Dear journal

Story by Sandra Dai on SoFurry

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Dire, a stallion horse whom a slave, falls in love with the daughter of a family he works for. He expresses his memories of her in a journal, a gift from the woman he loves


Dear journal, this is my first time writing in this book. It was a gift, by a young beautiful woman whom I met. She was a canine, her fur was soft like feathers and brown, grey colours match of a dry breeze land and shiny green eyes like grass on the field. Her name was Marie, a name kindred as 'marry'. It was a funny name, an impression like I married her, but I did not and I should have. She was the daughter of a wealthy farmer family among other 3 siblings. They had 2 sons and she was the only girl. They had grown as the sons departed to college far away and as for her, she stayed but she was not alone. Her parents, called by Mr and Mrs Martinburgh, hired me to work on their fields. It was odd, the money they had I was the only one working on a big field under sunny days, no breaks. I reckoned, it was my purpose for a hard job for a horse like me. Day and night, I worked hard, food I had to supply myself, right on time to be present on the fields, mostly mornings and if I had done something wrong they would rebuke me or cut off my wages. My life was desperate but it was the only way for me to survive. I was always alone and working as slavery was the treatment I had given since young. They saw me as lifeless but Marie was different from them. For the first time my eyes caught her, she was beautiful sitting under a tree and reading a book. I am not supposed to interact with their daughter, assuming I would bring harm. I ignored her and stood as far away as possible from getting into trouble. Unexpectedly, she came closer and to my surprise as I turned around she was standing right next to me. I was shocked as I nearly screamed.

"Hello, have some juice, you look hot working under a bright sunny day".

There she was, standing by the fence from where I am and handing out a big cup of yellow coloured juice. I did not know what to do but stared at the cup, my legs were shivering and I could not stand straight as I bent down since she was shorter than me. I did not know what to say as I took the cup from her hands. I was in awe, my hand that big, hers was small but I tried to be gentle.

"Uhhmm, t-thank you".

As I drank, it tasted sweet, juicy, cold and fresh in my mouth. It was delicious and refreshing. I had not felt this way or been treated like this before. I smiled, admiring the savour as I closed my eyes.

"Seems you enjoyed it, they are made of lemons and grown from our field".

She said as she smiled at me but not a word I spoke. Her gratitude had me wondering but got interrupted by a female voice calling out.

"Marie! Get over here young woman!"

"Oh, I had to go. I hope that juice will freshen you up".

She left, not a word I spoke once more. I watched her running through the fields as the wind breezed her dress and fur swaying, catching up her beauty. A graceful canine and yet remained here unlike her brothers. During the night, I stayed awake, having a hard time to rest thinking of her. I went outside the barn for some fresh air, thinking it would ease my mind. At this kind of time, it was quiet, the sky was glowing with stars and little creatures of the night came out, wandering around the grass. I decided to take a walk through the fields with the wind blowing through my mane. I breathe fresh air, cold but warm all together, I look up as I admire the beautiful night and the moon shining light. Without notice, I walked closer to her house, but no sight of the Martinburgh's as it was dark inside and curtains were closed. I did not know why I came here, but abruptly I want to see her again. Her face showed in my mind, her smile, soft fur, glowing eyes and a kind heart. Although, her life would not intervene to mine as I was only a slave. The next morning, Mr Martinburgh instructed me to head down to a nearby town for groceries, along with Marie would be the one to acquire and I as a carrier on this buckboard. On the road, carrying the buckboard with my bridle was tough but that was what horses would do. Marie on the other hand, she walked beside me and was not sitting.

"Uhmm, Ms Marie, you should sit on the wagon. You will be tired from walking".

"But that will make it heavier for you to pull, will it?"

"Uh, yes but-"

"I don't mind, walking along with nature is enough for me".

She smiled with the words she spoke, looking at the trees and fields surrounding the road. I had not known why she would act this way and it was a good thing too. If not, her father would have threatened me already. I could see her walking with my pace, no rush, no push, she honestly adored our company. We stayed this way until we reached the town and stopped at the shop. She went inside while I waited for her but kept an eye out in case something happened. Minutes passed, and she came back with supplies in a wooden box. I loaded them at the back and she helped with it too.

"Don't forget those Marjen Beans cans products".

"What?"

"Marjen Beans, it's written on the cans".

My problem was I could not read nor write. I had not been educated at any school since I was young. I could talk following people's words growing up when working and that was all.

"It's right there on the ground".

"Uhmm..."

"Oh, you can't read?"

"Yes ma'am".

"Oh! I'm sorry, I did not know".

"It's alright".

