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And I go sit on the patio and I look up at the sky. I curse not bonding Paulie, nor Teddy, nor Takeru, nor Yuri nor Vladimir. Damn it why is life so against me? I know I won't die of loneliness. But I'm angry and tired and fed up. I love my Daddy and I guess he doesn't love me as much as I thought. I feel more alone than I ever though any single animal could be. He loves Nigel, and while I am happy they love each other, I know I'll never feel about my Daddy like I used to. Nigel, I know we'll make up, I know we will. (And we do) (Nigel is even thrilled when....OK...when his Dad and I bond. At the very least he loves having his Dad happy and living with us.)

I have to get out of here. I go pack a bag, and I take my cell and my Kindle and a few other things and I go to my Mercedes S560 and I leave. It's not too late yet. It's only about 8PM on a Friday night. I drive North North West. I'll hole up either in San Fran or in the Bay area somewhere. I know with Nigel gone I have to be back for Monday morning. I stop for gas and my cell rings. I'm tempted to answer it. It's Rory. But what could I tell him, I can't tell him what Takeru told me. I can't really tell him much. I know why I'm angry at Dad and I know Rory would be mad at him too when I tell him. He leaves a voice mail. And I check it before I drive off. He's worried about me, he only knows I'm not home and he's afraid I've been hurt somehow and have run. He's right, but I can't tell him anything about why. I decide to call him anyway. I need the love and care of my Big Brother, who's always been at my side when I needed him. I hurt too bad, and I need my older Brother now. He's always begged me not to run and to come to him when I'm in so much pain.

"Claude, where are you?" Rory asks. "I'm driving north on I-5" I say softly. "Come home, baby brother" he says quietly. "We want to help you, Teddy and I would do anything to help you" he says softly. "How can you when I can't tell you why I hurt so badly?" I ask. "Claude, Takeru called me, I know all of it" he says. "Even about Alf?" I ask. "I do, Takeru knew how badly hurt you were, and he's coming still but he's 16 hours away, he's as scared for you as I am" Rory says. "I'll come home" I say quietly. "Claude, I have a better idea" Rory says. "Come back to Sacramento and we'll hole up for the weekend at the Hilton, just you me and Teddy" Rory says. "Paulie called me too, Claude, he's scared for you too, he just didn't understand all of it" Rory says. "Please, for those of us who love you, run to us instead of away from us when you've been hurt so badly" Rory says quietly. "I'm turning around now" I say. I have. I've gotten off of northbound I5 and I'm entering the ramp to get on southbound I-5. "I'll be home in about an hour" I say. "Teddy and I will dress and pack, come to the downtown Hilton" Rory says. "I will" I say. "I'll call you when I get the room number, please make sure you do come, Claude, you need us, and we need you too much" Rory says. "Paulie said you'd told Takeru you were going to move out into your own place, please, why punish us just to hurt Dad" Rory says. "I won't, I'm coming back, Rory" I say softly. "I need my Big Brother, I've never needed you more, Big Cat Daddy" I say softly. Rory laughs. "You haven't called me that in years" Rory says happily. Rory remembers. I'd had a bad fight with Dad, I was in my last year of Residency as was Rory. I'd been mad enough to not talk to Dad for several weeks. He'd rage at me and I'd sit and ignore Dad. And I started calling Rory, Big Cat Daddy. And it damned near crushed Dad. Crying he came to me and begged me to not stop loving him. I had called Rory that once during sex too. And it made him hotter for me.

