A Bond Is Forged - Chapter Three - Regrets
A Bond Is Forged
Chapter Three
"Regrets"
(c) Cederwyn Whitefurr (aka: Anthony Wain)
All Rights Reserved.
2007.
As Kelly lay awake, listening to the soft moans and mutterings of Jess, and Steve's louder snoring, she stared up at the stars and thought over what she had done with Alex, and slowly- the tears began to well in her eyes. Quietly, she rose to her foot paws and slipped her crumpled blouse over her upper body. Above her, the full moon shone down with a silvery light, and the leaves brushed her body like a lover's caress, as she crept through them, trying to be as quiet as she could manage. Her wandering ended, when she made her way to the edge of the lake. Here, she stared out over the moonlit lake, and felt the first tear well in the corner of her deep brown eyes, as she clasped her paws before her and bowed her head in shame and grief. Here, alone on the moon drenched shore, Kelly sniffled as a teardrop slipped down her furred cheek and dripped off the end of her nose. It plinked into the water, where it sent ripples across the mirror like surface, breaking the reflection of the moon into wavering duplicates. As more and more tears began to fall, Kelly slumped into a sitting position and buried her muzzle in her paws.
As the choking sobs wracked her slender form, Kelly wept as she thought back over what she had done with Alex, and in her mind, a part of her began to accuse her of terrible things. Kelly knew what she had done was wrong - but another part of her argued that it was also right. Alex was young, Kelly didn't deny that, but at fifteen winters, he was not a child either.
"Stop it," Kelly whimpered, as she sank her claw tips into her muzzle. "Stop it, stop it!"
Yet the voices within her head only grew louder and louder, clamouring and arguing, as Kelly felt her emotions finally break and she wailed helplessly, burying her muzzle into her shaking paws as she tried to stifle her cries. Sobbing helplessly, Kelly gave herself up to the grief and shame that burned within her, as her claws began to dig ever deeper into the fine fur of her muzzle. Just as she was about to draw blood, powerful paws reached out and grasped her wrists and pulled them away.
"Hey, Kelly- what's wrong?" Steve nickered, as he flattened his ears and looked at her, his concern showing on his face.
"Nothing," Kelly whimpered, as she tried to pull her paws out of his much larger ones. "Just...leave me alone!"
Steve snorted, then slowly pulled Kelly to her feet and he wrapped his arms around her, and pulled her close. At first, Kelly fought against him, beating at his well muscled chest and scratching with her claws, but Steve merely held the hysterical young doe until her anger broke and fresh sobbing tore Kelly apart.
"Shhhh, come on now sweety - don't cry," Steve murmured, as he stroked her neck, feeling the tense muscles. "Tell me what's wrong. You seemed so happy earlier - "
"You - won't understand!" Kelly wailed, then buried her muzzle against his chest and gripped him tightly. "None of you can understand!"
Steve blinked, then continued to lightly caress Kelly's nape, trying to soothe her and calm this emotionally distraught young doe.
"I can not understand," Steve whispered, as he cuddled her gently and spoke soothingly. "If you will not tell me what is wrong with you."
Kelly whimpered, then ran her paws over her eyes and sniffled, trying to regain her composure.
"You know Alex - " Kelly's voice grew husky, and she sniffled again and hung her head.
Steve looked at her in confusion, then scratched the back of his head . "Alex? Alex who?"
"That - young human, whom I sit for - " Kelly's voice croaked, before she shuddered.
"Oh, him - nice young kid that - for a human anyway!" Steve chuckled, trying to get a laugh out of Kelly.
"I sat for his parents, the other night - " Kelly sniffled, then bit her tongue as fresh tears began to spill down her cheeks.
Steve gently licked away Kelly's salty tears, as he cradled her in his strong arms, feeling how weak Kelly felt in his grasp. Whatever was troubling her, it was tearing her apart, and she needed to tell someone.
"Okay Kelly, you sat for his parents - nothing odd there. It's not the first time, that someone has had you sit for them...so what's wrong sweety?"
"I - Steve, promise me - you won't hate me, when I tell you what I've done!" Kelly wailed, her voice on the edge of hysteria.
Steve leaned back, then lifted Kelly's chin so he could look into those lovely brown eyes, then he began stroking her wet furred cheeks with his furred thumbs.
"I - " Kelly stammered, then hung her head again as she tried bravely to fight back the tears that threatened to overwhelm her. "I...did something terrible...with him - "
Steve frowned, the fur across his forehead creasing into ripples as his eyes narrowed and he stopped his gentle stroking.
