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"JEREMY!" Austin yelled from the locker room.

"What do you want Austin? You know I don't have time to talk right now" I said rubbing my right arm.

"I want to know what's wrong" Austin said pulling me into a tight hug. "You seem to be lost in yourself." I couldn't quite tell if this large canine was into me, or just trying to be friends.

"Heh sorry, I just sort of been having self-doubts about my life.." I paused for a moment. "It feels like there is something missing... anyways I got to go." I said pulling away from the canine holding me, and ran out the door.. Then I woke up, out of my dream world, knowing Austin would never talk to me.

Hi I'm Jeremy. Some tend to call me Storm because of my band. But that's not really important. I'm a dog, 16 years old, a German shepherd, about 6ft 1inchs 180 pounds. Before myself in a mirror I see a muscular canine. Each muscle on my torso showed through the light white fur, abdomen sporting a six pack, as long with nice set of pectorals from the years of drumline. The upper arms were something I was proud of, one group I always tried to maintain every work out session. I'm also a dyslexic pup (sorry im not kidding, that's why this story may have a lot of mistakes). If you were asked who I am to my classmates you would hear: "What? You're talking about that creepy dog who keeps listening to that shitty metal core music. What's that band; Asking Cleopatra? That gothic fag.." Heh.. I know it's sort of wired but I don't like bullshitting around, im in love with metal ... also yes, i'm gay.. but this story is going to sorta show my life at school, home and how I met my boyfriend.

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"Oh great you're home!" Mom said with a angry voice.

"Mom! Fuck off, I'm not in the mood right now." I walked to my room, slammed my door, sitting behind my drumkit and just started playing till my dad broke the door down making me jump and yelp loudly.

"Son! What the hell are you playing?! You do know that not everything is double bass right?" My dad said throwing me a new pair of drumsticks.

"Well do you want me to listen to lady gaga?" I said snickering. My dad stood straight up and yelled: "You will not listen to that fag homo crap! you're a male not a female! God I'm happy I don't have a sick disturbing son as Alex's parents have..."

"Dad! Dont say that about Alex, you two got along so well back when you thought he was straight.. Then he turned bi and you just flip shit and told him to get out... scratch that, you kicked him out!" I said growling loudly.

"I just don't want a gay son ok?! End of story!" My dad said, slamming the door, making me whimper a little. I know that I will never be able to please him. Later after dinner I just walked to my room and sat on my bed, listing to Immaculate Misconception by Motionless In White over and over again, whispering to myself.

"God damn it! What the fuck, why do people always have to do this shit?! Why can't we ever just love one another? Not have statuses for others.... god dam it!" I said, blowing my nose looking up at a picture of my friend Austin.

"Damn it, you would hate me too I bet." I looked at it shortly singing out: "To all the kids who's letters I receive, The broken hearted, the damaged just like me. I will be your voice to let the world know we stand as one, We're standing right here so come and fucking get us. Open your mind before your mouth. Or come and fucking get us." I slightly let a tear drop before closing my eyes and slipped away into my dream world.

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The next day I woke up to my laptop on full blast screaming: "WE ARE SUROUNDED BY HARLOTS!" From the song NZT48 by I See Stars. I jumped up nearly falling onto the floor, luckily my claws let me stay up, catching on my bed spread. I sighed, and then my sheets flew of making me crash into the ground with a loud thump. "Fucking HEELLL!" I yowled, not thinking about my parents sleeping in the next room. But I got up and looked to my computer, seeing my friend DJ on.

"dude I just fell outta bed...." I typed

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA you need to be more careful" he replied.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. I have a feeling today will be a GREAT day due to the start of it lol" I typed back before i walked to the shower. Shortly after getting out, i put on my black pants, Skillet T-shirt, black socks and grey/black hoodie, slipping on some white shoes before walking down the hallway to the kitchen. As I walked to grab my ADHD meds I noticed my parents were gone. I just shrugged it off thinking they were at work, got my stuff, and watch my bus just drive by. i flicked my ears. "SON OF A BITCH!" I screamed, running to the next bus stop. Jumping over my fire pit right out the door, I sprinted as fast as I could. Dodging past weeds, flowers, even my neighbors Doberman! Even though I had an Olympic relay, it was luckily just behind my house, and to the right a little bit. As I got on the bus I noticed Austin. This was the stare athlete at the time of my school. 6'1" With a body that made mine look small, and clothing that makes me look massively poor! He was a Artic Wolf, though he always had a trimmed up mane, with the top of his head fur slightly longer to spike back with gell

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Austin was a football jock, 16 years old as well, a black wolf, about 6ft with a muscular build like all football players. Blue eyes and a snobbish attitude but hey, he's sexy, ok? This was the star athlete at the time of my school. 6'1" With a body that made mine look small, and clothing that makes me look massively poor! Though he was a Black Wolf, he always had a trimmed up mane, with the top of his head fur slightly longer to spike back with gel. We grew up together sorta like brothers because our parents were good friends. But after sixth grade he told me not to tell others that we were friends. Of course being the pup I was, I sort of got sad and said: "No shit! Sherlock can't be known as a jock!" And walked away; That hurt a little. But. I didn't care, but now back to high school...

