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Chris sat down his letter pad with a long drawn out sigh... feeling his chest tighten a bit he swallowed what he know was another round of emmotions. He'd never been away from his family and home for so long and what at first seemed like a grand journey, after the fighting, long hours and constant moving and training had ground away to--HE threw the green blanket he was under off him and sat up in the bed, the avain ruffling his feathers as he stood and stepped out into the coolness of the evening. Wringing his hands as he started to walk himself along, his black feathers blowing in the cold breeze.

"Chrisss?" came a clearly female voice, he recognized but still caused him to whirl around with a start. Raela the 7' tall broadwing gryphoness looked down at him, then lowered her front down to be more at his level. Chris just fell into the chest of his friend and confidant hugging her against him as the avain spoke muffled into her chest feathers, the big avain bringing her head down to hold him against her "Ohhh Raela I just... god I just don't know if I can bear it any longer... I just..."

"I know... I know it's hard Christopher... nobody expects any of this to be easy. Come on let's try to see if we can get a call home" She said standing and Chris followed her, eventually ending up in her tent where she had antennas and radios all set up in various ways, the gryphoness always up to something. Chris just sat on a closed chest and rolled his head back "I just... I just wish these feelings would leave me be Raela..."

"Christopher this is normal... especially for an avian, it's no small thing we're doing here. It's okay to be not okay Christopher, nobody should be okay with what we're doing here" Raela was incredible with radio communication, she was talking with Chris while at the same time tapping morse code with a talon. "Oh good I have a marine radio operator who can place the call for you" She said turning some dials and motioning him over sliding the microphone over to him the voice through the noise spoke "Are you ready to dial?" He pushed the mix button down, his voice wavering a bit "yes" He waited and waited for what seemed like an eternity "... Chris honey?! Hi can you hear me?!" the voice of his mother came over the radio and he pushed the mic button the crackling disappearing as his voice broadcast back home "Hi Mom... yeah I can hear you... I just... I just wanted to call and say hi... um I miss you" "Ohhh honey we all miss you too... I can barely hear you the operator said we have all the time we need though are you okay?" "Yeah I'm fine... things are going well here... I just... I just really needed to hear your voice Mom I'm sorry to wake you up... I just... Mom I'm so alone here, I'm scared..." he sucked a breath in as he felt the tears coming down his cheek "I try and keep strong like you and Dad say I do I just... I just want to go home Mom I miss you so much" He let the mic go and clenched the talon arm of Raela holding him against her body "ohhh honey if... I want you to come home too, but you need to keep on keeping on in order to do that you know? Just keep .........." the static covered her voice as he looked at the radio speaker, trying to be a crude imitation of his mother thousands of miles away ".......... know we love you and we pray for you every night... Abbie want's to say hi" A much younger voice came over the phone "Hi Chrissy! I miss you!" "I miss you too Abbie" he said with a smile creeping onto his beak "Have you been sledding much" ".......whaaat?" the phone moved back his mother

"Honey we can't hear you anymore the operator just came on and said the skip must be fading away... if you can hear me... I love you, I love you so much Christopher... we'll see you soon... bye bye"

Chris sat the mic down and muttered a "bye" to the open air and looked back at Raela, the avain turning and sobbing into her chest feathers for a moment longer before falling asleep in his friend's caring arms