Guilt
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Could you love me?
If you know what I've done?
The things I've seen.
The things I've been through.
Could you love me?
If I couldn't love you?
I don't think I can.
I don't think I would deserve that kindness.
Could you love me?
If I feel betrayed?
By my own body, no less.
By the people I've trusted and let in.
Could I love myself?
If maybe I had done something?
Said something.
I think "no" would have been a good start.
But I said nothing.
I let it happen, and it did.
Did I want it?
Even though I was asleep?
I let it happen again.
And again.
So, could you love me?
I don't think I can.
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