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Jason's Flight Part 1: Fuzzy Logic

By: Beefy the Bull

'Interfacing with alien cultures'

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M/M, Bull, Bovine, Minotaur, Human, Machine, Medical Play, Medical, Computer, Oral, Anal, Forced Homosexuality , N/C , Masturbation, Romantic, Light Bondage, Rape , Humiliation.

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Preface:

This story has been in the works for a while, and I really enjoy it so far. I'm not sure if it is too long in its present format, or if I should break it down more. The continuation is in the works presently.

Additional:

The Long format was well accepted and this text contains all the updates I have made to the series presently (8-25-11) so without further a due:

- Fuzzy Logic-

My name is Jason, and I grew up on the planet Conserve-34, named mostly after the stuffy political ideology of the people that settled it decades ago. I was just a regular kid looking forward to getting off that dust ball, anything to live the exciting life abroad. Not to say that Conserve-34 wasn't a nice place, it certainly could be. But I had heard exciting stories of the Ultra-metros of the inner worlds- cities that spread over half the planets, and tales of deep space, tall and otherwise. You could join with the colonial militia and fight the good fight against hostiles in deep space; you could join the smugglers and live on the fringes, free to do what you please whenever you please. There was excitement and energy abound... if you could just get off of the farming colonies. That's what I didn't like about the place I was stuck in. It was boring, nothing ever happened- unless a Verlof eating someone's live stock was really exciting to you- and even that only happened on a rare occasion. I was twenty years old now, and had no desire to settle down, start a family, and farm for the rest of my life like everyone here expected of me, and that's how my story starts- an amazing opportunity.

When I heard that an opportunity to get off this planet had opened in town I jumped on it. I literaly ran to town as fast as I could, not wanting to miss the ship, and spoke to the crew of a freighter at the port. Usually freighters were where one could get news from off world, and find jobs, so I had been talking to the crew members of almost every ship that made planet fall for the last two years. Mostly it was the same stuff I heard, but today was different. Today they had a bill of registered jobs at Hub-13! That was one of the planets that lead to the inner worlds! There was no way I was going to pass this up, so after saying a short but tearful good-bye to my parents, I grabbed my back pack and jumped aboard the freighter before it departed and took one last look at Conserve -34.

The flight took a week and all and all was dull, I didn't think flying could be dull, but needless to say I was excited when we put down at Hub-13. I took a copy of the job bills and I half-explored the city and half-looked for work. This place was so exciting! There were thousands of people in the streets, music and lights, and it never stopped, even through the night there were people and activities- probably more at night than during the day! But as exciting as it was I was having trouble finding work, I didn't have the skills or knowledge of city life, or any culture that wasn't from a conservative farming world. Within a week I was broke and starting to wish I had never left Conserve. But then I had a chance encounter that offered me a great opportunity- from a Tau no less.

I had heard all about the Tau people, there were stories about them, usually that they were this or that, or that they eat humans, or that they were monsters, or that they had a culture far more sophisticated than ours, or that they were rich beyond our dreams. I heard them all- I also recognized that they weren't the monsters that some people say they were. My friend that had been in the colonial militia during the First Contact had told me a bit about them. They were big, strong, and smart, they ate the same things we did- and they were rich. Knowing those things helped, because when the Tau bull offered me work I jumped on it without really asking what it was.

My first sight of a Tau was as I was walking the open streets of Hub-13's entertainment district, awash in bright vibrant colors and lights advertising many different clubs, theaters, bars, and restaurants. The streets were always crowded with a wide and strange variety of people, but the Bull stood out of the crowd... well above it actually- with his discerning and nonchalant expression and a head graced by large and sharp horns. He was looking out across the crowd like he was looking for something or someone specific, until spotted what he wanted and smiled. He was moving in my direction and it wasn't long before I looked over again and he was next to me. I never thought something so large could sneak up on me like that.

"Are you Jason of Conserve?" he asked in the deepest voice I had ever heard.

"Yah, I am- what do you need?" I asked politely but uncertainly- how did he know my name?

The big white furred bull introduced himself, he was named something-I-can't-pronounce. When I tried to say his name, he laughed and told me to just call him 'Lieutenant'.

"I have been told you are seeking work, and I have a position open aboard our ship."

"Really?" I said surprised- all this time of looking for a job - any job- and someone just walked up asking for me specifically, and offered me a job?

"Our vessel will be putting out in a few days, so you will have time to see if the job is something you want." he said in a deep solid voice.

"Is it a combat ship?" I just about shouted it, I was so excited! Could I be that lucky?

"Heh-heh, yes it's a deep-patrol destroyer, and I think I know your next question- yes we get a lot of combat, interdictions, and other exciting things." he said slightly amused.

All I could do is stand there and smile, how could I be so fortunate? "Lead the way sir!" I said as I pulled off the best militia salute I could.

"I think you will be perfect for the position..." he said with a slight grin as he turned and put his hand on my back as he lead me to the port.

We entered one of the city's many port districts, and after a quick ID scan from the port Police-guards at a check point, we walked down the main cargo road. Heavy trucks and machines whined loudly past us on the vehicle path lugging large Dec-Containers of cargo to and from the warehouse districts, and passenger shuttles sped by on the mag-rails over head. The ports were the wealth of the planet and the Human Alliance, with trade revenues generating a fortune in taxes and tariffs.

Off one of the side paths was the Alliance military Space-harbor and base, and just across the truck-path from that was a small-unmarked hanger compound. We approached blank door with no signs, controls, or any markings, that looked like it might lead to an electrical closet or something. When we approached the door slid open silently without any apparent action on the Lieutenant's behalf and he entered and motioned me to follow. We walked through some sort of storage area and entered a private landing pad- a well armored one too, as the walls and doors were all thick and sturdy. I read that private landing bays like this were prohibitively expensive and geared towards very wealthy clients. And as I later found out this one was leased by the Tau Empire under the Alliance articles of cooperation. Hidden from the streets and not listed anywhere- hangers like this were very discreet and private- hence secure.

Once we got to the actual landing pads and found the individual landing dock, he showed me the parked destroyer, I had never actually seen any combat ship other than a local patrol craft, if you can call that a combat ship- or even a ship. But this one was Huge! It was bristling with cannon and CIWS, it was definitely a very impressive ship. The flat black hull was smoothly shaped and looked fast but strong. The ship had a long and robust looking prow and sleek but stubby wings jutted from the aft portion of the body. The central body had large domed top and bottom that made the bulk of the ship, with weapons turrets poking out from all directions and massive landing gear extended holding above the tarmac of the open landing pad.

The landing pad was a recessed square about three hundred meters square, with a raised walk around the edge and under that doors all around the perimeter of the pad to allow vital services to be administered and to allow for loading and unloading of the ship. As we walked around the upper walkway of the dock, the Lieutenant pointed out the ships features to me.

"Those up there are the primary shield units, they are the same type as standard cruisers use, and you see the main turrets? Those are high power rail guns, as are the midsized ones there and there. The smaller weapons stations? Those are CIWS laser units, there for close in work, although the range in optimal conditions is almost infinite." the Lieutenant said as he pointed out various features of the ship.

I mostly followed the Lieutenant with my mouth hanging open in awe, it was a beautiful ship!

"Now, how about we discuss the job?" he said after we walked all the way around the ship once.

"Uhh, yah! yah!- Yes Sir, I mean!" I said snapping from my stupor. "What is the job?" I said, rather surprised I had not actually asked him yet.

"Well we need a controller for our ship's sub-systems, and if your good enough, also for the weapons systems." He said as he led us down towards the personnel boarding hatch.

"You mean like on the bridge?!" I said excitedly. I figured the position would be in the deep and dull engine rooms or something like that, not that I might sit on the bridge of a war ship... And control the weapons? That would be my dream-come true!

"Yes sort of." he said smiling at my enthusiasm.

"I'll do it sir, I'll try! But... I don't know anything about such things." I said a bit down cast as I realized I probably wasn't qualified.

"I think you can do it, perhaps I should show you what I am talking about. Then you will understand." he said and with a wave he turned and headed in to the ship. We walked past other Tau that were working or inspecting the ship and its hull, some were using gravi-lifts to load supplies in to the hold.

Now I always had a slim build, and I was tall, but most Tau are seven feet or taller, so comparatively I'm a shrimp. It was intimidating as I boarded the ship. The corridors were big, but when a Tau passed and pushed me aside so he could get by, I realized they really were strong. I suppose it was kind of scary... I mean I remember the old stories about the Tau cooking and eating human prisoners... what if? I shook the thought out of my mind; those were just stories, stupid stories. I thought back to what my militia friend had told me after working with the bulls for more than a year.

"So this is the bridge." he said stepping in.

The Lieutenant stopped just through the bulkhead and waved about. The bridge was a large, round, two story room, with a huge sweeping display forward and a massive domed display over head. The back of the room was the second story, a kind of raised platform about six feet tall, and had only holographic consoles floating in the air. It was very clean simple and dim, with soft dark colors except for the bright whites of the holo-displays. Walking up to the railing and looking down there were a few more consoles, and a few Tau checking various systems.

"Where would I...?" I asked.

"Well mostly, here, on the commander's dais, next to the commander." he pointed to an ornate and intricate blue line that formed a circle where the commander would stand."The commander stands here when he is on the bridge."

"He doesn't have a seat?" I asked. I thought the captain would sit in a big chair in the middle of the room.

"Sitting down is no way to lead a ship." the Lieutenant said smugly. "This is not the human navy. A leader stands tall and proud."

"I don't see any controls." I said a bit puzzled.

"You would be the ships computer interface... do you know anything about that?" he asked.

I shook my head.

"Come with me." he led me out of the bridge and in to the corridor. "It's a new technology, it has a solid test scores and has proven safe." He continued. After a while he opened a heavy armored door. "This is the central computer system." he explained. "It's in an armored section to protect it during a battle." after entering he closed the door behind him. We were standing in a small room with one glass wall that looked into a long thin room with a strange device in the center. It was a clear tube with wires and tubes protruding from the top, plugged in to a massive equipment box on the wall behind it. He approached the glass door and it opened automatically for him, and the two of us entered the room.

"This is the ... Hummm. I don't know the words in common, but I will try... Fuzzy-logic interface?"

"You mean...?" I started.

"This is a biological interface with the ships computers. It allows one being to interface and assist the computer." He looked at me, and decided I was comprehending, and continued.

"The ships computer is very advanced, but it's still a computer, and it does not understand ... Fuzzy logic, or emotions, figures of speech are difficult for it, do you understand?"

