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It's been ten days since I last saw Faye. Ten agonizing days of loneliness and desperation and I continue to drag on hopelessly, just wishing to see Faye again. I, Desho, am just a lonely little cat without her. I wonder how I came to this, when I first came here, all I cared about was just to attend the SAIA academy and hone my skills as an Incubus. When I first saw her, I just wanted to leech some negative emotions from her and move on... Yet, she had me figured out from the start. She was so happy and full of hope, it made me happy just to talk to her, this strange white feline. Time passed, I fell for her and like a grand scheme to twist the despair I longed for back upon me, she is suddenly gone...

"She's abondoned us. She's left us to rot. That affection for her was all a joke, now we're the sad ones. The worst part is, the sorrow makes us weak... The emotion that is supposed to make us stronger is crippling us...What a joke..."

Here I am, sitting alone in the courtyard of the Succubus and Incubus Academy, the pink trees that had bloomed about a month ago have now withered and stand empty-headed at each side of the stone cold pathway. There were no other students here, they were all too busy having a life. I was here, all alone with no answers, broken-hearted, and hating everyone, especially myself. It wasn't fair...

Suddenly, I find myself in the company of another. A blue furred bunny girl in a green school-girl kind of outfit sat beside and eyed me with a pitiful grin.

"Hi Desho, are you okay?" She asked me. Was I really so obviously depressed that it drew others to relish in the raw emotions that tore me asunder?

"We could care less... Why else would she be here, wasting her time, for?"

I raised my head and glanced at her apathetically, then I returned to my knees. I couldn't think of anything to say, I honestly didn't care much to deal with her.

"Desho...I'm worried about you..." She adjusted herself to where she was sitting cross-legged and facing me, "You really don't look so well..."

It was quiet for a bit. Maybe, if this was a different time, I would have tried to make a joke about what she said. A time when I knew that I was going to see Faye when the Academy Bell rang in the next class, a time when Rath and I would plot a way to get Faye to practice magic with us.

Oh Rath... Rath and I have changed, now that I think about it. He is supposed to be my best friend but we're beginning to drift apart. I can feel it slicing into my back. Ever since Faye disappeared, I've wanted to be left alone and away from everyone, away from even him. I wonder if he feels the same...

"Desho?" Mira leaned forward and cocked her head in my direction.

I looked back at her. She was watching me with a kind look that made my throat choke up a bit, the kind of concerned stare that Faye gave me; different person, same eyes, it seemed.

I hated it...I wanted to yell at her and tell her to just leave me alone. I couldn't, however, I couldn't bring myself to no matter how hard I tried. I can't think of what it was exactly but I guess care somewhat after all. How pathetic, as much as I try to tell myself that 'I don't care', I just care more and I think about the person I care about the most. I didn't want to hurt Mira, I didn't want to lose another friend...

I looked her over, trying to make it obvious that I wasn't alright with lowered eyebrows and a frown. I shook my head and then looked away, I couldn't think of anything to say so I didn't say anything at all. Maybe she would understand...

Mira didn't say anything. She silently stood up and held her hands together, "Desho?" She asked me, "Please...take care of yourself..." After she said that, she suddenly leaned towards me. Before I could protest, her arms were around me and she hugged me tightly, as if she were afraid to let me go. I blushed and froze up, my mind was thrown into an even deeper confusion and my heart started to pound my chest. "Please stop hurting yourself, Desho..." She whispered into my ear.

Then she was gone, she let me go and ran away into the building. just as soon as she appeared, she disappeared. Like a one-note wind...She just blew away in the wind, and I swore I saw a floating tear drop...

What did she want? I do take care of myself... I haven't groomed my hair so I look like a mess I'll admit but... Why does she even care? Maybe she's noticed that haven't eaten much either, I must have looked like a skeleton to her. Maybe I should be more thankful...Maybe...

"No, No, Desho...Stop thinking kitty, you'll just go insane over this...Just stop thinking."

So I stopped. I sat silently and held my knees. I didn't wonder or even imagine a nice day. I tried to avoid the thoughts about Faye and just thought of a piece of paper, like I would for my headaches. Those headaches...I haven't had one since Faye disappeared. I've felt different since then, crushed, hopless, just meandering aimlessly as the days pass by. Just sitting my on my ass and just for an answer to come to me since I didn't have the motivation to go look for it...

"How pathetic you are, Kitty..."

Two minutes and twenty-three seconds passed and heard footseps approaching me. I glanced over and noticed a red figure stending beside me. It was Rath. He watched me with his scaly frown, the pink wings on his head drooping like they were broken.

"How are you doing, brother?" He asked quietly.

He called me brother again... I silently looked up to him and then away to the ground, trying to get myself to stop thinking about brothers...

"I'm...I could be better, I guess..." I muttured and rubbed my nose.

Rath shook his head solemnly and moved to sit beside me. He rested his elbows on his knees and looked over to me, "You look like a mess Desho, you haven't been taking care of yourself." He stated.

