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Monster I Have Become

Chapter 1

**Same as last time guys**

I was jostled awake very roughly. I opened my eyes slowly feeling very woozy but full of new energy. The first thing I saw was the leader of the three Mightyenas staring daggers at me. I stood up and the first thing I noticed was that if I looked straight ahead, I wasn't looking at his knees; I was able to look at his chest!

I looked down and closed my eyes trying to clear my head. When I opened them, I jumped in surprise. 'M-My paws!! They are black!' The Mightyena just laughed at my surprise. "Yes, you evolved. But that doesn't change the fact that you are going to DIE right here!" He told me. I looked up slowly. When my eyes met his, I realized he might be right. Then I heard a groan of pain and looked to my right. What I saw made me think that I won't be the one dying tonight.

The other two Mightyenas had wounds all over their bodies, but that was not what concerned me. What did concern me was what they were holding. It was Blades, but it was so hard to tell it was him. I only knew because when I looked at him, he lifted his head and looked right back at me with the one eye that wasn't swollen shut, and then his head slumped. He had fallen unconscious.

The Mightyenas were holding him by his back legs, one for each of his legs. He had deep wounds all over his body, more than the Mightyenas had on their bodies. His left foreleg was twisted at an odd angle meaning it was probably broken. But that all didn't matter as soon as I saw his eye. The look of pure defeat in his eyes made me feel the same thing. But there was more to those eyes. He had a look of failure, like he tried to protect something and failed, and he was blaming himself over it.

I was brought back from my thoughts when another ear splitting, pain filled howl split the air. The Mightyenas had bit down harder on his legs! 'No, no, this cannot be happening! It was supposed to be peaceful in this forest!' My anger was starting to grow. *That is it, boy! Let it grow inside of you! Let it take over all of those other useless emotions. Let it fill you to the brim! Then let it free! Let it rain down on your enemies! Let them feel the pain you feel! Let them REGRET EVER MEETING YOU!* That voice inside my head told me. But unlike all the other times, I didn't care where it was coming from. I just listened. And when I listened to it, I felt complete. I felt like nothing could stop me. "I won't be the one dying, tonight. You will!" But I couldn't move. I am not even sure I was the one who was talking just now. *You weren't you simple minded fool!*

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**This part is in Rukan's POV. I will try not to explain why, but if you are so lost, ask "why this Rukan's POV but Ryun is only thinking?" in the comments and I will answer, or you can wait 'til the next chapter to find out. Rukan will be talking regularly, and Ryun will be talking with '*'**

*What are you talking about?* "I am in control of this body now and no one will ever defy me ever again!" *W-What is happening here?* "You won't understand at all. All you need to know is that I am Rukan!" I screamed out. "Hey, sorry you deranged crazy...thing, but I plan on killing you, so hold still and I will make this quick." The Mightyena said to me. "Excuse me, but I think you just made a big mistake." I told him. *You can't really be thinking of killing him are you?* 'Of course I do you deranged kid.'

When I took my attention off of Ryun, I noticed the Mightyena (poor little things, have no power what so ever) blindly charging at me with a Crunch charging in his jaws. I just stood there waiting for the blundering idiot to reach me. When he came to about a foot in front of me, I moved slowly around him.

Of course, to him I just disappeared in a puff of smoke. He stopped and looked around ahead of him, wondering where I had gone. I just stayed a couple feet behind him. But the idiot never turned around. It was like the idiot couldn't comprehend that I had evaded him with my superb speed. I decided to end this right now. *You can't really be doing this?* 'Of course I can, unlike your corrupted mind, mine is perfect and unyielding. I know exactly what I want and I will get it.' *But he is an innocent Pokémon!* 'He has probably just killed your friend and you think he is innocent!' I started focusing my darkness into his mind. *I-I don't know anymore!* 'THEN LET ME DO MY JOB!' I started powering up my strongest attack. It is an attack so powerful that it has not even been recorded by humans. Only the ancients know what power this move has. And it was one of the reasons I was trapped.

But I won't be trapped anymore. I am free and I will never yield to anyone ever again. The darkness charging in my jaws brought me back to the present. I let loose my attack, expecting a big boom and the ashes of this pitiful Mightyena being blown into the wind. Instead, a puff of smoke came out of my mouth. * I won't let you do this!* 'How do you still have control over me? No matter. I don't need my superior powers to kill this little whelp!' *NO!!!'

An earth shattering growl was sent forth after his outbreak and I was forced back. "NO! NO! I WON'T GO BACK! I WILL NEVER GO BACK!" After that there was nothing, just an endless black void and myself as I used to be, before I was trapped.

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**Back to Ryun. That is pretty much it for this part. More surprises.**

'Man that was real weird.' I looked up to see the Mightyena turning around and finally seeing me. "HAH! I found you!" He yelled at me. "Go get him boss!" One of the Mightyena shouted. But the act of speaking had left Blades' leg loose in his mouth. So the Mightyena readjusted his grip and bit down hard for added measure. The ear splitting howl that came afterward awoke all the rage inside me. Maybe Rukan wasn't here anymore, but I was still PISSED at these insolent pieces of crap.

I noticed a small black outline on my paws and darkness emanating off my body. "Uh, kid? You ok?" One of the Mightyenas asked me. I didn't care which one. They were all going to be dead in a couple minutes anyway. I looked up at the leader of the three, and gave him the coldest stare in history, not counting Rukan's of course.

Then I lounged at him, teeth bared and a shadow claw on each of my paws, even my back paws. Before I hit my target practice, I swear I could see some yellow liquid run down his legs.

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'I cannot believe I did that. I actually killed him. No, I killed all of them. But it felt so good. But then I felt like I didn't need to live anymore. I just don't know what to think.' "Ugh. Hey? Ryun? What the hell happened?" Blades had woken up and asked me the one question I was dreading.