"Kelly, you had better explain - now!" He spoke, his voice still kindly, but the hint of anger lurking just below the surface.
Kelly summoned what little courage she had left, then lifted her head to look up at Steve, who gazed back at her with a look of both pity and concern.
"I - I didn't mean for it to happen," Kelly sobbed, as she buried her muzzle in her paws, unable to stand Steve's look. "He's a very attractive young male - for a human, and one thing led to another..."
Steve groaned and rolled his eyes skywards, as if seeking the answers in the stars that glittered so far above them.
"Go on." He told her, holding her gently by the shoulders.
"I..." Kelly swallowed, then trembled helplessly. "I made love to him Steve, as Gaia is my witness, I swear, I took him in my arms - and made this boy-child, into a man."
Steve sighed, having suspected this was what was coming. Feelings of disgust, anger, loathing and love for Kelly all fought within him, as he tried to think of what to say.
"Kelly - " Steve sighed then let go of her and turned away, his mind consumed with thoughts.
He loved Kelly dearly, as a friend, and would do almost anything for her - but this revelation she had just dropped into his lap - shook him to his very core. He took a step away from her, then froze and hung his head. Indecision tore at him, as he did not want to betray his friendship and turn her in, nor did he want to overlook what she had done.
"Hey, what's going on down here?" Jess yawned, as she stumbled blearily from the underbrush. "You two up to no good without me?"
"Jess," Steve whuffled, then looked up. "This is not a good time for - "
Kelly turned and fled into the moonlit darkness, tears coursing down her cheeks as the leaves and branches of the shrubs whipped and lashed at her.
"Hey, wait just a god damned minute here horse!" Jess snapped, as she watched Kelly run crying, then she turned her fury on Steve. "What did you do to her?"
Steve looked at Jess, then towards where he heard Kelly crashing through the underbrush, then he sighed and looked back at Jess.
"Jess...I - I'll tell you after I go find Kelly...please, just - stay here." Steve muttered, as he turned and ran into the underbrush after Kelly.
Jess stood for a moment, then confused and upset, she turned about and headed back to their campsite.
"Furs - " Jess grumbled to herself. "I'll never understand them!"
*
Steve pushed through a thick grove of prickly bushes, then found Kelly laying on the ground, curled into the foetal position and sobbing heartbrokenly. As he approached, Kelly struggled back to her feet and turned away from him.
"Kelly - " Steve sighed, as he approached and laid a paw on her shoulder.
"You hate me, don't you!" Kelly suddenly screamed, as her paw flashed out and struck Steve's furred cheek.
As quick as he was, he was unable to pull his head away, as Kelly's sharp claws gouged four furrows through the chestnut fur. He whinnied in pain and flinched backwards, his eyes narrowing in anger and hurt, before he come to his senses and then grasped Kelly by her shoulders and pulled her tight against him. Kelly's anger evaporated like smoke, and she clutched him tightly as fresh tears coursed down her cheeks and dampened his chest fur.
"Kelly, come on sweety - please, don't cry." Steve nickered, as he winced then lightly touched the bleeding slashes on his cheek.
"Steve, I - I'm so sorry!" Kelly sobbed, as she clung like a leech to him.
He managed a weak smile, despite the stinging pain in his cheek, then licked Kelly's forehead.
"It's okay - honestly. I startled you, and you retaliated, that's to be expected I suppose." Steve sighed, then winced. "However, it doesn't help us, with your problem, does it?"
Kelly sniffled, then bowed her head and wrung her paws before herself. "No..."
"Okay, come on back to the campsite with me - and we'll talk. I think you should explain yourself to Jess, as she's understandably upset." Steve gently took Kelly's paws in his.
Kelly sniffled again, then dried her nose and eyes with her blouse, and obediently followed Steve.
*
"Oh, dear god - " Jess gasped, then stared at Kelly.
Steve sat beside Kelly, then draped an arm across her shaking shoulders, lending the frightened and upset young kangaroo doe comfort and strength.
"What do I do - how can I make it right!" Kelly whimpered, as she kneaded her paws in her lap. I...I mean, he isn't a child - "
Jess bit a knuckle in consternation, then sighed. "Kelly, do you love him?"
Kelly's eyes moistened, and Steve stroked her shoulders, then rested Kelly's head against his shoulder and hugged her lightly.
"I - " Kelly stammered.
"Do you love Alex - " Jess repeated, her eyes fixed on Kelly, who squirmed helplessly.
"I - do...but it can not happen again," Kelly sniffled, as she hung her head, dropping her gaze. "It was wrong - I should not have made love with him."
