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I was a bit confused on how the whole "friends only" thing worked, I didn't know anyone could see part 1 so that is why I left it unfinished, this was supposed to be a part of part 1 but I decided to then make it a part 2.

Warning: It's long and is setting up for the rest of the story

I haven't written in a long time (been so d*mn busy) so I thought I'd at least get something in. I hope its to everyone liking. As always please comment!

I'm very nervous and excited as I sit in the car watching traffic and the scenery wizz by. I listen to music on my headphones and daydream about what this next year is going to be like, mindlessly fiddling with my leather wristband. I'm going to a huge college pretty far from home, my parents say it's going to be different from anything I've ever experienced. You see I come from a small town with less than 8,000 people in it. I don't know where all those people live because all I see are corn and wheat fields from my house. My high school gets the nickname of the hick highschool by the other schools we play against, because we're pretty small compared to them and are in the middle of nowhere. As I was saying, I watched as the scenery turned from miles of endless fields to the occasional billboard but now I see buildings pass by, they get bigger with each passing mile. I figure we must be getting close.

I'm going to the biggest school in my state, in my country in fact. The amount of students going there is about 6 times the size of my whole town, and many many times that of what my high school was like. I'm not sure if I'll like it, but it's too late to turn back now!

I guess I should introduce myself before I get too far. My name is Zach, I'm a 18 year old fox. I'm average height, have a slim athletic build. I'm always getting compliments on my smile, which is great because I just love to smile! I have one green eye and one blue eye though sometimes it looks like they're both green or both blue depending on what I'm wearing. I have the standard orage-red and white fure of most foxes with just a tad of black markings here and there. I take good care of myself and people notice, I have the softest fur most people have ever felt on a fox and I'm told I'm pretty darn huggable. I'm somewhat shy but get me talking and I might never shut up. My hair is somewhat short and spiky on top and I dress nice most of the time, polo shirts and torn jeans that everyone seems to wear.

Back to me in the car. I can sense that we're getting close even though my parents haven't said anything. I can see out of the corner of my eye my mom glancing back at me more and more. I know it's upsetting her I'm not staying close to home, I saw her tear up as we packed up my things this morning. I feel a pang of sadness, but also excitement at what my new life is going to be like away from home. My dad takes and exit and instantly I see the football stadium of the school, a huge beautiful building that (from what I'm told) holds well over 100,000 people on game days. I can feel the fur on the back of my neck stand up as I realize that this is it, I'm almost to my new home for the next year. We pull into a parking lot of a tall tower like building, my dorm.

My dad sighs "Here we are kiddo" as he puts the car in park. I look to see my mom looking at me, her paws tightly gripping the headrest as shes' turned around in her seat. Her eyes are starting to water.

"Great! Lets get all that crap you call my stuff up to my room." I say quickly and open the door, giving myself an excuse to occupy myself so I don't get all sad too from my mom. I don't want my new roommates to see me all teary eyed when I move in. Every other car in the parking lot it seems are people in similar situations, parents and students unloading boxes and carrying them up the stairs to the walkway to the dorm. I see two grey wolf parents hug their child, a plump looking girl goodbye. Her mom is sobbing and she is awkwardly trying to break away from her grasp.

"Ok honey, lets get you unpacked" My mom says softly, ruffling the hair on my head and giving me a quick hug. I have to go up an elevator to get to my room, all the way on the 12th floor of the 26 floor tower. I haven't seen my room and to be honest I'm kinda shocked as I open the door. It's soo...tiny. I knew it would be small but it was only about 1 and a half times as big as my room back home and it sleeps 3 people. I don't let my disappointment show, my parents warned me dorm life would be cramped but I chose it anyway. None of my roommates are in the room, but I can see one has already moved in. A blanket with the arch rival of my favorite pro football team covers the bed.

"I can see this is going to be an intersting year for you" My dad chuckles as he too notices the blanket. Fans from both teams are notorious for hating each other and I can't help but worry that we'd be set to hate each other from day one.

"I'm sure you'll get along just fine." My mom says, as though reading my mind.

Unpacking takes awhile, about half an hour even though I didn't bring much. I don't pay much attention though I just keep thinking that soon my parents are going to go back home and I'm going to be on my own for the first time ever. By the time we're done I feel less nervous and more sad. Even though my dad isn't perfect and can honestly be a major ass a lot of the time I can see he's going to miss me and I know for a fact my mom is missing me already even though I'm still right there!

