Poem: Two Halves
You once loved me
You thought I was made just for you
You said you wanted me always
But you had other plans in mind
You wanted not a brilliant mind
But a warm body to be near yours, forever
You promised me the world if I let you touch me
But I knew better then to ruin my life and yours
I pushed you away and you pushed back
So I found someone special, one who wouldn't push and I hurt you
You now punish me for my "wrongdoings"
Hurting me in the only way you knew how
I cried in my sleep but was laughed at from inside
By one almost inhuman
One who loves to hurt
And gets pleasure from tears
She told me of death and how it would help
How it would end my suffering
I listened to her, had a blade at my throat
When sleep took me over and I fell to the floor
When I awoke, I was not looking from my eyes
But from behind them
What someone else was looking at
I realized it was Her
She told me of escape but not for me
For Her it was to be used, since I gave up hope
Now She is in control
And no one is safe anymore
She wants what is not to be had in Her young years
And as I plead Her to stop
She smiles and does more
She knows how to hurt and will soon hurt more than me
She lives by Her pleasures
As I cry behind Her eyes
Begging for a second chance
But it's not for me to have
I gave in to death
Wanted it, needed it
Pleaded it to take me, and when it finally said yes
She grabbed my hand and locked me up inside where I can never escape
I watch as she hurts one and loves another
Beating on the door to be let out
Twice my pleas became real
But what I was allowed to be a part of I didn't want
She's mean to our friends
And nice to my enemies
She flirts with all those around her
Then brakes their hearts for fun
The blood of her victims, She likes to taste
The bruises She likes to frame
You let Her tie you up and slice your flesh
because She spoke of love
But when She's bored with torture of flesh
she works with the mind
I still cry at night but inside Her eyes
Because I can feel the pain of Her victims and it kills me
The weight of their pain pushes down on my chest and suffocates me
So soon I will die, and nothing but evil will be left