I did what I normally do on the bus, drum to Rammstein, Disturbed, Skillet, Skrillex, Asking Alexandria, Attack attack, and sometimes Hollywood Undead. After the bus stopped to let us off, I would take off one headphone and listen to Scissorhands (the last snow) by Motionless in White. As i walk into the school I could see DJ standing at my locker like always. he's wearing his Marilyn Manson hoodie, black pants, shoes, long black hair as he is a black cat with a white stomach and chest about 6ft blue eyes and 17 years old. Also, if you saw him you would go: "HOLY HELL IS THAT MARILYN MANSON!!!"

"Dude dude dude." Dj said, knowing it sometimes pisses me off.

"What what what?" I said back laughing a little and flicking my tail.

"Whitechapel's new cd coming out! WOOOOOOO!!!!! IM SOO GETTING IT!!" DJ said jumping a little.

"haha same." I said smiling a little noticing the dumbest thing ever: Cuppy, a plastic cup that has eyes and lips smiling with his name all the way around it. dj looked at it, than back at me.

"Dude what is that?" he asked. "Never mind, I don't want to know" He turned away, facing me with his back.

"haha first hour Physical Science, I have with Alex. We had to do a M&M lab with cups so we kept the cups. He has the other cuppy 2 that looks like a stoner." I said laughing shutting my locker.

"So you gave Alex who's half back stoner cup" he said looking forward

"Yup he's our oreo haha creamy on the inside ... hard on the outside." I said bursting out laughing. Dj fell into the lockers holding his side laughing as Alex and Marcus walked up. alex, was a black/white cat, he was about 5ft8in and was 110 pounds he is also 16. He was wearing his emo black and purple hoodie, black hat and black everything else, black is just his color. Marcus, who is 17, was a bear about 6ft. We dont know his weight but he could destroy anyone. he was wearing anything he could find, today it was a tidy shirt and red shorts.

"What's so funny?" Marcus said

I told them between gasps of air "Alex is an oreo!" I spat. As people walked by and saw us laughing they looked like we were demons from hell which made them walk faster.

"Dude come on man we gotta get to class." Alex said as DJ and Marcus went to their classes and Alex and I left to ours. Just then the final bell rang as we walked.

"OH MOTHER FUCKIN SHIT" we both said as we ran down the hall away sprinting as fast as we could, getting told to slow down by teachers. But we wouldn't listen, we ran into the room sitting down beside each other catching a breath laughing a little before the teacher looked up saying both our names with a stern angry look.

"Dude we need to stop doing this." alex said getting out his notes

"Why?" I said tilting my ears down. "It makes school WAY more fun." putting up my ears and chuckling lightly. The rest of the day went well.. But 3ed hour gym... Dont get me wrong, I love gym but I have austin in there....

"Dude I fucking hate 2 mile runs" James said sitting beside me.

"Same if it wasn't the end of the day in one more hour, I would take a shower." Looking at James then my eyes peered up to see Austins sheath, and bare rear, as he was in the shower walking back to get his stuff. I put my tail into my lap in order to hide the boner growing in my boxers. Getting called out was the scariest thing to me, and that's all because of a miss hap back in elementary school.

"Dude you ok?" James said poking my arm.

"Whaa.., yeah, huh, what?!" I said, snapping back into reality.

"ooookay then, something bothering you?" he asked.

"No man." I said as I got my stuff and walked towards the door as the bell rang. The last hour went well which was band so it was always fun. As I got home, my parents where there and I stopped and looked at both of them. I took a deep breath.

"M-mom.. Dad... I have to tell you something" I said looking at my paws.

"What is it hun" My mom said as my dad looked up.

"I-im ...." I looked up at them and growled, slamming my backpack down making the floor shake as I walked out the door, slamming it, which nearly busts the doorknob off. I walked around the sub-division whimpering to myself listening to Marilyn Manson as some tears fell down my face. As soon as I got inside I just went into my bed room and told myself: "I'm gay." and I smiled and quickly fell asleep.

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"YOU THROW ME DOWN, YOU SAY IM SHIT, YOU SAY I MEAN NOTHING AFTER YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME. LOVE IS THE THING WE THROW AROUND, LOVE IS WHAT PUTS US UNDERGROUND, HATE IS THE ONLY THING I SEE. HATE IS WHAT MAKES ME, ME! THANK YOU ALL GOOD NIGHT" i yelled into my mic ending my bands gig throwing my drumsticks to some of our fans.

"God dam that was a epic show" Alex said jumping on dj.

"fuck yeah" Marcus said highfiving me.

"Dude i never had so much fun on stage" dj said shaking alex off himself.

"god i need water" i said taking off my shirt letting sweat fell to the ground.

"Damn, Jeremy. You really get into playing don't you" dj said throwing me some axe.

"ha-ha yeah i looked back and Jeremy was head banging with the rest of the band. Only drummer who has it timed so precise while playing so fast" Alex said highfiving me.

"Hey they want i show so i give it my all" i said chuckling and taking apart my kit for the long drive home. After i got the last of our stuff packed i sat outside drinking some water till i heard a voice from behind me.

"Hey, furfag" i looked up only to be stricken in the muzzle by a tall black wolf.

"Time to die" he said throwing a punch into my chest nocking all the air out of me.

"WHAT THE FUCK" Alex screamed tackling the guy off me shoving his face into the ground. Dj kicks the wolf in the side making him howl in pain as he chucked Alex on top me. I stood up as blood dropped from my lip as i walked up to him as he laid on the ground holding his side. I bent down, picked up has head and looked him in his grey soulless eyes.

"Fuck with me again" I said pulling up on his ear. "I will fuck you up so bad you will wish you never messed with me again" i said kicking my foot into his chest.

