A love that time can never erase
Before anyone ask no I don't own pokemon nor will I ever unless somehow I win lots of money and buy the rights from nintendo which I serious doubt .
Author notes :This was a story written for a contest on AGNPH . I was going to enter it but at the last second decied not to. I felt it lacked any real substance at the time. Also I felt it was rushed. Now looking it over I feel like posting it. Though I still have my doubts about it. I will give it a try once more to write. SO here it is my new story
He wakes in a cold sweat. This has been the third night in a row he has dreamed of her. She seems so real to him. He still feels her hand caressing his face telling him how much he means to her. He can smell the scent of Jasmine from her. Her laughter from her voice. Telling him that without him she would never had found true love. He tries to calm down the images slowly seep from his mind as he tries to make sense of these dreams that have been plaguing him these restless nights. He slowly get out bed and heads to the bathroom. The light flickers on as he touches the switch upon entering the bathroom. He looks into the mirror and sees the dark circles under his eyes due to a lack of sleep catching up with him. His face is looking haggard. His morning shadow is slowly turning into full blown bread. His dark brown hair unkempt as it has been is getting worse. He barley can keep in control with out excessive amount of gel. He thinks to himself 'Maybe I should just get a haircut.' He laughs at this poor attempt at humor. It starts to set in that he might be going crazy.
"Jeff you just won the greatest trainer tournament in all of Kanto and you can't get a goodnight sleep and your life is falling apart before your eyes. What a joke." As he looks sadly at his refection of himself he wonders what is he looking at. Then suddenly smashes his fist into the mirror. Blood trickles from his fist down the mirror. As he begins to cry, but not from physical pain but more of emotional pain of frustration he is feeling.
Less then a month ago Jeff had won the Kanto's 5th annual Trainers Bash. He was riding on top of the world. He figures it would be smooth sailing for him or at least that was what someone had told him after he had won. That's what was frustrating him so much someone was telling him that he could do it. Someone he had know all his life. Yet for the life of him he couldn't actually remember her expect through these dreams which seem so real. Some would say he was just fretting over nothing with these dreams. Others would say his dreams were trying to tell him something.
In this case the dreams were not the usual dreams most sane people were having. His dreams were of a Gardevoir. Some would tell him it was lust or him being a pokephila. The sad thing is he knows her, or least that how he feels. He has these memories of having raised her since she was a Ralts. Yet their is no evidence that she existed. No photos no one even remembers him even owing that pokemon. He has checked to see if he had her registered. Nothing, their was nothing in the trainers register saying he even owned one.Now these dreams were making it worst. As if something from his life has been rip from him. Part of his soul is missing. All these dreams and memories he has of someone who seemed not to exist. Yet he felt empty every time he has these dreams or recalls these vague memories of her. As if he's looking through someone else life. Why was this happening. He just wanted to cry.
Yet these dreams he has been having of her seem so real so vivid. Her name was Lily. That's right that's what he called her when first caught her. Why did he just remember that? It seemed that fragments were there teasing him letting him put it together. He could hear her voice as she would call him in his dreams. It seemed to him that all he could feel was love from her as he held her close danced with her As her flowing dress would would dance around her figure as she would walk through fields calling his name in his dreams. How her eyes always seem to have a compassion that would melt the toughest of hearts. No matter what female he would see or try to court him he only had eyes for her.
This is where the starting causing problems in his everyday life. After the tournament he was approached by an old childhood friend Susan who wanted to get 'reacquainted'. As they entered his room at the hotel, both trying to strip each other clothes off so they could make out. He called out Lily's name as he began to make out with Susan. Which usually not the brightest thing to do when trying to get it on with another girl. She smacked him and left calling him an ass and never wanted to see him again.