Jess looked at Steve, who stroked Kelly's neck, then raised an eyebrow at Jess.
"I think - " Steve interjected, his gentle voice calm. "That we must decide - wether to confront Alex' parents, and tell them what happened, and for Kelly to face her punishment - "
Kelly sobbed heartbrokenly, knowing that Steve spoke the truth, as painful as what it was to her. Even Jess flinched and looked sympathetically at the tormented young Kangaroo.
"Or - " Kelly whimpered, wondering what Jess and Steve would say next.
"Or," Steve sighed, then stroked Kelly's shoulder comfortingly. "You do your best, to resist such impulses in future, and if Alex's parents ask you to sit for them again - you make your apologies and refuse. I think - the temptation would be too great for you Kelly."
"I - " Kelly moaned, wringing her paws together. "I see Alex every day, how can I just pretend what I done to him, did not happen?"
Jess tenderly laid her hand on Kelly's lap, then squeezed her paws. "Kelly, if you see him - then if you get the chance, tell him you are sorry for what you done. It was wrong, you know that - and tell him..."
"Tel him what?" Kelly suddenly wailed. "Tell him that I couldn't control my emotions and I took advantage of a young human, because I'm sexually frustrated and - "
Steve sighed, and Jess leaned forwards, then pulled Kelly into a gentle embrace.
"No, tell him that what you shared - although wrong, and a mistake, it was - something special between him and you, and will always remain so." Jess whispered, as she stroked Kelly's cheeks. "I can not think, of a nicer person to introduce him to such things, than you, my dear, lovely Kelly."
As Kelly burst into new tears, Steve wrapped Kelly and Jess into his embrace, then cuddle his to friends gently. He felt a weight lifted from him, as Kelly's muscles slowly relaxed, and her tears eventually grew fainter and fainter, as her emotions run their course and exhaustion set in. Soon, Kelly slumped into Steve's waiting arms, and he carefully picked her up and cradled her, before carrying her to the tent. As he tucked her in, Kelly's eyes fluttered open, and she looked up into Steve's eyes.
"Steve - you know that I - " Kelly whispered, as her eyelids drooped again. "I love you, my dear equine..."
Steve smiled, then stroked her cheek and licked her forehead, before smoothing down her blouse and pulling the blanket up around her chin.
"I love you - " Kelly murmured, then sighed and blinked slowly. "Yet I can not - make love with you."
Steve nodded, then lay beside her and began stroking her trembling pouch, making Kelly moan softly in pleasure.
"I knew that Kelly, and even if you offered - I would not accept. As much as I love you too, I could never bring myself to hurting you, which is what would happen if we did try to make love with each other. Yet - there are other ways, I can make you happy my dear doe. However, that is for another night - now, go to sleep. What you done with Alex, I will not speak of anymore, and I am sure, Jess will not either. You admitted your guilt, and now, I hope - you will be able to put it behind you." Steve whispered, as he leant down, then licked her forehead again.
Kelly whimpered, then rolled onto her side, her back to him, and curled up. As Steve crept back out of the tent, he heard Kelly's soft sobbing, and he knew it would be some time before Kelly forgave herself, even if her two friends had.
*
Outside, Steve slumped down beside Jess, who lay down and rested her head in Steve's furred lap and traced random patterns into the fur of his thigh.
"I feel so sorry for her," Jess sighed. "It must be tearing her apart, with the guilt and all that - "
Steve nodded, then began absently caressing Jess's left breast, the nipple slowly hardening under his fingertips.
"Oooh - " Jess moaned softly. "What say you colt - one more time?"
Steve grinned, then looked down at Jess and teasingly pinched her nipple, eliciting a soft groan from Jess.
"Only one more time - my love?" Steve nickered.
"We've got to tell Kelly you know," Jess whispered, as she rose, then straddled Steve's powerful thighs and began stroking his sheath. "That we're together..."
Steve arched his back inwards, as he felt Jess's fingers slide into his sheath and stroke the head of his penis.
"We will - " Steve grunted, as he shivered at Jess's touch. "For now, let her sleep, as she has had a rough night. Come on, let's go down to the water - and I'll give you a riding lesson you won't forget in a hurry woman!"
Jess caressed the tip of Steve's growing erection, tracing the flaring ridge with her fingertips as she leaned forwards and pressed her lips against his finely furred ones.
"Promises, promises colt - " Jess murred. "Let's see if you can deliver, shall we?"
Steve nickered at her, then lipped playfully at her throat, before he rose and helped her too her feet, then led her down towards the lake shore.
To Be Continued...