i'm a scarecrow, not jesus
**A/N: unlike nearly all my writing on here, this one has no yiff in it. this is actually a suicide oneshot. i'm taking a breather from all the sex. this is not within the timeline of the rest of the oneshots. it's just randomly here. as always, i crave feedback. please and thank you *nuzzle* read on, lovelies. enjoy.**
Kayramell put her new CD in her stereo and lays on her bed, her eyes closed, her paws resting on her stomach.
I am so happy,
Whether you know it or not,
We should be happy,
That's what I said from the start,
I am so happy,
Knowing you are the one that I want for the rest of my days,
Yeah all of my days
The panda's eyes water slightly and she wipes them dry, her tears rolling down the fur on her paw. He looks over at her dresser where there's a small box.
She swallows, knowing the contents of this box.
Taking a shaky breath, Kayramell slides off her bed and retrieves the box, lifting the lip slowly and gently, as if it were going to explode if she lifted it too fast, too rough.
The small piece of metal shimmers when the light hits it and Kayramell lifts it gently from the box, feeling the cool steel on the soft spots of her paws.
The panda slowly unwraps the bandages from her arms; a few spots are stained with blood. She winces as some of the unhealed wounds are provokes as she pulls the cotton gauze off her wounds.
Pressing the small piece of metal into her wrists, Kayramell sighs biting her lower lip to keep from whimpering from the intense pain.
It'll go away soon she thinks to herself, pressing the blade deeper.
Then, she feels a slight " pop" and everything happens very quickly.
She looses all feeling in her paws and her small stubby tail goes limp.
She can feel her blood pulse out of her wrist with each beat of her heart. Her breathing becomes labored as her vision fades into black.
She lies on the floor, loosing all strength in her muscles.
She takes one final breath as the music fades out
I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think, the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Uh, oh, oh...