Loud Lotion - (Ch. 1)
Loud Lotion - (Ch. 1)
Have you ever lain in bed hoping that it was all a dream. Every tear that was shed, every painful memory... Just wishing when the body wakes up, your heart and psyche will forget all of it. At the given second, we realize that everything cannot be suppressed in loving memories. Everything must have an end, whether one wants it or not... it all depends on the chances we are offered. On the changes we have to face. Our hearts have wounds that will not heal and wounds that continue to ache and bleed. Keeping you upon the edge of decision... waiting for something, SOMEONE to show you liberation. To be the guide you always wanted.
A dream that teaches you while it's hurting you.
"They are all gone, only for the one that I value deeply and am fortunate to have."
I wasn't expecting for this to be so difficult. I can't even find the right words to describe this "feeling." It feels like my precious heart is being manipulated by this one dog, whom I love extremely. Every time I close my eyes, I am thinking about him; dreaming about him.
Everyday I wake up and take a long look at the mirror and think "Why am I doing this? Why do I have an anxious mind thinking about him all the time?" But, that's just me..."different."
(Chapter 1)
(Association of its Differences)
The late bell rings.
And, Lan just stepped through the door to class. All the other students were at their seats with their notebooks out, and the instructor was already in front of the classroom. The teacher was sitting at his desk ready to take attendance. When he saw that Lan just made it on time, the teacher had a smirk on his face and said "Ah, made it on time, Lan. You do know that one more late means detention. You were lucky this time, but I doubt that you can ever keep that up." Lan just looked at him and said nothing. Lan is a Labrador Retriever, same age as me, the only difference is that he is strongly built. He is, however, the complete opposite of me when it comes to behavior and being responsible. Lan is an outgoing dog, sometimes the "class-clown," other days...he's cool to talk to.
Lan just walked to his assigned seat and sat down. Lan sits next to me because it's in alphabetical order, if the seating chart wasn't like that, I bet he would be sitting in the back of the room sleeping. Our teacher, Mr. Bayshore, had his eyes glued to Lan as he sat in his seat. Mr. Bayshore's face was showing eagerness, almost waiting for Lan to say something back at him, but Lan didn't. Then our instructor glanced at me and he caught me staring at him. I panicked and then switched my view from him to my book.
My name is Vid. I'm a German Shepherd that's very quiet. Most of the time I'm just drawing and listening to music in my room. But, I'm an excellent student...or so that's what other teachers think of me. Most of my teachers are always using me as an example, praising me, making me look eloquently and always putting me "on-the-spot."... Which I fucking hate. I'm a shy mutt, the complete opposite of Lan, but when a teacher says something, then all the other students look at me, and I start to sweat and tremble. Well, said and done, Mr. Bayshore put me "on-the-spot," again!
Mr. Bayshore started to pick on Lan because Lan ignored him. It seems like our teacher wanted an argument or something to end his day with a motivation to be pissed off. Anyway, he said "LAN, I just realized that you're one of my students that usually slacks off and shows no effort in doing homework or keeping an average GPA. And, what's interesting is, you're sitting next to one of my excellent students, like a role-model, and you still don't learn anything. Why can't you be more like Vid?"
Every student in the class started to stare at me. I even heard some whisperings in the back row. But, Lan didn't say anything back. He wasn't even nervous, I was blushing for the whole class period.
After the teacher ended his lesson, the final bell rang...
I was happy because this was the last class of the day. As the students rose up to leave. Mr. Bayshore said "Vid, stay for a few minutes, I want you to do me a favor...AND, LAN! Stay because I have to talk to you." I just stayed standing near my desk and Lan was standing beside me. As the rest of the students left, he told us to walk toward his desk. As me and Lan were fairly close, he stared at us and told us with a timid voice but with a confident tone. "Is it possible if either one of you go to the other's house so you guys can study together? Because, Lan...even though I get irritated with your laziness and the fact that you don't care...still doesn't mean that I don't care for you. I really want you to pass my class."
Lan just had his head facing down and with his long ears covering his face. I kinda felt jealous, I want those dangling ears of his.
Then Mr. Bayshore looked at me and said with a begging look, "Vid, can you be, like, a tutor for him. Be friends, like study-buddies." I personally didn't want to associate with a dumb mutt like Lan, but I didn't want to tell it to his face and get his self-esteem any lower. I also didn't want for Mr. Bayshore to think I'm an arrogant student, so I said "Yeah, of course. It's no prob. I'll be glad to help Lan." I then put a smile on my face but what I really felt was another responsibility I had to take care of.
