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The mirror was reflecting my true identity.

"You look great in uniform," Mike said from behind me. His smile was flirty and even his reflected image couldn't mask his anxiousness. I looked deep within the mirror in front of me, admiring myself in the clothes I was wearing.

"Do I look like an Envi employee now?" I asked with a slight chuckle. Mike had found me a dark grey suit to wear for my day as his technical assistant; the big purple lettering on the front indicated that I worked for the dance club. Sure it wasn't a real job and I wasn't getting paid, but I was ready to have fun.

"Well ignoring the fact that your tail is longer than you are, yup, you look great." We both laughed for a moment and I couldn't lose my smile when he kissed me softly on the cheek. I had so many problems racing at me at once, but Mike was somehow making everything go away. He was making me feel safe; just as safe as Cyd once had. "Are you nervous?"

"Nervous?" I asked in a cocky voice, "more like thrilled!" His arms reached around to the front of my body and I laid slightly back into his arms. I could tell by his warm touch that he cared for me. I could tell he wanted to protect me and be with me.

"Doors open in less than thirty minutes; you remember everything I taught you?" he asked as he held me close.

"Yea, I think I've got it," I reassured.

"Well I'll be right next to you all night long, although you probably won't even need my help." He kissed my head one last time before turning around and exiting the room. I knew and understood he had other things to do before the club started to let people in. I didn't really mind much because for the first time in a long time I felt comfortable being alone.

I took one last look deep within the mirror in front of me and I liked the person staring back at me. After everything I've been through, I was learning to let go. I was learning that spending all of my time sad and confused didn't make me or anyone around me happy. Change was coming and I was going to make sure it did.

As I entered the "computer room" I quickly grabbed a seat down in front of the large computer monitors. My eyes flicked back and forth between the screens as I set the combinations and ordered each light and sound effect that I found fitting. The night would start off with an upbeat song that was exhilarating and heart pounding followed by equally paced songs while gradually slowing down the speed until finally bursting into a grand finale of cosmic lights and invigorating sounds. It was a plan that I was sure everyone inside the club would enjoy and love.

I jerked my eyes away from the screen when Mike came back into the room with a wide smile and anxious body. "You sure you're ready for this Nate?" he asked as he grabbed a chair from the back of the room.

"As ready as I'll ever be," I replied excitedly. He sat the chair down next to mine and hastily jumped onto it.

"You're going to be amazing," he said softly trying to release any worry or doubt I had left in my mind. I gave him a flirty expression and looked him deep in his gorgeously blue eyes. I felt as if a little devil was sitting on my shoulder screaming "Kiss him! Kiss him!", but I stayed reserved and waited for him to make the move.

"Am I interrupting something?" Ralph asked as he came walking into the room. I quickly pushed myself back away from Mike, acting as if I had no idea why his face was so close to mine. Ralph's hair was half spiked and he was obviously still in the progress of finishing it.

"Nothing we can't continue later," Mike replied while still staring into my eyes. I began to blush a little, but tried my best to hide it behind my head fur. "Do you need anything Ralph?" he asked as he tried his best not to laugh at my failed attempt of hiding my embarrassment.

"Doors open as soon as I can get this damn spike up, you might want to actually have music playing when they get in." He was speaking in a tone that was both sarcastic and serious; I wasn't sure if I should start the music now or after he left, but my lack of a decision made the decision to wait. Ralph gave me a friendly smile and walked back out onto the dance floor.

Mike turned around and walked back to my position, quickly wrapping his arms around me from above my chair. "Is everything set up and ready to go?" he asked as he softly kissed the side of my neck. I tried my best not to whine or purr like a cat, but his soft muzzle against my fur made me let out a small gasp for air, almost a moan.

"Yup, just as you taught me," I replied while moving my head to the side, allowing him better access to my neck. He took advantage of the notion and started to lick higher up on my neck and eventually began to nibble a bit. "Unless you don't want me to do my job, you might want to slow down a bit."