"I think. What you're saying is that a person plugs in to this... machine, the computer, and helps it... Understand?"

"Very close, yes that's the basic concept. It also allows one person to control various aspects of the ship with great detail." he said as he touched the tube.

"Ohhh... it's an inter-logic interface... I heard stories about this." I looked at the tube with a new understanding of what it was.

"I heard it's very powerful, that it's like being a god, all seeing, and all knowing... are you saying that I would...?"

"Fill that position. Yes." he said simply.

"But... Why me? I don't have any experience with such things...why?" I was truly perplexed.

"That is why. You don't have any protocols, or preconceived notions about it. You told me you're from a farm world; I imagine you have a lot of common sense? Those are the best traits for an Interface. And your security record is spotless, it's hard to find someone that does not have political ties or biases, and that's important in our work enforcing the blockades." what he said seemed to make sense.

"I..." I was really shocked. I knew it was powerful, and heard it was an incredible system, and that there were not many of them, so this was a once in a life time chance.

"The pay would be 12 wires, three...meters? Yes, meters."

Let me say this, our currency on most outer worlds is usually in gold, it's one thing that's always desirable, and very useful in our electronics, so it has value at almost any place. Twelve three meter lengths of gold wire...

"Twelve?! At what increment? A year? Two?" I asked thinking there must be a poor translation at fault.

"A month. You hear me correctly. The position is very demanding, and as such it pays well." He said calmly, slightly amused by my excitement.

That was more than a farmer made in a life time on conserve-34... and to make that in a month?

"..." I was truly speechless.

"Well, you do spend extended time in the tube." he patted the transparent aluminum tube gently."The pay is to compensate for that. You know, the commander has boarded, come with me and we will discuss the matter with him." I looked back at the tube and the machine that held it one last time before we left.

After a short walk we entered the commander's quarters. It was well appointed, but minimal. The entry room had a dark wood desk with modern and clean looking dark metal trimmings, and behind that desk the Commander was seated. I probably had my jaw hanging open, he was huge! The Black bull was massive; when he stood he was at least eight feet tall if not more, his gleaming black pelt worked hard to restrain his strength, and the horns on him were sharp and well cared for, with a slight gloss from polishing.

"This is the commander: Warrior-Lord Tetrious." the Lieutenant said as he saluted in the Tau style.

"Sir!" I said stiffening and again trying to give the best militia salute I could. I wanted to be respectful-, he had a strong aura of power about him and the first impression is important.

"You are a civilian- Human, and civilians do not salute. Don't do that again." Tetrious said slowly and flatly as he took his seat, and continued his work, he didn't even look at me.

"I... yes sir." I said feeling a bit hurt.

"Do you think he is fit for the position?" Tetrious asked of the Lieutenant while writing something.

"I think he will fit the position nicely, Sir."

"Well has he accepted the position?" Tetrious asked looking past me as if I wasn't even in the room.

"No not yet."-The Lieutenant looked at me-"do you accept the contract?"

"I... well... how long is it?" I quickly remembered to ask an important question.

"It's for one month, and then after that you may choose to opt-out or re-sign for two years."

I would have an out in one month if I didn't like it... and I had no work now, and this was something I wanted to try...

"I agree." I said solemnly, knowing I was now bound to a one month contract that I had not yet seen.

"Good." the Lieutenant said cheerily.

"Get him ready to go, we undock in two days time." the Commander said flatly not even looking up from whatever he was working on at his desk.

"Yes Commander!" the Bull said with a final Tau salute as he left the room with me in tow.

"Well if you are to be ready when we lift off, you need to get connected right away so you can acclimate." the Lieutenant said as we walked down the ships corridors.

The halls were a series of spherical chambers with blast doors at regular and rather close intervals. Most of the interior trim of the ship was a soft light gray with white accents, and indirect lighting that seemed to come from all angles. Over all it was a lot brighter than the cargo ship I flew on before, and the work-quality was much finer. You would be hard pressed to find a seam or edge that was not well made and detailed. All the panels on the walls matched up perfectly and everything was clean- It was better looking than I thought any combat ship would look- I would have expected quality like this on the Lux-liners of the Alliance counsel.

The ship's crewmembers were rushing all about the ship in a buzz of activity as they prepared for a deep space patrol as we walked the hall.

"You're going to hear that word a lot for the next few days, it's the hardest task facing you."

"Are you going to teach me my job duties first?" I asked uncertainly.

"Your training is on the job, once you're connected, you will understand, and know everything you need to know." he said over his shoulder as we walked- "Here." he said and ducked in to a room.

The room looked surprisingly similar to one I had used before in school... it was obviously a locker room- just with everything a bit bigger for the Tau. The room was lined with large lockers, wider and taller than the human sized ones, each had a glowing scanner that would recognize and open for its owner.

"Undress and put your things in this locker." the Lieutenant said as he opened one aluminum door and pulled out some clothes. "I'll help you put this on. It holds all the neural interfaces to your spine, and has to be on right."

"Could I get some privacy?" I asked a bit shyly before I disrobed. I had always been shy at school, and this wasn't any different.

"We don't have time for that. Life aboard a warship offers no privacy, now hurry up." he said.

I quickly striped my clothes and put them in the locker as I burned with humiliation, and then got my first look at the item of 'clothing' he had for me. It wasn't for the shy that's for sure. It was a harness made of black straps about an inch wide- It offered no modesty what so ever.

"Legs through here." he held the harness for me. I stepped in to the leg holes and he buckled a strap below my belly and just above my crotch. There were two straps on the butt- kind of like a jock strap. Then two more straps - one over each shoulder were next, and then he buckled one strap across my chest, and one strap like a collar around my neck.

"This will hold all the biological interfaces to your body, so the fitting is very important." he said as he stood in front of me and checked the fit, pulling on it with his huge fingers.

I was shocked and embarrassed when he grabbed my genitals with his huge hand and lifted them to buckle a small strap just behind my balls. For him the move was so normal, he didn't think anything of it, but I was in shock, after a moment that wore off and I calmed myself.

"That looks good. Follow me." the Lieutenant said and he stepped back in to the corridor.

"But... can I at least get a towel?" I asked, the thought of walking down the busy corridor in this... It horrified me- all the other crew members would see me naked- and it would be there first impression of me.

"We don't have time for such trivial things, hurry along now!"

I stepped in to the hall, and got Bull-handled by a passing crew member. But unlike before this time there was a big grin. I was shaking visibly, this was undoubtedly the most embarrassing thing to ever happen to me.

As we walked down the hall I saw the once solemn faces of the crew were smiling, and sometimes I heard a cat-call from down the hall behind me. I burned red with humiliation, it seemed like the journey would never end.

"In here." the Lieutenant said coolly as we stepped into the infirmary. "Sit here." he patted a tall exam table. Then after realizing it was too tall for me to climb up, and would be very difficult for me, he picked me up under the arms like you might a child and set me there.

"There we go. Now do you have any medical problems, or any chemical addictions?" he asked formally.

"What?... No."

"Just answer quickly, I already have your medical files, and I already know the answers, this is just a formality." he proceeded to ask a plethora of standard questions and I gave curt yes and no answers. Once he was done he ordered me:

"Go relieve yourself. There is a bathroom through that door. Be thorough, and clean yourself well when you're done." I had never heard anyone be so blunt about such things, on Conserve-34...well we were just very conservative. I hopped down and did what he told me to. Upon returning I found the Lieutenant preparing the exam table, and I got my first look at the neural interfaces. They were sitting on a tray next to the exam table, one was a long double curved tube with gel-looking round things that looked like it would go along the spine, and a head piece that had more gel filled looking things that I assumed would pick up signals from my brain. There were some other tubes and devices but before I could examine them the Lieutenant asked me to get in a shower pan along one side of the room.

"This is a disinfectant and hair removal shower, just keep your eyes closed, this will tingle a bit." he said as he pulled on some full arm gloves. Standing in the shower with my eyes closed, I felt the cool liquid shower me, and then the Lieutenant hands washing me. That was odd, and still very humiliating, especially with how thorough he was- there was no part of me he did not clean very well. I reminded myself that he was a professional and was just doing his job. The freaky part was when my hair simply fell out en-mass, after a few seconds of the liquid touching it, the slight touch of his hands caused it to simply drop out.

Once done he dried me with an air shower, and asked me to stand on a platform that folded down from the front of the exam table. Standing on the small step, I figured it was to make it easier for him to apply the neural interface.

"Turn around." I did so slowly. And soon I felt the soft cool gel pads of the interface along my spine.

"Don't move, this has to be perfectly aligned." he said gravely.

I held very still as he put it on, and then started on the interface for my skull. Once the neural interfaces were done, he told me to:

"Place your forearms and elbows on the table, and bend completely over the table." he said it coolly but I was far from calm.

"Is this necessary? You said-" I stopped cold when I turned around and saw him putting on gloves and holding a container of lubricant.

"Yes, it is. I need you to listen to me, please bend over the table." he still said calmly.

"I don't have to do this!" I shouted, frustrated with his calm demeanor and the continuous humiliation. I tried to step down from the platform but he grabbed my arm. It was now I noticed the other 'biological interface' and its shape was disturbingly like that of a penis.

I remembered the stories of the Tau being sexual sadists, I always thought those were to scare teens from having sex, but now I fearfully doubted that.

"Do I need to remind you that you agreed to a one month contract? I'm your boss and your care taker, and as such your job is to obey me." he said firmly still holding my arm, and preventing me from leaving.

"This is getting ridiculous, you don't have to-" I started.

He sighed loudly, cutting me off, and called out the open door "-Orderly!" a black bull in a white jumpsuit stepped in to the room.

"Bend him over the table and restrain him- and mind the interfaces." it was a cool command, and it freaked me out- now they were going to force me?

The black bull grasped me firmly at the shoulders and applied incredible pressure, forcing me down.

"No!" I shouted as I struggled.

"Stay calm, you need to calm down." the orderly said as he held me down and strapped my arms to the table with synthetic cuff straps.

"Now when you are in the tube, your waste is removed trough this tube I'm going to insert anally, but first it's important you stay calm and relax your anus." the Lieutenant was so calm about this it was disturbing, I tried to break free, but it was to no avail.

"I'm going to put some lubricant in and do a little stretching to prepare you for the interface." the bull said calmly as he placed a lubed finger to my opening.