Not only was his sex life falling apart He couldn't concentrate on battling which almost got his Charzarid to become wingless and be killed while fighting a Scyther. He thought he saw her when he was battling a some random camper. He gave the wrong command to his Charazarid which confused him and the Scyther had use a quick attack to get behind the fire lizard and nearly slice off his wings. He had stopped battling after that. He was pestered by many since he had won the tournament. Yet his mind was not where it should have been. He couldn't afford to have his pokemon suffer for his mistakes and problems
He talked to many of his friends but their advice range from "Get laid it will solve all your problems." Which seemed to be a fan favorite. To the most absurd "Go to Church and ask guidance from Arceus he will show you the way." That would be a problem since he was an atheist. None of the advice he got expect one was much help to him. George an old friend who gave up on being a trainer and and was going to collage, told him to see his uncle who was a new age psychologist. Who has been very successful with helping people and pokemon with their troubles.
A few days later he arrives at Dr. Richards house. It's was a big old style brick house and way bigger than his house was. He figured it would mostly be used for his job being a psychologist use since he runs his practice from his home. Jeff knocks on the door and looks around the yard while he waits.
He sees few grass type pokemon taking care of the yard. Some b_ellossom_ and a ivysaur trimming and watering the various plants. Jeff smiles wondering if he could ever train his pokemon to do that. He thinks about his Graveler and Charizard working in a yard and realizes they would cause more damage to it than taking care of it. For a brief second he sees a Gardevoir walking across the street he is about to call to her, but as suddenly as he sees her she fades from his sight. He rubs his eyes as he tries to clear his head. Thinking he is really losing it now.
The door opens and Kadabra is standing there looking at him. Before Jeff can say anything he hears a voice in his head 'Don't worry I am the Dr. Richards assistant. You could say that I help him get in touch better with his patients. Follow me he is waiting in his study for us.'
Jeff follows the Kadabra in the house is very spacious. Most of the rooms look like modern furnishings. As he looks around almost all the rooms look perfect, to perfect. He smiles as he looks around 'Now if only my house was this perfect' Thinking of the trashed rooms in his house.. As they finally arrive at the study he is thoroughly surprised by how cluttered the study is. He sees the Doctor sitting at his desk working on something.
The Kadabra sighs 'You know if it wasn't for me and his other pokemon this place would look like a dump. Like this room for example'. He sighs wearily as he walks over to the doctor. The kadabra clears his throat a bit to get the doctor's attention.
Jeff laughs at this. As this makes the doctor stop what he is doing and see who is here. He looks at the kadabra wearily and laughs a bit at a privet joke between them.
" He's telling how he and the others take care of my house, but forgets to mention how I pay the bills so they can have a roof over their head and food on the table. He doesn't ever mention that I bet." He looks at his kadabra. Who just simply shrugs and moves to and empty chair and sits.
Dr. Richards gets up and shakes Jeff's hand he looks like more of a lab assistant from a university then some one who work in the physiology field. His hair is a sandy brown with streaks of gray. This was not his idea of someone who worked this field. Jeff always envisioned someone with a suit older looking and with a pipe.
"So do I take a seat and tell you of my childhood." Dr Richards laughs at this.
"No no my friend my nephew told me about your 'problem'. I have a better solution. First though I need you to fill these forms out. Just so I can use my kadabra on you for this to work." He gets some papers from his desk and pulls out a pen for Jeff to sign them with.
" Whoa wait a second. What do you mean sign papers and let your kadabra work on me?" Jeff gives the doctor a quizzical look.
" I am sorry I thought my nephew had told you what I did was different from what normal Physiologist do. Most would ask you questions and try and grasp and categorize you and then feed you some pills. Well I do give out pills but I do go a bit further with what I do. I try and get to the root of the problem. What really affects you. Not some word games. Of course this has not been an 'official' or approved way of doing this. But the results I have been having are far better than most would get through a normal Physiologist. Also this will be cheaper I don't charge as much. Also less visits always works out better for all involved."
Jeff figures he has nothing to lose and signs the paper.
The doctor has Jeff sit in a recliner across from the doctor.."Ok Jeff this is how it works. I just talk to you about normal stuff. Now I know that sounds stupid but this way you don't put to may defenses to stop my Kadabra from probing your mind. You may think since he is a psychic he can just pierce your mind. Well he could but that would take up much of his power and also it's easier when you lower your defenses for him. Another reason why is he might hurt you trying to get into your mind."