"I'll be there as soon as I can, Rory" I say softly. "Claude, I know how badly you hurt now, and Takeru's right, Dad has a kind of a tunnel vision at times, he's hurt us both that way, but don't let him separate us or drive you from the family we've built." Rory says. "I love you too much to let him drive us apart, Rory" I say quietly. "You're really in some ways all I have that I can count on" I say quietly. "Claude, just try not to think, and come talk to me and our Teddy" Rory says softly. "I will, Big Brother" I say and I break down crying. "I've tried so hard in the past to help you, Claude, and I'm proud of you for letting me this time" Rory says softly. "I need you so much, Rory" I say through my tears. "Drive carefully, Claude, turn your phone off too, you don't want to talk to Dad or anyone now for a while" Rory says. "Good advice, Bro" I say softly. When Rory hangs up I do turn it off and I turn the stereo on. The drive goes quickly. And I pull into the Hilton parking garage. I am surprised that Rory hasn't called me when I check voice mail. As I leave my car to the valet to be parked I hear my name called. Teddy lumbers over to me. He holds me tightly. "Your Dad called and he and Rory got into a big fight, Baby Lion" Teddy says. "We just got here and Rory's getting the room" he says softly.

I hug Rory. He smiles at me. "I understand why you're so angry now, Claude, he does it to you I know, but he hasn't pulled that 'you're my son, do what I tell you' crap on me since I was 12" Rory says angrily. I hand the bell hop my bag and we follow him up to the room. I give him a $100 tip. And he's grinning. And when he leaves we sit on the bed. Teddy and Rory hug me between them.

"Claude, he was mad that you ran, and then he got all imperious with me, and when I told him that Takeru had told me everything, he got so mad" Rory says stroking my mane. I pet his and we're both visibly calming down. I laugh. "He probably called Papa-San and raged" I say laughing. "Oh, that never ends well for Dad" Rory says laughing. I hold him tight. "I really needed my big brother and his Grizzly" I say hugging Teddy too.

"Claude, if I understood what Big Cat Daddy said, Papa Jim didn't want you along because Nigel's Dad is in love with you?" Teddy asks. I laugh. "Kind of, he was worried about Nigel's feelings and he's worried about Alf adjusting to losing Megan and working out his love for me, and he didn't give a damn about how I felt" I say softly. "He was really pissed when you told him you couldn't forgive him for what he'd done" Teddy says. Rory and I look at each other. "Papa-San" we say in unison. "It's kind of the Japanese declaration of war, Teddy, 'I will not forgive you for that, or I cannot forgive you for this' usually means ass should be preparing to be kicked" I say laughing.

My cell rings. I look at it cautiously. Takeru. "Papa-San, we were just talking about you" I say. "Where are you, Claude, are you well?" he asks. "Dad pissed Rory off too, and he and I and Teddy retreated to the Hilton for a while, well, after I came home from running" I say softly. "I see, how did Rory get you to come home?" he asks. "He begged me not to hurt those who loved me, and that I should have run to in my pain" I say quietly. "Both of my Lion sons are brilliant" Takeru says. "Oto-Sama, I'm sorry I hung up on you, I was wrong to do so" I say quietly. "It is fine, you were in a massive amount of pain, and I know you had a lot to think about" Takeru says happily. "Thank you, Papa-San, I hate seeming even remotely disrespectful to my beloved Bear father" I say softly. Takeru murrs. "My Lion son" he says proudly. "I am on my way, Claude, I will be in at noon tomorrow if my sons will pick me up" he says. "Happy to" I say. I tell Rory. Rory smiles.

"Papa-San, I know what I have to do, I will keep on with my life, Alfred is correct, if something is meant to happen it will, and I will try not to think of it, but I will be waiting for my Badger" I say softly. "What about Jim?" he asks. "I'm not yet prepared to forgive him" I say. "He roared at me, he knew what you meant when you told him you could not forgive him and he blamed me for teaching you the Japanese way, Claude" Takeru says laughing. "I am proud of my son, you knew it would work, and you remained polite" he says happily. "Does he even know how wrong he is?"Teddy asks. I smile. Takeru asks me what he meant, and I hand Teddy my phone and he talks to Takeru for a bit. Rory takes the phone when Teddy is done. And I get it back.

"Claude, he does not know how he's hurt you and Rory, and I think I know what you will do" Takeru says. "I will ignore him, I'll make sure, at my first opportunity that I let Nigel know I still love him, and I'm happy that he loves Dad" I say gently. "But I will not deal with my Father for a while, I do not have to, I am an adult" I say quietly. "He'll crumble in a short time, my Lion son, but he will not see what he has done" Takeru says. "I'm going to call Dr Jonas White, he's done therapy with me and I'm going back into therapy, Papa" I say. "It would help, Claude" Takeru says.

