Reminiscences...
Well... here you have your warnings... the story you are about to read include sex between two adult persons. Please if you're not 18 or older stop wasting your time and all that stuff.
Not really sure how to start this shit... I'm supposed to put down what runs through my head in these pages but all I can think of is how unnecessary I see this, yet... here am I, starting a story, which happens to be my own. So much for a writer am I, right?
On my own defense I have: this wasn't my idea, but a friend of mine's. It's supposed to be way to escape the pressure before it turns me "nuts", So much for her wishes too, for my point of view I'm already nuts.
Anyway, I'm writing trying to please her and hoping it will work... but I think the reason doesn't matter now, and funny thing I'm starting to feel a bit better writing... it's like talking to someone I don't know and will never know, so if I tell you my whole truth you won't be messing around my social circles and won't blackmail me, eh?
Well. First of all I want to make clear... English isn't my mother language so you'd better be expecting some horrors ahead but I'll try my best, my reason to write down on a different language is simple... I'm currently living in a shared apartment, and... somehow my PC password always slip somewhere and this... "shit" I'm about to tell you is something I don't want people around me to know... just not yet.
So much for my introduction, eh? You must already get I'm pretty self-conscious about this little yet BIG secret. My... tutor and I are true believers of the chaos theory... little thing change the course of bigger things. There was a time in which I was THAT little thing that changed her world and turned it her believes on certain groups.
My story begins with the name of the country: Peru... I know, I know, you probably never even heard of it, so go 'Google' it. So far I will tell I was born to a poor family or so I tell since I haven't really met them, don't even remember a face. Yeah, really... I was what you could call a stray, living out of smugglery and charity and those programs to feed children the churches put. Like most of the homeless kids that roamed capital city of Lima's street I was named after one of the churches I used to frequent... The name? Francisco... Frank if you like.
It's in one of this places that I met the woman I told you about; and no, she's not the girl who told me to write about my life, but the woman that set me to a real path not the dark alley I was slipping down. Her name was Consuelo, a tiger just like me, that's what really got me to trust her, even though I never got in contact with her... the thing is here in this country is somewhat hard to find a tiger... at least not of this kind of "poor", most of them are either rich or middle class at the least. You know... what would be doing a prideful tiger in this kind of places... well she had her reasons, but she surely represented our kin in all it's glory, even in those fucked up places.
I won't go on details of how we got to know each other, it was rather unpleasant sine to get her attention I always look to get into a fight with her older son... ha-ha, at least twice we broke each other's nose, because I always thought her mom was hot, actually even now she still is, I mean... big breast, lithe body and stylized hair and fur... even having three children she conserved such appearance, that's to be acknowledged. Well, that's beside the point. My real tale began two years before that, before she allowed me to work with her and started to trust me.
Two years has passed since the two of us met... years in which we struggled together to help each other, she was a great merchant, really, and even if she wants to forget about it our initial working capital was also one of my latest thefts to that date. But she really made up to the guy I took from, I mean allowing someone to get into the party once you get yourself a stand in the newly opened mall... well, she told me it was her decision and her last word on it. But still... that's the start of it all. The very man I stole from and our new little partner... was a big brown bear, a bachelor and a very pleasant guy.
Maybe I should have said it before, but during the days it all happened I was still a tender youngling... some say I still am but fourteen years old and starting my self discovery... that's what I think is tender. And no, you jerks, if you want some yiff between any of my tutors and me just get the hell out of here. But I won't lie to you either, up to this day I still have some wet thoughts about them, it just... never happened.
What did happen was a very different story, it all began with what real crap begins in all families... jealousy, and the saddest I ever knew of... between a son and his mother. I may not be the one that should be talking about this kind of jealousy but I was there to see how a lovingly filial relationship degraded to the point to maintain itself on just appearances and repressed resentment, even hatred. I'm not the one that should be talking about it but I know the main character on it won't be sharing her part of it with me and I know Rafael, won't do it too.
Rafael, Consuelo's elder son and a tiger just like me, even being older he was a bit thin in comparison, He-he... I'd probably hate to admit it then but now I can say I was the fatty type... young with lots of baby fat, get the idea. Anyway he became somewhat like a bother to me during this past years, and he played my first male role up to the point where Gerardo, the bear, came to scene... we've talked joked about the "relationship" between her mother and Gerardo... and how would be like if the fucked... yes, I started my self-discovery thinking about my parental figures fucking, but even if there was a line they didn't cross in front of me or Rafael or any of his siblings, there was always this unsolved sexual tension... of course, that was just my point of view. It's then that I get to know the reason of it all... Rafael's father was in prison... he had been there for about eight years now, Consuelo never talked about him... she always seemed resentful towards him, but Rafael surely did, always a bit defensive but never allowing me to pay him a visit when he and the other kids went to see him, he told me it was a mistake and that, whatever the crime was, it wasn't his fault... I never went into details about that, I truly believe that if you want to keep something a secret, friend or not I have no right to make you talk. As I, myself, had secrets of my own back then... and weren't about to let anyone know.