"Well I guess this is it...." My father says kinda awkardly, he shuffles his feet and runs his hand through his greying hair.

"Oh Honey, you call and let us know how everything goes on your first day ok?" My mom says, hugging me. "Did you forget anything? Do you need anything? Are you hungry?" my mom asks. I can tell she's just looking for an excuse to stick around longer, trying to avoid letting me go.

"I'm fine Mom, I've got everything. Careful on the way home, you won't be the only emotional parent on the road ya know" I say. I give both my parents a big hug. "I love you, see you in a couple months."

"Love you so much" My mom says, stealing one last hug

"Behave and watch yourself out there, there's a lot of goofies at college" My dad says. "Alright, lets go Mom before you decide to live up here so you don't have to say goodbye."

"Love you Mom, Dad." I say

"You too" they say and walk out the door. I sit down on my bed, I chose the bottom bunk since the single bed was already taken. I sigh, get up and reorganize some of my things.

"Hey! I'm guessing you're Zach eh!" I hear behind me. I turn and see a wolf standing in the doorway, a bag of groceries hanging from one paw. "Hi, I'm Ethan" the wolf says and extends his free paw. I shake it.

"Hi, yea I'm Zach. So I guess you're my roomate huh, darn shame you chose a crappy team to root for" I kid with a smile.

"Oh? Is that so? Well we'll see what happens this season!" He replies with a laugh. "Well I'm just putting these up here before I head out and go to dinner with my parents, nice to meet you!"

"Likewise" I reply. He puts his bag on his bed and trots out. I can't help but think that he's not bad looking.

I guess it's at this point I tell you I'm not completely heterosexual, I'm actually bi. I've never had a boyfriend or anything, that would never go over well from where I'm from but I've always had an interest in guys.

By the end of the day I meet my other roommate, a tall and lanky coyote. Both of my roommates seem pretty cool and I can feel my worries about having terrible roommates ebb away and begin to think this is going to be a great year.

A few weeks go by and I can tell this year is going to be busy. I'm neck deep in my engineering classes and am instantly regretting slacking off in my high school calculus class. My roommates are still pretty cool, the Coyote is named Jeff and he's in my major but is waay smarter than I am. He keeps to himself mostly and studys a lot. Ethan is the opposite, he's taking an "easy" major and spends most of his time playing video games, being loud, and sleeping. I guess you can say I'm in the middle, I don't spend all my time studying, but I don't slack off a lot either. I spend my free time going for runs around campus which is HUGE! There are so many buildings, trails, and people. I feel like I'm in a new world. The initial shock has worn off but I still have trouble going to new buildings throughout campus as I have no idea where anything but my initial classes are.

I've made a few new friends in my dorm, my next door neighbors being a loud but friendly giraffe named Ron, and a funny Koala bear named Eric. The other side of me is a single and hes a bear. His name is Lee and he's quite intimidating but is quite friendly once you get to know him. We hang out a lot in our common room in the evenings, talking about what our classes are like, where we're from, and what we like to do.

(Continued in part 2)

I'm finally getting used to the flow of school and my life here. I was walking to my room when Eric the Koala popped his head out.

"Hey Zach! Whatcha doing this weekend?"

"Oh I don't know...get some work done and sleep in. How about you?" I reply

"Hey why don't you go out with me and Ron? We found a pretty sweet party, a kegger!" He asks.

"I don't know..." I hesitate "I'm not sure, I'm not exactly the party person..."

"Aww come on! Don't be that guy." Eric jokes

I'm not so sure, I'm kinda shy so parties were never my thing, plus I don't usually drink. I kinda shuffle my feet for a bit while Eric crosses his arms and gives me a "What's it gonna be?" look. I finally decide I should get out, I mean that's a part of college, doing new things. "Ok, I'll go what time?" I relent.

"Tomorrow night at 9, we'll pregame then head out." Erics says, a satisfied smirk on his face. I continue into my room, a bit worried about tomorrow. I don't even notice Ethan my wolfy roommate as he screams at his tv set playing some video game. I sit down at my desk and see Jeff my coyote roommate roll his eyes at me and jerk his head at Ethan in the other room before turning back to his work. I give a small smile. Jeff is a pretty good roommate, he keeps to himself mostly and has a lot of the same interests as me which is good because it helps counterbalance Ethan who's starting to wear on my nerves. As soon as I begin to focus on starting my calculus homework I'm interrupted.