I sniffed and glared at him, "So what? It doesn't concern you." I mildly taken aback at how harsh I sounded, I didn't even meant to.

"...Really, Desho?" Rath raised an eybrow and huffed, "This does concern me, you're my best friend so it does concern me and I can't stand to see you like this..."

I looked away and planted my forehead against my arms, "...I'm sorry..."

"Hey, don't be sorry..." Rath turned away and stared out to the distant mountains, "You are really hurting without Faye, aren't you?"

"Wonder how long it took him to figure that out?"

Rath just glanced at me, I just remained still, my eyes burned a bit but I just kept thinking that I would see Faye soon to relieve it. The lizard sighed and closed his eyes, "Desho, about Faye..."

I looked up at him with my ears perked up, "Do you know something?" I asked hastily, my four wings shaking uncrontrollably.

He remained still for a second, I wondered what he was thinking. Suddenly, he smiled and opened, "Faye's gonna be fine Desho, we'll se her again soon."

I knew he said that to cheer me up but it felt like an obvious lie. The wings on my head drooped with my ears and I looked away, disappointed. I wanted to point out that it sounded like a lie but I was too afraid of how he might react.

"...It's...It's almost time for Ms. Kree's class," Rath stood up and scratched his head, "Come one, let's go." He beckoned me.

I looked up to him sighed, I did as he asked. I stood beside him, arms crossed and silent. We walked off to class.

"He's lying to us and we know it but we're too wrapped up in ourselves to care."

We had arrived at Ms. Kree's classroom outside the hall, Rath and I were prepared to enter but found we were unable to. A crowd of student huddled by the doorway and they all silently stared into the room. I wondered what was going on.

Rath looked at me nervously and guided me behind the crowd. We stopped at an angle where we could see the classroom door, however, there was no door. I titled my head as I quietly examined what appeared to be a pitch-black wall in place of the door. I couldn't see into the class room and just by staring at the infinite darkness of that wall, I could feel a horrid sense of dread crawiling up my spine. A static was scratching the inside of my skull.

"What's going on?" Rath asked aloud to the crowd. Various eyes looked back to us and a grey furred canine incubus with black hair turned to us.

"It's been like this ever since the last bell rang," He explained to us in a high pitched, nasaly kind of voice, "I was just in there before but I left before it rang, when I came back, it was like this." He turned and motioned to the black wall, "I can't get anything out of it, it's like a solid wall, can't see or hear through it. I can't even sense the others who were in the classroom."

"Who was in the classroom?" Rath stepped beside the canine and crossed his arms.

"It was Ms. Kree, Jonas of Taun Clan, Dime of Nact'larn Clan, and Mira of Dimanika Clan." He nodded and rubbed his chin, "I mention the clan becuase I think it might be a group effort of their spells; might be a test from Ms. Kree..."

I stepped beside the two Incubi and slwoly weaved my way through the crowd. They slowly stepped aside, they must have thought I could solve it. As I neared the door, however, the scratching in my head worsened and I could a small screeching building. An all too familiar pain was building...

"Is Mira really in here? Is she okay? Please be okay..."

I stood at the door and I reached out for it. All of the other students silently watched with anticipation, I almost expected to hear a drum roll. When all was silent, I finally touched the door. Then I fell to my knees, howling in pain.

The moment I touched it, a deafaning noise of distorting screaming and sirens bellowed through my mind, a horrid static clawed at this insides of my head. I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't se anything, I didn't know what the hell was going on around me, I couldn't even feel my hand of feet. In my blind pain my consciousness began to fade. During that moment, there was only one thing I knew for sure: This was no spell by any Cubi...

There was nothing, I had no dreams. I was alone and no one my call, I cried out to the nothing surrounding me and there was no anwser, my heart was crushed. I kept calling out, just wishing someone would save me...

"...Desho!?"

I heard it...There was no doubt.

"...F-Faye!?"

She was far away but I saw her, standing alone, reaching out for me. I think she called my name again but I couldn't hear her.

My stomach wrenched and I reached out for her, "Faye!" I cried as loud as I could. I ran to her as fast as I could yet she continued to fade away. "No, Faye! Don't go!!" I was crying. I kept running to her with tears falling from eyes.

Through my watery vision, Faye held herself quietly, she muttured my name. She remained still and looked up to me. Me, crying and running as fast legs would carry me. I saw a tear drop from her eye and suddenly, a gust wind blew through out the entire plane. Her body turned into white feathers and one by one, the wind carried her away, out fo my sight.

With tears streaming from my eyes, I stopped and silently watched. She was gone, out of my reach again, "Faye..." I murmured, "Please don't leave me...." I silently cried and stood still in the cold darkness.

A low pitched siren rose and began to deafen me. I looked ahead, hoping to see Faye. What I got instead was a haunting presence. I couldn't make it out but it was something... terrible. It was big, it was omnipresent, it was greater than me in every way. I watched with wet eyes as the monster stared at me. It grew around me and slowly, it grabbed me around my throat and before I knew it, the monster killed me.

