The Beginning of a Life - Part 2
Zak sighed, sitting up in the bed. "I don't really know..." His fingers were playing with the bedding.
Chase, sat next to him, looking at Zak's hands. "You're shaking."
Zak nodded. "I don't think I can take much more..." You could feel the hurt that Zak was experiencing just by sitting next to him.
Chase. "What do you mean?"
Zak shook his head. "My parents. My sexuality. You. Other men." Zak leaned back, and rubbed his eyes. "It's so fucking hard."
Chase looked at Zak. "Me?"
Zak looked at Chase. "Have you ever looked at your self? Have you ever seen the girls at our school, staring at you?"
Chase nodded. "Yes, and yes."
Zak shrugged. "I hate looking at you, and touching you and feeling the way I do, but not being able to act on it. I don't feel the same when I'm around you. You make me feel special, important, like you love me, but you don't and I hate it."
Chase felt really bad. "Zak. I'm not gay... I'm not... I don't like you like that."
Zak nodded. "I know! No one does! I'm alone. I'm one of the only furries... I'm bisexual, we'll mostly gay. I love my best friend and I can't do anything about it!"
Chase sighed, looking at the bed.
Zak shook his head. "My parents are getting divorced. And when I go to sleep, I have dreams about you. Me holding you, us sleeping together..."
Chase breathed deeply, closing his eyes. "I don't know what I can do to help."
Zak shook his head. "You can't do anything. No one can." Zak was staring at the ceiling. "I just with god would make you gay for one night." Zak smirked. "Sorry. I'll stop."
Chase felt unconftorable but he knew that Zak needed to talk.
"You know, today when I jumped on you, it was the first time I got to feel your chest... Your muscles."
Chase looked at Zak, his eyes were closed. Chase shook his head but grabbed Zak's hand. He moved it slowly onto his chest and held it there.
Zak looked at Chase and tried to pull his hand away but Chase held it tightly against his body. "Chase, stop. It'll just make me want you more."
Chase let got of Zak's hand and took off his shirt, looking at Zak with a very serious expression. "You have been my best friend... Since, I can remember. You are a virgin, a senior in high school, and you love your best friend." Chase got onto his knees on the bed. "I want to do this."
Zak looked at Chase. "You're not gay, and I don't want you to do this."
Chase smirked. "You don't have a choice. Take off your shirt." Chase moved some pillows off the bed and laid down. "This is your one night for the guy you love to be gay. Do everything you want." Zak just stood there in his boxers, looking at Chase. "Get on top of me Zak!"
Frightened, Zak did what he was told. He looked into Chase's eyes. "I don't want you to d-"
Chase put his hand on the back of Zak's head and pulled him in. Chase was kissing Zak, opening his mouth as Zak's tongue invaded the space. They kissed for a long time. Zak was starting to tent and Chase wasn't trying to stop anything.
(( I'm ending it here cause I don't want to put any more just yet. I need to figure out were to go with it. Let me know if you like it. This story is a true story. I was Zak and my best friend, Tyler, was amazing. I was gay and he was there. I lost my virginity to him... He is now bi and has a boy friend. I am now single. Tells you were that went, but I got what I needed at the time. ))