The Voice Within: Vying for Control
#2 of The Voice Within
I could not rid my mind of this voice that lusted for control. It haunted my very being, longing for a so called 'Life' that it would do anything to get it, even if it had to kill me to get it. "You are weak." It said hatefully to me. "Give up and die already. You are the false persona, quit lying to yourself." This voice was getting stronger everyday and persisted that I was the false identity, not to mention that it would not shut the hell up. I shuddered at the thought that this figment could control my movements when it really wanted and even take over my own mind if it needed to. Am I really that crazy?! Yes, I am that crazy, nothing more. I would have been admitted to a psychiatric facility, but this virus took control whenever I picked up a phone, closing that door long ago with any hopes of recovery and therapy. "How come you persist to invade MY mind and call me the false persona?" I said with hatred. The voice fell silent for about 10 minutes before speaking again. "Because," It said as it took control of my right arm "You see, it's not a matter why I am calling you this." This time she took over the other arm "It is a matter of when it started." It said as it pointed to a huge scar that was on my left arm, tracing it back to my heart. "You do not remember do you?" It said with interest "What should there be to remember. I was in a car accident, big deal." Now making my hands go for my shirt, undoing it enough to see the place where the scar stopped. "You were in an accident, yes. What you fail to remember is that I was the host of this shell when you emerged. My heart had exploded when you took over, but somehow they were able to save me. In turn, that gave you a chance to live." I searched my mind desperately for the truth. What it said couldn't be true in the slightest. "You before that had wanted to die, I encouraged your mind to either meld with mine, or slowly rot away, but you chose to take action and try to end it yourself. You loathed being in the sidelines and allowing me to have all of the fun. If you had taken control one second sooner you would have succeeded." My gut wrenched at what it said "NOW HOLD IT" I yelled at it, about to hurl. "I would NEVER want to kill myself. You are sadistic and a murderer if you think that." That was when I hurled. "Gah... I always hated when you or I did that." _It said. "_You could never stomach stuff like this." Suddenly my hands flew around my neck. Closing tight around it "Now," The voice demanded. "You WILL either DIE or give me back MY BODY!" It started to shake me senseless. Chocking me till I eventually passed out.