...

...I was being shaken.

"Desho! Wake up, dammit, wake up!" Rath was yelling at me.

I slowly opened my eyes. The red carpet and caramel wood walls slowly came into focus. I huffed and coughed, I blankly eyed the area; we were still in front of Ms. Kree's classrom but the crowd had dispersed. I drowsily searched and I came across Rath, he was holding my shoulder and watching me with worry.

"...Desho..." He breathed a sigh a relief, "Are you alright? What happened?"

I nodded, my headeache was gone and I wasn't in pain anymore, "Where is everyone?"

Rath leaned back and held his knee, "Everyone started freaking out when you fainted, some ran off and some are looking for Fa'lina." He looked down the hallway, "I think everyone is starting to panic over the disappearences. Now Mira and Ms. Kree have gone missing, just like Faye... Why hasn't the headmistress done anything!?"

"Faye..." Suddenly, like a kick to the head, the dream I had just experienced hit me, "Oh god, Faye!" I rushed to my feet desperetely searched the hallway, "Faye! I saw her, I saw Faye! She's here, I need to find her!"

"Woah, calm down!" Rath stood behind me, trying to get my attention, "What are you talking about!?"

Damn that Rath, he wouldn't understand and I didn't want to hear his excuses. Faye was here and I needed to find her as soon as possible, I can't waste time explaining it to him. That dream was there for a reason, I promise I'll find her, no matter what!

Without a word, I ran down the hall. "Desho, HEY!!" I heard Rath call after me and I was pretty sure he ran after me, it didn't matter. He wouldn't stop me.

I arrived in the courtyard, beside the Hero statue. I stood still and looked around the area.

"Desho!" Rath caught up to me, "Don't run off like that!" He huffed and caught his breath. "What do you mean you saw Faye? Answer me!"

I spun around and glared at him, "I saw her Rath, I know she's here!"

Rath looked over me with look of worry again, maybe he thought I was crazy, "Desho..." He shook his head, "You're not going to find Faye..." He stated warningly.

"What!?" I was insulted that he said that, him, of all people, said that. He was the one who was always telling me to keep my hopes up, How dare he say that!

Rath rubbed his forehead and grimaced, "Faye..." He knew something and was about tell me something I didn't want to hear, "You won't find cause she's d-"

There was a deafening roar in the distance and a bang like an explosion.

"What the hell?" Rath looked to the sky.

We both searched around hastily and out eyes landed on a building close to us. At the second floor, there was a mass of darkness. It roared like monster. The building was the Succubus' dorm.

I wasn't sure what hit me but I just knew that I would find Faye there... Without a seond's delay, I ran to the dorm.

"Desho!!" Rath cried out as I ran away from him.

At the entrance of the dorm, barged my way through the arched-doorway. I expected there to be grils to try and throw me out but it became apparent to me that the Dorm was competely empty, there wasn't a single soul here other than myself.

I ignored the isolation and rushed to the spiral stairway at the end of the green-walled hallway. I practically flew up the steps and into the second floor hallway. The air was cold and heavy, all I could hear was a quiet roar coming from a room. This single room at the middle of the hallway silently waited with it's door quietly open, as if it were inviting me. I ran to it.

At the door, I didn't stop to knock or to check for anyone. I just rushed inside the room and called out, "Faye!".

Inside the room, it was dark. I could barely see. I tried to focus but the static was returning to my mind. "Faye?" I asked in the darkness.

I saw something moving. It was coming closer to me, rushing like a beast. I forced a smile, hoping it would be Faye. My smile immediately faded when I realized it wasn't Faye coming for me, not even close. My blood froze and my body tensed, I was paralyzed in fear. Before I could run, the monster from my dreams swallowed me whole within it's darkness...

"Faye....where have you gone...I need you..."

"She's gone and you're all alone..."

"She's gone and we're all alone...

"...She's gone and I'm all alone..."

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To be Continued...

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Author's Commentary:

This is a fan fiction of a wonderful webcomic known as Dan and Mab's Furry Adventures aka DMFA. It was created by Amber Panyko aka MissMab. The settings of SAIA, Furrea and the Cubi concept in general were all created by her. [www.missmab.com]

The only Orginal characters in this story are the characters, Desho, Faye, Rath, Mira, Ms. Kree.

I'm glad I was able to finish this chapter before this week ended, I'm graduating Job Corps tomorrow so I've been busy which is why it's been awhile since I last wrote a chapter.

But alas, the end is nigh, I'm trying to keep this a 10 chapter story however, I can tell you now that when Ch. 9, it's gonna be a big one so I may release it in two parts... But If I do that, why not just extend it to another chapter? *le sigh*

EDIT: Incidentally, this is also the last chapter I wrote before I graduated Job corps so ch.8 onwards is new and stuff...

Anyway, I hope you like this

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