"I know; it's just hard to keep my paws off of you cutie." I heard him laugh under his breath before he pulled back a little and made his way towards the door. His tail wagged in a flirtatious manner as if he wanted me to watch it as he walked away. "Go ahead and start the music, I'll be back here as soon as I can." He closed the door tightly as he walked out and I took a deep breath to try and get rid of my nerves.

'Well, here goes nothing!' I told myself as I hit the play button to start the music & mesmerizing light show. I listened as the sound quickly transitioned from silence to loudness. I knew that the speakers out on the dance floor were loud, maybe one of the loudest I've ever heard, but in this room the sound was almost completely muffled as if it was being suffocated on its path through the walls. I looked down from the monitor in front of me and onto my tail that I had lying across my lap; the same tail that Cyd loved to grasp for comfort.

What am I doing here? Something in my gut is telling me that this is all a mistake; a lie. Cyd was there for me when no one else was. He did everything he could to help Luke and even though it didn't save him, he did everything in his power to make me feel like I wasn't alone; like my heart was still alive. The feelings he made me feel and the love that he made me live, it wasn't a fake and I knew it, yet I was here with Mike anyway. I was still flirting and kissing and having feelings for him even though I knew I loved Cyd. I loved him so much, that I couldn't help but worry that he didn't love me back. How is that possible? I honestly don't know. I was so deeply in love with him that I became worried that I wasn't good enough. Cyd has to be using me, he has to be. That's the only reason someone that perfect would want to be with me. Plus I can't forget about what he accused me of. He told me that I was the reason that Luke...

He blamed it on me.

I guess my habit of running away has caught up to me, but the only way I can think of how to deal with it, was to continue running. My feet are growing tired, but I can't stop running.

"Nate!" I heard someone call from somewhere in front of me. The voice sounded technological, as if coming from a telephone or a speaker. "Nate, can you hear me?" the voice called again. I looked over to my right and spotted a small walkie-talkie at the end of the desk. The antenna was sticking up tall and the charger it sat on contained a bright green light, indicating that it was well past charged. I pushed myself back, allowing my chair to roll across the floor until I was in reaching distance of the device. I quickly ripped it up from its stand, pressed the communication button, and began to speak.

"Yea I can hear you, what's up?" I asked for lack of a better introduction. Luckily, I didn't have to wait long for a reply from the other end.

"Hey babe, it's Mike, you won't believe what it's like out here!" he exclaimed, trying to project his voice over the sound of the music.

"What's going on? What does it look like?" I asked, not being able to sit still in my seat.

"The music is awesome, the lights look great, and the crowd is one of the biggest I've ever seen. With the way you've got these people dancing, we might just have to make you our personally D.J." My smile grew extremely wide and I swiftly jumped up to my feet.

"Could I come out and see? I promise it'll only be for a couple minutes!"

"Of course you can cutie; I've got a surprise waiting out here for you anyway." My eyes lit up and I leaped for the door. My emotions couldn't be contained no matter how hard I tried and despite all the sadness inside me, the happiness around me overpowered my body. The sound intensified extremely as I opened the door and the lights filled my eyes like the stars in the night time sky.

I began to make my way through the crowd with no purpose or direction. All I wanted to do was watch and observe all the people around me. The entire crowd was laughing, smiling, and dancing; I couldn't see one sad face in the entire room. What I found to be extremely overwhelming was the fact that I was the one doing this to all these people. I was the one who filled their ears with carefree sounds and engulfed their eyes with worriless sights. I controlled everything going on around them and they all reacted with nothing but pleasure. I felt like I was making a difference in each and every one of their lives and I knew that I was doing what I was meat to do: make people happy.

The trance music began to slowly fade as the song reached its ending point. Everyone slowed their body down and turned their heads to the front of the room. I joined the crowed and looked forward to see a large stage set up with a microphone standing in the dead center. A figure from the crowd hopped up onto the right side of the stage and everyone began to applaud and cheer. I squinted my eyes to try and figure out what was going on and it didn't take me long to realize that the figure on stage was a familiar coyote, Mike. My curiosity forced me forward as I tried to get a better view of platform.