"No..." I shouted as I tried to not hyperventilate, my heart felt like it was going to explode. And that's when I found out just how big a Tau finger is. I cried out in pain as he inserted one finger and lubed the inside of my hole. Then he started some light stretching. It felt like forever before he pulled the finger out.

"Quiet now, you need to relax some. I'm going to put the probe in now." I didn't realize it, but I was crying, I had given up fighting and turned in to a passive and whimpering animal that resorted to begging.

I felt the cool tip of the probe against my lubed hole and the slight pressure as he put it in.

"No don't! I don't want to!" I cried out as he placed it in and slowly slid its whole length in. It was about seven inches until I felt the base plate against my butt. I was panting uncontrollably, that was probably the most painful thing I ever felt. There was a click as the probe was latched to the harness I wore, locking it in place.

"Ok, let him up." the Lieutenant said, and the orderly uncuffed me and let me stand. I was shaking and in shock.

"Turn around." A firm command.

I did as I was told in a daze, the bull grasped my penis and put a catheter in, I don't remember it much I was to shocked and far from present. After the catheter, he started to stroke my penis some, until I was partly hard.

"What the hell are you doing?" I started, once I was aware enough to notice.

"The penile interface is easier to install if you have a slight erection." he said as he slid a sleeve over my cock. It to clicked, locking in to place.

"Ok, now come with me." he led me, followed by the orderly in to the computer interface room. He pressed a button and the tube lowered from its vertical position, until it was lying on the floor, then one end opened and slid out presenting a table. He picked me up and lay me down on the table and started to plug in the interfaces, probes and what not attached to me, inside the tube.

"Ok, this is going to frighten you, but we are going to insert the oral probe, air and feeding tube. Orderly hold him, I don't want him to try and pull the tubes out."

He was right, I was terrified as they held me down and proceeded to force tubes down my throat. But soon the machine started to breath for me and something drizzled into my stomach, and I relaxed unwillingly as the oral probe was locked to the harness on my head. I felt really tired and relaxed, I lay back naked, and then the orderly released me and I curled in to the fetal position, vaguely aware as the table retracted in to the tube, and once sealed started to fill with warm transparent blue liquid. I was floating in an artificial womb; my half open eyes afforded me the view as the tube raised back to the vertical position. The Lieutenant stood before the tube looking at me through the transparent aluminum and the blue gel-liquid. He held a small device up to his muzzle and I heard his soothing voice fill the tube.

"You're taking very well, I won't turn the computer on until later tonight, it takes a lot to get use to. For now I will activate the interface so I can monitor your vital signs. "

I reached forward slowly and awkward and touched the tube, and after a second he reached up and touched the same spot outside the tube.

"I want you to relax and get acclimated. Your body will be completely cared for by the interfaces and the nanites in the gel. Just relax. I'll stay here while I run the final diagnostics. I don't want you to worry about anything, I will take care of you." he soothed me. I lowered my arm; it felt like it took all my strength to just hold it up for that few seconds.

"Ok, turning on the interface, I just want you to get use to it a little at a time." as he finished his words, a strange sensation came over me, a tingling in my entire body as it went numb other than the minimal sense of warmth from the Blue liquid. Then a soft sensation of being ...connected with something? Like I was lying down with my eyes closed and just sensing and feeling my entire body. Then the sensation grew exponentially, there was a sense of my body being...orderly... black and white, like it was ...a cold and calculating machine. I must have been feeling the computer, or at least part of it.

Suddenly a log on screen of a computer appeared before my eyes, simply floating in front of me. I stared at it, and wondered where the display was. I tried reaching up and touching it. But my hand didn't affect it, and it didn't block it either.

The Lieutenant saw my strange stare of wonder as I weakly and shakily swatted at imaginary words in front of my face. With a bemused grin he told me:

"There's nothing there- that's an image projected in your mind." Then he returned to examining some display after a moment.

After a few minutes he held up the device in his hand- it was a light blue and round in shape, with a flat front and back, it glowed with some sort of a display.

"See this? It's a com device, it allows me to monitor you and contact you from any place on the ship, and it never leaves my side. So I'm watching you and can talk to you even if I'm not in the room. I have a few things to attend to, and you need to rest and acclimate. I will be back every so often to check on you." he touched the tube lightly and then exited the glass door. I couldn't see him once he passed through that, because it looked like it was mirrored. After looking at the words and not understanding them, and looking about the room for a while I got bored and I already felt so tired... I closed my eyes, and surprisingly the words were still there. It wasn't in common, so I hadn't the slightest what it said, but soon my exhaustion over took me, and I drifted off to ... sleep? Was it sleep? I wasn't aware of the world around me, my eyes were closed, but I felt like I was sleeping, but almost like a dream where you are aware? I don't know how long I was like that but I was 'awaken' by the deep and soothing voice of the bull.

"Wake up Jason. It's time to start the computer." the voice seemed to fill the tube as I slowly opened my eyes. My vision was a bit blurry, and I shook a bit when I remembered I was in the tube.

"I'm going to activate one system at a time, I don't want to overload you." he tapped at some display off to the side of the room.

I became aware of a huge network, of which I was a part of. I could see it, feel it, and it just simply was. It was powerful, it felt infinitely so, its logic was vast, it had more computing power than a hundred million of my brains. More accurately 102,204,556.843333 repeating, fluctuating +/- 12.931% depending on my state of mind and age. Whoah-What the hell!? How did I know that? I knew that because the computer calculated it. 'Well that's convenient.' I thought not so much to myself anymore, the computer instantly answers any question or thought in my mind.

"What you are experiencing is meta-data. The network, sub systems and devices will slowly expand and more will come on-line."

Next was a sensation of... Devices, they were remote devices. I had no idea what they were... until I wondered what they were. Then I instantly knew what they were, and where they were. An outline map started to fill my mind, with a visual chart showing me the inter-relations and flows of data. Some devices were doors, some were hatches, some were various pieces of equipment on the ship, sensors for climate control, Wow, I could sense everything once those devices finished booting. Wait not everything, there were limits, but they were few, the computer reminded me in its cold logic. Furthermore until I was cleared I couldn't control anything, only observe.

"Ok, you seem to be doing well, I'm going to turn on your communications. It will allow you to talk to me." the Lieutenant said and touched his control. "Ok, all you have to do is think of who you want to talk to, and then think what you want to say." I experimented:

"Hello?" I thought to the Lieutenant. I could hear in the room outside the tube, and it was clearly my voice saying that.

"Good. I can hear you." he said with a pleased smile on his face. "Now you have to be careful, because if you broadcast, everyone can hear you, and if you don't pay attention, you might broadcast your most intimate thoughts to the entire ship."

I didn't like that thought much at all. The computer offered me a contextual setting that allowed me to have to specifically give the command to broadcast ship-wide. I liked that idea.

So far this was amazing, there were so many things I could feel remotely, but right now it was like being in a pitch black room, if only... oh that was next- the computer informed me that visual and sensor data would probably be the next item on line, with a chance of 89.32981% for that being the case.

I would have laughed if I could, when the Lieutenant announced:

"Next is the sensor network and panoptic visual system. This one is probably one of the hardest. Are you ready?"

"Yes, I am." I said, feeling extremely fluent and confident in my words- unusually so. I..? Then the computer informed me that it was because my thoughts were able to be arranged with extra power from the computer, amplifying my natural skills, and I could even prepare a mental text of what I wanted to say with the computers aid, with advanced re-processing and composition examination. More or less it would help me talk more eloquently if I wanted.

"We will start with the med-bay."

Suddenly I knew what the Lieutenant meant by this being difficult, as a panoptic sensor and visual network came online. Imagine being able to see in every direction at once, and fully sensing the exact temperature, sound and vibration of everything around you. I felt sick as my mind adjusted to the massive change. It was like I was made up of eyes. The computer informed me that I was seeing a combination of data from every sensor in the medical room, which was then fed to the computer, which in turn was making a real time virtual simulation for me to observe from my new perspective.

I hadn't realized it but my eyes were closed right now, and trying to open them made me sick. After some time I slowly started to get use to it, but it was still hurting my head.

"How are you?" he asked, I slowly opened my eyes and had to deal with the sensation of being in two rooms at once. Admittedly this room didn't feel as real as the medical bay I was viewing in my mind.

"Its ... wow." was the best I could muster as I quickly closed my eyes again.

"I know it's a bit disorienting, we will turn on the rooms one by one, and then you get to take the rest at your own pace."

"Ok sir." I offered, humbled by this experience.

Slowly I became aware of another room, it was a dark supply closet. I knew no one would be able to see in there, but I could... because... the room is being fully scanned with laser, infra-red, ultra sonic, and a dozen other frequencies, allowing me to see the room in full detail despite the darkness. Watching two rooms simultaneously, in 360 degrees was a daunting thing. It was simply put, overwhelming. Slowly we went room by room, turning on panoptic visuals in each one. And slowly it became less sickening and more interesting. I was excited, this was probably what it was like to be a god, and once everything was online I would be almost omnipotent. The Lieutenant started with store rooms, and rooms less likely to be occupied, as any activity in the rooms I saw was very dizzying to me. Imagine seeing a person from all sides at once- thankfully that was just a setting and not the standard way I saw things. Soon I had a full view of the ship, with engineering plans as overlays for areas I couldn't see, like the room I was in, or dead spaces, and even inside the walls. I could sense and see the entire ship, even its skin was embedded with sensors allowing me some feeling there. It was truly panoptic, a godly experience.

"I will let you settle and explore the ship for now, once you're ready to move on let me know. Oh, and for now when you 'move about' and specifically examine any room- that is focus your attention on an room or place, a light mounted on the ceiling turns on, out of courtesy to the other crewmembers so they know your observing. They have orders to leave you be while you acclimate, introductions will be for later. Let me know if there are any problems." and with that he left the room. It was eerie to watch him step in to the hallway and I could see him walking towards the commander's quarters. In my mind I was watch him both coming and going.

The ship was a hive of activity as the Tau prepared for the lift off tomorrow. For me I could both see the entire ship as an overview and on a room to room basis at the same time, so I explored the different parts of the ship and looked at the engine rooms, the mess hall, store closets, the armory. I couldn't see everything. Some rooms he had not 'turned on'. Like the captains quarters, and the ships barracks, and a few other places. In place of the all seeing visuals and sensor data, those rooms just had white on black engineering drawings in full 3D. I knew the rooms shape, its size, but I couldn't see anything in it, it wasn't long before it became a frustration to me. I looked across the rooms, and after what felt like forever I started to get use to the omni-presence. It hurt my head some, but the computer was able to actively negate that, but I hardly felt my body as it was. I started to wonder about... and I didn't finish before the computer answered me with exact details. Time was distorted because of the interface; seconds were like minutes, and minutes like hours, because for a computer a microsecond is a very short amount of time, and that translated to me some - the computer was assisting in my thought processes, vastly speeding up my mind, and affecting my perceptions of time.

