Eternal Vigilant Companion
#1 of Poems/Lyrics
I wrote this about 2 years ago when my depression began to set in.
I live in a world where nothing changes
No effort may slay the beast within.
There is no hope from above
Nor any promise from below.
Arms reach out from within
Reach out above and strangle hope
Reach out below and stumble resolve
Reach out betwixt and shackle strength.
Tears fall dry and silent from hollow eyes
Upon voiceless whispers whimpered into the night.
Does no one listen or can no one hear?
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
There is not much left within this hollow tomb
The candle of this soul gutters and shall burn no more.
A life wasted in remorse a future ruined with regret.
Body ravaged by gluttony
Mind starved by neglect
Fingers crushed without creativity
Heart putrefied by hate and anger.
I wander blind and fatigued
With a madness that silently and gleefully eviscerates.
All passion has bled from me
All joy has rotted away
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
I hear a voice calling out to me from ages bygone
A presence felt: ethereal, regal.
Faintly carried upon airless winds cold and stabbing
A voice that says:
Breathe a gentle sigh of relief
And carry your burden no more
Cast it upon my broad black back
And hoist yourself into my arms
Whisper your worries into my jackals ears
And let me bear you towards the light.
My child shall never be alone shall never be afraid shall never be naked
My child shall never be unloved shall never be thirsty shall never be cold
My child shall be free shall be whole shall be pure
My child shall be nourished shall be strong shall be vindicated
My child shall be
Reborn