Roles in the "partnership" binding us were pretty much defined even without talking about it, with the money I could gather... whatever the mean it was, Consuelo would use it to increase her capital, buy food and what not for the house, that kind of stuff. I felt like I belong in there; up to the point I found myself hired by a friend of mine and work as an assistant for a distribution company, I had a real job for my first time; I wasn't going to lose this... not if I knew I would be reducing myself yet again to the streets. Shitty job, I might add... you know carrying shit over that place, and to that store but a job anyway and I liked it.
But back to my "family's" reality...I never really thought of a real relationship between our elders but Rafael did, and began to grow weary of the bear, during those days I would probably just think Gerardo acted really dumb and clumsy as a general rule for bears. Of course it all changed one night.
By that time, having leaved Consuelo's rented apartment and the abandoned house I used to sleep in respectively, we've all moved Gerardo's... pretty house, big and spacious, two story tall and a garage, we were unofficially... a family by any means. Over the course of that Saturday, from dawn to twilight, Gerardo and I were indulged in study, the bear was a great teacher and without Consuelo around, he was at his best... thanks to him I retook school and was doing great even at the same grade as Rafael who was two years older than me. We were doing great and by great I mean awesome, the bear joked and each of us reply with our cockiness and street smart, that's what I liked of him, an adult able to follow and outwit my stupidities without losing that strong demeanor that kept me from crossing that thin line defining the one in charge.
Of course like any other family we had our problems, Rafael seemed to be more and more resentful towards Gerardo... it was the same every afternoon after Gerardo came back from work or weekend any where he stayed all day home. Rafael would always be reclusive towards him, and just him, always making sure the bear noticed. Anyway he and I knew better than to make the bear who's house you sleep in, angry... specially if that bear was about seven feet tall and three hundred pounds of almost pure muscle. And for me? I was still this social outcast I always was.
There was a problem on the overall picture too, during resent nights there was reported theft on nearby stores so we needed someone to pass the night at ours while the danger was taken care of, and by process of elimination the responsibility fell upon the bear's shoulders. He was happy to comply though... since it meant Consuelo had to go to the store at night to fetch him food, and Consuelo always took more time than necessary to do so...
The night was young yet I was tired, Gerardo had been out for about and hour and Consuelo had just leaved with his food. And here comes my jealous "brother" talking.
"What do you think they're doing?" He said... it was always the same, always trying to get shit in my mind. "Just staring at each other?"
For God's sake I knew what he wanted, he wanted to go after his mother and see what they do at the store when they're alone... God, even for me that was obvious, but I didn't care if that brought some stability to my fucked up life. But since to his eyes I was just a lousy mouth spying on them alone was a risk. "I don't know..." He wanted me with him. What a bastard. "Maybe..." I replied.
"...The whole night?!" He continued
"Look, I don't know what they do, neither I care. And so you should." I was starting to lose my patience; I swear I was going to talk one of those days. "Remember we are in charge till any of them comes back... what if the cubs wake up."
"They're cub no more, Julia can take care of Sebastian just fine." He replied, trying to get me going...
I sighed... "Look, why are you whining over this. Nothing has happened, you know that."
"Nothing? You think they do nothing in there?!" He was starting to yell... I just sighed again, I was tired I just wanted to sleep.
"Whatever Consuelo do, if she returns fine, I'm fine with it." I remember expressing like I didn't care at all, that really got him mad, it always did and always will.
"You're with them don't you?" He mid asked, mid accused.
"Look, you should already know I don't care what people around me do, if I'm eaten and got a warm bed, so shut up." I said in a "matter of fact" tone. "I'm with myself and no one else."
"You bastard... only thinking about yourself. You should be preoccupied too!" Yeah, he used the term bastard on me, always when he was angry at me... even if I wanted to deny it, it hurt... a lot.
"Why?" I merely asked "She's gone to see Ger... he won't allow anything to happen to her."
