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'Okay there is no denying it now, you like him' said Sine as Aron was going to take a shower.

'Well what are we going to do now that we completed the hack?' asked Felix.

'Probably just relax, we need a break after what has happened today' said Scient.

'Okay I will just try to talk to Aron and see any signs that he likes me and get him on a call to let Terry teach him how to use the social engineering toolkit' I told myself.

'Alright then, but what about you? You still have not fully recovered yet and you know it' asked Scient.

'I'll be fine, I have lasted this long without a breakdown and will still be able to go without a breakdown' I told them.

'Fine, but don't say we didn't warn you' Scient said as I got some clothes to change into after Aron was finished showering.

When we were both done showering me, Aron and Kit had dinner since we missed lunch today we cleaned our plates better than the dish soap ever did. We went into my room to play with some video games I had and caught Kit trying to hack the game to cheat.

Eventually I begun to talk to him and asked why he looked different than most wolves.

"Yeah, I'm not actually a wolf but a wolf/fox hybrid" he said.

"Oh, were you Bullied for it?" I asked trying not to stare at him awkwardly.

"Yes, though I most likely won't now thanks to you" he said giving me a cute smile.

'Okay you really need to get yourself 'straight' as I don't think you can keep yourself from staring at him, even if he is obviously as gay as a bag of skittles' Felix said.

'Really? You had to make that pun?" I asked him.

'yes I did and now you are on your own' he said.

"Trent why are you staring at me?" Aron asked as I was staring at him.

"Sorry, I was getting pretty tired after today" I said as I took off my jacket and set it on my chair while seeing Aron blush from the corner of my eye.

"Alright then goodnight" he said as he lay down on the other side of the bed.

'Admit it, you want to cuddle with him' Sine said.

'Yes, I do want to cuddle with him and I do admit it' I said making Sine scream in frustration.

'You should really stop making her angry' Felix said.

'She is my crazy side so I will give her a taste of her own medicine'

'This is dangerous though, she could easily trigger the trauma in your nightmares if she is angry enough' Scient warned.

'Relax, I could handle the nightmares before I can easily handle them this time' I told them.

'thats what you said befo-' Scient said before being cut off by my sleep.

I dreamed of being in my old classroom, with all of my old classmates including all of the bullies. They walked towards me and one of them sneered while telling th rest to grab me. Being myself I tried to run but could only go so far until they caught me, trying to fight back was futile as I felt too weak to fight back or even squirm in their grasp. They looked at me and one by one begun to punch me in the chest. After they were done the last one came up and held his arm to my neck, pressing down on my blood flow but letting me barely able to breath and letting me see the teacher simply ignoring me dying right in front of her. I tried to get out of his grasp but it didn't even make him flinch.

'See, even the teachers don't want to help you, your just an insignificant zero in the sea of ones you are worthless' Sine said, her words stabbed me like a dagger. Eventually I was able to escape her grasp and woke up to find myself falling off the bed.

"Thud!" I landed on my right foot and sprained it.

"Trent! Are you ok?" Aron asked clearly worried about me.

"I-I'm fine" I said trying to ignore the pain of my ankle and the nightmare that made me feel worthless, I begun to tear up.

"Are you crying?" Aron asked clearly concerned.

"N-no,' said weakly barely able to get onto the bed as my ankle was sprained and I felt week and vulnerable as I was worthless.

"Trent you are obviously hurt" Aron said as he tried help me onto the bed and laid me on his lap.

"Okay, I am hurt" I admitted as the tears begin and caused Aron's shirt to be wet as he hugged me closely trying to comfort me.

"It's ok Trent, just tell me what happened I will help you" he said soothingly as I begin to calm down and started to explain.

"I doubt it's that big of a deal" I lied hoping that he would not see through the crystal clear lie.

"Trent, stop lying you fell off your bed and sprained your ankle and now you are tearing up it's a pretty big deal" Aron said as I sighed and decided to just tell him the truth.