Then I noticed the Lieutenant exiting the Commander's quarters, and no sooner than I wondered where he was going then the computer overlaid a pathing program, with various lines heading in every possible path that he could take, that shifted in real-time, and with different colors gradients representing the probability of him taking any particular path. It was 98.43910% probability that he would take the path returning to the interface room with me. It became more and more accurate until it reached 100% as he entered the room. Wow this was so cool!

The lights automatically faded on as he entered the room.

"How are you Jason?" he asked calmly.

"Good," I thought excitedly. Even the artificial voice that so perfectly emulated mine sounded excited- it was a perfectly realistic voice. "-this is really amazing, it's so powerful, the computer... I can hardly describe it!" the computer instantly offered a list of several possible adjectives and synonyms that it assumed to be appropriate for the situation. "This ship, she's beautiful!" I said truly meaning it. It was a fine machine I was connected to, part of.

"He." the Lieutenant stated flatly. "Never call Him a she, it's insulting. This ship is a He, and he is handsome." he said acting bit angry at my words.

"Sorry sir." I said wondering what could have made him so angry.

"In our culture, unlike yours, things are referred to in the submissive masculine- that is things like this ship are considered male, and male adjectives are used to describe it such as handsome- and as submissive, it needs to be cared for. This crew would be very insulted if you were to make such a statement again. Now I'm going to turn on the one thing that can break a mind, so I want you to be careful with it. I will turn on the data bases, archives, and calculations computers, they offer vast sums of data with increasing levels of detail and complexity to any query you give it- so take it easy."

As the data and analysis modules came online, I suddenly had meaningful information about all the things I saw and felt. For instance the reason that the Lieutenant was upset about me calling the ship a she was the Tau belief and culture, specifically that they were homosexually oriented due to them being all males, and that the ship was seen as he said 'a submissive masculine' meaning to them it was a much loved and cared for partner. I could see data to back that up in the actions of the crew, the ship was spotless, and when crew members touched any part they were gentle with it, kind to it. I had seen mechanics on conserve hitting there broken machines and cursing them, archived optic data showed that the mechanics aboard this ship tended to caress and sweet talk their machine.

"You are attracted to ...him." I said in a moment of understanding.

"Humm? Oh, yes the ship. Very." he said looking at me. I looked with my half open eyes at him.

"You see the ship as a partner you need to care for, as a lover?"

"Yes, I think you are understanding." he said coolly.

"And it's a... homosexual thing."

"Yes. Think about it, it's quite beautiful."

"And you see me as a part of the ship."

"Yes, you are integrated with the ship quite thoroughly. Didn't you wonder why a human male was chosen?"

As he posed the question a data point unfolded before me, human males were consider submissive in comparison to a bull, mostly because they looked a lot like a Tau female, and were physically weaker than a Tau. For Tau physical strength is a major factor for deciding masculinity. And the females Tau bred with it seemed almost identical to human females, although the Tau were naturally homosexual in inclination, and so a human male was far more preferable- they liked the crew to be all male. It seemed I was as much a part of the ship as the computer was now a part of me, I was more or less to be an interface and personality for the vessel. I was shocked by the facts presented to me, and the sheer web of information that was pouring in, it was over whelming. There were so many data points expanding infinitely in every direction, I started opening them, more and more, I hardly noticed as my body started to convulse and my mind started to fade.

"Jason!-" I was dimly aware as the Lieutenant shouted, I was still too focused on all the masses of archived material. "-Calm down- its ok! You control the flow of information, just slow down- Jason!" the Lieutenant shouted in a panic. Suddenly a calm feeling filled me, and my mind stopped paying attention to the massive archives of data.

"I gave you a sedative, you need to be more careful, I warned you that this was dangerous. You have to work within the limits of your human mind, you will be able to handle more later, but right now you have to be gentle on yourself." he said passionately as he placed one massive hand on my tube.

"The sedative won't wear off for an hour or more, I will be back then, as always you can contact me any time." and again he let the room. I heard the words, but was hardly aware of them, or the rest of the ship, and mostly I saw what my weak eyes allowed me to. It was incredible- the fidelity of the panoptic system, I could see every detail in perfect clarity, as if it was right in front of my face. But now my human eyes were woefully inadequate. I did have to admit the sedative made me feel really good. I sat in a mental haze thinking about nothing at all, and looking vacantly in to the empty room, until it slowly wore off. I started to pay attention again and realized the lieutenant was already in the room.

"Sir...I..." I wasn't really sure what to say.

"It's ok, having instant access to every book in a library simultaneously is harsh, just remember to respect your limits." he said.

"Kay." I had a lot of humbling experiences that day.

"If you're ready, I want to set you up with your hologram. It will allow you to interact with the crew a lot easier, and it has a great aesthetic value." the Lieutenant told me how to enable and disable my hologram, and even how to have a presence in different rooms simultaneously. It was really easy, and the computer showed me all of the details I needed to know. To lessen the strain on me, I could limit my field of view to that of the holograms perspective. And after understanding it thoroughly enough, the lieutenant told me I should try and rest. Technically I was conscious 24/7, and my mind didn't really sleep, but he said it was healthful to have regular rest periods, where I limit my control and sensory input. He said if I liked I might listen to music or read, (in my mind!) and try to only use my human eyes for a while.

"Rest. You're confined to this room until I say otherwise- I'm using the manual cut-off to lock you out of the rest of the ship- or more accurately, locking you in here. Tomorrow we start with the final checks before launch, and by 2100 we will be in orbit. That's a tight schedule, so you really need to be fully rested." He turned a large control on the wall, manually disconnecting me from the sensors outside the interface room. All the rivers of data stopped flowing, and it was quiet.

"I think your right about rest..." I said. The lack of data allowed me to feel myself a bit more.

"Good night Jason." he said as he left the room. The lights turned off after the door closed, and the room dark and quiet, bathed in the soft deep blue from my tube. I was left to the piercing silence of the interface room.

'Music. Yes, music, let's see, there seems to be plenty of that on the archive system-play. Ok not my type, but whatever. I guess this is kind of 'my room'. Not that I own it or anything, but... Sigh. Oh god. I have to find something to do, after a full day of massive mental stimulation, music won't cut it. Reading. Ok, I can read a book, something interesting, something...useful.' I thought. I was exhausted, but mentally I felt like I had a nonstop energy rush. So I spent the night listening to strange music of cultures I never heard of before and reading about implications of quantum dynamics and the reflection of light. I wouldn't have been able to read such a thing before, but with the computers help, I was able to understand things a lot better. I actually read the entire book in one night.

I was still puttering around my new mental abode, looking for things to do when the Lieutenant stepped through the glass door. I watched as he approached my tube and placed one hand on the surface as he gazed at me. I decide to wait and observe, and see what he would do first.

"You're handsome." he whispered. I might not have heard it if I had only human ears to listen.

"I'm not sure what to say about that. Thank you I suppose?" I said wondering if I could catch him off guard.

"You're welcome, I'm glad you're awake, was your rest time rejuvenative?" he queried without a flinch or any hesitation- He was obviously sharp.

"I suppose. I don't really know, I don't think I did anything like rest. You aren't going to lock me in here every night are you?" I asked.

"No, I don't think so. Are you ready for me to reconnect you? It will be rather sudden." he asked as he moved towards the big circular switch.

"I'm ready sir." I said trying to project confidence, in reality I was almost dreading this. I wasn't fully sure I wanted this, it was just so much.

"Here you go." he said as he flicked the switch, and instantly my mind was swamped with the vast sums of data.

"Is there any way to make that less...Intense?" I asked with a quiver to my voice. It hurt my head it was just so much, so suddenly.

"I will look in to it." The lieutenant said as he moved back towards the tube."Are you ok now?"

"Yah. Yes sir. I'm ok." I said regaining my mental composure.

"Meet me in the med lab." the lieutenant ordered, and then promptly left the room.

"Yes Sir." I projected my hologram in the med lab, and I was waiting for him when he entered.

"Good. We're going to go on bridge, this will be your first duty assignment, and we will lift off this afternoon. So you must learn quickly- Walk with me." The lieutenant started to turn away.

As we stepped on to the bridge the lieutenant told me I should probably stay on the dais, and he moved off to the side. Shortly the commander entered.

"Commander on deck!" A quick salute went up from crewmembers that weren't busy, and the commander strode in to the tiled circle of command.

"Status." he asked curtly.

"We are a quarter through the check list and engines are on standby for start." a crew member reported.

"And how about you Jason?" the commander said as he looked over to me with his arms crossed and a pleasant smile.

"My systems are at 99%." I said, assuming that was what he wanted.

"I meant how you are feeling?" he tried again.

"Oh, quite well."I said a bit confused.

"Good." the commander said pleasantly before returning to his holographic display.

The Lieutenant stepped up to me to gather my attention- speaking softly he said:

"Jason, you need to learn to address the crew properly. You are a civilian, so all crewmembers outrank you, hence you should call them Sir." he said waiting for me to reply before stepping back.

"Umm- yes sir."

"Just make a habit of it." he said before focusing on his duties.

"Jason." the commander called my name without even looking in my direction.

"Yes...Oh ...Yes sir?" I responded.

"Pull up the checklist and tell me when it will likely be completed."

"Yes sir." I now had my first task on the bridge of a ship! I started to think about a checklist and a lot of possible checklists scrolled before me, I narrowed it down quickly with contextual thoughts, and the computer started simulations to find the completion time.

"It will likely complete in approximately one hour and thirty minutes... Oh...Uhh... Sir!" I said barely remembering to tack on the title.

"Good."

---

I suppose I could recount my story of my first voyage, but it wasn't that interesting, we didn't actually go to deep space, it was really a final shake down of the ship... and to some degree a test for me. The ship had just had the Bio interface installed, and a full overhaul of the systems and modernization of its armor and armaments and... Well I digress...

We didn't do anything other than drills for the crew and teaching me some basic protocols. I learned really quickly through the ships archives, and learned to study in my free cycles, even a little on duty- I could devote a portion of my attention to reading or what not- if there was not a lot happening at the moment.

