A weird vent thing, probably will delete later
Tonight is one of those painful nights. Trying to hold back these tears that keep on flowing and flowing, choking on myself. I feel unbearably alone not even the distraction of deafening music helps tonight.
It's always been hard to describe these dips in mood and emotion, it's a freefall into an abyss. Crying inexcerably into the night, my pleas of succor from my own filthy emotions not heard, of course, who would hear? I'm alone, alone, soul crushing destitution. It's enough to make me wretch, I already have. I don't know what to do with these feelings, I don't knoe where to go with them. Perhaps this too is another futile attempt at figuring shit out