"Oh yeah, well what if your mother got fucked all night, what would you do eh?" He wanted to make this personal... he knew I would explode over some facts. I didn't care about my real family, but touch certain points on an ex-stray homeless boy... well you get the idea.
"Never knew her, dude." Was my sincere response.
"You're afraid then? What you're afraid of, god damn idiot?" And there was it, the name calling, I always detested that... and he waited, just the right time to continue "A fucking faggot! That's what you are, fucking coward faggot!"
Well... what can I say? When you grow in the middle of shit you grow a little overprotective of what little dignity you can hold grasp of... name calling was a big shit for me those days. But I knew Rafael would try to beat me if I tried anything and I was on the losing side... I always was, fighting with your tutor's son? That's not a good idea, my only connection to the family was but a mere friendship... that was something Gerardo and I were working on but that was a long process. Anyway a fight with him was nowhere near my possible way to solve this problem, I was just tired to start a match right then. "You know what? Go. I don't care, get hit by a car. I just... don't... care."
"Bullshit." He said. "You're gonna spill your guts first thing they come."
"No, I won't." He just stared angrily at me and I knew there was no way to get rid of this nightly ritual, him trying to convince me to spy on Consuelo and Gerardo... then it all started, 'Maybe, I should go... This might be interesting.' I shook my head on that thought 'What the hell was that?' Rafael was still staring at me. "Alright, I'll go."
"About damn time!!" He yelled, and turned. He seriously had issues about his mother having a new "partner".
"But just this one night." I Countered. "If nothing happens..."
"Yeah, whatever." Was his only answer and I knew I was in troubles.
It took us a few minutes of walk, it was almost ten o' clock, the shopping mall was obviously closed and we were in front of the main gate. Rafael was really nervous about this whole thing since he obviously didn't think of the way to enter... I mean, the idiot was about to knock the door.
"Wait." I stopped him. "What are you doing?"
"We need to get inside genius." He replied in a halfway anger tone.
I just sighed... maybe he was older than me but I was the experienced in this kind of stuff... "Do you think the guard will just let us pass without calling Consuelo first?"
"You..." He started to babble. "You're probably right."
"See, we lost out time." I said and turned around to start and walk back home.
"Wait." Now is his time to stop me. "How did you steal from that raccoon you told us about...remember? That last time?"
'...The fuck.' "Listen, I don't do shit anymore..." Using one's past against you is really low, especially if you the one using it against is someone you consider family.
"Doesn't matter." He continues "Was it the ventilation system, right?" He was really focused on this, man I knew he just wanted to catch them on the act and call it on his mother; I didn't know what to do. "I'll just go for myself."
"Just to make clear, it was a hotel ventilation system..." I tried to rationalize it. "First: It was a hotel, man... there's no comparison. Second: It's a mall you are trying to get in, there's a security system better that a mere hotel, ok? Third: I..."
"I don't care how you do it!" Rafael cut me off. "Get us in!"
He was demanding now, deep inside I knew this was a terrible mistake but part of me wanted to find out... to see it with my own eyes, and I foolishly let that part win. "Ok, there's one way to get inside." I admitted.
"Then lead." He said, and I sighed. Inside a battle was wearing, part of me wanted to try this out... to be back to what I used to be, to feel the thrill I had every time I sneaked in somewhere. Another part knew this time it would have terrible consequences. But soon I found myself following what I knew was wrong.
We followed the street to the corner, where there was a blind spot on the external cameras, created by the newly installed public light poles... yeah, that's right the municipality screwing things up yet again, not that I complained that one, I was using it after all so I stopped right there... at the base of a public light post.
"We have to climb this." I said and Rafael froze. "I'll go first to open the window and..."
"Wait, wait..." He cut me again; I knew he would complain about my plan. "You want me to climb this?"
"If you know some other way to get in avoiding detection you can always say so." I was losing patience then, I was thrilled with the idea... it was like my old days. And by that I meant two years ago no more.
"What about the security lock?" he asked... bah, what does he know about electronic locks anyway? I just waved at him and started climbing, hugging the pole with my arms and using both my legs as support. I'm concentrated; I'm in my world here. Soon, I'm at the second floor window's height, a little jump and I'm holding on its frame. Now to unlock it, luckily I've been studying the whole building and knew how to properly do it with out hitting the alarm. Just two little magnets to either side of the polarized crystal and a slice of an old credit card I stolen and kept... a little souvenir of past days. And then, I'm in.
"Ok, you're next." I said to Rafael... he's been having troubles climbing, too much for the rookie. "Look, if you can't then I won't wait for you."