"If I could have everyone's attention up here, please," Mike said into the microphone. Although most of the crowd was already quiet, the remaining few noisemakers grew silent with attention. "How many of you are enjoying yourselves already?" The crowed lit up with elation and everyone began to scream and cheer. "Good, good. Well watching you guys and gals dance I assume that you like the music. It'd be my honor to show you all a little friend of mine, the guy responsible for all the entertainment tonight." My body froze in fear and I my heart began to pound ferociously because I had a feeling about where this announcement was going.

"Will everyone take a second to look around yourselves and help me find a cute little husky with an outrageously long tail?" The crowed began to bustle and as soon as the people around me looked down at my tail, they rapidly spread out away from me and left me alone in a large circle of space. I took a gulp of anxiety and looked up at Mike whom I found staring back at me. "There you are. Everyone give it up for my good friend Nate!" The crowd once again started to applaud and cheer and a few of the audience members gave me a small shove towards the stage. "Come on Nate get your little furry butt up here!"

I complied nervously and walked slowly up towards the stage. Some people I walked by gave me a push in the right direction and others that did not touch me were either clapping loudly or screaming my name. I loved all the attention, but I was also scared of doing something wrong. When I reached the stage, Mike came over to me and helped pull me up. It was a very short and small stage but still tall enough for everyone in the audience to see.

When I arrived at center stage, I decided that I wanted to let my fears go. I wanted to do what I wanted when I wanted no matter what anyone thought. I wanted to look stupid and not care, I wanted to act crazy and not care, I wanted to be myself and not care what anyone thought of me. I reached my arms out in front of me and grabbed the mike stand, quickly pulling the microphone up to my mouth. I closed my eyes for a bit longer than a blink and let out a small sigh masked by a short laugh.

"Thank you all so much for your support and it means everything to me just to walk around and look at all of you guys having a great time," I called out excitedly. Although I wasn't quite finished with my statement, I didn't mind being interrupted by cheers from the audience. "If I can ask one thing from everyone in the crowd, it'd be this: Let your worries go. Just take one second to look around you and notice that you're not alone; nobody in the room is alone nor will we ever be. We all have pain, we all have sorrow, and we all get hurt, but tonight, just for one night, leave all your baggage at the door and join all your friends here on the dance floor. Out there in the world we might be separate people, but here we are all one and I want to see each and every one of you having the time of your lives!" The crowd began to scream and shout and I felt like I was the king of the world. It was better than anything I've ever dreamed of or anything I could ever dream of.

"That's why we all love this husky! Make sure you buy him a drink if you see him around," Mike called out to the audience. He grabbed my paw tight and led me off the left side of the stage as the music faded back into its full volume. Everyone in the club began to dance once more and a new atmosphere of acceptance and glee filled the air. Nothing could ruin my mood tonight, for tonight was going to be the night to remember.

"Hopefully you won't hold that against me," Mike laughed, slightly apologizing for my embarrassment. I felt his arm slowly ease towards mine and his fingers began to wrap themselves around my own. Thoughts of Cyd began to flow through my mind, but I just let them rush back out. I wasn't going to worry about my actions or second guess the things I was thinking. I wanted to live in the moment, not worry about the future. "Can I escort you back to your computers cutie?"

"How about you go and make sure everything's okay and I'll catch up to you in a bit. I've got to use the bathroom real quick," I replied. I tried to let go of his paw, but he insisted to continue being dragged alone with me.

"I guess I'll let you go if I have to, but don't take too long. I want to spend as much time with you as I can," he called as we drifted our separate ways. I wanted to reply with conformation, but the loud music combined with the current distance was enough to silence any communication we had left.

The smile on my face did not lessen a bit as I pushed my way to the restrooms on the side of the building. With such a lively dance club, you couldn't expect any less than the colorful and luminescent restrooms I found myself in. The walls were painted with bright purples, greens, and blues and every countertop was glowing white or light blue from the black lights surrounding the area. The lights also revealed some "naughty" stains that both repulsed me and excited me.