But at the end of almost one month in space, I had learned how to control all the sub systems, I had learned the names of most of the crew, and had the most power and control in my life. We made planet fall back on Hub-13, and that's when the Lieutenant first told me.

"Jason, it's time to come out of suspension." I was a bit surprised by the words, I hadn't really thought of it, one month I had been nothing but a living brain, with the resources of a vast and powerful computer at my disposal.

"Sir, I, I didn't think it would be so soon." I said surprised and dismayed.

"Well when we make planet fall, and the crew gets shore passes, you do too. And its protocol for you to be removed from the tube at least once every three months, But you need a physical exam and the tube does need to be sterilized."

"My information says I could stay in indefinitely." I retorted with the aid of the computer.

"Technically, yes, but your body will shrivel and atrophy." besides, don't you want to see the city some? Have a chance to use your pay?" he countered.

"Your right. It would be nice to stand a bit." I said as he entered the room.

"Ok, I will start the sequence." he shut off my connection to the ship, and powered down my computer.

I felt so powerless, lost in a void, the powerful streams of data were gone, the strength of the computer was gone... I felt so weak...

I had to rely on my own senses now, and I saw the tube shifted and lowered to the ground, and my warm blue gel drained away in time for the tube to unseal and slide open. My weak eyes afforded me a glimpse of two bulls, one was the lieutenant I was sure, the other one I had no idea. The sounds sounded muffled through stereo audio of my human ears, the data cables were disconnected, and one bull grasped my head, and holding me to face him.

"Jason! Jason! Listen, were going to remove the breathing tube, you have to start breathing once the tubes out ok?" I nodded, or tried to.

The tubes that had been breathing for me for so long were pulled out and I panicked, I had no air.

"Breath!" someone shouted, after a few coughs I remembered how to breath, and started taking short gasps. Slowly I returned to normal breathing, but my world was hazy, confusing, and cold.

"He's in removal-shock." Another deep voice said.

I had no idea what was happening, and was shaking uncontrollably, and I think I was crying. Someone grabbed me with a blanket and I don't remember being carried but suddenly I found myself in the med bay, being set in to tub of warm water. A sharp prick on my neck and I soon felt calm and relaxed.

---

I woke up feeling tired in a warm blanket, looking around with the frustratingly limited perspective and strength of human eyes. I recognized the ceiling of the room as that of the med bay-having the Omni perspective allowed me to see a lot of ceilings in the last month. I tried to move but it was almost imposable.

"Guhhhaaa..." I tried to talk, but it was just mush. "Guhhh... Liue...t.. Lieutenant..." I finally was able to speak; I found my mouth such a weak and difficult way to communicate.

"Your awake- How do you feel, and don't move yet." he said as he checked my eyes.

"Tired, weak, slow. Please never take me out of the tube again."

"That's up to you. You have to re-negotiate your contract, and decide if you want to stay." he said as he turned off a vitals monitor.

"You have a few days to decide and rest up. For now you can use the med lab as your quarters. I'll send someone to get you when its meal time. Will you be ok alone?"

"Yah. I... yah." I said slowly and lay back down.

I must have fallen asleep, because when I woke the lights were off and no one was around. I felt the need to piss badly, which was probably what woke me. I tried to get up to use the med bay's toilet, but when I tried to stand I just fell down naked on the ground next to the exam table. My legs hadn't even moved once in the last month, and it wasn't going to happen today. I tried to pull myself, but my hands were too weak.

"Lieutenant!" I shouted. "Someone!" this was both humiliating and frustrating. I couldn't even tell if there was someone in the hall, I didn't have any view other than my two weak eyes.

One of the warriors entered the room.

"Hello? Is someone in here?" his bassy voice enquired questioningly.

"Sir! Over here, could you help me?" I said relived that I wouldn't have to piss on myself and lay in it until someone found me. The bull came around the table and saw me on the floor, and came to my aid.

"Jason! Are you ok?" he asked concerned. I admittedly didn't know his name, I only really learned the names of the crewmembers that I interacted with regularly- The computer had always helped me with the rest.

"I'm ok sir, I just need to get to the toilet, but I can't stand yet, would you help me?" I asked.

"Of course, it's a good thing I heard you from the hall." he said as he picked me up and carried me to the toilet, and set me on the large fixture.

It was a bit difficult to use the large controls, toilets and fixtures of Tau made equipment, but needless to say I was much relived he had helped me. He carried me back to the exam table and helped wrap me in the blanket.

"Thank you sir, I don't suppose you could help me find the Lieutenant?"

"Not a problem Jason. The Lieutenant is off ship, he's on shore leave until later- do you want the senior medical tech instead?" he asked

"I suppose that work sir. I just wanted to ask him when I would be able to stand. I don't really want to lie here all day and night." I was physically tired, but my mind was bored.

"I can get him, I'll be back." he said as he rushed out the door.

It wasn't long before he and the medical tech returned, and the Tech was able to determine from the digital notes left by the lieutenant that I would be able to move around as soon as my body was strong enough, but I wasn't confined to the med bay.

"I don't suppose one of you could carry me out of here... To some place interesting?" I asked hoping I could get away with it.

"I don't see why not. We were going to bring him to the mess hall for chow in an hour any way, let's just start heading that way." the warrior said cheerfully. With the med tech's consent he picked me up one arm under my knees and one behind my back, making sure the blanket was keeping me warm, and started to leave the room.

"I'm sorry sir, I didn't catch your name?" I asked him.

"I am warrior Algavul, I'm on my off shift so I will gladly help you until I have to return to duty." He said looking down at me.

"Thanks."

He carried me to the ships lounge and recreation area and set me in a chair at a table where several warriors on their off shift sat. We had a good conversation, and it seemed I was well liked and even admired by most of the crew. Some even thought I had one of the most difficult missions on the ship. It wasn't long before food was served in the mess hall, and Algavul carried me to the table, and sat next to me. Again the conversation was lively and good spirited, and the Bulls rather seemed to like talking to me. I had a hard time getting my hands coordinated to eat, and with a bit of help and some patience I finally was able to enjoy the first food I had actually eaten in a month, that wasn't dripped down my throat unconsciously.

"Wow, that was a good meal." I said truthfully. I may have eaten better in my life, but I wouldn't ever complain now.

"Well we hope you choose to stay with us Jason." One said.

"Oh Yah... I guess I have to decide what to do." I said remembering the thing that good food and conversation had made me forget. What would I do?

After the meal we returned to the lounge, but I sat at a far table leaning back in a big chair, as I told them 'to rest'. I didn't want to be stuck back in the med bay yet, but I wanted some time alone to think.

The pay was ridiculously good, the power was...godly. The work was fun and exciting. I didn't want to go back to doing boring labor on farms and throw away this chance at a dream, to fly in space on a combat ship. But look how I was, so weak so disoriented. But I craved the panopticon, the power, I wanted it again. It looked like the only reasonable decision was to take the job. It would be for two years, and Lieutenant had told me once before my strength would return after a while out of the tube. I could retire on conserve after that if I wanted to with all the money I would make...

---

I spent the next few days being helped around with a slowly decreasing amount of aid, and I was finally able to move about on my own, I managed to get my clothes back so I could walk around the ship and even outside some to see the sun.

I admired the ships graceful but powerful shapes, His flat black, brutish hull, his graceful engine cowls, sturdy and stubby wings; he was truly handsome ship to be a part of. Not too big, but not too small, and massively powerful for his size. It was amazing that he hadn't been reclassified as a light cruiser after the retrofit, he was almost too powerful for even that classification. His weapons could rip through any armor easly.

He was nameless at the moment, between the retrofit and the Tau-Human alliance- protocols, he was simply: 'Heavy Destroyer, Deep Space, # 5468'.

'HD-DS-5468' was printed on the vertical atmospheric control surfaces and hull in a few places in both Tau and common. He had previously been known as the 'War Axe', but in Tau navy and Sky-force traditions, a ship was renamed after a major retrofit.

I wondered what they would name him.

---

The day came when the Lieutenant came to me asking me to see the commander. I knew it was time to make my decision. When we sat in the commander's office we all knew the question at hand.

"I want to do it sir. I want to sign on." I said looking at him.

"Excellent, we had faith in you Jason." the Commander said happily. "You are now truly a member of our crew."

A few details were ironed out and I Bio-digital verified my contract with the Tau Skyforce. I was now officially a civilian contractor for the Tau Empire.

"There is going to be a party in your honor the day we lift off. Until then you will accompany the lieutenant and he will see to getting your body back in shape before then." he said as he returned to his control screen.

"A party?" I said a bit surprised to the lieutenant after we left the office.

"Yes, we wish to welcome you aboard properly now that you have decided to spend some time with us, also the ship will be properly rechristened after his now successful refit."

"Wow, sounds like quite an honor."

"It is. You should be proud."

We spent the final few days back and forth between the port and ship. The Lieutenant was the officer in charge of the Bio computer interface... More or less me, in addition to some medical and technical duties. He had a vast knowledge of the system and how to assist the 'interface' in handling post tube life. He was a good friend and we spent a lot of time together, partly because I was now an important asset of the ship that needed protection. I wasn't allowed to go anyplace off the ship alone.

The day of the party and launch, all the crew gathered outside the ship in orderly lines and stood in attention in there gray dress uniforms as several officers in gray-black kilts took turn giving speeches, honoring the crew, the ship, even me. The ship was being renamed, and the gray cloth covering the bow was pulled off by the commander, revealing the large text in Tau and small text in common under it.

'Jason's Flight'

I was shocked, and the crew cheered.

"Did they name the ship after me?" I whispered uncertainly to the jubilant Lieutenant next to me.

"Yes, you are more or less the ships personality, when you're plugged in, you are the ship. It's like your body." he said quietly to me- He was right.

I was briefly carted out in front of the crowd and given a few cheers and what not, before myself and the lieutenant boarded the ship again followed by the crew. It was time to re-interface. I knew what to expect now, this would be a lot easier, but no less humiliating experience.

This time in the crew's locker room we weren't alone. It was actually a bit difficult with so many Tau in there, and a lot of attention on me. Some wanted to congratulate me still, and I didn't mind that, it was just that I had not seen a naked Tau before, and I was now. I was probably a bit envious of their size, and A bit embarrassed by mine in comparison, but they didn't seem to mind.

As the Lieutenant and I emerged from the crews locker room, the regular cat calls I expected, a few congratulations on the job too, I heard stuff like that from jocks in school. But what I wasn't ready for was the slaps on the ass- quite a few from passing crew. I tried not to get flustered, spirits were high and it was just some good natured affection.