"Wait!" he said, too loud for my tastes given the circumstances. He's struggling to even climb a meter... "I can't...how the fuck did you do it?"
"Use your legs." I say totally enjoying his hopeless attempts.
"You bastard." He said slipping the short distance he managed to reach. "Just go and tell me what they did... I'm gonna wait here."
"If the guards recognize you they will call them anyw..."
"SHIT!!" Rafael ran away when someone was coming his way. I closed the window and prayed we didn't get caught. Luckily we didn't. I was in, and my thoughts where directly to locate the store and avoid the cameras, I felt excited about this whole shit, like I was some kind of James Bond and what not. It was an easy task; I already knew the localization and the odds about the security system everything was going smoothly until I felt something vibrate in my pocket. I nearly panicked over it but realized it was just my cell phone... it was a text from Rafael.
"Som1 was watchin us. I'm gone home. Tc" I merely ignored the message and began to look for the ventilation system... I just hoped I could actually get a good angle of them fucki... 'Man, what was that?' I shook my head, I was there to get my brother some info and so I'd do.
I crawled my way into the ceiling of the store and began to hear noises... my head rushed in anticipation with the most indecent images I could think of and started to feel my own arousal. Strange thing when I got to the hole where I could see the pair, Gerardo was just sitting on the bed we accommodated for him finishing eating with a tired expression and Consuelo was nowhere to be seen.
I was starting to lose all my hopes to see something when the tigress came into scene, wearing just a transparent blouse revealing that orange striped back and tail and just a pink tong ... Wow! things were gonna get hot.
I could see Gerardo's tired face smiling at Consuelo when she entered the room, his paws still holding the empty plate.
"That's not exactly what I had in mind when you said you wanted just a resting night" The bear said.
"Actually, I didn't want to bother you with some pettiness while you were eating." She said with a voice I thought only a whore could do "I know how you get when you're not... satisfied and a little tired before a round." The tigress said seductively and sat beside the big bear.
"Who said I would be bothered?" He said with a wide cocky grin. "And I already apologized for the latter." Finished the bear and turned his embarrassed face, blushing behind his brown fur.
"Oh, you look so cute!" Consuelo said when she saw her partner blushing.
"So, ready to sleep?!" The bear countered, quickly turning to face Consuelo with an almost innocent smile.
"The question is..." The tigress began to open Gerardo's shirt, funny thing he and me gulped at the same time. "Are YOU ready to sleep?" Uuhh, that tigress was really into him.
The big bruin hesitated, seeing those delicate fingers fishing and finishing his shirt and now running up and down his chest fur... "You know I always have some energy to spend if you are willing..." I thought the bear wanted to add something but his words went numb when the tigress' muzzle stopped his lips, just then the loud sound of the plate falling to the ground cracking was heard but ignored.
They reached that point in which words meant nothing... both animals too indulged into each other's muzzles and bodies. Slowly the bear's paws started to trace the female's delicate frame... I noticed the trembling of his paws, like trying to will himself not to force his way into her, I saw how slowly those same trembling paws began to steady and held the tigress by the shoulders and without breaking the kiss Consuelo's blouse fell seductively guided by the bear, massaging every inch of her back and arms.
"Not bad..." I was so focused on her back and that long thick lashing tail to see when they broke the kiss. "Now why don't you allow me to continue..."
Damn I wanted to see her boobs...instead I got full view of Gerardo's barrel chest being caressed, of how his blushing face tilted down a bit, eyes closed and mouth half open with a lolling tongue hanging out, sighing in relieve. I saw how Consuelo played with his brown nipples hidden behind the fur and shirt... I was getting even more aroused now, but to tell the truth even where I was, all I could smell was that powerful male scent my "father" bear was expelling. '...whu?' Yeah... I remember thinking just that, but merely shrugging it and got back to the scene.
The shirt was descending now, and for the first time in this almost three years I could see Gerardo's body, those impressive pecs and a rounded but built belly.
"Oh, please woman." I heard him beg. "Can we hurry this a little bit?" The bear was trembling again, his hands once more over the tigress frame, and locking another kiss... real deep kiss, I swear I could see their tongues battling, trying to wear each other out. Trying to out lung each other, and using his massive height and weight to push her to the side and unto the bed Gerardo started to break the kiss panting and glaring with a fierce lust I swear I've only seen it on someone else...
"Urgh!" The bear stopped his advance. Consuelo had her paw over his groin pressing and grinning devilishly.