I stood at the urinal and pulled my penis through the zipper in my pants, a habit I didn't see myself getting over anytime soon. When I was done relieving myself I continued over to the glowing sinks and began to wash my hands with the freezing, ice-like water. My ear was forced into a twitch when the swinging doo r to the restroom edged open. I turned my head slightly enough to see in my peripherals the person that had walked into the room. A knot formed in my throat when I realized that the person was Cyd.

"Hey Nate," he said in a calm, normal voice. He was biting his lip slightly and looked more nervous than I had ever seen him. He seemed quiet, reserved, and sorry.

"What are you doing here?" I asked without hesitation. I was glad to see him and even more thrilled at the fact that he wanted to see me. I wanted to just jump into his arms and tell him how much I loved him, but my brain was telling me not to forgive him so easily.

"Ralph told me you were controlling the entertainment tonight; the place looks incredible." He looked deep into my eyes and tried to break a smile. It may have been small, but I could tell he was trying.

"Look Cyd, you can't just show up here out of nowhere and expect everything to be alright. I have things to do, like you said I'm controlling the entertainment."

"I know you're busy, but just give me a second to explain myself; that's all I'm asking." He took a step towards me but I didn't move an inch. If anything, I was thinking of moving back.

"Make it quick; Mike's waiting." When I mentioned Mike's name his face grew angry for a moment, but trying to keep the mood positive, he quickly adjusted himself.

"I'm sorry for what I've said to you. I've just got so much going on in my mind right now and I couldn't even realize what I was doing or saying. I regret anything I've done to hurt you."

"You're not alone Cyd; I've got a lot of crap in my mind too. The difference is I love you way too much to say something like that to you. No matter what was going on around me I know that I wouldn't hurt you."

"I love you too Nate! I came all the way out here for you; I went to jail trying to make sure I could buy anything to make you happy, but when I walked in the door to find him with you and my house, I just lost it."

"That's what I don't get," I confessed in a desperate plea for explanation, "What about him is so bad that you can't stand him? Why, of all people in this city, do you choose to hate him? What did he do?" His face grew pale and I noticed he was stumbling upon his own thoughts.

"Nate, it's complicated. Even if I tried I don't think you could fully understand-"

"This is why I'm scared of you Cyd!" I interrupted, "You always have some secret that you're hiding. When are all the secrets and mysteries going to end?" He ripped his eyes away from mine and stared down at the ground. Our voices were silent and even though I was staring at him directly, he couldn't find the courage to pull his up from the floor. "I've got things to do."

I pushed my way passed him and out of the restroom. I could almost anticipate that he was going to find some way to stop me, which is why I was so surprised when he made no effort whatsoever. I'm not sure if he was giving up or just gaining time, but either way he left me to do what I wanted, which at the moment wasn't the best things.

My heart was screaming at me to make things better. It was telling me that I should forgive Cyd and let him back into my life. Sadly my brain thought differently. My brain was telling me to give up on all of his secrets. It was telling me to run away and stick with the easier choice, the easier boy. Mike.

I opened the door to the computer-filled room and closed it quickly behind me. Mike looked up at me from the monitors and gave me a flirty smile. "Hey beautiful," he said in a whisper-like voice. Without a thought I pressed my way towards him and leaped up onto his chair, placing my body playfully yet softly on his lap. He looked up at me with a shocked expression and I replied to his astonished look with a lustful one. My head gradually moved towards his and our lips met delicately and tenderly.

Whenever I had a problem or a conflict, I've always dealt with it by running. You don't have to face something if you're nowhere near the origin of the crisis. That constant relief from a problem became a habit, a habit that I couldn't run from. I guess running was what I became used to and now it was hard not to run from my troubles. I wasn't one to judge whether I was making the right or wrong decision, I just did what I thought was correct. If it was wrong, I'd worry about it later. Unfortunately I had just run from one problem and straight into another and I had no clue on what to do besides roll with the punches, even if those punches brought an end to all the sanity.

I guess insanity is my punishment.