"DUDE" alex said pulling me away from him.

"ok dude we need to get you home before you pass out" dj said as he helped me to the car.

"I'm fine just a cut on my lip nothing bad at all guys" i walked to the car alone, taking some cloth from my shirt, and putt it in my mouth covering the cut

"God damn dude.. You are the only one i know who will whoop someone's ass after they punched you in the chest and your muzzle" Marcus said giving me some water.

"Yeah dude... do you even know who that guy was?" Alex questioned.

"No put i know that voice... It was someone from school but no one knows that im gay but you guys" i said putting my ears up.

Shortly after we got home i walked in, bringing some of my drum kit in. My dad stood up and helped us out. I sometimes clenched my paw to my chest feeling a sharp pain, but it was nothing i couldn't handle. Shortly after we had everything put up, i said good night to my friends and walked to the bathroom and changed out of my sweat soaked cloths and into shorts. i walked to my room and turned on the Whitechapel CD by Whitechapel. Shortly after the second song i fell asleep.

The next day i woke up to my mom screaming.

"JEREMY GET THE FUCK UP YOUR GANNA BE LATE" she yelled in my ear making me roll out of bed and run to the shower. I quickly put on black shorts, black t-shirt and my shoes, i grabbed my glasses and took my meds running the bus stop just as the bus rolled up. I jumped on turning on my ipod noticing that Austin wasn't on the buss today. But i didn't care i sat down and clenched my chest, i softly whimpered feeling every breath bring shearing pain. But i put on some Rammstein and laid back murring as the pain went away.

"DUDE! are you ok" DJ said behind me.

"Yeah man. I'm fine." i said smiling putting my stuff into my locker and walked to my first hour class. as i passed some of Austin's friends i heard

"Dude Austin got the shit beat out of him last night" a bear from the football team said as i twitched my ears to signal in on the conversation.

"dj... Alex... i know who attacked me" i said with a slight whimper as they looked at me

"Who was it" they said at the same time

"it was... Austin" i whimpered some more knowing that i just beat the male I thought I loved nearly to death.

"Dude told you he was a son of a female dog in heat.. Well bitch" Alex said snickering a little. Making me laugh . I clenched my chest shaking my head.

"ok dude that's it you're going to the health room" Dj said.

"no dude let me put my stuff in my class" i said holding my chest.

"NO you're going to the health room" Alex yelled pulling my arm making my ears go down as a blushed lightly.

Later when i was in the health room a young-ish doe walked in

"hi Hun. What is your name" she said with a smile on her face.

"Erm; Jeremy" i spoke slightly scared, I never was a true fan of hospitals.

"Ok Jeremy what seems to be the problem?" she asked.

"i sort of was punched in the muzzle and right in the middle of my chest" i said holding the place i got punched.

"ok Hun pull your shirt up" she said. i nodded and pulled up my shirt showing the big purple circle on my chest.

"Wow how are you breathing" she said quickly calling my parents to take me to the doc's office.

"Ok you are going home" she said giving me a slip to go to my teachers and asked them what i had to do for homework. After i got my stuff i walked to my classes and said bye quickly to my friends I got a text on my phone saying my mom was outside.

On the way to the doc's office my chest started getting tighter but didn't hurt too much. Shortly after we arrived they took me to get a x-ray on my chest to make sure everything was alright. After we got the x-rays back they found that i had marks on my bones from the punch but nothing that wouldn't heal over. Luckily it looked worse than it actually was, thankfully. I got let out with some pain meds but i gave them back knowing that i wouldnt need them. But later found out my mom took them without me knowing. As soon as we got home she got some water and put some of the meds in and stirred it up and gave it to me. Shortly after i started to feel a little wired and looked at her.

"ma.. mom i feel funny... sorta like a cat on catnip" i said looking at her. She took out the pill bottle and shook it.

"GOD DAM IT MOM" i yelled as i tried to stand up but then fell back on the couch. Shortly after i fell asleep only to wake up at 4:23am.

"Holy shit that stuff knocks a dog out for over 12 hours... well at least im rested" i told myself getting up and turned on my lap top so i could tell my friends that i am ok over facebook. After i got out of the shower i put on black boxers, blue jeans and a HHS DRUMLINE red t-shirt. i took my ADHD meds and put on my glasses looking at the pills for my pain. i took them and hid them not wanting to be drugged again. i walked out of the house and sat on the ground as i saw austin walk up to me. i quickly stood up staring him in the eyes as he stood in front of me.

"jer... jeremy im sorry about 2 nights ago... someone started calling me a gay fag and threatened to kick me form the team... i blamed you im really sorry" he said as he put out his paw. i looked at it then to him.

"Dude you! you were like a brother to me then you stabbed me in the back! fuck off! I dont want to see you, talk to you or smell you near me." i took my stuff and walked to the next bus stop witch wasn't that far. As i got on the buss Austin was sitting by himself and i sighed and sat next to him.

"Dude look im sorry man... im pissed that you did that... but i got my pay back" i said looking in his eyes and extended my paw, he shook it.

"dude im sorry i promise you i won't ever hurt you again" he told me and i put in my ipod and listened to Upon a burning body thinking today may be way better then yesterday...

