The Story of My Life as a Lone Wolf
The Story of My Life as a Lone Wolf
There is a reason for the title.90% of my life i have spent it single, now i know im only 19 but most women my age are actively dating and have the life experiences of relationships. The very few i have had, havent turned out well. It usually ends with them telling me they just dont love me.. i even got broken up with over an email with the lyrics to "Two outta Three aint bad". So needless to say, i try to avoid relationships and friendships because all ive ever known is that its going to come to an end, and its going to hurt. I dont mind being alone most of the time.. but there are nights that i wish i had someone to kiss gnight, or hold when im cold. I have a heart full of love that i hide from the world because im fearful of what might happen if i let it out again. At this point in my life i am so confused as to what is going to happen. I may just be the lonewolf that wandered this world listening and learning, but never interacting or loving. I feel bad for the people i know that always have to "belong" to someone to feel whole, even if its abusive or settling for something that you dont really want deep down in your heart, and cant find a way out of it. I watch people in pain because of decisions they've made, people they've hurt, yet the cycle continues... and instead of being bitter about being alone, i accept it. I see it as, im preserving the love in my heart for that special person i know wont abuse it, and my body to those i know will cherish it.