Once in the med bay the first few steps went fine, but again I was nervous about the insertion of the probes as I stepped up on the platform and was ordered by my superior to bend over. I listened tensely as he pulled on gloves and announced he was going to start. Cold lube and a warm finger penetrated me, and I gasped loudly. The lieutenant had an orderly standing by, who was just standing in front of me staring at me with his massive arms crossed. One massive finger stretched me as I reminded myself this wasn't a sexual thing, just a medical procedure from a professional. I was shaking by the time he pulled his huge digit out and changed his gloves.

"Ok Jason, I'm going to insert the probe now." he said as the lubed tip touched my hole.

I gasped deeply as it first entered, and panted as more of it continued to slide in. Soon the base plate locked against the harness and the probe was in.

"Alright you know the drill, stand up and turn around." He could say it so easily.

I did as instructed slowly standing and turning. He finished the attachments and I noticed he had a lot more hand contact this time around. I figured he was trying in his own small way to reassure me or be friendly. Once we were at the interface room I was a lot calmer and mentally prepared for the insertion of the breathing tubes, once I was fully plugged in the lieutenant arranged me in the fetal position and paused to caress my face.

"You doing ok?" he asked.

I nodded slowly.

"Ok." he stood and the tube sealed, and the familiar warm blue gel filled up and now I knew the gel was there to help isolate my mental signatures and contained chemicals and nanites to keep me clean and prevent hair growth. Once full, the tube returned to the vertical and I floated in the center of it with my arms slowly finding my sides.

The interface activated and the computer modules loaded, and I winced as the mind blowing amounts of data returned. I was both looking forward to this and dreading it at the same time. Finally the power I craved returned; the ability to see and feel the entire ship, as the panoptic systems came online.

"Systems fully functional sir." I said as calmly as I could, attempting to preempt the inevitable question. I wanted to prove myself the best interface I could.

"That's all well, but how are you?" the lieutenant asked.

"Fully integrated, I'm fine." I said coolly.

"Excellent, were preparing to lift off, the commander would like to see you on the bridge." he told me.

"Yes sir." I closed my eyes and observed the commander on the bridge, and then I projected my hologram on the bridge near the entry hatch.

"Reporting for duty Sir." I said as I strode across the dais to the commander's side.

"Ah, Jason, I'm glad to have you here. How was your re-integration?" he asked pleasantly with both hands behind his back.

"It was smooth thanks to the ...Lieutenant... wait, why am I nude?" I stopped mid sentence when I finally noticed my hologram to be fully nude. My hologram had been fully clothed in a Tau skyforce jumpsuit when I was last plugged in.

"I can't seem to correct this error." I said, humiliated as I quickly tried to get the computer to fix the glitch.

"It's not an error. I order it."The commander said softly.

"What? What the hell's wrong with you?" I demanded in a low and curt voice. If I was real I would be shaking with rage.

"Jason! Respect your commander!" the lieutenant said in surprise and anger with one step towards us as he joined us on the bridge.

The Commander held up a hand to the lieutenant, and turned to face me.

"Your human form is very pleasing to the eye, and I wish it to be seen. That said, you are also part of my ship, and belong to me just as this ship does. And as I am the master of this ship I am also the master of you. As my property, you will refer to me as master." he said coolly and firmly.

"You!" I nearly hissed the words "-You faggot! You have no control over me! I will never call you a master- you don't own me!"

The commander looked at me I could see the anger in his eyes.

"Lieutenant- confine him to his tube immediately. I will handle his punishment after liftoff." he said coldly and returned to his duties with a professional calm. The lieutenant ordered me off the bridge and then he promptly returned to my room, and cut off the manual switch, electronically 'locking me in', then he left. I was now reduced to a computerized mind in a jar. After a long while alone, the lieutenant and the commander entered briskly.

"Jason, you have violated your contract, and violated Tau law. As in both documents, I am entitled to discipline you as I see fit. You made three breeches and dishonors: one- you charged me as a faggot, which translates to a very strong insult in Tau. Two- you failed to obey the direct orders of your superior commander. And three- you failed to honor your contract with me as your master. This said, I have decided your punishment. You will complete three tasks, and until then you will be confined to your tube and quarters. First you will call me master, and continue to do so until your contract expires. Second you will willingly submit to my command and dominance. And finally you will thank me for the homosexual experience I am going to give you." he said tersely.

"What!?" I stammered- what the hell did he mean by homosexual experience?

"Do you, as his guardian see this as fit and just?" the commander said turning to the lieutenant.

"Yes Commander, as his defender and guardian, I find your sentence is just and fit." the lieutenant stated gravely.

"Very well. Carry out the punishment, I will be watching." the commander said as gave the lieutenant a small data-cache and then turned and left.

"By orders of Commander Tetrious, I now commence your punishment." the lieutenant said as he plugged in the Data-cache and activated a control. An image filled my mind blocking out everything else, and it was a disgusting sight to me- A naked young human man was kneeling before a Tau, and about to suck his cock. He was going to force me to watch this garbage! I had no choice but to watch it in perfect fidelity in my mind- that bastard!

Then it got worse, as the man took the bull hood in to his mouth, I... I...I could feel it in my own. I felt the sensation of a cock in my mouth- I couldn't resist it at all, I was too weak, I tried to struggle, thrashing about in the thick gel, but I just became exhausted. It was that damn probe, it was nanite filled or something, and now it was expanding and contracting in time with the thrusts on the video in my mind.

I felt so violated, I couldn't stop the images in my mind or the feelings in my body. The feeling of a large hot bullcock pushing into my throat again and again didn't give way until the Tau in the porn came, and to my horror, I could feel the warm thick seed filling me as it spattered down my throat.

*************************************

The lieutenant returned after some time, and stared at me with icy piercing eyes.

"Why..." I asked on the verge of tears.

"You should ask yourself that." the lieutenant said coldly.

"What...?" I mumbled uncertainly.

"You should understand what was granted to you before you condemn such things. You need to use judgment in your position, and you showed no judgment what so ever in your words and condemnations." the lieutenant said sternly.

"What the commander offered you was a very high honor, and you threw it in his face. For you to be complemented on your form by him -while he is on duty no less, and on bridge is a great honor. Furthermore to be given the option to be without clothes is a great honor, mostly reserved for highly favored warriors and as a reward for difficult tasks. And you dishonored the commander by showing yourself unworthy of his complements and honors, and attacking his reputation. He used great restraint in his punishments for you, and I agreed with them thoroughly." he paused and looked at me silently for a moment.

"Do you know anything about homosexuality? No, it seems not, but you attacked his masculinity with it, while knowing nothing about it. I think it's fair that you learn about it in a very personal way. Even if that way is your first homosexual experience. I think it offers you a good opportunity to examine the matter now that it is something you have direct and personal experience with. You need some humility too, the commander is not to be fooled with, and you must obey his orders, it is vital to your position." he said emotionlessly then he turned left the room.

As he mirrored glass door opened I spotted the Commander standing on the other side, watching. He had been watching.

The door closed and showed me my reflection again, naked and helpless in a tube.

"Fuck you!" I shouted to the empty room, and any one that might still be standing beyond the glass. My rage was boiling me alive, and I couldn't do anything. I alternated between hate and sorrow, I shouted and screamed at the commander, and I cried like a child. It was not right- how could they have done this to me, I felt wronged, I felt dirty.

So many things played through my mind, blame, fault, revenge, action, something. It felt like days, weeks of this endless torment. Alone in a tube left to suffer the consequences of what had been done to me. After what must have been a week I started to think logically again about it. I tried seeing it from others eyes. What did happen, how it could have been different? How could I end this?

I would out think them. That was the obvious solution, time was on my side, I just needed to figure out an action, and use their own punishments against them, to win this.

I would win- what he had done to me was... wrong...? Was it wrong- wait- what was wrong about it? He had forced this on me, that was wrong.

But If I hadn't said what I did to him he wouldn't have... I started it.

I hadn't... no, I had offended him. But that wasn't... no, it was a good reason for him to be angry. But that didn't give him a reason to rape me. What would such a thing accomplish... oh.

Like he said, it was personal now- I knew, I experienced a place that I had criticized without knowledge. Like the old saying goes: walk a mile in their shoes before you criticize someone.

I guess I had now. It still wasn't right... was it?

When the lieutenant returned once more asking if I had learned my lesson, I think he was surprised to hear my answer was yes. After what felt like and endless eternity of thought and emotion, I had come to the conclusion that the commander was right. It was not the answer I was looking for, it was not the way I wanted to believe, it was no easier to swallow now than it was before, But all logic, all reason, all feeling showed it to be right. I grudgingly had to accept that.

"I will call him master, I will submit to him, and I will thank him." the words were hard to utter, but I did.

"I think he will be pleased. All your other functions will remain off line, and you will inhabit this android until the commander is satisfied with your punishment." the Lieutenant said a bit surprised at first, but then quickly back to his professional tone.

"Android?" I asked uncertain what he had meant, I saw no android, and what did he mean by inhabit?

"Yes, we haven't activated them yet, they were to be a surprise for you after liftoff, but you had your...outburst." the lieutenant said as he moved over to a panel along the wall of the room. Touching it opened silently and revealed an android grasped by metal hands that lowered it to the deck.

It was perfectly life like- and it was me. I looked at it the best I could with my poor vision, but it was definitely me.

"It's...me."I said a bit stunned.

"Yes, it will allow you to move around the ship with much more presence then a hologram, and you will be able to handle things, play instruments, cards, or what not." he said as he activated it. "Are you ready to inhabit it?"

"I, ...yah!" I said uncertain and excited at the same time. I was sick of being stuck in this tube. He did something and I found my eyes opening, and I was looking at me in the tube, and... I had hands! I held them up and looked at them; I looked down at my body... Hmmm.

I was once more fully nude, and it looked like it was a fully functional android- I started to have bad feelings about it.

"Don't worry, no one has touched your body, it has been safe in this locker the whole time." the Lieutenant said trying to pre-empt my fears and questions.

"Why not just project holographicaly?" I asked uncertainly.

"The commander wants to be able to restrain you if you prove... undisciplined. Are you ready now?

"Yah...sir, yes sir." I said remembering the title.

"Follow me." walking and moving was natural the same as if I was in my real body. I knew what I had to do now. I had to go before the commander and apologize for what I said.

He wanted me to call him master, to submit to his authority, and thank him for his punishment.