"Come, now." She said now caressing the bulge through the fabric and locking those green eyes with the bear's deep brown ones. "We have all the night."
"Come on!" Gerardo whimpered again. "You haven't let me shot the whole night."
"That's the problem with you men." She said starting to undo the bottom of his shorts. "All you want is unload... Never want to play." She unfastened it leaving free to one monstrous cock, I won't go on details but Consuelo's hands couldn't hold its full grit. And the glimmering coat of pre enveloping the half erected shaft told me they were playing quite a bit.
When I saw it, I was mesmerized, I was jealous, envious, I mean, wow... She was on her back rubbing her leg against the bear's right one and holding that cock while he was supporting his weight on his arms tilting up his head and humping on her grip.
Man, I was lost on that sight, that powerful male at the mercy of such gorgeous tigress, so fucking hot. His humps increased in speed, I could hear what seemed to be the beginning of a repressed growl and his hips starting to lose the rhythm.
"Enough of that, stud." Consuelo said giggling, simply losing his grip over the shaft. Again I could hear the bear whimper still bucking up. Even I was starting to find that play to be the perfect mixture of sexiness and cruelty.
All the bear did afterwards was try and start another kiss, leaving his body rest over the tigress' smaller one, I thought he was going to crush her but the only grumble was the one the bed did. Again the bear was humping this time over Consuelo's lithe belly. Using his hands to stop any movement she could have.
By that time I was so hard, it was awfully painful. I was stroking myself over the fabric of my jeans. But I knew if I tried anything there my scent would give me away... damn ventilation system still turned on. Now... where was my attention? It was on the bear and how much of a subby he was... I closed my eyes and strangely I was starting to think about him and how would be like to have him all over me, to feel that enormous cock humping over my belly. '...Damn.'
"That's more like it." I heard, and came back to the scene. Gerardo has stopped his humping and was now caressing his tigress, his paws massaging both her breast and his muzzle lost on her neck biting and licking with unique force and delicacy combined. And I heard her, Consuelo's moans began as one the bruin's paws travelled brushing her fur and over her belly and slipped to her sex, finally giving her a touch I wanted to see.
His right paw was touching her, circling over that pink underwear of her totally humid in anticipation, but the bear abused of his strength and tore the cloth extracting a low painful groan.
"You Ok?" Said the bear concerned about his bruteness.
"It's ok, just keep going." With this answer Gerardo resumed his advances; his paw has traced a line over those eager rugged lips, using a claw to stimulate her even more. Never stopping to caress her fur with his mouth and left paw the bruin began to scratch at the opening and those sexy sounds began to engulf the room, Consuelo's closed eyes signalized her acceptance but the bear still restrained himself, his hungry eyes and shaky breathing gave it away.
Slowly the bear began to his head down breathing deeply on the female's fur with that big black nose of his, I haven't noticed but when his face reached Consuelo's cunt he had three finger massaging her internal passage... Man, those fat finger's of his only left the warm hole for his large tongue to take their place. He was lapping on it, liking and penetrating her with that red muscle. But whimpering at the same time, while his left paw was playing and rubbing the tigress belly fur his right paw was furiously jerking him off. But then, in a compassionate moment, Consuelo began to move over to the end of the bed and took a little bag, extracting from it a condom and put it on the bear's paw.
The large male saw it and with a relieved expression muttered. "Thank God."
The tigress just giggled on that one, just as I did... Gerardo broke the envelopment in desperation. "Careful, stud." I heard
"Sorry." Was his sole answer and began to sliced the latex over his member, it couldn't fully envelope it but that little detail was of no concern for any of them... I noticed the change a sudden change of attitude on Consuelo, I saw her almost concerned with was about to happen, gosh I would if I were on her place right then.
"Be gentle." She said, and I could swear I heard her gulp.
"I'll be." Said this Gerardo took his shaft over to those grey lips and almost immediately I saw half of it disappear followed by a loud moan from the tigress and a low roar from the bear.
"Easy..." His partner complained, but from what I could see the bear was lost in his own needs, but held still surely fighting back his urges. It was amazing seeing him humping with just half his shaft, probably worrying not to harm her.
Once more he resumed his task, this time slowly... Consuelo moaned and hissed with barred teeth, while the bear kept that shaky breathing and his trembling body, aching for release. "Go on..."
He didn't need anymore, a hard thrust and he was hilted, balls deep. But Consuelo screamed in pain this time, making me and Gerardo gasp.
"Shit, shit!" the bear panicked. "Sorry!"
