My Lonesome
My Lonesome
Today, I'm feeling quite alone
I'm feeling quite depressed
Because this monster it has grown
And I cannot put it to rest
But, these hurtful feeling will not leave
They hurt my mortal soul
And that gives me this numbing grief
To have no one to make me whole
I'm looking for that special one
That will hold me close and near
The one who's still there with the morning sun
the one I'll call my dear
I want a man who's really nice
who's beauty does compare
So then, my heart will be suffice
As I brush my fingers through his hair
But, how could I act all this shallow!
My face and body aren't that great
I see myself and I'm just hollow
My mind is struggled with this debate
And people tell me otherwise
They tell me "I look great!"
But how come I don't feel that way
These thoughts are my demise
They also say "Just give it time"
But, I don't wanna wait
I want someone I can call mine
This loneliness I truly hate
And then I look into my future
With no one still to hold
Because, I'm with no human creature
And that just makes me feel so cold
And how am I to find other people?
If I'm too scared to say I'm gay
I feel like I was left in a steeple
Left on my own all night and day
But, I don't feel this all the time
I smile always on my own whim
But, it's as if lonelines was just a crime
And I've created this big sin!
But, I will hope for hapiness
And hope I find that one
Because, that will give me utter bliss
To know I have someone
But, now it's time I go to sleep
This poem's kinda long
I close my eyes as I slowly weep
Hoping tomorrow that I'll be strong
So goodnight to everyone out there
I'm sorry to be so sad
I just had to express myself to anyone who cared
Because today was really bad :(