"Okay, when I was 11 I was in a class that only had two of my friends and almost everyone else there was either an old enemy or was just a bad person. One who really got my nerves was a kid who was really cocky with his intelligence and would boast that he could predict anyone's actions despite the fact that I could do it better. When they learned that I had slight autism that cocky kid had used it to his advantage and manipulated everyone into trying to bully me thinking I was a mental person. He even got another classmate who I made friends with to help him bully me in a day even though I tried to be his friend for weeks and was finally able to, only to have him as an enemy. When I tried to tell the teacher who was in charge of punishing them she was biased and simply saw that I had autism making her automatically side them despite the fact that I was, ganged up on, beaten up, verbally abused to be suicidal and finally strangled. This caused me to question being alive since I felt worthless and had a few failed suicide attempts but successful attempts at harming myself. Eventually I just couldn't take it and fought back since they already backed me into a corner with the teacher leaving me to just die. My parents found out about this and immediately told the principal and vice principal who were both busy at the time and told the very teacher who ignored me which caused it to continue for the whole year."

"When the next year began I was hoping to have a fresh start and be able to leave it in my past, only to find that not only was the class the same but the teacher in charge was also the same. This caused the cycle of bullying to continue and repeat itself for a whole year and my friends being hurt in the process, eventually I snapped when they tried to take part of a project that we had despite having double the parts and I just asked politely to get it back. They obviously didn't listen so I just grabbed the part myself and then they started to chase me down, I gave them back the part and they still chased me for it they started to back me to a wall and kept pushing me onto it, then they started to kick and punch me making me feel worthless with their insults. Eventually I just couldn't take it and threw them around, infuriated that people would just leave someone to be hurt and not help them, I nearly made someone blind before the teacher who was reading Facebook the entire time stopped me and I was asked what happened I told them what they did and when they were called up the cocky kid tried to conjure a lie to make him innocent. But everyone else there actually told them the truth and made him furious, he was still able to haggle his way out and pretty much get out of it Scott-free. And on the second last day of school he caught me trying to read it and took my glasses to try and stop me from reading it, I tried to grab them back and accidentally hit his ear which ended up with him saying that he had permanent brain damage and I would have to pay for the brain scan and medication. I could tell that brat was trying to blackmail me so I didn't fall for it and he told the teacher, however since it was the second last day the teacher decided that he was done with his bs and just let us both off saying that he would have to pay my broken glasses. That was when I felt that no one could be trusted and that everyone is just bad which caused trust issues and mental trauma that led me to learn hacking to protect myself and caused the nightmare that made me fall" I finally finished.

"Wait so your teacher didn't do anything and just let you get bullied in front of them?" He asked in disbelief.

"Pretty much" I said feeling weak from having to relive that nightmare.

"I can't believe that there are people who would do such a thing" he said clearly boiling with rage.

"There are always people who are like that and there is nothing we can do to change that, but please don't be angry" I said trying to calm him since being angry at the past just makes the situation worse.

"Still you aren't ok and obviously need some help" he said.

"True, though you need to hide the fact that you like me better" I said with the same smug grin that Kit had yesterday morning.

"Oh... I guess it was that obvious" he said looking a bit sad and was blushing.

"For someone who can easily read another fur, yes" I told him.

He sighed and looked sad "I understand that you don't have any feelings for me and you just want to remain as fr-" he was cut off by me as I pressed his muzzle against his and kissed him. This lasted for about a few minutes until I pulled back and began to explain.

"Three parts that you made a mistake in" I said smugly.

"One is that your pupils dialaded when you were looking at me sometimes"

"Two is that your heartbeat was faster when you were hugging me"

"And three is that I don't want to remain as friends with you but be more than just a friend" I said. Seeing Aron suddenly start to smile and wag his tail as he got more excited.

"Wait are you saying that you want to be my-"

"Boyfriend? Yes" I said and continued to hug him back.

"Ouch!" I shouted as Aron accidentally hit my ankle with his leg.

"Sorry!" Aron apologized.

"Aron, it's ok" I said trying to get some bandages from the first aid kit under my bed and wrapping them around my ankle to keep it in position.

"So what do you want to do now?" I ask him.

"Well, I can stay here till dinner and it's 5 a.m. so most likely no one is awake right now" he said.

"Wanna cuddle till Kit breaks the door?" I ask.

"Yeah" Aron replied as he wraps his arms around my smaller frame and I wrap my arms around his chest. Finally no longer afraid to be vulnerable around someone and having someone that I trust.