I could call him master, he was the master of the ship, and I am the ship to some degree. I could submit to his authority, he was the commander, I was just a hired hand. I could thank him for the punishment, but not for the reasons he thought.

As we entered the bridge I was escorted by the lieutenant, and he stopped in front of the Commander.

"Jason is ready to complete his punishment." he saluted and pressed me to my knees.

"M...Master, I submit." I said shakily, the words were sour in my mouth.

"Then Submit to my dominance." the Commander said sternly. I wasn't sure what he meant.

"I already did." I said uncertainly.

"Jason, submission to a dominant male is done ...orally." the Lieutenant said quietly. Yah I told him verbally already... oh. 'Oral', not verbal. The vid he made me watch was... about teaching how to submit.

"Hurry up." the Commander said impatiently. "I don't want to start the punishment over." I was blushed red and scared too, he wanted me to take his bullhood in to my mouth, in front of the command crew. But it wasn't really my mouth... but I had to make a decision, the Bull looked impatient. I crawled closer and unfastened his gray kilt, letting it drop to the ground, reviling his Bullparts. Slowly I reached up with one hand but stopped before I touched him. I really didn't want to do this.

"Put him back in the tube, and continue the punishment." the commander said shaking his head slowly in disappointment.

"No-wait!" I said before any one made a move. "I submit." I said as my androids eyes blurred with synthetic tears. I took the semi-erect bullhood in my hand, and opened my mouth. Slowly I moved my face in to the musky bull's loins and opened my mouth as wide as I could, the Bull was big but his parts easily fit in to my android mouth. I sucked on the male part as he placed a strong hand on the back of my head, pushing my face deeper in to his loins. The android body was quite capable of deep-throating the Bull in his entirety, and I found the sensations disturbing, and tried to pull off, but he would press me back in, resulting in my unwillingly bobbing on his bull-cock which he enjoyed mightily and loudly. His balls slapping my chin and neck with each thrust into my face- He started to forcibly thrust faster and faster, his primal grunts filling the command room, until he came with a bellow and pulled out, spraying seed all over my face and body. He released my head, and I fell back on my ass, crying shocked, and humiliated. He took a few moments to calm his breath and recompose himself, before standing over me and with his hands on his hips, he reminded me of the final part of my punishment.

"Now thank me." he said satisfied, with his tail swishing back and forth.

That bastard- after violating me, he wants me to thank him. I sat where I had landed, angry and upset, hot tears of frustration, humiliation and anger running down my face. He stood still and tall over me waiting.

"Thank you." I said curtly and quietly.

"No. that won't do." the commander snorted disappointedly.

"Don't forget the title, and for what." the Lieutenant whispered a hint to me.

"Huh." I huffed angrily. "Thank you for the punishment, master." I said with a hint of anger.

"Don't take that tone with me boy." the commander said sternly, a clear warning. "-Start the punishment over."

"No!" I shouted getting back to my knees. After a few moments of silence: "Master, thank you for the punishment." I said humbly bowing my head low. It was humiliating, but I wasn't going through all that again.

"I accept. Your punishment is complete, your transgressions are forgiven, and your honor is restored." the commander said resuming his stance and duties as if nothing had happened, and still half nude. I sat on the floor in silence for a while, staring at the commander's gray and black kilt laying on the deck.

The Lieutenant helped me back to med bay and where I cleaned up. I didn't know if I could face the Commander again, or anyone that had been on the command deck after all of that. Honor restored? More like shamed in to submission.

"You know he likes you." the lieutenant said, trying to break me from my darkened state.

I sat silently and let him finish wiping the bull's seed from my face.

"And the crew thought it was honorable for you to be able to accept your punishment so well."

"The crew?" I said horrified. Surely he did not mean...

"Your punishment was announced ship-wide, and broadcast for the crew." the lieutenant said calmly, as if it wasn't a big deal.

"What!? But-"

"But nothing. Punishments have always been public in Tau Empire. Don't do dumb things you will regret." he said almost chiding me.

***************************************

I spent some time in my room and prepared myself to face him again. I was scheduled for duty in a few hours time, and was expected to be on the command deck then. I wouldn't be able to look any one in the eye for a long time, but I would just have to bear it. The computer could assist me in evening out my composure and words around those that made me nervous, but that wouldn't really make it easier for me.

The following weeks were tolerable, barely. I felt embarrassed anytime someone made eye contact, it just felt like they knew, like they looked down on me for it. I always got the same thing from every one- a little knowing smile. It was wearing on my nerves, I couldn't stand it. I spent all my free time in my quarters, away from the crew and there stupid mocking grins. Just walking down a corridor and I felt like the crewmembers were considering humiliating things about my naked android body. (I had procured my pants from the storage locker, but I was only allowed to wear them on my rest periods- commander's orders.)

The Lieutenant started visiting me a lot, every day pretty much. He would stop by my room and spend time with me, which I liked- it was lonely otherwise for me. He was the only one that didn't give me that look, I think he was the only one that still respected me. He would sit on the wide padded bench that my android body rested on, and we would talk, or play a type of card game, or other pointless things. But mostly it was someone to be around, he was the only one on the ship I would call a friend.

One night he entered the room with a spring in his step and a grin on his muzzle. Sitting down he held out a small coin like item, flipping it in the air and catching it.

"What's that, that you're in such a good mood about?" I asked curiously.

"Pornography." he said smiling at me as I inhabited my android body.

"What? Like a data card?" I asked and turned on my higher functioning computer briefly, and examined the coin. (I had disabled the computers assistance in all things sexual- it was frustrating to try and jack off or entertain sexual thoughts with a computer reminding you of the low probability levels of your fantasies coming true, or giving a countdown in microseconds until your 'sexual climax and ejaculation'. So I set it based on words, behaviors, and a range of high level functions so it would disable itself automatically.)

The visual reference on the coin-device showed it was a data storage and projector device, it could play a visual and audio... and this one was porn. "Oh."

"Wann'a watch?" he asked still grinning.

"I don't know if my tastes in pornography are... matching yours." I said dubiously.

"Based on what? You don't even know what I like." he said in mock defensiveness. "This just so happens to be very popular right now, we got it on Hub-13, its human-female on female pornography, and I hear it's very good." he said with a grin.

"Well... I...Ok. I didn't know you liked that kind of stuff." I said reluctantly.

I was very curious and rather horny, months aboard a ship make you that way. I was surprised to hear that he was interested in this kind of porn, but then again as he stated, he never revealed to me his sexual interests. I sat next to him and he tossed the coin on the floor, where it started to project on to the far wall a large image, and low and behold -naked female porn. I watched interestedly, I wouldn't mind some new material for later... I was rather enjoying it.

But apparently the lieutenant had other ideas about how this viewing was to be enjoyed, he unzipped his fly and pulled out his long floppy cock.

"What?" he said innocently as I stared at him in disbelief.

I simply shook my head, I was speechless.

"Is there something wrong? In case you forgot this is a porno." he said matter of factly.

"Yah, so you're just whipping it out? Right here, right now?" I asked with disbelief

"That's what porn is for, masturbation. What do you expect me to do? -Save the thoughts for later?" he said like it was the most ridiculous thing he had ever heard.

"That's what I was going to do. Just ... later...when I was alone." I tried to hint.

"You act like you've never seen a male naked before- And I can't imagine you haven't ever masturbated before." he said uncertainly. "Any way, it's starting- shhh." He shushed me, by holding a finger up to his lips, and turned back and focused on the projection, indicating he had no further interest in arguing.

Giving up I turned my focus to the porno- after a few moments it gave up any pretense of a plot or reason for existence-and it was really good actually... I started to get hard from the thoughts and images dancing through my mind, I started to grasp at my bulge, and tried to re-arrange it to make it more comfortable as I got erect. Right about then the Lieutenant started jerking off right next to me. His hips were touching mine he was so close, and I found it a bit disturbing and kind of distracting, the motion he was making with his hand up and down the shaft was huge- he must be pretty big... I glanced over and was a bit shocked by his size, and I couldn't help but to watch as he felt the need to shift out of his pants, he looked over at me with a grin, "This is a good one." he commented quietly before turning back to the images playing on the far wall.

I got a bit more comfortable with the situation as I got hornier and harder from watching the porn, and started to care less. So I decided the hell with it, there's nothing wrong with jacking off to porn in the same room as a guy. Besides, the lieutenant was like a good friend to me, and he was enjoying female-only porn, he must be straight. So I unzipped the fly of my jumpsuit and started to jack off, careful to keep my eyes on the screen. But it was difficult, he was large and the sound of his hand stroking his cock was pretty loud. I came fairly soon, and leaned back catching my breath, and glanced over at the bull, his passions were high and he grunted fiercely before coming loudly spurting all across the floor.

"Damn ...that was good!" he said after a minute, and satisfied, as he too leaned back and caught his breath.

I carefully put my junk back in my fly and sat up some.

"So... you're straight?" I asked uncomfortably after a few moments.

"What do you think?" he replied with a grin as he looked over at me.

"Well it was just... never mind." I ended the conversation, that was enough for me.

"Well I have to go on duty in a bit, I'm gonna go clean up in the med bay." he said standing and jerking his thumb towards the door before he stepped out.

---

It started to be more regular, about twice a week the Lieutenant would have some new porn, and we would watch and jerk off. It wasn't bad, and it gave us a lot of fun inside jokes- we made fun of the terrible attempts at plots or justifications most of the low-credit vids had. Usually it was human-female on human -female action, and more and more often it was human-male on human-female action, but I didn't mind that.

One day as we sat to watch another porn vid, the Lieutenant asked me something strange.

"Jason... I have a request, one I wouldn't make of anyone but a true friend... would you help pleasure me?" he asked cautiously.

"What? You mean like I jerk you off and... You jerk me off?" I asked filling in the blanks.

"Well, yes. It feels so much ...better, when it's not your own hand. And well, it's two more months until shore leave... I'm just getting tired of..." he trailed off.

"I, uhhh... I..." truth was I wasn't sure about it, but the thought of anything that wasn't my hand rubbing me off...I liked that. I couldn't begin to tell you the dirty things I was going to pay hookers to do once I got some shore leave.

"Look, Jason- I know you're not gay, and I'm not asking you to do anything that is like that, were just friends and we've been jacking off next to each other regularly for months now, I just want a little help." he said sounding frustrated.