Why me?
As we walked out of the classroom together. Lan was talkative, as usual, and happy that Mr. Bayshore didn't have anything to make him worry. We were both walking the hallways together and Lan said to me, "hey Vid, I thought I was in trouble when he told me to stay after class...I hate staying after school. What about chu?" I looked at him with a disappointed face and started to focus on his eyes. But, he had an adorable smirk on his muzzle, which affected my emotions and made my original gesture to become a happy one. I chuckled "I never stayed after school." I kept my stare on Lan's face...all the time he was sitting next to me in class, I never really noticed he was...attractive. His muzzle was wet and those fucking ears! Damn, I wanted ears like the ones he has.
We walked to my locker and he noticed I was looking at him for minutes. He then asked with a curious tone "what?" and then placed a smile on his face. I snapped out of my daze and said, "huh...oh, nothing. It's your ears, they're cool looking. Unlike my ears, yours move around and I bet that feels good, no?" Then he started to blush and quickly replied "yeah." I was a little confused what that was all about, because I know Lan doesn't get nervous...but he was blushing? Then a pause filled the air for seconds and I then blurted out "So, do you want to come to my house or should I go to yours?" Lan replied with uncertainty and said "I dunno." Even though he didn't say so, I sensed that he was vaguely implying if he could come to my house by the sound of his voice. Then I said "Well...come to my house, ok?"
My friendship with Lan isn't that deep because we are completely opposite. We do share music, drawing and some other interests, but not a huge one for us to get to know each other that well. I've talked to him before in class and that was it. I really am interested in knowing more about him and from what I saw in his expressions, he had a mutual eagerness. At least that was something we both shared in common. At first I thought this was going to be a bad idea, but looking at him while we were in the hallways together made me think otherwise. "Vid, the excellent student, friends with Lan, the class clown." I laughed at the thought, but was interested to see how it would all turn out.
Lan came inside my room and was happy to know that I was taking my own time to help him out. We both sat on my bed and took out our books and began doing the homework Mr. Bayshore assigned us. For minutes, we were just sitting there and then Lan said "Why do you like my ears again?" With a smile on his face. His question broke my reading and concentration, but I answered him anyways. "Because they're cool, the reason why I was looking at them was because I wish I had some." He then looked at my eyes and said, "...you wanna touch them?" I looked at him with a face that I didn't know what he meant. He only kept looking at me and I felt a little uncomfortable for that question, but I agreed. I didn't want him to notice so I said "yeah." With a happy smile. He then pushed the books off to the side of my bed and placed his head on my thigh. Lan kept his eyes on my eyes, but his long ear kinda slapped my penis which made me jump a little. Lan giggled and I did too.
I usually get nervous when something gets unusual, but I didn't start to sweat or tremble. It was like I wanted this to come, I was expecting this to come out of him. My penis was getting a little erected, so I kinda lifted his ear from my penis. Even though I had jeans on, I didn't want my erection to be noticeable. As I lifted his ear off my penis, I began to rub his ear in a gentle manner. Lan's ear felt so good, and smelt wet like he took a bath before coming to my house. It was so delicate, I started to rub it and going down to his face and then neck...the only thing different was that my gentle touch was getting deeper and deeper and I was pressing erotically because I loved his fur. Lan closed his eyes and extended his legs. I noticed his erection because he had sweatpants on, which made it very easy to notice. After seeing that, my erection became extremely hard that my jeans were kind of pressing it and I felt a little uncomfortable. But, I didn't mind.
Lan pulled down his sweatpants while his head was still on my thigh and I saw his uncircumcised penis. I wanted to play with his sheath for a while because I'm circumcised and I never played with a sheath before. I found that to be neat, I also noticed if Lan pulled down his pants, why didn't I do the same? So I did and I already had pre-cum. Lan lifted his head up from my thighs and just looked at my penis and smiled, because he had pre-cum too. He took his paw and gathered his up and licked it.
After we were unexplainably sexually urged, because we were pups just developing into dogs, Lan asked "So Mr. Excellent Student... have you ever done anything like this before?" I looked at him and answered him with a slightly embarrassed face, "no...have you?" Lan then replied "Yes, but you're lucky my friend. You are doing this because you want to." I just looked at him with a confused look on my face and I tilted my head for him to finish his sentence. Lan then said, "Vid, I was forced to."
Then Lan's eyes became glassy.
(To be continued...)