"Hey! I heard you're going out with us tomorrow, glad to have you along. We're going to get soo wasted!" It's Ron the Giraffe.

I give a lighthearted laugh "I hope not too wasted, I don't want the RA to find out we've been drinking when we return" I say, the RA is the resident advisor, a student who lives on the floor but is also kinda in charge of everyone on that floor.

"Psshh you don't have to worry about Alec, he doesn't care. Plus half the people on the floor will be coming back hammered." Ron says, he gives me a thumbs up. "Come to our room tomorrow around 8:30"

I just nod in reply. Ron's a good guy, but I think he tries too much to be that party guy. I finish a problem before I hear Jeff talking to me "So you're leaving me tomorrow huh?"

"Oh you're not going?" I ask

"No, I'm not really into drinking, plus I have to meet with my physics group tomorrow to work on a project real early." Jeff says

"Well to be fair I'm not all gung-ho about going, I just couldnt' come up with a real good excuse to Eric." I explain

"I'm just teasing, Eric invited me also I just have that thing." Jeff continues

"yea, well at least you'll have the room to yourself I think Ethan is going out with some skanky looking squirrel" I say

"Yea I know her, the girl with the lop sided breasts" Jeff laughs. I laugh too and Jeff turns back to his work. I finish my homework and get a shower. As bad as you think it would be living in a dorm, sharing a bathroom with 9 other guys it's not so bad. We decided on day one to keep the place clean and almost everyone has done so. I turn on the shower and let the hot water warm my body. I take my time washing just so I can stand in it longer. I finally finish and dry off. Walking through the large bathroom carrying my clothes and wrapped in a towel. As I go to leave the door opens and Lee the giant bear comes in.

"Oh, you didn't have to get all undressed for me, I was just coming in to wash my paws" Lee jokes. I laugh and try to go around him but he moves to block me. "Where do you think you're going? You haven't given me a hug yet." I sigh, ever since I moved in Lee has been demanding hugs from me. I dont' think he's gay or anything he just knows I don't like to hug him and he thinks it's funny to make me.

"Come on Lee, I have to get up early tomorrow so if you would please let me through I'd appreciate it." I say, saying the last part sarcastically.

"Hey now, you know the toll one hug to pass through!" Lee taunts. Unfortunately for him I know his secret. He's a bit of a germophone and is always washing his paws. I grab my worn boxers and raise them up.

"If you don't let me through I'll throw these at you." I say seriously. Not much of a threat, but for Lee it is.

"Ok fine, but next time you owe me two!" Lee replies, stepping aside before using a rag to turn on the fawcett, he won't even touch anything in the bathroom without something covering his paws.

I make my way to the backroom where the beds are and get ready for bed before turning off the lights and slipping off to sleep.

The next day goes by fairly quick. I got up early to get some schoolwork done before my classes so I wouldn't have to worry about it over the weekend. I go to all my classes and before I know it, I'm back in my dorm. I've got a few hours before going out so I go for a run. I love running, I put in my headphones and set off, letting my mind drift to whatever the music makes me feel. It's like I'm in my own little world. As I make my way to the tower I see a fox that lives in my tower. He doesn't live on my floor and I don't even know his name, but I've seen him around. He's a small fox, a few inches shorter than me but he's really cute. I don't know why I think he's so cute I just do. I usually don't think about guys much but whenever I see him I can't help but steal as many glances as possible. I make my way to the entrance and stop to stretch. I can feel my heart still racing and heat radiate off my body as I cool down. I take my time stretching because it helps prevent me from being sore, plus I like the feeling. I finish just as the fox walks up to the entrance. I can't help but feel a bit happy about this. I open the door for him and he gives a small "thanks". I just nod and follow him up the stairs. It's a big tower, and so most people use the elevators to get to their floors. The fox and I enter the elevator, I push the button to my floor and the other fox does the same. As the elevator rises I'm tempted to make small talk with the fox, but I don't. I get off on my floor and make my way to my room.

I have time to get showered and dressed and eat dinner before the time rolls around to start pregaming. I'm dressed in torn jeans, my nike shoes and a somewhat form fitting t-shirt.