___________________________________ Part 2: Wondering___________________________

I sat outside wondering about life... about who i really was.

god.. i know who i am why cant i just come out and say it. i told myself over and over again looking up at the sky watching the lightning flash around and rain started to fall onto my fur. man.. i should go inside... but its so.. so... "I'm not wanted, I'm never needed. God hates me even when he said he loved me... if others new i would be dead." i sang to myself putting my paws to my eyes and started crying a little. As i sat out crying i looked up to the lighting above me.

"GOD! WHY CANT I FIND MYSELF... WHY IM I PUT TO A LIFE THAT I CANT BE IN HEAVEN FOR THE WAY YOU MADE ME..... FUCK!" i screamed out at the sky. Shortly after the storm passed i walked inside and changed into some dry cloths. i walked to my room and sat down on my bed, tears still rolling down my muzzle as i fell over and drifted into my dream world. Shortly after i fell asleep i heard a loud bang and woke up, it was storming outside again. I got my note book and started putting down words at random. My life is nothing, a endless void. i wished and wished upon a star. Disappointed and thrown away. What was the happiness i once saw? Why did it leave me in a time of need. Oh dear god help me. Help me please. i don't know who i am. i don't know what to do. i look in the mirror and see a ghost. i splashed water into my face. Trying to hide my tears. i look back and see my body. Lifeless and dead. What was that thing i once saw? What was that person behind me? Who am i looking at? I know it is not me. i feel no love for myself. i feel i am alone. i feel like i should end it all. But no i won't. I'm stronger than that. i can overcome this. I read back to myself and walked out to the bathroom and stared into the mirror not knowing who i was anymore.

As I got ready for school that morning I looked outside at the dark clouds that hung over it.

"Paralyzed by my envy of the night, I am lost without you here and outside it looks like rain, for the last time, I bleed myself dry tonight. And nothing I could ever write would help you understand this life. There's so much beauty when your eyes lay lost in all the city lights. The wax will drip as so as blood, romance is dead and all is lust. You are the water in my lungs, we've lost it. We are all alone." i sang from the song City Lights by Motionless in White.

I walked to my bus stop getting on and looked out the window with some tears rolling down my cheeks. The city scape was dimly light with a heavy fog flowing over the intersections, corn fields, it was everywhere. But be for I knew it I was walking off the bus and standing outside in the cold mist. Shortly after i got off the bus i walked inside.

"Jeremy whats wrong" a doe walked up to me looking at my eyes and saw i have been crying.

"Abbey i dont know what to do" i hugged her tightly as she hugged me back.

"Jeremy don't worry you will be ok i know a death of a love one is hard to deal with but you will always come out strong... you always have" she said smiling at me.

"Thanks abbey im just really goanna miss my grandpa... he was my inspiration for so much.. i feel so lost" i said putting my ears down. I didn't think my tail would wag once today. "i feel like i have ... have lost everything" i added.

"Oh Jeremy trust me it will be ok come on let's get to your class" she said grabbing my arm. "Also i never seen you wear a sleeveless shirt before.. Really shows off your muscle" she said giggling.

"Thanks abbey" i said as my ears perked up a little and my tail started to wag.

As we walked down the hall i could just feel the others talking about me and staring at me. it made me want to sort of bark down and cry but i was strong then that... i just wished i could be as strong as i normally am.

Shortly after school let out i walked to my buss smiling... and looked up at the sky and mouthed i love you grandpa and walked to my buss sitting down listing to some Motionless In White. The bus ride home was ok. I just thought how i wanted to be held by Alex even though i knew that could never happen.

"I'm a man with scissors for hands. Longing for love i know i can't have. it's so said my heart in your hands. it melts like the snow in the part where you dance" i sang to myself.

Shortly after i got off the bus i walked over to Alex's house. Thank god he lived 5 houses down. As i was about to open the door he opened it and i ended up knocking on his chest.

"he JEreMY" he said as i knocked on his chest.

"oh hi man sorry about that" i said giggling.

"No prob! come in!" he said walking away from the door. As i walked in and took off my shoes and sat next to him on the couch.

"Alex.." i said quietly.

"Yeah?" i looked at me with his ears up.

"i... i have to tell you som..something" i said looking into his cat eyes.

"Sure what is it" he said taking ahold of my paws.

"Well i erm... i love you" i said looking deep into his eyes feeling a connection only me and him had. My cheeks blushed under my fur, my palms started to sweat a little. And i felt so warm finely saying that.

"Jeremy.... i...." he said as he hugged me tightly and i hugged him back.

"Jeremy i wanted to hear that for so long... i loved you since we met" he said almost into tears.

"Well would you be my boyfriend" i said pulling away putting up my ears

"Yes... yes i would" he said as he kissed my lips. When we kissed i felt all the happiness, hope, and love i thought i lost. But when i was with him it would run into my body. i could not break away. i wanted to yiff him right there. but i knew i would be pushing it so fast. i felt his tongue sneak into my mouth as i put my tongue into his feeling around, his eyes shut as he purred. i purred with him then broke from our kiss letting his tongue slip inside his mouth.

"wow" he said looking at my rubbing my chest. "your a great kisser" he giggled and rubbed my cheek.

"thanks hon so are you" i said as i held his paw.

"Also thank you for saving my life at that gig a couple of nights ago.." i said to him as i rubbed his chest.

"Hey what are brothers for.. Well now boyfriends" he said chuckling.

"But now we have to tell our parents about us" when he said that my ears laid back and i sat on the couch and whimpered a little.

"Aww what's wrong" he said as he rubbed my back.