"I have much to adjust to, I am not the most patient of Lions, Papa-San, but I know already, I love Alf, I have all along, and I will wait, he's been through so much, and my heart cries out to comfort him, but I cannot, and I know, as Alfred said, when he is ready he will reach out to me, in what ever fashion he can, and then and only then will I run to my Badger" I say quietly. "I see, my Lion son has grown so" Takeru says. "Not necessarily, I"m going to need Jonas and Rory and Teddy and probably Nate too, Papa" I say. "I wish I could talk to Nigel about this, but I don't think it's wise, I will have to deal with how he feels about it soon enough, but I will cope then" I say firmly. Rory kisses me. "He's right, you have grown up, you know you need us and you know we'll be there for you, Claude" Rory says happily. "Claude, if your Dad repents will you forgive him?" Takeru asks me softly. "I will, Papa-San" I say. "I hate having to hurt him by ignoring him, but I will not let this escalate if I can help it'" I say. "I think Jim thinks you object to him and Nigel' Takeru says. "I'll do my best to make sure Nigel knows it's not true" I say. My cell rings and i check the number. "Papa-San, it's Nigel, I have to take it" I say."Go Claude"Takeru says.

"Claude?" he asks when I answer. "I was talking to Papa-San" I say. "Jim's really mad now" Nigel says. "Nigel, you need to know something" I say. "What?" he asks."I'm happy for you and Dad, I"m mad only at the way he treated me, he had a reason for not wanting me to go, but I'm not a damn five year old" I say. "You're happy for us?" he asks. "Nigel, I am, Dad will love you as fiercely as he does everything, and I know my best friend's heart, you'll love him just as strongly as you've always loved me" I say quietly. "You should talk to Jim, he's convinced you don't approve" Nigel says. "I will not talk to Dad right now, I"m too mad, and I'm not wanting to make this worse, I was only not wanting to hurt my Badger" I say quietly. "I know you love me, I hadn't made up my mind because we hadn't had a chance to talk, but Jim is upset that you don't approve" he says. "Nigel, I"m sorry that I couldn't go to Alf and Megan, and be at your side" I say softly. "I know why he didn't want you to go" Nigel says. And my heart stops. "Jim told me, and we've talked to Dad, and he's crying hard, but he's mourning Mum, he wants to heal, and then he wants to ...well...he wants to try to bond you if I approve" Nigel says. "Do you?" I ask. Nigel laughs. "I'm hardly in a position to tell you no or that I don't approve, being as I'm your Dad's mate now" Nigel says laughing. "Nigel, I know you were aware I had a bad crush on Alf for a long time, I've never gotten over it, I just would not hurt him or Megan or you" I say quietly. "I love him, I know I do, and only your disapproval would make me not take him, Nige" I say quietly. Nigel laughs. "I'm not calling you Mom and I don't expect you to call me that either" he says happily. "I love my best friend" I say softly.

"Claude, I told Dad to call you, and he's going to soon" Nigel says. "I'm at the Hilton with Teddy and Rory, they bonded today" I say softly. Nigel laughs. "Horning in on their honeymoon?" he asks teasingly. And I tell him what happened and how I ran but came back. "So you" Nigel says.

"Dad wants to call you, I don't know exactly what he'll say, but I want you to know, if he asks you, your best friend wants you to take him" Nigel says. "It's too soon" I say. "No, Mum knew, she told him before she died to go take you, she wanted you two together and happy, and she knew you'd love him like she did" Nigel says. I sniffle. "She loved you, Claude, she really did" Nigel says. "I'll talk to Dad" I say softly. Nigel sighs. "He's pretty mad" Nigel says. "Sooner this is behind us the better" I say.