"Hey hey look who it is!" Eric says as I enter the room. "Here you go!" He hands me a red plastic cup. "Drink up it's Ron's own mix."

I give the drink a sip, it tastes pretty good, sweet but with the definate bite of alcohol. "What's in this?" I ask.

"Oh you now, sprite, orange juice, some ice and everclear." Ron says with a grin.

"What?! Everclear? How much?" I ask

"For your cup...a whole shot." Eric says with a laugh

I'm shocked, everclear is pure grain alcohol, a whole 95% alcohol, one shot of this is like drinking a 2 or 3 beers. I take another sip, it tastes strong but not as strong as I would've expected. I take my time with the drink because I'm a bit of a lightweight....literally I only weigh 140 lbs. By the time I finish Lee has come in too and they are all on their second drink.

"Ok, since you didn't give me a hug, you owe me." Lee says in his deep booming voice.

"I'm not hugging you, I'm going to need a lot more alcohol for that." I kidd

"Oh I don't want a hug, I want you to take a shot with me." Lee replies

"A shot? Of what?" I ask

"Everclear what else!" Lee says, already pouring two shots.

"whoa..I don't know that stuff is strong... " I say a bit worried, I hate doing shots and I've never done anything stronger than 80 proof liquor let alone 190 proof.

"Here's the thing, you don't have a choice, not take the shot or I'm going to carry you to the soccer field and tie you to the goal." Lee says. I'd assume he's kidding except the fact that I'm told he did it last year to another kid who didn't take a shot with him.

"Ok..." I sigh "but I'm going to need a chaser." On the count of three we both take our shots, I quickly sip a can of sprite to get the burning feeling out of my mouth and throat. The burn is a lot stronger than anything I felt before and it makes me feel like my stomach is burning, but it quickly goes away. I cough "wow" is all I can say.

Lee, Eric, and Ron all laugh.

"You should've seen your face, it was like torture" Eric laughs. I feel my cheeks burn, from embarassment and also from the alcohol.

"Ok it's time to head out!" Ron declares. We all clean up our mess and head out. By the time we're walking through middle of campus towards the "party street" of off campus housing I'm feeling the alcohol hit me. I'd estimate I'd drank the equivalent of 7 beers in an hour and a half from all the liquor, which to me is quite a lot. I can feel the "buzz" kicking in and my face feels hot, but I do feel relaxed.

We get to the house and just walk right in, a blast of music greets me as I enter. The place is packed, people grinding away in the living room to the music while others crowd a beer pong table in another. The kitchen has a line leading to it as people wait to fill their cups with beer. I see people turn and yell to Lee and Lee drifts off to talk to people. I follow Ron and Eric to the kitchen where we wait to get a cup full of beer. "So now what?" I ask Eric, kinda lamely since I don't know anyone here I'm not sure what to do.

"What do you mean? It's a party! Get out and grind up on someone!" Eric replies enthusiastically, he too drifts off to talk to some nice looking cats in a corner. I'm left to myself. I make my way to the beer pong table where a game is finishing up. The next team up is short a person (it's a 2 person per team game) . The player is a dog/wolf mix. He glances around before saying "Hey you! Pretty boy!" while looking at me.

"Who? Me?" I ask, a bit confused.

"Yea you, you're on my team." He replies. I walk over.

"I don't really play" I say, having only played the game twice.

"It doesn't matter, I need a partner and I dont' want to play with any of these guys" he says referring to the 12 or so drunk people standing around the table.

"Ok, sorry if I suck" I say before taking my spot. We're playing a mean looking panther and bull. The throw first and quickly sing both cups.

"Bring em back b*tches!" They taunt. We giive em back. I sip on the beer in the cup they made while they miss both their shots. The dog/wolf, whose name is Brian misses his shot. I make mine.

"There you go." Brian says, giving my back a quick pat. The panther makes his shot and the bull misses his again. We're both up and sink both of them. "your turn to bring em back." Brian smirks. Brian misses and I make mine "He's on fire!" Brian yells, which means I throw until I miss, which amazingly I didn't. I ended the game because I kept making the cups.

I see Ron "Looks like you're having a good time over here!" he says before heading off to the kitchen.

