corner.

"You wanna sing for us today Silnis?" someone suggested, oblivious to his state.

"I'm not in the mood today, sorry," he answered back. Everyone groaned, trying to convince him to sing today. Silnis just shook his head and laid his head down, apologizing again.

"All right everyone calm down. If he doesn't want to sing today than that's fine. He's just having a bad day that's all, right Silnis?" Garrett asked, receiving a small nod. Just looking at him, I kind of regretted telling him all those things earlier. He would've been his usual self had I not confessed to him. That was stupid of me, idiot. I was so upset when I saw Silnis act like nothing happened at the breakfast table that I just had to know why he was acting like that. Now I've gone and messed him up, all thanks to myself.

"Why don't you sing him a song Markus?" Garrett suggested to me.

"What?" I asked, not hearing him.

"You both seem down from your little fight so why not sing to him. Who knows, it might brighten him up a bit," Garrett said, gesturing to the empty mic in front of the class. That didn't seem like a bad idea at all; in fact it was a great idea!

"Can I look through your songs?" I asked, Garrett handing me his laptop.

Silnis

*****

I had a painful headache from this morning, especially after my fight with Markus. I was disappointed when I heard that Garrett and my family had been telling Markus things about me, people I trusted. It wasn't their fault anyways. Markus was the one who had asked them so he's the one I should be mad at. Ugh, I need some aspirin or something. This headache was killing me.

I heard the mic turn on and looked up to see Markus standing in front of the room, adjusting the mic stand to his height. What was he doing? Was he going to sing? The music started to play and he cleared his throat, looking straight at me with those hazel eyes of his.

"I'll be singing When 3's a Crowd by A Day to Remember. Silnis, this is for you," he said, giving me a playful wink. Everyone gasped and squealed, looking back at me as I threw my pencil at him, missing him. Why not announce it to the whole school while you're at it?! Just march down to the office and say it through the intercom "I'm in love with Silnis!"

I went to sleep thinking about you

And I woke up just the same

You made it so hard for me

To close my eyes

Don't worry babe

This will be alright

In the end

And I'll be your everything

So we'll go tell ourselves

That this is for the best

But I'm depending on you

To lead me through

So try to stop those hands

You're riding down my neck

You touch, I tremble

You never were one to play fair

His eyes...were always on me. He sang with such passion and a powerful voice that I was drawn into the song. My headache seemed to fade away for just a moment, letting Markus' voice and the music swim in harmony in my head. I listened to Markus as he sang the lyrics, his gaze on me deepening as the song progressed. He was...trying to tell me something through the song's lyrics itself.

These past four walls won't be the only thing that's keeping me from you

This distance could never hold this back (I need you)

So let's just take this time and

We'll use its full reflection

And I'll see you in 3 days and

You'll think of me when you're next to him

Don't mind my gasping It's just so much harder to breathe when you're near

You made it so hard for me to learn through my eyes

Don't mind my asking, but could it trouble you miss for a smile?

So grant me one last wish with a kiss

It's what my dreams are made of

He was expressing his love to me through this song. Luke had tried to serenade me once but he didn't have to voice to, but it was sweet nonetheless. Thinking back on this memory made me smile. Now Markus was singing for me, words of love and desire floating in the air.

So here we are again

In the same situation

I'm screaming at the top of my lungs

And you're not saying a word

Did you just say what you mean?

Why can't you just mean what you said

When you said

No one could love you like me

These past four walls won't be the only thing thats keeping me from you

This distance could never hold this back (I need you)

So let's just take this time and

We'll use its full reflection

And I'll see you in 3 days and

You'll think of me when you're next to him

These past four walls won't be the only thing thats keeping me from you

This distance could never hold this back (I need you)

So let's just take this time and

We'll use its full reflection

And I'll see you in 3 days and

You'll think of me when you're next to him

Everyone was silent as the song came to an end, awed by Markus' performance. I was the first to break the silence as I stood from my chair and clapped, a small smile on my face. Soon I was followed by everyone else, cheering and clapping to an amazing performance. I felt it in my heart but...I was starting to warm up to Markus...just a little.

Markus

*****

When I saw that Silnis was the first one to clap for me, I was jumping in joy inside. He was smiling and looked like he enjoyed my performance. I was happy that I could cheer him up. Garrett noticed and gave me a thumbs up, just as happy as I was. I thanked everyone before heading outside to use the restroom, feeling proud of myself. I was splashing cold water on myself when I heard the door open and in walked Silnis.

"That was a good performance Markus. You got talent," he said. I grabbed several paper towels and dried myself off, giving him a smile.

"Thanks, I'm glad you liked it," I said, moving over to him.

"I...felt that you were expressing your feelings towards me in that song...weren't you?" he asked.

"If you mean by the song's lyrics and my constant staring at you then yes, I was," I answered, moving a hand to touch his cheek. Surprisingly, he let me softly caress his cheek, smiling at me. I was enjoying the feeling of his soft fur when he moved up to me and planted a kiss on my cheek. I was shocked beyond belief when he did that. Was I dreaming or did he really give me kiss, willingly.

"I forgive you for asking everyone about me. You were only trying to get to know me better and I shouldn't have punched you this morning. I'm sorry," he apologized, giving me a hug. I couldn't believe it! I just got a kiss and now a hug from Silnis who was acting like...well...himself.

"Are you the real Silnis?" I asked jokingly.

"Yes, it's the real me," he said, giggling. I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him closer to me. Finally, I got taste of who Silnis really was. It felt...nice.

"No!!" someone shouted just as one of the stall doors slammed open.