Dad's on the phone now. "Claude" he roars. "Dad, calm down or shut the fuck up" I roar back. Dad's silent. "I am sorry I got so mad at you, but your treatment of me hurt, I am your son, but I am an full grown adult Lion now, Dad" I say softly. "I now know why you didn't want me to go, and I agree it was a good reason, but Dad you know me, if you'd of just told me a little bit of why, I'd of stayed home happily" I say. "Claude, I admit I was afraid you'd object and Nigel wouldn't have taken me" Dad says softly. "I don't object, ask Nigel, I'm happy you two are together and so is Rory" I say quietly. I hear Nigel tell him what I had said. "Takeru and I have talked and he's on his way here, Dad" I say. "I need to apologize to Onii-Chan too" Dad says. "Dad, you hurt Rory too, he got me to come to him and Teddy when I ran from the pain" I say quietly. "Is he there?" Dad asks. I hand Rory the phone. And they chat. I hug Teddy and we talk a bit.

Rory hands me my phone back. "I'm sorry, Boy, I sometimes don't see how grown up my boys are" Dad says apologetically. "I understand Daddy, but you should know how much I trust you, even if you can't tell me all, tell me something, you know I've tried so hard to be obedient to my beloved Daddy" I say quietly. "You've been a good son, as has been Rory, and I am proud of you, boy" Dad says tearing up.

"Claude, when we called Alf when we were in the air, he told us Megan was gone already" he says. "I know, Takeru told me, he's spoken to Alf too, and he told me everything, Dad" I say. "Claude, he and I fought, but he was right, you listen to him, and you'd of listened to me too, if I had of trusted in you" Dad says. "Water under the bridge, Dad" I say.

"So?" he asks. "What?" I ask. "I know you've been thinking of this since Takeru told you, will you take Alf?" Dad asks. "As soon as he feels he's healed enough from losing Megan I will, I never got over that crush and I know I love him" I say."He's older, he's my age?" Dad asks. "I know, Dad, but it doesn't matter, no more than it mattered to Nigel that you're older" I say. "He and I will be happy to comfort each other when our loves have gone" I say quietly. I hear Nigel talking to Dad. He's affirming what I've said. "We'll cling to each other, knowing how we were loved and knowing how much we loved you both" I say quietly. Dad laughs. "He's a poor Badger, our money may throw him a bit" Dad says. I laugh. "He'll deal, he was so happy for me to help Nigel, and we'll talk." I say quietly. "I'll listen to him Dad, you know I'm submissive and I'll love and cater to him, and he'll be Boss, as much as I know without thinking about it that Nigel will be my Daddy's obedient mate" I say laughing. Dad laughs. "He told me he'll be that way" Dad says. "Dad, talk to Nigel, he told me a lot I needed to hear about Alf and how he felt, he feels about me and Alf the way I feel about you and him" I say quietly. Dad laughs. "You two really are a lot alike, Baby Kitten" Dad says. "We good again, Daddy?"I ask. "Always baby, I'm sorry, I need to make sure to treat you and Rory as the grown up Lions you are" he says softly. "Tell Nigel I love him, and I love you too Dad" I say softly. Dad purrs. "I will, Baby Kitten"he says and he hangs up.

I call Takeru and I bring him up to date. "Claude, I just spoke to Alf, he's broken up over losing Megan, but he wants to know how you feel about him, he needs to feel something positive, so if you feel about him as you told me earlier, tell him so, and I will still be there on schedule" Takeru says softly. "Do not tell Jim or Nigel, but he wants them to help him clean out their home and put it on the market and he wants to come to you when they come home if you'll have him" Takeru says. "Nigel's happy for us, he'll be as happy for me and Alf as I am for him and Dad" I say quietly. Takeru laughs. "Things are working out your way, good thing, as you're such an impatient cub" Takeru says laughing. "I am, but I'm glad you'll be here anyway, I know how busy my Bear father is, but I love having you here" I say. Rory takes my phone and he and Takeru talk a while. Rory loves Papa-San as much as I do.