"if my parents knew i was gay... or even dating a guy they would freak out and kick me out" i said looking into his eyes.

"If they do you can come live with me" he told me kissing my cheek.

"Thank you, hon. I love" i kissed his lips, smiling a little.

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"DAM IT" i yelled throwing down my pen as i looked at my lyric book trying to finish a song.

"What's wrong hon" Alex said coming over and sitting next to me.

"i can't finish this song" said rubbing my eyes a little.

"Well what do you have so far" he said rubbing my back.

"life sucks, and then you die" i said.

"... so lets live it up. who gives a fuck. let's tear it up tonight" he said smiling.

"Nice!" i said hugging him. "Thank you"

"hehe your welcome. Now im ganna go get some food... fish sound good" he said snickering.

"Cats and fish" i said rolling my eyes and followed him.

"You and your meat and bones" he said poking my chest. "you should also put on a shirt"

"awwwww fine" i said looking for a shirt'

"Now let's go furbutt" he said dragging me to the car. i hugged him tightly right before getting into the car and we heard.

"WHAT THE FUCK" both of our ears stood up. i looked up and saw my dad with his fists clenched.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH MY SON YOU FUCKING TAIL RAISER" my dad screamed.

"dad calm down..." i said walking towards him.

"WHAT DID YOU SAY YOU FAG IM NOT YOUR DAD" he yelled.

"Get your shit and get out of the house NOW" he said walking into our house. i walked into my room grabbed everything i had, luckily my drum kit was in the band truck. i looked at the key to the truck and drove to his house.

"Alex.. Can i move in with you" i said putting the car in park putting my ears back and whimpered lightly and looked at him.

"Sure hun" he said with his ears back and hugged me tightly purring. i grabbed his arm with my paws trying to fight back some of the tears. i held his arm close to me feeling the heat of his body going into mine. In some way i was relieved to be out of that hell hole.

"i love you kitkat" i said kissing his lips. i smiled lightly then broke the kiss.

"i love you to pup" he said smiling. somehow i knew that i would be never be alone as long as i had my cat with me.

the next couple of days went by fast. Didn't care that i wasn't seeing my parents, also having my boyfriend sleeping next to me every night sort of helped me getting passed being kicked out. His mom was really, really, happy to have me moved in, she also somehow knew about us going out.

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"LIFE SUCKS, AND THEN YOU DIE. SO LETS LIVE IT UP. WHO GIVES A FUCK? LETS TARE IT UP TO NIGHT" i heard Alex scream then yell goodbye to our fans as we walked off stage. i grabbed alex into a tight hug and a long kiss.

"HEY FLUFF LOVERS" Marcus and dj screamed.

"what" me and alex both said putting our ears back.

"let's load up and get out of here" dj said grabbing some of his cords from the keyboard.

"hehe yes i want to get a shower" alex said padding away to get his mic.

"God i need one to" i said sniffing my armpits and put some Axe on. Shortly after we got everything on the truck we drove home. dj and marcuse stayed the night because it was past 2am.

"gah im going to bed" Alex yawned setting down the PS3 controller.

"I'm going to bed as well" i said putting my controller down next to his.

"Night guys" dj and marcuse both said still playing CoD.

"Night" me and alex both said.

As he slept i couldn't close my eyes. i just looked over his body as he slept close to me. god he is so cute... i wish there was a way i could show him how much i love him... i said in my mind. Shortly after i felt his tail curl around my leg i fell asleep.

"Morning hun" i heard him after he licked my nose. i woke up smiling at him his paws in between both of our chests.

"Morning hon" i yawned and hugged him.

"Well what are we ganna do today" he asked.

"Eh i dont know what do you want to do" i looked into his eyes and purred a little.

"i know" he said getting out of bed.

"Come on i have an idea follow me" he said pulling my out of bed with just my boxers on.

"You know you should really put something on hon" i said giggling.

"You hush. you know you like my fluffeh naked tail" he said giggling.

"yes ... yes i do" i said hugging his long fluffy tail. We walked into the living room and watched tv the rest of the day. We didn't really talk much, only sat alone with the noise of NCIS playing in the background. after about the 5th episode i felt him fall asleep on my chest. i rubbed up and down his back hearing him purr. i lightly dragged my claws across his back, he shivered then murred. maybe i will get past my shyness and actually do something... but what if he dosnt want to... i will let him tell me when the time is right he normally always shows some signs that he wants to do something. i said in my mind soon falling asleep. we later woke up to his mom shaking both of us.

"YO LOVE FURS IM HOME" his mom said loudly. I jumped up holding alex with a loud yelp waking him up.

"Wow for a dog you sure are jumpy, Jeremy" she said laughing.

"i know" i said with a chuckle as I rubbed the back of my neck. "i dont know why i just get scared for some odd reason" i said licking alex.

"hehe you should see him when i hiss" Alex said laughing.

"THERE IS NOTHING FUNNY ABOUT DEAMON HISSING FROM A CUTE BLACK CAT!!!" i yelled.

"But there is something funny watching a dog jump because of it" he said walking into the kitchen wagging his tail happily.

"gah you hush" i said then realized that my "boxers" turned out to be fake and that i was wearing absolutely nothing in front of my mates mom.

"you know Jeremy.... i heard things about German shepherds..." she said point to me.

"What do yo.... OH MY GOD IM SORRY!" i said covering myself up with my tail and ran to our room to get boxers on. All i could hear was alex laughing in the kitchen.