I didn't want to sound petty, and I craved the touch of another myself so badly, it was starting to be an issue for me. I wasn't sure how much longer I would last without going insane. Disturbingly enough, my desires had been so high I even thought of the ... the punishment the commander had given me once or twice, I was that desperate and horny. I would do anything right now to keep from getting that desperate ever again.

"Ok." I said quietly and sat down next to him. I guess I just wanted the touch of another that bad.

He dropped his pants, and I unzipped my fly.

"Just drop them, the oil makes a mess." he said pulling a small container of lube from his pocket.

I shook my head, amazed that I was doing this, and dropped the pants. He poured oil on my crotch and his hands, and passed the bottle to me. I just did the same- I was nervous now, I had never touched a guy like this before. He started the porn and then slowly touched my balls lightly, caressing them.

"What are you doing?" I asked uncertainly. I was under the impression I was just going to stroke his cock and he mine, and we would be done.

"Well, I'm jerking you off." he said in an almost upset and sarcastic matter-of-fact way.

"What's with the balls?" I asked about his caresses of my orbs that had just stopped.

"I don't know about you, but I touch my balls while I stroke off. I thought everyone does that." he retorted, sounding annoyed as he paused the porn.

"I thought... look I don't know about this." I said having doubts. I wasn't gay.

"Well I was going to touch you the same way I would myself, and I was kinda hoping you would do whatever you do to yourself to me." he said like it was a crushed hope, or such a simple thing that I was unreasonable about.

"Let's just forget-" I started but he quickly cut me off.

"No way! you said you would, and I take a person's word seriously. You got my hopes up (that's not all that was up), and I'm not letting you ruin this." He said a bit angry. After a moment of tense silence he continued- "Look, if I could get a hooker for us, I would- but the commander won't allow non navy personnel on his ship like that..." he said empathetically.

"So just man up and keep your word." he huffed sternly.

"Fine." I said after another long moment of silence.

He started the porn and reached over and started caressing my balls. Normally I waited until I felt moved to start stroking, but he expected a bit more it seemed. I reached over and touched his sack, it was freaking huge and covered in warm oil. I traced a finger across the surface, and tried to focus on the porn. It was hard to do so, I had to actively make myself touch his junk, somehow endure the feeling on mine, and watch the vid.

I sighed out loud as he gently rubbed the soft length of my cock with his thumb. I was starting to get hard and I wasn't even paying attention to the porn yet. I quickly started to watch the porn, but unknowingly stopped stroking him, lost in the pleasures of his hand, but with the power of pornography and imagination, it was the insinuations of the hot chick on the vid, who was madly excited by me. His hand rubbed my loins sensually, his fingers feeling the orbs, and forming a ring around my cock, stroking it softly and gently up and down. As the vid got hotter, he started stroking more passionately, and quicker, his pace was mighty and I came with a shout, my android body releasing some sort of synthetic seed all over his arm.

I relaxed backwards and his grip on my cock softened.

"Looks like you owe me one." he said getting up and heading out the door. I lay there the most satisfied I had been since the first time (and last time) I had sex back on conserve-34. But then I realized I owed the Lieutenant an apology, and I needed to clean up, so I got up and headed to med bay. He was taking a leak and using a damp cloth to wipe the lube off his loins, and I grabbed a clean towel and started to do the same.

"Look, I'm sorry I didn't-" I started.

"Don't worry about it, I know you're a human of your word, and I'm sure you will return the favor later, and we'll be even." he cut me off, I think mostly to save me the embarrassment of trying to say 'sorry I didn't jack you off'. He finished cleaning and tossed the towel aside.

"I'm late for my duty shift. See you later." and he left with a grin and his uniform pants hung over his shoulder.

---

Things went on as normal between us, and we continued to watch porn together. (Though we continued masturbated each other a lot more successfully from then on.) - It really was a lot better when it's someone else's hand.

At first my concerns about whether it was gay or not bothered me, but the Lieutenant said a few things that made sense. If I wasn't gay, and I was just helping a friend, then it was cool. It wasn't like we were in a relationship; we were just friends that enjoy the same porn. Plus it wasn't like there were any females around to do anything with me anyway, not this deep in space.

So things continued without incident. He didn't say anything about holding up my end of the agreement to me, and I said nothing about it to him, it was just kind of uncomfortable to think about.

---

One day the vid that broke the normal human male-human-female porn was Tau-male-on human-female... That one freaked me out some- not that I had anything against love between our two peoples- but it was hard to not stare at the Tau male as he plowed the human. He was a lot different, a lot bigger.

Then a real shocker came- he played a Human male on human male porn. At first I was just quiet and didn't touch him, but he continued to fondle me.

"Hey, I don't want to watch this. It's..." I wasn't sure what to say. Why he wanted to watch this was beyond me... unless...

"You need to widen your tastes some. Have you ever seen porn like this? How do you know you don't like it until you watch it?" he said like it was no big thing.

"Are you... Bi?" I asked uncertainly almost not wanting the answer. I stood up and stepped back from him, I didn't want him touching me anymore. If he was gay, and he was touching my body... that was... I don't know, it was wrong.

"Yah I'm Bi, I thought you knew." he said like it was a surprise.

"No! You told me you were straight!" I shouted.

"No, I asked you what do you think." he said sternly- Tau don't like accusations on their character.

"You..." I paused, calming my breath and tried to cool it as much as possible. I remembered the last time I lost my temper. "Don't bother coming in here, I won't do this anymore." I said tersely.

"That's fine if that's what you decide, but you still owe me one. Your word." He said calmly, almost as if it was no big deal.

Damn him! I wanted to punch him for manipulating me like this.

"Fine." I spat. "-Hurry up though."

He sat down and calmly played the porn. I sat next to him, but then he picked me up.

"What the hell!" -and set me in his lap, with his cock sticking up between my legs.

"This will be quicker- you wanted me to hurry up- use both hands." he said as he leaned back and started watching the porn.

With a hateful look I took the lieutenant's cock in my hands and started stroking.

"Slower... I did a nice job for you, I expect the same." damn him for being right again.

I slowed some and rubbed his balls with the other hand. I focused on what I was doing and avoided watching the porn. Soon he started to rub my back with his powerful hands, and the android's precision sensors relayed that to the nanites embedded in the gel of my tube, mimicking the sensation on my real back. It was pure pleasure as he rubbed the knots of stress and anger in my upper back right out. I arched my back as he continued. I looked back at him and he was smiling- this was just as good as masturbating to me, his hands were powerful and knew all the right spots. I groped myself with one hand and stroked him slowly with the other, but soon he freed one hand and started stroking me. I just leaned into his powerful hand as he rubbed my back and my loin, groaning in pleasure.

"That's twice you owe me." His voice woke me from my rest.

"W...Wh-What?" I said coming back to reality.

"You stopped again, but it seemed you had fun, so I just continued." the lieutenant said with a grin.

I must have stopped stroking him when he started to touch me, and dozed off after I came.

"You're just exploiting me! Stop it!" I shouted standing up quickly.

"Watch your words..." he warned- "I did not exploit you. You were tense and angry; I just wanted to relax you some. You're acting very immature."

"Leave." I said with anger.

He stood silently and shaking his horned head, he left.

---

I didn't see him for a week other than for on duty or passing in the halls. It bothered me, the loneliness I now felt, before we had such a good friendship, a lot of fun and jokes- even jacking off together had been good. Now I didn't even have porn to jerk off to.

I was feeling frustrated with the situation, so I re-enabled the computer assistance in sexual matters, at least temporarily.

I examined the situation, had I been right or wrong? Was what I said and did a good way to handle the situation? The answer I got was not the one I had been looking for: the truth of the matter was I had been rude, short sighted, and I had cultural issues with sex.

He was right- I needed to broaden my horizons, and at least try new things. I needed to learn my lessons about sexual preferences and what they mean about someone better this time. And the computer won't allow me to ignore my own hypocrisy, like the fact that I showed a lot of what I had referred to as 'gayness or homosexual tendencies'. Computer analysis of my visual and eye movement showed that about 50% of my focus was on the loins or rears of other males in nude pictures. I would have called that gay before, and said that someone like that was a fag, but I wasn't any of those things, I... what was I? Was I Bi? I spent the next week digging through myself with the computers help, and came to the conclusion that I was at least curious, maybe a *little*bisexual, and very repressed because of the culture I grew up in. I also spent a lot of time trying to handle that. If it weren't for the computers help, I might have spent years figuring this out on my own.

I guess I needed to apologize to the Lieutenant -again.

I contacted him later and asked him to meet me in my room on his off-shift.

"Look, Lieutenant, I'm sorry about before, and I just want to say a few things. I realized now, that I shouldn't let my old culture get in the way of my life, and I shouldn't try and hold you up to its standards. You were just being the horny, and biological being you are, and I couldn't accept that then. You were also right about me needing to broaden my horizons. And when it comes down to it, I acted poorly and because of it lost your great friendship. If you can forgive me- I want to start hanging out again, like we were before. To prove it I ...I want to try ...try and watch that gay porn of yours." that was a hard thing to say, and I was a bit concerned he would just take my apology and humiliate me with it.

I didn't expect him to hug me. He dropped to a knee and gave me a long hug.

"Jason, you are a good friend, I was distressed when you didn't want to see me, and I too liked our various forms of fun together, and I want that back too." he said soulfully. He really meant every word.

After an uncomfortable silence he produced a data-coin from his pocket. "Got anything else planned?" he said with a smirk.

We sat down on the bench and he tossed the coin to the floor and it started projecting. I sat next to him naked save for a shirt but then he grasped me and slid me in to his lap.

"I'll take care of us this time around, I want you to just sit back and watch the porn." he said before I could object.

The porn started and it was Tau on human-male action. I was nervous as hell as the Lieutenant started to touch me, and the Porn started to pick up. I wanted to find I didn't get anything from this vid, but I did. I wanted to find that I didn't like it, but I was fascinated with the naked Tau. I was curious and then some- the Tau was strong and had a huge build; his body was graceful and powerful at the same time. It made me wonder a lot of things about Tau males, it made me more curious. Just how long were there cocks? Just how big around? How heavy were those balls?

The Lieutenant worked, stroked and rubbed me to a climax, as I watched a Tau plow a boy ruthlessly in the vid. I was actually getting hard from this, and actually going to get off- I tried to resist, but the strong hands of the Lieutenant were too skilled.

After I rested in his arms, that's when he hugged me.

"You're a good friend Jason. You were even willing to try something that made you uncomfortable."

"You're a good friend too." I said as my heart rate finally slowed.

"Thanks. But you still owe me." he said with a grin.

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