Teddy's curling me up and kissing me. "Things always this drama filled at our house?" he asks. "Afraid so" I say smiling. "So, you're gonna take him when he calls?" Teddy asks. I pull out my wallet. And I show him a picture I have of Alf. He's in a bathing suit and standing in front of the diving board of our pool. "Damn, he's big and just your type" Teddy says smiling. Big butch Badger wearing his small rectangular framed glasses. In a tight wet bathing suit and I'd never noticed it but he was hard too. And it's impressive. It was just him and me out there on the patio that day. Why didn't I ever let myself see that? Rory hangs up. I note the charge on my phone, and I plug it in for a while.

Rory's pretty happy now. "How'd you get Dad to apologize so quickly?" he asks. "I just kind of snapped when he roared at me" I say quietly. Rory laughs. "You're usually so, well, so neutral when he roars at you, you don't deal with the anger but try to solve the problem" Rory says. "How does Claude react when you roar at him?" Teddy asks. Rory and I look at each other. "Big Brother's never roared at me"I say smiling. "True, I never have, just asking him, Claude will do anything I want him to, or he'll explain why, but my little Bro and I have never really fought" Rory says stroking my mane. "I love making my Big Cat Daddy happy" I say softly. Rory grins. "Gonna keep on calling me that?' he asks proudly. "Hell, yeah" I say softly. "Me too, Big Cat Daddy" Teddy says smiling. Rory grins. "I should have joint bonded you two" Rory says proudly. "No need, I'll always fuck you and you're my Brother, nothing can change that" I say softly.

"So you're gonna open bond Alf?" Rory asks. "I think we will, he's just discovered how much he enjoys gay sex, and I'll give him all he wants, but I think he'll want to experiment if he knows I'm OK with it" I say smiling. Rory smiles. Teddy picks up the picture of Alf I showed him. "I hope you do, Claude, he's a handsome and butch male" Teddy murrs. "Teddy, I'd have to share him, since you've been so good to share your beautiful mate with me" I say grinning. Rory purrs.

"I want you both, but I don't know which of you to take first" Rory says smiling. I whisper in his ear. Rory purrs louder. "On your knees, both of you, and next to each other" Rory growls. Teddy grins and he gets up on the bed. And I get on my knees on the bed right next to him. Rory growls and sinks his big dick up Teddy to his balls. Teddy's moaning and cussing. I lean over and I start making out with Teddy. He enthusiastically makes out with me as well. Rory's purr growling as he pumps Teddy's ass. "Fucking hot" he growls. And he yanks his dick out of Teddy and starts fucking me hard. "I love you Teddy" I pant as my Big Brother works my ass hard. "I love you, and I'm so glad you're so OK with me taking Rory" he says. "I am, he'll love you so much" I purr. Rory's cussing as he pumps me. "I will, I'll love you so much, as long as we both live, Little Grizzly" he growls and he yanks his dick out of me and goes up Teddy again.

He'll go that way for quite a while. I know Rory, he'll get close and pull out and start fucking again. He'll blow a huge load when he finally lets go. I lean up and I whisper in his ear. Rory grins at me. "You don't mind?" he asks. "He's yours, he'll feel special" I whisper back. "You love my Little Grizzly almost as much as I do" he says smiling. And he speeds up in Teddy. Teddy's cussing and moaning. And I look up into Rory's eyes. I can see he's close. I slip under Teddy and I take his big, fat Grizzly dick into my muzzle. Teddy's moaning loudly. I slow up, I want to wait a bit. And I can see Rory starting to tense up so I deep throat Teddy and I work his dick. Rory hits and he roars and I wrap my tongue around Teddy and he's roaring too and he fills my muzzle with his thick Grizzly cum. They're both panting loudly. Rory drops on top of Teddy. And Teddy's panting. "That was fucking amazing" he pants. I slip out from under Teddy and they collapse on the bed. Teddy ruffles my mane. "No in law problems here, I think he does love me as much as you do" Teddy says grinning. "I wanted you both to cum together" I say smiling. They both kiss me. Teddy licks my muzzle. "A bit of me on the side" he murrs. I grin at him.