She pointed to the beans for me, knowing what she meant earlier. When it was done, we went home with supplies. Same thing again, she walked alongside me. I could not understand her, but her face made me smile. Days passed, it was night and I sat down in the barn until I heard a knock. I took a look, sliding the door open and it was Marie? Holding books on her.

"Ms Marie? What are you doing here?"

"Might be a chance to teach some basic English lessons. Also no one would notice too".

"Ms Marie, you don't have to".

"Come on, at least I can teach you something".

I invited her in, I could not let her outside cold. I often question her doing this, I did not request it but instead she persisted. I accepted her teaching me, it was my desire to see her again. She taught me basic grammar, Introduction of alphabets, numbers and the past few days I kept learning new things on verbs, adjacent, plural and nouns. I felt like a young colt again learning in school. Each night, she came to teach me all this English education and I began to understand the words surrounding me and read normally. Although thankful of her effort, there was no halt and eerie to come every night. I became wary of the state and I questioned her the next night she came.

"Ms Marie, I appreciate your lecture but is there something bothering you? Your actions inquiry me for your explanation".

"Well, at least your speech is fine. Nevertheless, forgive me for wasting your time like this. I wanted to escape from my thoughts".

Her face became gloomy, her eyes looked down, away from my sight and a bit of silence surrounded us. I could sense through her, something was not right and I asked her again about her state.

"Do you want to share?"

"It's past my bedtime, but maybe I can stay here for a little while".

She packed the books aside and we went outside for a better air. There was the tree she sat earlier reading her book, thus we laid down under it and stared at the night sky. She rested closer to me and I could see her fur clear, colourful eyes and beautiful face. But yet, she did not smile and silence once more surrounded us until she spoke.

"My family is cripple in debt. The farm, plants we grow and lands we own have no worth in the market. Years have passed, time has changed and the world is developing further into something different".

Her statement had come clear to me, as if I wondered if I was their only worker. But the part where the world is changing, it felt frightening. I had not seen the world change near me, maybe she was talking about what was beyond this country side. She continued.

"My parents need to resolve this and this is where I take part. I have to get married with someone who would get us out of debt. But I don't want this, I want to have the freedom of my own, going out there and living the life that I want".

She looked at the stars, dreaming it would be her, to be free and roam around the world. I understood her compassion for her own life, sounds a bit like me.

"I understand, to have the freedom, your choices, your living, I wanted that too. But I as a slave from birth, there are many I have not encounter. But fairly, this is my first".

She turned to look at me, once I ended my terms. I looked at her as well and I saw her smile. I may have made her feel better even so it was the least I could do.

"Furthermore, are you alright being around me? No one has done before, a different kind to interact. People saw us as workers".

"Why not, you seem kind and gentle to me".

Her words made me feel better, no one had said that to me. Subsequently, I felt aroused that I began turning red, I was blushing. She saw it while she giggled and realised what was going on. Being embarrassed, I glance the other way to avoid eye contact. I smiled a little to think it was funny. We stood up as the night began to darken and walked back to the barn.

"Forgive me, I didn't get your name?"

"Dire, Ms Marie".

"You can call me Marie".

We strolled through the fields together, chatting more about each other and returned back. Though, she was still here.

"Marie, aren't you going to your house?"

"May I stay with you? It'll be fine, only for a night".

"Uhh, I don't think... the hays are uncomfortable to sleep on".

"I don't mind, at least I had some companion with me sleeping, who I understand more".

She trusted me, out of all this and she wanted to stay beside me. I felt blissful hearing those words as it was the first, someone who I had affection for. I admitted to loving her and she had the same thought too. Nonetheless, I am afraid how things may work for the both of us. That should wait and the night called for us to rest. Without hesitation, she went inside already and I followed her, closing the door behind me while I was at it. By the time I reached my resting ground, it was done, hays were stacked, straws were placed on the ground and covered with cloth. Marie was there, filling some straws in a cloth sheet and becoming a pillow.

"Done, now it looks like a cosy bed to rest in".

"Wow".

I was in awe, It seemed she made all that with straws and cloth to make it. I did not know the use of it until she showed me. The more I knew her, the more impressed she had been. Moreover, once I lay down the surface felt more softer than before even though it was slightly hard. While I got comfy, she stood up in front of me, turned her body and showed her back. At that moment, she caught my eyes as she started to undress her clothes, from dress and under clothes. She lowered her underwear until I could see her round buttocks, rubbing with her hands and stretching her vagina opened, showing her inside womb and anal. She turned her body around, facing me to see her exposed breast and covered her muzzle of shyness.

"Uhmm, do you like what you see?"

"Whoa, y-your body, is beautiful".

She blushed from my words once she closed her eyes and smiled with happiness. But in the bottom of my heart, I am true of my words, not only her nudist body.

"Thank you, oh?"

