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"...and that is how you solve logarithmic equations using imaginary numbers. Any questions?, Good, now to the next equation...." The professor in my screen 'asked' without giving us some time to actually ask a question. Well, not that I have any questions to ask, I barely understood what he said with that monotone voice of his.

With a sigh, I minimized my Zoom classroom meeting and decided to browse the internet hoping that there might be some online calculators that can solve complex equations that my oh so called Professor 'taught' us.

'At this rate, I might fail my first semester, first year college.... Stupid online classes..' My thoughts began to turn negatively as I began to have another ADHD attack. I can feel my eyes getting blurry just by staring at my laptop screen for like 6 hours straight without breaks as I fought to hold back tears that started to appear in my eyes.

Luckily, online classes don't need student's cameras to be open, just react with a hands up and you'll be automatically be considered present until the end of class.

While listening meticulously to my professor's instruction, my focus is mostly concentrated in Google.

'This is hopeless, I don't think I can continue on like this....' I thought as usual, welcoming the sense of hopelessness and despair in my body as my mind began to overthink things that many people might think I may be insane or being overly dramatic.

At this point, I have created multiple tabs with different online calculators, Mathway, Symbolab, Mathmate. I typed the same problem to each one of them, but all of their answers are different than the one that my professor shown in class.

I rubbed my forehead, trying to get rid of the headache that has been bugging me for a couple of hours from now. My ADHD is getting worse by the minute as my thoughts drifted from me being depressed to just plain ol attempts of doing suicide.

But I shook off that thought. Nothing good will come to you if I commit suicide. I may be depressed, but I ain't stupid. A few of my classmates have already hanged themselves because they cannot survive with this method of classes, that and the fact that most of us live in a developing country and people not fully vaccinated made this ten times much worse than what's it like to live a normal college life.

'Damnit...' I maximized my Zoom class and noticed that the professor is already finished with his instructions and has already told everyone that there will be an exam next week. There are a few students who are actually 'online' managed to give a 'like' reaction while others never bothered to to anything, probably bored out of their mind and decided to be AFK or just asleep.

I give my professor a 'like' reaction as the professor finally said his goodbyes and left the Zoom call, immediately ending the online class.

Usually, any normal student would be glad that their classes had ended, but not me. I have dozens of questions that were completely unanswered, and the professor lessons is not concrete, it makes my head spin just by hearing his emotionless voice.

Closing the Zoom app, I immediately return to finding the solutions to these particular math problems. The only good thing about online classes is that you can pass the answers before midnight, which can only mean one thing.... Ask for the right answers to students who have already finished their math problems.

Opening Facebook in my browser, I automatically searched for some of my classmates that have finished answering their math problems, but none of them even replied.

'Looks like they are not finished with their work...' I thought as I removed myself from the laptop and take a few stretches. The cracking of bones can be felt vibrating through my body as I relish the feeling of stretching my body.

Looking at the screen's time, I noticed that its almost past 10 P.M. dang, just how long was that useless lessons was going on for?

Shaking my head, I got out of my room and realized that everything is dark.

'Looks like my mom and my siblings are already asleep. Hopefully they left some food for me to eat.'

Walking downstairs towards the kitchen, I open the cover of the table, hoping for at least a little food for me to have the mental energy to answer my schoolwork online.

There was none.... Of course there won't be left... Siblings...uh.

Gritting my teeth, I gently slammed the cover down as I open the fridge and grab a few slices of bread and a jug of water.

'At least there are some food here to keep my stomach from bothering me...'

Eating my small dinner in silence, my thoughts began to turn towards the fact how I am struggling with this kind of learning. Thoughts of failing and letting my mom down hits me hard as my ADHD started to come back to me with full force.

My chest hurt a little with every thought of what befalls to my family as I told them I have failed my first semester in college, I don't want to see my mom silently cry in her room again because with problems regarding money. It hurts me to see my parents cry because of me. My father left mom with me who was pregnant with twins to work abroad, at this time, both mom and dad where unaware that mom was pregnant. My father did not witnessed my siblings being born and my mom was in debt.

I don't like it. I wish there is something I can do about it, but every time I tried to ask if I can help with the finances when me and my mom where eating in the table with my two siblings, the words that I wanna speak gets caught up in my throat and in the end, I only ended up eating in silence. I don't know why I am like this.... I wish I could be more bold, or at least, be talented like other people so that I can use my talents to help my parents.

But what can I do? I'm just a shut in weeb/furry/scalie who does nothing but browse the internet, watch youtube videos and furry/scalie **** and distracting myself from my ADHD and hope that some miracle will come to my life and erase all the problems that me and my family are having...

'Heh...as if that would happen.' I thought bitterly as I noticed that I have finished all of the bread that I ate. I drank all the water from the jug in one go since my stomach is still not full, before going upstairs and continue my schoolwork.

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High above the clouds, God walked around the world with a frown plastered in his face as he he realized how the world has become.

Sure, the human's intellectual capacity has evolved over the past millennium and now they are able to study and travel the world beyond them, however...

God noticed that there are countless humans doing bad deeds, others are being used by bad people doing bad things, while there are some unfortunate souls who are living amongst the streets, dong whatever they can to survive, and there are some who is supposed to be living normally are being pressured to do great things that made them feel heavy inside.