'Also I get a headache from trying to read all your thoughts human. You humans tend to put up barriers over silly things and it's to much of a hassle to dig into your mind without causing harm to you. You tend to fret over little things that prevent me from seeing things. It's a shirt just put it on and wear it. You don't see us pokemon worrying about how we look.'
Jeff laughs at this.
" Well I hope he's done with his rant now we can begin" The doctor lowers the lights a bit puts one some relaxing sounds. " Remember just relax and just talk don't think about nothing else just my voice and just answer any way you want. Ok"
So they being. Time passes when finally the doctor stops " Ok that it for now Jeff. We're done for the day." He gets up and walks past the Kadabra and heads to the Medical cabinet. Jeff notices the time it has been over 3 hours since he got here it feels like only a few minutes have passed As he sorts through the medicine. The Kadabra give Jeff a haunting look as he saw something that wasn't right.
The doctor comes back. "Just take two of theses tonight ok, you should be able to get some sleep.. I'll call you tomorrow about the results." He had a forced smile on his face.
Doc I need to know now what is wrong with me you seem ...." he is cut off from saying more by a look from the doctor.
"I know you want results now and from my nephew has told me it's tearing you apart mentally and physically. I want you to know that once I review what my Kadabra has learned we will be able to sort this out ok." He pats him on his shoulder.
"Don't worry about paying yet I don't take payment until I see results ok. Look just take the pills and get some rest ok." You need it from what my nephew tells me." The doctor walks Jeff to the door " Have a safe trip home."
As Jeff heads off the doctors Kadabra appears next to him. "It's him isn't The one that your friends are looking for?" The Kadabra simply nods. "Your friends won't hurt him will they?" The Kadabra simply looks away. 'This must be done to correct the mistake that was done to him. They must fix it other wise he will die. If nothing is done. They are responsible for this , to an extent ,so they must fix this. Don't worry they won't kill him. ' The kadabra teleport away.
" That's why I am worried for him for them to help him like this. Something bad must have happen for them to go to this extent to find him." Dr. Richards sighs wearily as he and his kadabra head back inside.
Back at his house Jeff feels a bit scared after all that had happen today. He looks at the pills and wonders what the Kadabra had seen in his mind. Was he crazy is that why he had that look. He shivers at the thought that might be insane. He starts to shake a bit until he breaths slowly. He clams down and takes the pills "Got nothing to lose. If anything maybe I'll get some sleep tonight with the help of the pills." He downs the pillls and grabs a bottle of water and wash them down as heads off to bed hopefully without the dreams that have plague him over the last few weeks.
Sleep comes but as soon as he does get comfortable they come back. She is there waiting once more the dreams are as vivid as before. He wants her but at the same time he wants her to be gone. Why does she haunt him like this? What did he ever do wrong to deserve this? He wakes up crying.
"why why??" is the the only thing he can say as he breaks the lamp next to his bed.As it shatters he looks at the peices thinking how sharp they look and how easily they could cut through his skin. He holds the sharp piece of the lamp's remains and starts to slit his wrist. "Just take it all away."He cries weakly.
The room gets darker as if swallowed by darkness. A dark foreboding voice comes the darkness.
"Jeff your Angel of Death has come for you." From the darkness a shape begins to form , as if it was once part of them it slowly takes shape before him, It's hair that is white as the clouds and one red eye that can be seen from the darkness that is it's face. He floats there above Jeff his arm extending towards him. .Jeff can see through him as if he wasn't there yet he can feel the cold aura coming from this ghostly figure. It was only whisper by trainers and historians . Darkrai has come for him and his soul.
Jeff nearly pisses on himself as he tires to get away from the pokemon screaming. As he gets to the door trying to get it open. He hears some one laughing. He stops and turns around see Darkrai laughing at him. Rolling around on the ground laughing on his floor.