She was thankful but began to notice something. My pants were twitching, I could feel my manhood was gaining an erection from seeing her. It brought my attention as well when I looked down to see the size of my member with those pants. Then again, she smiled differently.

"Hmm, I think your friend needs to breathe".

Without hesitation, she bent down closer, began to unzip and pulled down to uncover my enlarged horse cock. She was shocked to see it, which might be her first as it was to me as well. She touched its skin, it felt thicker and warm that it got her body lustful. Its size were longer like her arm, a girth that could hold both hands and lust for sexual aroused. She wasted no time as she began massaging from up to down, her touch made me in heat, I started to sweat and breathe deeply of hot air. But it was not over yet, while she began to lick my tip as an ice cream. My desire began to grow from her tongue, I could sense a few precum flowing out but it would not stop her. She took a taste, enjoying the scent of its hot and warm seed.

"Are you okay with this?"

"I'm fine, are you enjoying it?"

"Maybe, I never felt like this before".

"Well, I'll try to satisfy your need, my big stud".

She giggled a little and stopped from rubbing. Next, she moved her muzzle closer to my tip and glared with a lustful face at me. Slowly, she opened her mouth wide and thrust it in through my cock. At first, she struggled to fill inside since its girth was thick but managed to get a few inches in. It might feel pain of its size but her mind was focused for pleasure and needed it more than I did. After reaching her limit, she moved her head, gulping every skin she took and making it soaked with her saliva. I enjoyed watching her, and I could not hold myself as I grabbed her head, following her pace.

"Ahh~ keep going".

Her warm mouth touched against mine, moaning of an aroused feeling from it. I could not hold myself as she started to go faster and my soaked member got slick, making her easy to throb deeper. I could see the girth of my cock, reaching through her neck simultaneously stretching her inside womb. Minutes passed, I could feel my climax closer to its peak, but her pace became slower. She was losing her energy and sweating from her forehead to body. She hauled once she took her mouth out, she breathed heavily, taking much air and exhaling hot breaths out her mouth.

"Huh, I'm sorry, just... huh, catching my breath".

"You should lay down, let me do the rest".

I instructed her to calm herself for a moment, gulping my kind of size could be tiring. She rested next to me, I lifted myself on top of her and my face was in front of her eyes, staring at each other. She smiled once more and out of nowhere she kissed me on my lips, not my forehead or cheeks, we tasted our lips and exchanged our saliva. She was my first to feel her savour and so I am to her. We closed our eyes, kissing to taste our scent longer and I rubbed her right cheeks to know she was mine. Once we stopped, she blushed and said some aroused words.

"I want you Dire, I want you to be my stud".

I answered.

"Then I shall tame you".

Without waiting, I lowered my head between her legs, pushed them aside to unveil her bright peach-colored vagina. I scent her lust, the warm, hot touch of her entrance as I lay my muzzle. I took a deep taste inside her sensitive uterus, exploring with my long tongue, wetting her tight walls easier to thrust in. I could hear her moan while I moved my tongue. Once her vagina soaked, I lubed my cock with my saliva and rubbed between her entrance with it, teasing her before I started. Comparing my girth size with her womb was far different. Her body was not meant for a horse cock but I guessed she knew it already. She moaned louder than before, breathing heavily as I kept rubbing.

"Ahh~ please, put in".

"I'll go slower, it could hurt you".

"Huff~ I can take it".

Her vagina was twitching, releasing hot air, demanding for my swollen cock to pleasure her. Without a word, I placed my tip on her entrance and slowly shoved it, but was not in. Her tight walls were not stretched enough for its size, I was struggling harder pushing. I drooled more saliva on my cock and to her entry. I tried again and her womb extended a little as few inches I thrust went inside. As big as it was, her stomach began to distend and she shouted from the pain.

"Ahh! Give me everything, give me all your lust!"

"Argh! Take it all".

Not showing mercy, I thrust hard as I could with every inch slipped through and extended her wombs wide as her body almost broke. She shouted louder than before and her vagina began to bleed from the horrible pain. I was aware of it, but I kept humping, in and out, screwing her deeper as our mating made sounds of fap constantly when our hips hit one another. The length of my cock was longer to reach her cervix once I felt my tip touch. But her womb was not the size as mine, thus every pushed, it went with it further back to where her stomach was. Her impression, I knew she was feeling it destroying her organs but not saying a word. I calmed her down by kissing her back, her pain shared mine as our body came together, Her temperature was gaining heat and her fur drooling wet onto mine. I hugged her body closer, picking up the pace, the sounds of my cock throbbing became faster, her moaning of pain turned to pleasure and the womb stopped bleeding. The longer we breed, she starts to orgasm multiple times, making her inside more slicker than before. I started to breathe quicker, getting all my energy for the time I reached climax. But we did not end there yet, we changed sex positions every time passed. She began riding my cock on top of me going up and down like a girl.