"I killed them." I whispered. I actually killed them. I ripped them piece to piece.

"What? I couldn't hear you." Blades said back to me. I looked up at him. He was lying on his stomach with his head on his front paws. Blood was still all over him, but I cleaned his wounds earlier.

"I said-" Looking directly into his eyes. "I killed them; all of them."

He showed some surprise in his eyes, and at that I just looked away, staring at the sinking moon. The full moon. 'Guess I am an Umbreon now.'

"Well, at least those idiots are out of my fur." I heard Blades say.

"What?!" I asked him. "B-But I killed them, Blades! I ripped them to pieces and didn't even care!" I don't know why I tried to persuade him that it was wrong. I just did. Guess I did care.

"Listen Ryun. If there is one thing I know, it is that nobody cares what they do when they are angry. Believe me. I would like to forget what I have done while as angry as you were, but our minds don't work that way. When we succumb to the dark type, we are more susceptible to anger than others. But we need to control that. Especially you, Ryun. I don't know what it is, but you have power that none others bear. You need to be able to suppress your anger and control it. You can't have that power roaming free within you."

"Blades, I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I have nothing left in my life." I told Blades solemnly. "Why would you think that? If anyone should be thinking like that, it is me. I have never had anything to care about in my life. You have your mother and your friends." He told me. "I know. But my friends will leave me when they find out I am an Umbreon, they don't like dark-types." I said, keeping the same tone as before. "And my mother will resent me for killing three 'mon. She was always an innocent soul. Plus I can't bear to come back to her after this."

"Believe me, Ryun. You will always regret never going back and getting it off your chest, if that is what you do. You will always be hurt and feeling guilty for what you did and didn't do. You have to go back to them and tell them what happened here tonight. You will never be okay again until you do that." He just keeps up with the words, trying to get me to do it.

"WHY?! Why do I have to?! There is nothing left for me anyway! And you know it don't you! You know it but you keep trying to get me to do it so I can feel worse! I am not gonna do it! I won't do that to my friends and my mother!" I screamed at him. I felt like throwing a tantrum, but I knew that would make me seem childish so I just screamed and yelled what I said at him.

"Honestly, Ryun, I understand why you won't tell your mother. I truly do. But those 'friends' you have? They aren't your real friends, Ryun. If they really were your friends, they would respect your choice of becoming an Umbreon." He told me, completely unfazed by my yelling.

"...why? Why do you care so much about me?" I asked him. 'Why would he care so much about me? I am nothing special. I am a useless piece of fluff that can't do anything.' "Well, one, I don't want you becoming like those Mightyenas. They let fear and anger take over their lives so they wouldn't feel any more pain. I don't want you turning into that. You are a young soul and don't need to feel that." He told me in a kind voice.

"Y-Yeah, I guess you are right. I sh-should get going." I told Blades hesitantly. "Oh, hey, Ryun? If you ever want to talk, just get lost." He said with a smirk. Before I could ask him what he meant, I heard a loud "RYUN!!" behind me. I looked through a crack in the trees to see a Sandslash, Quilava, and Persian walking through the forest. I turned back around to talk to Blades again, but he was gone. Like he just got up and walked away. 'I am sure he is fine. Better go talk to them.' I thought to myself with a heavy sigh afterwards. I took one last look at the rising sun before turning around and heading into the forest.

'This is NOT going to be fun.' I thought to myself while walking towards everyone.

Slash, Mina, and Flare were resting in a clearing ahead. Mina and Slash were facing away from me but Flare would be able to see me if I stepped out into the clearing. As I slowly drew nearer, I could hear Flare saying something.

"But guys we can't just give up searching for him! We have to keep looking!" She was saying. "Flare, calm down. It is pretty early. Maybe he just overslept." Slash was trying to calm her down.

"But we can't just stop looking...for...Ryun..." She was going to try and argue against him but she started trailing off when she saw me step out of the bushes. "Guys I think we need to get out of here." She tried to whisper to Mina and Slash. "Flare calm down. I-It's me...Ryun." I began quickly but slowed down towards the end.

"RYUN!!" Slash turned around expectantly, but what he saw made his smile flip immediately. 'I knew it. Thanks a lot, Blades.' "Guys, I know what you must think but dark-types aren't that bad."

Flare and Slash couldn't believe what they were seeing. Mina also seemed like she was surprised. Slash started to say something. "Y-You are not R-Ryun." He tried to tell me.

"Slash, it's me. I am Ryun. Please, just listen. Just because I am a dark-type now doesn't mean that I can't still be friends with you guys." I tried to tell them. 'This is not working. I guess I can't help it though. Just going to have to live with it.'

"I am sorry, but you can't be around us anymore." Slash told me. "Come on guys." He said as he turned around and walked away. Mina quickly followed, but Flare just stood there.

"Flare, please, you have to listen!" I couldn't bear to lose them. I saw something flicker through her eyes, but it was too fast for me to figure out what it was. "And I thought I loved you." She finally said with the smallest voice I had ever heard. Then she turned around and walked away.

I couldn't take it anymore. 'There is nothing else for me. I am truly lost to the world.' "Wow that was quick."

I turned around and saw the person I needed the most, Blades. "Man, kid, can you ever live without me." He said with a grin. I lightly laughed. "Guess not."

"Come here, kid." He said to me with the most care I have ever heard, other than from my mother. "Don't worry; I will be right here with you. You won't be alone while I am still alive." He said with the biggest grin I have ever seen. "Thanks, Blades. For everything." I said to him.

**Honestly, I felt bad doing this to him, but it is for the sake of plot and story.**