'Damn it Darkrai I said stop him not give him a heart attack' An angry feminine voice is heard as if speaking to him in his head.
He looks around see a floating pink cat like creature. The elusive Mew. Many trainers have seen this little one many times on their journey. She float over to Jeff and strokes his head gently as a mother would to clam a child. 'Their their child it will be ok he's just having fun at your expense' She gives Darkrai a angry look.
Drakrai looks dismissively at mew "Meh. What ever you mother hen. Lets get this over with ok so I can go home and rest it's been a long year and he is the loose end that needs to be fix. So lets just get this over with."
"Wait what ? What are you two talking about. What loose end?? Are you going to kill me?
"Kid if we were going to kill I would have let you slit your own wrist and just went home."
Mew looks at Darkrai " Hush now can't you see this child is already scared as it is."
"Child I am no child I am 23 year old. I am a adult!" Jeff shouts proudly.
Mew laughs at this as mother would trying to agree with a child "Of course dear but you have to remember we legends are immortal. I am well over a thousands of years old Darkrai was here at the beginning of this world's creation. So you can understand why you age really means nothing to us. You could be 80 years old and that is but a month to us."
Darkrai simply floats around the room as recalls the darkness. "Lets get this show on the road let me get what I have to get done so we can home already."
'You just wait. It's not like your harem will miss you any. He has to understand and be giving a choice in this matter.'
'Listen kitty kat 2 mates does not equal a harem. Not you and your 40 lovers you have' He huffs loudly
'Hush you' she looks away with a blush
"Choice? What are you talking about? Do you know why I am having these dreams. Why do I remember things about someone who doesn't exist? Please tell me." His eyes tear up once more.
Mew sighs 'We are to blame in a sense. No that's not right a human , don't worry he has been punished already, wanted to change time to erase the pain he felt. The emptiness that he felt that life had given him. His family was taken from him grievously. So he sought to change it he had heard that Dialga master of time would have the power to change that what was wrong with his life. So he sought out Dialga hoping the Dialga would fix his trouble soul. Unfortunately life is not simple. Dialga cannot , how is it you humans say, waive a wand and make things better. Time is a tricky thing you cannot just make changes with out problems arising. The man wanted not to hear this and demanded that Dialga fulfill his request. Dialga reused. The man grew enraged at this."
"Wait how could this guy your talking about do anything to Dialga. I mean Dialga is a god right you can't harm a god right?"
"That would be true under normal ways of thing but even gods have weakness. We still are trying to figure out how he did it but it seems he used an ancient ritual to rip the powers from Dialga and make them his own. To make a long story short the other we and the other legends banded together for the first time ever and sought to stop him before he destroyed everything. With Celebi and Palkia help we were able to follow him through time before we're affected, and erased. After the battle Arcues came before the man and judge him. Arcues left him in a time loop to forever relive the loss of his family over and over. We were able to restore Dialga's power. So time was restored, or so we thought." Darkrai eye narrows a bit.
Darkrai's words hang in Jeff's head ominously
'That's why we're here child . You were the one who was damaged the most. A event change that was suppose to change your life forever. Your meeting of Ralts that you would name Lily. She was to be your mate. She was erased because of this battle in time. The events that led her parents meet never happen, so thus she was never born so you both never met.'
This didn't help Jeff everything came crashing down on him. All the memories can upon him at once. From the first day he met her, the battle he had won by her side. To the day he said he would be her mate. "Then why do I remember all this then? Shouldn't I have forgotten it all? Like a bad dream since none of it happen."
Darkrai floats around Jeff looking at intently. "He does have a point why does he remember all this?"
'You idiot I told you already why. It's because she left a physic impression upon him. Also because sometimes time can' t wash away love that surpasses time is what cannot be erased. He had loved her more than life itself. He is actually causing this to himself. In his mind refuse to accept what had happen. So he clung to these memories of her. Refusing to let go even though the reality around him had changed. He refused to accept that. He refuse to let his true love. Even though reality has erase her from it. That's why we're here for child. To permanently erase those memories of her. To give you closer to a part of you life that no longer exist.'