"Shut up, and keep at it!" She demanded.
This time more aware of his position, Gerardo began to thrust into her, slowly just a mere movement, hilted like he was still holding his weight with his arms. Almost every twenty seconds leaving more of his cock free from Consuelo's cunt and thrusting back in, biting her nipples softly and licking her chest up to her neck, soon, he was using half his shaft in deep slow thrusts, extracting moans and groans of undistilled pain and pleasure, crying at unison with restrained roars from the bear.
Suddenly, Gerardo took the tigress and lifted her positioning her to doggy style and pushed back in, in one fast thrust, she muted her painful roar biting a pillow but soon was enjoy it again, her body pressed by the bear's belly, I was amazed on how she could take it, totally lost on her sensations... Gerardo always made sure not to focus just on his thrusting he was again liking and biting, using his teeth to pull the orange and black fur of the female, stimulating her sex with one paw the same time he pushed in and out, Consuelo's cunt seemed already adjusted, all her face showed was utter delight and the bear knew it, his was using only half his shaft in this position but seeing her face like that, surely pleased him, as growls and little roars of satisfaction escaped his licking muzzle.
After a few minutes of this he lifted he again, this time more gentler, and without abandoning that warm hole he placed her against the wall, both of them roaring lowly. The bear had her pinned, her breast splashed against the cold concrete. He stopped his thrust to explore her once more, caressing her body, never leaving any part he could reach untouched. She moaned and began to thrust herself on the large pole she was impaling herself, moving faster using her paws and claws hung on the wall to help her.
Gerardo began to move now, he lifted the tigress and began to impale her using her weight and gravity as help, once he had her hilted and lifted her to the top of his aching cock, their voices and noises began to echo in the room the tigress moans began to be louder again, but soon the bruin's powerful roars deafened Consuelo's voice, as the process repeated itself one time and another; surprisingly the tigress never touched the floor while the bear mindlessly fucked her.
Even now I can't seem to understand how or know how to recognize a woman having an orgasm but I'm pretty sure Consuelo reached it at least five times just in that position, and the thrusting continued, slower as every minute passed, even a big bear like Gerardo had his limits, his labored breath was the only thing that could be heard, accompanied by now low moans of a very satisfied tigress. But then the bruin lifted her to the bed again and placed her on her back without leaving his ford and back movement said.
"About... t... cum." And with this he pulled off and began to paw off beside his tigress, still with the condom placed on his member.
"Let me handle this." Consuelo said lovingly, and took the condom out.
"Wait!" The bear said, but he shut himself up when a raspy tongue coursed his long shaft from the bottom to its head. The pleasure he must have felt should have been indescribable, he roared almost immediately and a big amount of pre was shot, not really a cum shot, just pre and recognizing it Consuelo took all that she could on his mouth and began to suck, eager to see him shot.
"Almost there!" The bruin warned. "Urgh..."
I couldn't see the real shot; I just saw the large amount of cum slipping from Consuelo's mouth. And how she reached to kiss a very hungry and exhausted bear. They should be really worn out, because they stayed like that... kissing, and about 10 second later I was hearing Gerardo snoring. That signalized my exit.
I was again back to my reality, having sneaked out of home to peep on my parental figures fucking, real hot I must admit. But what I just saw could crash that little place I called family... I didn't want that to happen, Gerardo and Consuelo wanted this to be kept a secret... a very lousy secret, but well, I would keep it too. Even if I felt like a jerk for hiding the truth from my "brother", this was for the best from my point of view... and my position.
I was back at home, in my designated room, lying on the bed... thinking. It was normal for two adults to have sex, I surely knew that, it was healthy, necessary even... but I knew that on Rafael's eyes it was something that should have never happened. He wanted his family back together... his REAL family, and there was no place for the bear... and maybe neither for me in it.
I couldn't sleep that night... I knew that could start a chain reaction that would probably break the tie I was so hung to protect. I was scare of that... to be back on the street, to be seen as nothing more that a rat... or something to be used and discarded by others.
I know my decision was based on a selfish purpose; it was a fourteen years old decision... I won't complain if you blame me. I shat up; I lied and said nothing about it.
Though... that was not the only discover I did that night. Yeah, sex is healthy in a couple but my thoughts about it... those were not health not necessary, even though I was trying to strive them towards Consuelo's lithe and slim body all my mind could gather from what I saw was Gerardo's bulky frame and his incredible display. It began to worry me... but then again. With all that has happened to that point. It was starting to make sense and that scared me... even more.