"God i love you hun" he said as i walked downstairs.

"Shut up" i said blushing.

"it's ok trust me im use to it! Alex never puts on pants for some odd reason" his mom said sitting down and started drawing us sitting together.

"I'm a cat ok, im meant to be naked" he said nuzzling up to me and giggled.

"yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah naked pussy ... i thought i was dating a guy" i said looking at him.

"..... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHA" his mom busted out laughing. Alex looked back and punched my shoulder lightly. I wiped his black hair away from his right eye and kissed him. Shortly after we saw the picture of me and Alex, we went back to bed and fell asleep for what felt like the 50th time. i nuzzled his neck to listened to him purr, before I knew it, I was out like a light.

___________________________Next day___________________________________________

on the bus ride to school, i couldn't stop thinking about Alex... or anyone. For the first time i was listing to Linkin Park on my way to school. Last time i did this i nearly blew up something in physical science. As i walked to my locker i saw dj. After i put my stuff away i decided to follow dj around the halls talking about some new bands. After the first bell rang i said goodbye then ran to my first hour class nearly missing by a millisecond.

"JEREMY" my teacher yelled.

"Yes Ms Rose" stopped dead in my tracks.

"here's your test good job" She exclaimed happily.

"Thank you!"

i grabbed it with my fangs and walked to my desk and looked over it.

"FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK" i said under my breath and nearly slammed my paw into the table.

"what's wrong?" Alex asked

"i was one off from 100%" i said looking at Alex.

"i got 3 wrong" he said chuckling and lightly punched my arm.

"hey why punch da pup!?" I whined teasingly like it actually hurt

"ohh because you got 2 more right then me" He stuck his tongue giggling.

"gah, cats" i said snickering looking at him.

"gah, dogs" he said mocking me.

We both started laughing. The class went well nothing exploded. But my tail almost caught fire. Luckily Alex was watching it and pulled it away. As i walked through the halls i felt myself getting lost in my thoughts. Wishing i could do more I'm failing all my classes but for band and physical science but lucky for me i have some friend's that could help me out... i hope. The rest of the day went on fine me and Alex hugged each other before going to our last hour classes. he had Spanish, i had gym.... yay gym....

"hey furfag" James said out to me

"hey Blondie hows it going"

"eh same ol same ol, heard your dating that black cat" James stoked

"yup i is" i said smiling.

"Well... you guys do it yet"

"NO.. i mean no not yet i want to make sure hes the guy for me ... also why would i tell you"

"Because i am your friend and if it wasnt for me you would be failing gym right now"

"..... you hush...." i said walking out to the track for the mile run

i did what i always did and just walked the mile... i don't care if i got 10min.

"NELSON KEEP IT UP RUN! RUN! RUN!" my teacher yelled.

"im not a jock let me walk im trying to clear my mind of some stuff"

"IF YOU KEEP IT UP YOUR GANNA GET FAT AND LAZY!"

"TO LATE!!!" i said walking away from her. i ran to the locker room and changed into my cloths quickly and dunked my head under one of the free shower heads in the shower room. i couldn't help but look around at all the cute jock tail holes... and sheaths. i murred lightly as i walked over to James.

"Dam dude why you hate our teacher so much?"

"Because she is a bitch... was my first year... still is this year" i said laughing and walking out of the locker room when the bell rang.

Today Alex and i decided to walk home. it was about 15 miles from school to my house. As we walked i grabbed his hand and held his paw lightly but still tight.

"STORM.... ALEX" we heard looking back at abbey walking up to us. "HOLD UP YA FOOS" she said walking up to us hugging us both.

"Hey abbey" Alex said.

"HEYA EL-A-BATO" i said as my tail started to wag a little faster.

"Wow you to are wired."

"foo you alex" me and abbey said laughing.

As we walked we talked about some of the new band stuff and some days we would be free to hang out together as a group.

"i think im free sunday" alex said putting his arm around my waist.

"same here" i said doing the same to alex.

"woo now we can hava some fun" abbey laughed.

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shortly after the week was over Saturday rolls around. it was a fun day, although alex sorta was acting wired. But we just thought that he was doing his random stuff like he normally will do. After we walked our way's saying good bye to abbey me and alex walked home.

"Alex" i said grabbing his paw.

"Yeah puppeh?"

"i wanted to wait to give this to you but i think now my be the right time" i said pulling him down to the ground and sat under the stars.

"what is it" he asked.

"i want you to have this" i said as i took out a cross that matched mine around my neck, in the middle it says Alex.

"Jeremy this must of cost you a lot.... i don't know how to thank you" you said raping his arms around my neck pulling me into a hug. i did the same and licked his nose. After he put it on and hugged me again and got up to go inside.

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"THE DAY GROWS LONG, YEARS GROW HARD. YOU'RE NEVER HEARD, SLOWLY DYING IN YOUR BODY. YOU WANT TO SCREAM BUT IT COULD NOT BE LET OUT. WE HAVE ONE THING. ONE THING ONLY. WE ARE ONE. WE ARE STRONG. JOIN WITH US, WE WILL BE A FAMILY.... WE LOVE YOU GOOD NIGHT" the band screamed in our mics. We bowed and walked off stage.

"Dam yet another energetic concert guy's! way to go" dj said giving us highfives.

"i think we are ganna get bigger soon" Alex said hugging my waist.