Darkrai: floats over to Jeff and look like he's cracking his knuckles. "Ok lets get started."
Jeff could swear that he's about to enjoy what ever he was going to do to him.
"Wait what are you going to do to me? " Still eyeing Darkrai wearily.
'He's going to remove the memories of her. Actually we both are we're going make sure you have no memories of her. It's the best we can do for you . If you continue like this you will die.'
_"_Why can't you fix it to where her parents meet and she is born again?"
'Because dear you can't just force events to happen. Things like love take time. You can't force two beings to love each other. Also forcing them to mate like that will change how things turn out. Maybe they will never have a child or not want to let go of the child this time. Time is not something you can just move around and fix so easily. Things happen for a reason. To change an event means changing all around it. I hate to say it like this but what happen to you was minor in the grand scheme of things.' she looks at him wearily
He sits there and ponders this as much as he would like for her to exist again they would most likely stop him hearing what happen to that man who stole Dialga's powers. Though on the bight side he was going to be rid of this finally he was going to have a life once more. He would be able to live and enjoy it all again, but what about Lily. She was gone forever no one to remember her to even knew she existed. Her hopes and dreams only existed with him now. If they removed them she will be gone for ever. To be truly forgotten.
Mew hovers before him as if already sensing what he is about to say.
"I don't want them gone."
Darkrai floats next to Mew. "We're doing you a favor human. You kind would kill for a chance to be rid of things they never wanted to remember. I don't really care I am only doing this is because the big boss said so. Mind you I could care less if you go insane or not. She's gone holding on to these memories won't do you any good. So why?"
"Because she meant something to me for me to cling on to these memories of her after all that has happen. Someone has to remember her. I don't ... I need to remember her. I understand now after all this. I refuse to accept these memories of her because I was afraid. Afraid that I would never dream of her again." He pictures her dancing with him during a friends Christmas party. Despite what everyone was saying behind his back he didn't care she was all that mattered. Her smile seem to brighten the room. How when she was a kirla she had burn some of the kitchen trying to cook him breakfast one time. She was terrified that his mother would make him let her go after that. He simply told her that he would tell his mom he forgot he was cooking. That he would never let her go. The memories of her were always there. He realize that with out them he would never be complete.
" I want to keep them. Please I need them. I may have tried to bury them because I didn't understand but now I do. She will always be in my heart even though she has been erased from this world. She can never be erased from my heart." an image of her smiling at him comes to mind as a tear falls from his face.
Mew smiles at this. Darkrai just huffs a bit mad he can't 'remove' the memories.
"You knew he was going to say this didn't you. You had me go through these hoops for what? For him to say no to us helping him." he shouts out angrily at mew.
She just ignores him. ' I knew you chose this. You just had to come to this decision on your own. She meant the world to you. You will not remember this meeting with us. It's for the best. '
" I understand. Thank you Mew and Drakrai." Darkrai waives him off ,with a grunt,as he passes though the wall leaving his. Mew waives him before disappearing in a flash of light. He sits there for a second as he shakes his head and realizes he's sitting on the floor. He looks around confused.
"Man I must have slept walk or something I don't know why .. aw forget it. Must have been those pills the doc gave me. I'll ask him tomorrow if they had side effects or something." he sighs as he goes to sleep and for the first time in days he actually sleeps peacefully and dreams of Gardevoir named Lily dancing with her as the song 'somewhere over the rainbow' is playing in the distance. He can't really understand why but he is calm now as if this sweet dream gives him comfort for the first time in weeks The girl of his dreams gives him a smile and tells him "I love you." As he finally gets his first night of peaceful slumber in weeks.
End notes I am happy with this some what with this story I finally worte what I have always wanted to say with this one. Though someone thought I would make this a series . I don't think I will. I feel I have said all I needed to say in this one. Thnak you and please comment and review and give me cookies :3