"It seems life on the modern world is easy, yet confusing to live on with what technology has done with humans..."

God frowned as he focused on the youths. A lot of youth seems to be having a hard time in the specific time of their lives; College.

"Hmmm... How about a divine intervention then?" God said so to Himself as he noticed how many people these modern days wished to be reincarnated into another world. Most of them are introverts rather than extroverts.

"Let's start with this particular individual. He seems to be struggling with his life..." God said as he began to experiment something.....

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I slammed down my laptop. I swear, whoever invented homework better suffer. I hate homework.

"I bet my answers are all wrong thought.... Why did I even take Computer Engineering as a course? Oh that's right, its because I am very interested in gaming and know how electronics works... I didn't know math is an important subject in this course...."

I divebombed in my bed as I relish the comfort and warmth it is giving me. I never thought that I would be happy that I finally had some time off from staring off my gadgets and stuff. Now I know why adults complain about gadgets like these.

Yawning loudly, I looked at the dirty ceiling in front of me, my thoughts randomly went towards my fanfiction which is "The time where I got reincarnated as a Dragon in a different world."

"It would be good being reincarnated to another world as a dragon but..." I yawned again, my body feeling weird as I felt very sleepy and light all of a sudden.

"I'd rather stay here and face all of my problems... I don't think I can... live with the... guilt...of... anyway...." Before falling asleep, I caught a glimpse of a person dressed in a white robe before passing out in my bed.

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The sound of the wind caught my hearing as I murmured something incoherently in my half asleep self. I rolled to my side, something unpleasant grinded against me as I wiggled around my bed, trying to find a comfortable position to sleep, but so far, it feels like my bed is very hard like someone put a lot of dirt and stuff in it.

I heard something beating above me and a gust of wind blew threw my face, like a pair of giant hand fans fluttering in my face.

'If this is my siblings pulling a prank on me, I am so gonna flip. It is still midnight....?'

I opened my eyes as I felt something off around me. For some reason, the direction of the wind is hitting me from every angle. Not only that, my body feels weird, like really weird. Its like I am wearing some sort of leather jacket but that leather jacket is glued to my skin that I can literally feel like it is part of me...

Adjusting to the darkness, I was greeted with the sight of an endless sea of sand right in front of my vision.

"What the---" I felts something around my butt, but when I turned to look around, I noticed that I am covered in some sort of....white scales?

"Are you fucking kidding me..." I craned my neck, noticing that my head feels slightly heavier than usual, not to mention that I have freaking wings in my back. I feel like this is some sort of stupid cliché that I got reincarnated as a dragon in another wor----

"Oh you have got to be fucking kidding me." The thought came crushing to me like Truck-kun isekaid someone to another world, unsurprisingly happened to me, except, I was not isekaid by Truck-kun. If I was, then that would mean a freaking truck smashed through the second floor of the house and isekaid me. Give that driver a Guinness World Record award for Christ's sake.

Looking at my surroundings, it seems I have been transported into a desert, fortunately for me, I was somehow sleeping in an oasis, that and it is nighttime, I couldn't imagine what would happen if it is day.

Walking towards the water under the blue moon's light, I noticed in my reflection that I am indeed a dragon.

A colorless, white dragon with deformed ears just like what Remy looked like in Angels with Scaly Wings and two white horns sticking out of my head, indeed the same shape as what Spyro from DOTD looked like....

Although, despite a scaly dragon, I do retain one of my human features, like my black hair which stretches over to my tail. I have a white underbelly and it seems that my eye color somehow changed as well, light blue.

"I swear, if this is not a dream, I am gonna flip out." I growled in annoyance. You ever had the feeling where you feel like you were a dragon, went into some kind of amazing adventure and in that middle of the adventure, you suddenly woke up and feel a huge amount of disappointment that all of it was a dream? Yeah, I've been dreaming like that for the past few months ever since online classes started. Don't judge me, fantasizing as a dragon helps me cope with this harsh life, although....

"So this is how it feels like to be a dragon huh?" I thought...

"Huh... I don't feel any different. Maybe this really is just a dream? If it is, then this is one heck of a dream. It feels so real that I kind of feel like I am in some sort of story where I got reincarnated as a dragon in a different world." Of course, If this is a dream. If it is not, then.....

A strong gust of wind blew through me as I shivered. Damn that was cold. I forgot how cold it is i the desert when it is nighttime.... From what I have heard, travelling at night is actually the best option since the sun won't be in your way to burn you into a crisp... On the other hand, this is just a dream, and sleeping in a dream is very ridiculous, not to mention that I am a freaking dragon!

"Ok its settled! Time to enjoy this dream before waking up! Lets go!" Just when I was about to leave the my starting point, my stomach grumbled, signaling that I am hungry.

"Dangit, I guess my hunger from where I was human ended up following me as well. Oh well, might as well eat something here. Its just a dream, I'm sure my subconscious can come up with something once I start thinking of food. Besides, What could go wrong?"

I sat there for a few seconds, letting my subconscious do its thing, hoping that it will create some sort of food within thin air. Seconds pass by, I am starting to get agitated because of how hangry I was.

*rustle*

My draconic hearing caught some movement in between those large bushes at my right. Looks like food has been served.

"Well its about time!" I said as I peeked through the bushes and saw...

TO BE CONTNUED UWU