My cell rings and I jump up and grab it. It is Alf. I'm pretty excited. I sit on the other bed. I answer. "Claude, you and I have to talk" he says. I can tell he's a bit drunk by his voice. "I think we do too" I say quietly. "I am so sorry, I loved Megan so much, and I'm sorry I wasn't there to help you and comfort her" I say."Claude I couldn't have coped with you being here" he says softly. I'm quiet. (Go ahead, you can say it, For a change he's quiet)

"Claude, Nigel told me once about you having a big crush on me, but you cared enough for me and Megan to keep it inside" Alf says very softly. "I never wanted to hurt either of you, and I didn't know Nigel would tell you" I say softly. "Do you still love me that way, Boy?" he asks gruffly. "I do, Alf" I say so very quietly. "Why this old Badger, the Father of your best friend?" he snorts. This isn't turning out at all like I thought it would. And I tell him why, all of the little things I saw in him that I wanted him for. Alf is quiet now. "I talked to Nigel, he thinks I should come to you, and take you" Alf says firmly. "I wish you would, Alf, if you've healed enough from losing Megan" I say quietly. Alf laughs. "Boy, she wanted me to take you, Nigel mentioned it to her, she had thought it was funny, but when she got so sick and knew she was going to die, she decided it would be the thing for me to do, she wanted me to go to you when I had healed knowing you'd love me like she did" Alf says and I can hear him tearing up. "Would you, Boy, would you love me as solidly and deeply as she did?" he asks me gruffly. "I'd do my damnedest to, I know you're going to be the husband, and expect me to mind you" I say quietly. "I will" he says firmly. He still hasn't said it. The one thing I"m almost desperate to hear him say.

"I know you have money, you know I don't care about that, but I know how you are, like with my boy, you'd do anything for me that I needed or wanted you to" he says softening his voice. "I would, and Nigel told me if you asked me I should take you right away" I say quietly. "I know, Boy, he told me the same thing" Alf says. "He says he'd keep you from being lonely when I pass on, like you'll do when Jim goes" Alf says. "I would" I say. "You two love each other so much, and I'm glad he approves" He says. "I've talked to Dr Suzakawa and he's all for us being together, that Bear loves you, Boy, but he thinks I'd be better for you than he would be" Alf says calmly.

I have nothing I can say now. "Megan, Nigel, Jim, Takeru all want me with you, Boy" he says musing out loud. Rory takes my phone. "I want you with him too, Mr Davenport" Rory says. And they chat a bit. Rory hands me my phone back. There is one thing however, he hasn't said yet. To me at least, and I wonder if he told Nigel. And I so desperately need to hear him say it. I need to know if he really does.

"Boy, I'm gonna ask you this now, Nigel says you can't lie, so do you still have enough of a crush on me to take me?" Alf asks gruffly. "It's not just a crush, I know I love you, Alf, I've been thinking about it since Alfred warned me not to go to London on my own" I say. "Alfred, eh?" he says. "I like that English Butler of yours, Nigel says he's kind of psychic" Alf says. "He is and he told me not to sneak off and go to London on my own when Dad refused to let me come with him and Nigel" I say. "What?" he asks. "Dad flatly refused to let me go with them to see you and Megan and help Nigel" I say softly. "He shouldn't ought to have done that, Boy" Alf says. "He was afraid you'd be upset by Megan's dying and then having to deal with me being there and well, if you loved me or not" I say quietly. "So as bad as you wanted to come to see us, you let Jim leave you at home?" he asks.'"I did" I say softly. "Will you mind me that way, Boy?" he snaps. "Yes, Badger Daddy" I say quietly. I can't stand it, I'm going to have to ask him.

"Alf, there is one thing I have to know" I say trying to keep the anguish out of my voice. "I do love you , Claude, is that what you needed to hear me say?" he asks. "Yes" I say weeping to hear him admit it at last. "I'm afraid I won't be as good at telling you as often as you need me to" Alf says quietly. "I will try to show you though, and I'd hope you'd take it as a given that I do, and that I always will" Alf says softly. "But you had told me you loved me and I knew you needed to hear me say it too, Claude" he says quietly.