"god i can't wait for that day... maybe we can go get some new drum stuff i need new sticks" i said chuckling as i held up my second last pair of sticks with one bent. as i lifted it up, the tip of the stick fell to the ground, we stared at it and looked up at each other and fell over laughing.

"Come on guys let's get packed up and head out" Marcus said grabbing his stuff. shortly after we got our stuff ready to go i heard my cell phone go off.

"Hello" i said wondering who it is.

"Hi... Jeremy its your mom..."

"What do you want" i said with a light growl.

"i want you to come home..." shortly after she said that my dad took the phone.

"yes son please come home... we miss you" my dad said sound like he was ganna cry.

"Well if you wanted me to stay you shouldn't have said what you said... im sorry but you lost your son" i said closing my phone, trying to stand straight, but the walls caved in on me, and i fell to the ground holding my paws to my eyes lighting crying.

"Jeremy... are you ok" alex said walking over rubbing my back and sat next to me.

"yeah... im fine lets go" i said putting on a fake smile and got in the car. i put in my headphones and listened to Nightwish the whole way back looking out the window as it slowly started to rain.

We're the day birds, Deciding to fly against the sky, Within our dreams, we all wake up, To kiss the ones who are born to die. We're the greying herds, Hurting each other with our lies, Within our dreams, we all wake up, To kiss the ones who are born... Born to die.

"dude what are you listing to?" Alex said looking at me while we were in the computer lab at school working on a comm. arts Project.

"Im listing to Harakiri by Serj Tankian.. it's a really good song." i said smiling at him.

"Why do i think i know that voice... and name?" he said taking one of my ear puts and putting it into his ear.

"it's the singer from System Of A Down." i said as we started to rock our heads to the song.

"Wow. he is really good on his own and with S.O.A.D!"

"i know right haha i saw it on a youtube commercail so i clicked on it and started listing to it." i said replaying it over and over again.

"we should do a co-" he said before our teacher yelled from across the room.

"MR RYLE, MR NELSON! get back to work!" she said as we quickly turned around and started working on our speech project.

Later on after the bell rang me and Alex walked to my locker to get some stuff before we split up for our second last class of the day. i grabbed some shorts as i looked at him. His ears down with a little frown as he looked at me.

"what's worng hon?" i said rubbing his cheek lightly

"I dont want you to leave." he said wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me in to a tight hug.

"don't worry i be over at your house tonight.. rember we live together now." i said giggling as i huged him.

"GET A ROOM FAGS!" a tall grey dog said.

"Fuck off john." i said growling at him as i kissed alex on the cheek.

"what's worng with you ass fuckers?! You're all ganna burn in hell!" he yelled

"John! knock it off!" his girlfriend said standing in front of us. "They have more than enough right to kiss in the halls like we do." she said as she turned around with a smiled at me and Alex. She extended her paw as i reached out alex reached out to. we shook her paw and in return she smiled a little brighter. "Hey guys im Maria! what's your guy's name?" she said in a upbeat tune as john scoffed and walked away.

"Well I'm Jeremy but everyone calls me storm." i said smiling back.

"And I'm Alex." he said curling into my chest a little more.

"Sorry he is a sotra shy kitty. Also thank you for standing up for us." i said as we started to walk with her, Alex still in my arm.

"No prob i dont know why he doesn't like gays." She spoke. "his cuzzin is gay and hes normally fine with it." she sighed then smiled again. "Well i have to get to class hope to see you guys around sometime!" she said running off.

"wow she was nice." i said looking at Alex kissing his nose before we parted our ways.

"Yeah she is." he giggled hugging me and walked of.

After i got changed i walked to the gym and started running some laps randomly.

"wow nelson see you getting in shep shape." Ms roider said.

"yeah well i sorta haveta my drumming got a little slow so i need improvement." i said smiling as i walked over with light sweat on my head. "do you want me to help you with anything?" i asked.

"Sure, go get the rack of basketballs." she said giving me the keys. After she did i nodded and ran to the storage closet to get the rack. After i did that, i walked back with them seeing the others already running.

"What i miss?" i asked.

"oh nothing now get running shepherd." she said and giggled lightly.

"yes ma'am!" i said as i started running with some of my friend's.

After about a 5min run around the gym she called us over. She went though the run though of what we are going to be doing today witch luckily was just drills. Shortly after getting though the first round of rules we split up into our groups. i ran over to join my normal friends nick, Aaron, Aston (c4) and mark .

"you guys ready let's get through this quick" nick said as he passed me the ball. i chucked it over to C4.

"fuck yeah" C4 shouted as he pasted to Aaron.

"come on baby" he shouted as he passed to me.

"nice throw dude" i said as i passed over to mark.

After a couple minutes of passing we went to dribbling then shooting. Shortly after we started shooting the bell rang and we all ran to the locker rooms.

"Nice drills nelson!" my teacher yelled out as i ran. i waved my paw as to say thank you tacking off my shirt before i got into the locker room.

After my last hour class witch was band. i ran to the buss and sat in my normal seat. i put on I can walk on water, I can fly by Basshunter. After a quick 3 minute drive I found myself laying on the couch. after 10min of silence i saw Alex walk in with his mom.

"See, buss is shorter" i said snickering looking up at them.

"Dam your right mom im taking the bus from now on" he said laughing and walked over hugging me tightly. "i love you" he said kissing my lips.

"i love you to hon" i said licking his chin.

"gah love birds... im ganna go out tonight you to have fun" she said and walked out the door.

"yay hose to ourselves!" he said jumping on the couch curling into a ball of fluff.

