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Lud endures a traumatic part of his training.. and survives. Others are not so fortunate.

My First mission. It was to be a simple one for a guild member in training. Taking a sealed message to another tower in the city.

I was careful - keeping my eyes and ears open and trying to blend in to the crowds.. But as I passed one alley I was attacked and overcome - a sack quickly thrown over my head and secured. . I did fight and I had the pleasure of hearing some shouts and curses as my blows and kicks met solid bodies.. But there were too many of them and I was subdued.

I was bound and carried somewhere.. I kept my ears open to try and make sense of my surroundings and I noticed the light through the sack darkening, the temperature dropping, and the sounds becoming more echoed. Not a word was being said by my attackers, but they seemed to know what they were doing. Then I felt it - a prick of a needle on my arm and I was lost....

I awoke. I was furclad, tied to a chair with heavy blinkers over my eyes. My muzzle had something forced into it keeping my jaws apart. Fortunately, it did not impede my breathing. And there was silence.. I turned my head left and right but could pick up nothing. I flicked my ears only to find that there was something over them too. With no sense of time I just waited.. a minute, an hour, longer. I tried to relax and count my heart beats. I was also ashamed too. What would the Guild think of me - in the midst of my training I had been caught and so easily..

Sometime later I thought I heard someone enter. I tried to speak but was silenced by a blow to my muzzle. Then a tube was pushed between the obstruction and my muzzle. It was forcing itself down my throat. I struggled only to have someone grip my head and hold me still. Unable to move a liquid was poured down my throat and into my stomach. Again - in silence they departed.

I was starting to feel unwell - possibly due to the liquid I had been forced to drink. Swallowing I tried to hold down my last meal - but the urge became more and more till I heaved.. Bitter acids and chunks of semi digested foods flooded my mouth and flowed out down my chin.. Then I heaved again and again. It gushed from my muzzle - dribbling down under my neck into my chest fur. I gasped - trying to clear my throat and muzzle of my acrid fluids.

But then another sensation lower down started. I needed to defecate. I tensed the muscles holding it in.. trying desperately to not void my bowels but as time passed the need came stronger and stronger until I could hold it no more - and I felt it squirt and splutter from beneath my tail stub on to the chair. What was worse was the chair had no openings so my wastes seeped and squelched under my thighs and sack. And my bladder already full from waiting the hours started to give way - and I felt my urine filling my sheath and then pouring out over my fur adding to the pungent stenches.

I sat there for hours - almost crying in my shame, humiliated - then I heard footsteps behind me. I tried to follow it's movements but to no avail - only to feel a hand grasp my sheath and pulled it fully down - exposing me. Fingers kneaded my deflated swelling, although I had no sexual desire my body betrayed me and I hardened, swelled, spurting my seed across my belly. Again it clenched on my swelling forcing another unwanted climax from me, and then one final one. I was so spent that I do not think I even issued any liquids. Then the hand removed itself, wiped itself across my muzzle - leaving me fully exposed with my swelling holding my sheath back. A gruff voice said just one word "Disgusting.." and left.

I do not know how long I sat there in my own stink, soiled and humiliated. My maleness finally shrunk and my sheath slid partially up - but until I could stand I was exposed. Once again I heard footsteps and I was grabbed again - but this time forced on to my knees and bent over. Something cold, hard, and blunt was forced into my anus - I screamed at the sensation but it just intruded more and more until finally I was left shivering on the cold floor - aghast in the humiliation of what was happening to me. No questions were asked, no demands, nothing. WHY!!!!

I was semi roused by the presence of others in the room. I was not sure how many but there were at least 3 distinct but muffles voices.

"Bit of a Runt.. Ain't He, Tiny little stick he has - bet he only pleasures his paw.."

"Thought the Guild choose better than that. Pathetic little male.. "

"I know a way that he could pleasure Us though.. " the last voice chuckled evilly..

A hand gripped the back of my neck and lifted me - throwing me over the chair again. Whatever was under my tail stub was forcibly removed causing another muffled scream. Only to be replaced by something larger, hot, throbbing - a maleness. I was being raped in front these others. From the weight on my back it must have been a full sized male - and he was Too Large..

I whined.. shook my head as it penetrated deeper and deeper. I was terrified that he was going to force his swelling in me - tear me open. I screamed through my gag as I felt that swelling press against me - trying to gain entrance but I was too tight and with a muffled curse the male spasmed and spilled his seed.

He pulled out.. his hot seed dribbling from my stretched anus and another took me... and then the third..

Mercifully none of them tied as it would have been difficult for them to pull back unless they waited for their swelling to subside.

A hood was pulled over my head again and I heard a gruff voice state "Finish it.. Dispose of it.." - and I knew nothing more.

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I came to, in a bed with white linen.. The sun warming the sheets. Looking around I saw Master Tharis sitting next to me - dosing. My gasp awoke him and everything came flooding back - the pain, the humiliation, the rapes.

He spoke first "I'm Sorry Lud - but it was necessary.."

Tears fell down my muzzle - I trusted him.. I.. but he gripped my shoulders and pulled me into his arms. "Lud - understand.. From birth we have been.. conditioned.. about things. Deeply conditioned. Soiling ourselves, personal autonomy of our body, so many others - and these can be used to break the will of an individual. If an enemy did this then you would be vulnerable - you could speak and tell secrets. No amount of explanation can prepare you for This - so we have to do it by surprise, without warning, and then - if we can - help you put the pieces of your pride and self worth back together."

"It's over then " I stammered

"From Us - Yes - but I cannot promise that if captured - the same will not happen again."

I nodded - and felt his warm arms hold me.. "Master - I was forced to spill seed.. then something inside was forced inside of me.... And then I was.. Raped..."

He nodded "Rape is often used in interrogation to break the spirit. Some of our Guild member are trained in it. They try and judge the victim's limits and do no lasting harm.. We will show you exercises so that IF.. you are raped again - you can survive it.. Now Lud - rest.. It is over. You have done well.."

And so I slept. Deeply.. still hearing my cries in my dreams.

Over the next weeks various Masters came and spoke with me kindly, encouraged me to talk about it and learn techniques how to mentally prepare and survive the issues.

Then one day a strange warrior visited - saying he wanted to see how I was going. I was puzzled as to why this handsome stranger was so concerned about me, and as he sat on the bed he explained. It was he - another student - who had been tasked with abusing and raping me. And how it had gone against everything that he believed in. He had decided that he could not be part of any interrogation that involved that - and so was entering other studies. But he had been deeply troubled ever since.

I looked at this young male - about the same age as myself and I consider his position. Could I have been as restrained as he if faced with the same situation.. I reached over and took his hand and forgave him.. we were both used in the same exercise to test our limits and see if we had been found wanting.. I had passed... and he.. had not..

He looked as if a great burden had been lifted from him and he stood to his full height of 12 foot saying "I am Durnt.. I must go - studies to do. Take care Lud, and thank you for your understanding and forgiveness. I feel I owe you a great debt and if I can ever repay it.. contact me."

After I returned to my studies one of the Masters gave me some simulacrums of different maleness's. Several of Lupions, and several of Charkans - being almost the same size of Lupions but with differences according to their species. As much as I practiced, I could never take a the swelling of large Lupion male - and so the Masters explained that should I be raped - I may be damaged, and they will do the best to heal me afterwards.

Even today - I have never fully taken a male Lupion. But I am experienced in.. other.. ways of pleasuring them.