"I'm going to get Nigel and Jim to help me clean this place out and sell it, Nigel might want some of his old stuff too" Alf says. "Then I'm coming home to take you to me, Boy, you'd best be ready for me" he snaps. "Yes, Sir" I say. "Megan set the bar high, I've only got my marriage to go on for being in a relationship" he says. "I will be all to you that you ask me to be, I want to belong to you, Alf, I want to cater to my Badger, and keep you happy" I say softly. "Nigel says you will cook for me and do anything, anything at all you think will make me happy" Alf says. "I will, but Alfred cooks mostly, but if you get hungry away from mealtimes I'll cook for you and I'll serve you" I say quietly. He murrs softly. "I can't cook, Boy, and I love being waited on" he says softly. "Love me, and tend to me, and we'll both be happy." he says softly. I purr. "I will" I say quietly.

"I am a horny Badger, and you'll be my wife, you can't say no to me when I want you" he snaps. "I can't image not wanting you to fuck me" I say quietly. 'I'm big down there, I know you don't know that, but you'll take me and as often as I want you" he says firmly. "Yes, Badger Daddy" I say. He murrs. "What if I want to fuck another guy?" he asks. "I'd like you to tell me, but I don't have the right to tell my husband who he can and cannot fuck" I say quietly. He murrs louder. "What if I want to let someone else fuck me, Alf?" I ask. He's silent. "You will tell me, ask me if you can, and I might want to watch at times" Alf says firmly. "If I'm feeling possessive I might not let you have another for that moment" Alf says. "What ever my Alf wants" I say quietly. He murrs. "You don't mind me being possessive?" he asks firmly. "No, Alf, I want to belong to you, and I will be happy to know you want to keep me as yours" I say quietly. He murrs louder. "I know you love your brother and your Dad, and Nigel and a lot of other animals, but you are totally mine, Boy" he says softly. "Yes, Sir" I say.

"Claude, I'm going to be a bit sensitive for a while, I miss Megan, I loved her so much, and I"m still new to this gay stuff, I still haven't fucked a guy, I wanted my first time to be with you, Claude, so you need to be patient with me when we do it for the first time." Alf says. I weep and I try to keep it quiet. "What, boy" he asks gruffly. "Means you really do love me" I say. "I do, Boy, but I may not be able to tell you as often as you want to hear me say it, I had trouble with Megan about that too," he says quietly. "Alf, I saw it with you and Megan, she'd never pass by you that you wouldn't touch her or stroke her very lovingly, and you'd look at her with such love, if you treat me that way, I won't care that you can't say it" I say quietly. He murrs again. "She never got that in 25 years, Claude, means we're starting out good" he says calmly. "I will try very hard to show you, anyone can say it and not necessarily mean it, but I will never touch you that you don't know how much I love you" he says quietly. "I do tend to say it a lot" I say quietly. "As long as I've known you, you've never lied to anyone, I know whatever you say, you mean, Claude" Alf says softly.

"I have things to get past, and I'm going to need you to be patient with me" he says firmly. "Yes, Alf" I say softly. "I have to mourn my wife, deal with living in America and sadly I have to adjust to loving a male" He says softly. "Alf, I'll try hard to help you if I can" I say lovingly. He's quiet. "I wish you were here now, Claude" Alf says softly. "I do too" I answer. "Not just to fuck you, but I know you'd be holding me and stroking me and comforting me, I need that always, and I may never be able to ask for it, but Nigel says you'll do it instinctively" Alf says."I will, I will hardly be able to keep my paws from stroking and caressing my Badger" I say quietly. He murrs.

"Alf, I'm hot for you, but you know what I'm most looking forwards to when you're here with me?" I ask. "What, boy?" he asks. "Feeling your big body curling up around me while we sleep and listening to you quietly snoring, and knowing I'll wake up next to my Daddy Badger every morning" I say happily. Alf murrs very loudly. "I have missed that, Megan had been in the hospital for so long, and I couldn't sleep in our empty bed without her to cuddle up to, Claude" Alf says softly. "You can fuck anyone I let you, but you're gonna sleep with me always, Claude" he says firmly. "Yes, Alf" I say. He's weeping now. I don't know if he knows I can hear him or not, I'll have to tell him about our extra sensitive hearing, vision and sense of smell one day though. But it's not gonna be now.