The rest of the night goes pretty well, I win about 4 more games before I feel all the alcohol I've been drinking slow me down. Brian keeps getting close to me, and seems to find excuses to rub against me. I dont' like it. I definately don't need Lee, Ron, or Eric to think I'm gay because this guy keeps rubbing up against me. Nothing wrong with being gay, I just kinda want to keep that part of me a secret plus I don't like this Brian guy. He's really full of himself.

"So where you live at?" Brian asks me, his voice slurred as he sways slightly. I can tell he's definately drunk, though I doubt I'm in much better shape.

"Oh you know, the tower." I say Brian continues his advances, before saying he has to go take a piss. I see him walk outside. I take that time to talk to a pretty looking vixen. We chat for a bit before I begin to feel real tired. I decide I want to leave, but I can see that Lee and Eric are in a game of pong while Ron is chatting to a bunch of furs. I decide to just head out without them. I'm not more than a hundred yards away before I realize the extent of how much I've drank. I've stumped several times on the pavement and am a bit worried about making it back. I've heard about people being mugged after parties, but I don't have money for a cab. I decide I'm fine. I sit on some houses front steps to type out a txt to send to Eric to tell him I left so they dont' all go looking for me when they leave. I get up and keep walking. The cool night air makes me feel better, though not much. I just keep walking, thinking only of bed.

I make it to what students call the octagon. It's an octagon shaped open grassy area with trees dotting it. School buildings surround it and it marks the center of campus. During the day it's usually got people laying out in the sun or throwing frisee around. I walk down the center path. I begin to feel sick. I've drank too much, and now it's coming back to get me. Why did I have to drink so much? I ask myself. I stop my a tree and bend over. I try to resist getting sick but I can't avoid it. I throw up all of the alcohol in my stomach, and heave a bit. I stand there for a minute and lean against the tree. I take a deep breath, letting the cool air cool me down.

"You ok?" I hear a voice ask.

I turn around "yea I'm fine, just um....I'm fine" I manage to say. A figure approaches, from what I can see someone was out on a run, they were wearing althetic shorts and t-shirt, an ipod strapped to his arm.

"You sure? Where you headed to?" The figure asks, stepping closer and into the light from the lamp-post nearby. I recognize who it is. It's the fox, the cute fox from my tower.

"Oh, I'm fine, I'm just going back to my dorm." I say, turning away and walking away. I dont' wnat him to recognize me, I'm embarassed, the first time I talk to him and he sees me throwing up.

"Hey, hold on a sec" I hear him say, I feel a paw grib my elbow. "Where are you going? I'll help you get there."

"The tower" I sigh.

"I know where that's at, I live there. Lets go" he says. Walking next to me as we slowly make our way towards the tower. I stumble a bit. "Lets sit down for a sec." he says.

"I'm fine." I try to say, but he leads me to a bench and sits down. I sit next to him. Since I'm drunk I decide I might as well take advantage of that and lean against him slightly, making it seem accidental. He doesnt' move away which I chalk up to a bonus for me.

"Seems like you had a good night" The fox laughs

"yea, too good of one." I say.

"What's your name?" I ask.

"Alex" he replies.

"I'm Zach" I say "I appreciate you helping me, though I have to admit I'm a bit embarassed" I say

"Don't be" Alex says with a smile "It happens"

"We should get back" I say and get up, I stumble again a few feet away and Alex puts his arm around my shoulder to steady me. I can't help but like the feeling.

I let him lead me the rest of the way to the tower, and to my room. No one is back, or whoever is must be asleep.

"It's a bit embarassing to meet a cute guy like you this way." I say, before I even realize I said it. "erm.. I mean" I try and think of a way to fix what I just said, letting slip I thought he was cute and about my sexuality.

Alex laughs. "Don't be embarassed, I had fun walking a cute guy like you back" He says, emphasizing the last part. I am a bit stunned at his response and just stand there, swaying a bit. "How about we meet some other time? Say when you're less drunk?" Alex says.

"Yea..sure!" I reply. I'm wondering if I'm hearing him right, or if I'm so drunk I'm imagining what he's saying.

"Great, how about you meet me at the Octagon, by the bench we sat at tomorrow? We can go running or something" Alex suggests.

"Definately" I say. I blush again. I think I was just asked out by this cute guy. I don't know what to do so I stand there for a moment.

"See you then cutie!" Alex says before giving me a wink and walking away. I enter my room and crash into my bed. I try and think about just what happened but sleep overtakes me.