"Ahh~ yee haw horsey~".

She jokingly whispered to me as she did not want to waste her breath. Not hours passed, I began lifting her on top of the hays, putting my hands on her legs and started banging. Later, she positioned herself on all fours, like a dog she was, went behind her and thrust my cock in smoothly. Our mating lasted through the night and I began losing time. Our last position, she was on top of me but this time her back laid down on my chest as I am a big, soft bed. Her arms folded around my head, pulling me closer to hers as we cuddled. I started to feel my cock twitching and there I knew, I was about to climax. I wanted to warn her but the feeling of arousal was too much and my body would not let me. Then, I unintentionally ejaculated a few semens and she felt it warm, hot inside her womb.

"Wha- w-wait, you're cumming?"

I did not answer and yet I continued to squeeze her body for one last push.

"Ahh~ damn it, cum inside me, give me all your thick warm fluid in me, breed me!"

She shouted, requesting for my seeds to flow in her. I wasted no time and for the last thrust, all my inches went in until the end of her cervix. But at this rate, it became weak from long hours of sex and the cervix wide open, letting my cock through. I did not know what came after, I only learned the opening but further inside was far beyond my understanding. But I did not care and once inside I began to cum my thick, horse semen, filling up every space until the womb expanded bigger than my cock's size. My semens was too much, her body came to its limit, not taking anymore and the rest dripped out of her vagina, making a puddle of white semens on the cloth. I released every seed I had in me while we relaxed so our muscles kicked in. Once finished, I lifted her vagina and pulled out my cock, every inch slowly. By the time it was out, more cums flowed out like a flood. After all that exciting breeding, it was over, semens were flooding on the cloth, her vagina would not close, her womb was shaped as the size of my cock and it began to flat since there was no more arousal left in it and she turned her body, facing her chest with mine. I could feel her breasts squashed on my body and her breathing to my fur. Her eyes were closed, her arms hugged around my neck and not letting go. She was out of energy and tired, as I am. I hugged my arms around her body and slept with her but before I rested my eyes she said one thing.

"Goodnight".

I replied with a kiss on her forehead.

"Goodnight".

The next morning, we woke up fresh, still laid down and cuddled each other. Last night sex was intense and I admitted, our bond between both our bodies felt like nothing else before. It was not lust but the heartfelt love within.

"Marie, the day I saw you, your kindness was shown to me and last night, I felt something in my heart and mind, something that had never happened to me before and I am honest to express it. Marie, I love you".

The last line made her blush.

"Wow, you are my first who truly expresses their affection for me. But I admit it too.

Her words could not describe anything else and she was not done talking as she raised her body.

"Dire, I love you too and I hope it lasts forever".

I understood her words, she wanted to stay like this forever, being with someone who she truly loved. I wanted it too but the universe was against us, our dreams, fondness and lust we had, could not achieve.

"We'll see how things goes".

I said once I raised my body closer to her and kissed her lips one more time before she left. I helped her to clean some cums left on her with a cloth and put on her dress. She helped with mine too as she lifted my pants and gave a smooch kiss on my cock before she tucked it in.

"Will I see your friend again?"

"Maybe".

When we were done, she picked up the books where she left it and before leaving, she handed out a black book to me.

"I almost forgot, here, it's for you".

"What is it?"

"It's a journal, a gift from me to you for completing your learnings! You can write down anything you want, like a story book of your own".

"Wow, thank you".

I accepted her gift and received it from her hands. It was not too thick nor heavy but the right size for me.

"Don't forget a pen".

She gave me a black fancy looking pen I had not seen and I liked it. Same as before, I thanked her and again gave me a smooch kiss on my cheeks as she lifted her legs high up to reach since I am tall. All that was done, she left the barn and waved at me when she looked behind as I waved back to her too. She returned to her house early before the sun rose, avoiding her parents by noticing her absence. From it, she was out of my sight. What we had was a memorable moment and with this book, every night I wrote of my stories of her the day we first met. But now, I did not know what was next for us, she would move in with an unknown man, relinquishing her life for the sake of her family. I appreciate her loyalty to her parents but to chain her freedom was discourteous and all of it was for the money. If only I could do something to help her run away from all this but alas, I am unlike anyone above me, power or money. I wanted her to be safe and if only I could be closer, I would watch over her. Tonight, I am writing this journal, closer to the end as she rested beside me once more before she was gone. Her marriage would come in a few days and I would devote every minute to be with her. I will end my memories here for now. What life ahead of us was unknown but would approach anything to get her, my love, Marie.