"Nigel was right, Boy, you're perfect for me" he murrs. "I hope so, I'll try very hard to be what my Daddy Badger needs" I say quietly. He's sniffling now. "I'm going to quit my job and I don't know if I can find another when I'm in California" he says. "You've worked so hard, you worked so many jobs to put Nigel through school and to keep your home up, if you don't want to work you don't have to, Alf, I have more than enough and our practice makes good money too" I say. "I know you have money, Boy, but it can't be that much" he snorts. "I am worth as of now, $550 million in liquid assets and another $300 million in investments, Alf" I say quietly. "Bloody hell, my Lion's a rich one" he says sounding obviously shaken. "And you need to know, Alf, I know you didn't want me for it, but I'd use any and all of it just to make you happy" I say gently. "You really do love me, Boy" he says impressed. "I do, Alf, and I held it inside as I'd never hurt you or Nigel's Mum" I say quietly. "I wish you were here, I could break rocks with me dick, you've got me so hot, your submission to me, and how much you obviously love your Alf, makes me want to fuck you badly" he murrs. "I want you, but not just your dick, I love you Alf, you're a sexy Badger." I say happily. He murrs. "Claude, I'm new at this, I hope I can please you in bed" he says softly. "Only thing I am sure of is that this horny Badger will get plenty of practice and hopes to get good enough to keep his Lion satisfied" Alf says quietly. "I love you, Alf, I know I'll be happy, it'll be my Badger fucking me, I couldn't not love it" I say happily. Alf murrs loudly.

"It'll be hard to wait til I can be with you and take you as mine, Boy, but I need to grieve a bit for Megan" he says. "I understand, Alf, I miss her too" I say softly. "Claude, I'd like to be able to talk to you about her at times, I know you loved her too, but will it hurt you as she was my love before you?" he asks. "Hell, no, Dad and I still talk about Momma, and he's talked to Nigel about her too" I say. "I know, Jim has helped me a lot, Claude, he wants me with you, Boy" Alf says softly.

"Claude, thank you for being so honest with me, Nigel said you can't lie, and I hope you will take me when I come to you" he says. "I know I will, Alfred told me so, you'll be mine and we'll be happy for a very long time, Alf" I say softly. "That psychic Fox of yours" he says happily. "What did he say?" Alf asks. "Alfred told me you'll pass on holding my paw tightly and hearing me say how much I have always loved you" I say tearing up. Alf's crying now too. "Boy, I will, I will love you until I'm dead, never doubt that" Alf says quietly. "I don't, Alf" I say quietly. "I've gotta go now, Boy, I've got lots of packing to start on, sooner I get to it the sooner I can come get me Lion" he says quietly. "He's counting the moments until he belongs to his Badger, Alf" I say softly. He's crying harder now and he hangs up.

Rory and Teddy are cuddled up and watching me. "You love him so much already" Teddy says softly. I nod and I break into tears. They both cuddle me between them. "I'll be fine guys, I don't have to wait too much longer" I say quietly. "Claude, you look so happy, even though you're crying" Rory says wiping away my tears. "I'm happy, he loves me as much as I love him, but I'll have to tough it out a while" I say softly. Teddy smiles at me. "You're more patient than folks think you are, I think you didn't give up on getting me until I bonded Rory" Teddy says softly. I nod. "Wait? What?" Rory asks. "Us Lions sometimes take a while to bond someone, I kept fucking Teddy, because I loved how he fucks, but I had a hope that maybe one day we might still bond" I say softly. Teddy smiles. "Claude?" Rory asks. "You don't still want him do you?" Rory asks me cautiously. "Only to have him on top of me, Bro, he's yours, and if he was meant to be mine, he would be, but he has the Kitman he wants, and it's you and not me" I say smiling. Rory laughs. "I forget, you can't lie, Baby Bro" Rory says laughing.