"Yup" i said walking over and hugged him tightly.

"Hmm what should we do?"

"i dont know" i said giggling.

"Should we do what we normally do?" he said poking my chest.

"Play games and listen to music?" i said wonder what he had in mind.

"yup!"

"ok im good with that" i said with i light whimper then licked his nose.

____________________________Didn't Go To Plan, Or Did It?_________________________

i was laying down on the couch with Alex laying between my legs on on my chest as we were watching TV. his mom had left to do somethings, so we got the house to ourselves for the night.

"Jeremy?" alex asked and looked up at me.

"Yes hon?" i replied rubbing his chest.

"i... i think that... i think you should leave" he said getting up quickly and ran to his room with is arms around his side. Shortly after a heard the slam of his bed room door that made me flinch. i looked out the window wondering what just happened as i felt a tear drop from my muzzle to the couch. My heart felt like someone just jabbed i knife into my chest and cut it into a thousand small pieces. i walked up slowly losing focus of everything that was going on. The room was sort of spinning and my vision got blurry. As soon as i got up to his room i put my paw to the door and knocked.

"Alex?"

"GO AWAY!" i heard him yelling then fall to the ground crying.

"Alex why... what do i do?"

"NOTHING ... thats the thing you are too good for me just LEAVE!... NOW!" he yelled crying more. i sat their wondering what was happing. Then i looked at the door then to the stairs.

"ok Alex... if you really want me to." i said getting up and started to walk down the stairs. i grabbed my stuff, tears still flowing though my eyes, and walked out the into the night. As i jumped into the truck i saw Alex looking though his window. one paw on the glass, the other around his stomach. he was shaking and his black eyes now turned read. i looked away and started crying more wishing he would pull me out of the car and hold me close. shortly after i had some time to rejoin the little pieces i had left of myself i got my phone and called up dj. after about 2 rings he picked up.

"yo dude" he said.

"Something is worng with Alex... can i please come stay at your house?" i said trying to act as normal as possible.

"Sure man." he said then we hung up. As i was driving i had to pay way more attention to the road then i ever had... driving with tears in your eyes and your heart breaking is worse than a snow storm while drunk. After about 10 minutes i pulled into dj's driveway and knocked on the door. he came and invited me in.

"Wow dude i haven't seen you like this in a long time." he said rubbing my back.

"Yeah... i know." My ears pinned back as we spoke together.

"here I'll show you to the guest room." he said pulling my arm knowing that i couldn't see at all. My normal blue eyes were now red from crying my body shaking and everything was still spinning. As soon as we got up to the guest bed room i layed my stuff down. luckily due to my other times their i brought my electric drum kit with me because we had to practice at his house. i sat down behind it smiling a little as he closed the door. i reached in to my backpack and pulled out two 7an drumsticks and started playing. After a short time of just randomly playing i got happy. Shortly after that i started to see again but my eyes still burned from the crying. my heart was still in a thousand small pieces but i started to get a little hope. After about 30 minutes of playing i grabbed my ipod i played to A Little piece of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold.

"HE STABBED HER 50 FUCKING TIMES, i cant believe it. RIPED HER HEART OUT RIGHT BEFORE HER EYES, eyes over easy. EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT" i sang while playing not knowing dj was standing outside the door. After i was done with the song i was smiling more. he walked in and looked at me.

"Dude you are the only person i know who can play for about 40min and be happy right after your heart is broken." he said chuckling.

"No im not: maybe be smiling, but i can't cry because i cried all i could. My heart is a thousand pieces and i lost Alex." after a short time of silence he looked up at me.

"i don't know what is going on with Alex.. You guys were meant for each other... i mean come on you guys been brothers since 5th grad.

"Yeah i know but hes sort of really ... emo and sometimes he acts wired... but i don't know i will talk to him at school" i said walking to the bed laying down. "but for right now all i need is some sleep" i said closing my eyes curling into a ball and huged my tail.

"You are so wired" he chuckled again. "Night man" he said turning off the lights and closing the door"

"Night" i feel asleep right after i said night.

leave... i think you should leave.... now, go, leave.......

i woke up shaking as i lightly panted...

fuck i need get it together .... now im hearing alex just saying leave in my dreams... god im more torn apart then i thought. i said shaking my head a little and looked at my clock. its 6.... might as well get my shower. I thought as i found some clean cloths, and walked to the shower with my choice and a towel. dj walked out with a towel wrapped around his waist and nodded to me. i walked in and got the water to the perfect temperature. i striped and walked into the shower. i stood their as the water fell over my body... i felt my problems slip away, down the drain out of my sight. my heart felt like one little piece was back into place. i washed my fur and got out drying off. i put on my black sleeveless t-shirt, black pants, black socks and walked out. as i walked out i caught up with dj, we walked down stairs together.

"You ready to go?" he asked

"yeah." on the way to school dj drove, and i put on some Marilyn Manson. we jammed out to mOBSCENE as we pulled up to the school parking lot. we got looks from everyone walking past us. me and dj were in a way dancing to I Dont Like The Drugs (but the drugs like me) by Mairlyn Manson. We were BLASTING that sound as loud as we could. Shortly after it fished we started laughing and walked to school. after we put our stuff away i started listing to The Voyage by Yanni. i saw Alex laying against the door to our class. i walked up to him. i looked at me and put his black hood up.

"Alex..." i said looking at him. Out of nowhere he grabed my body and huged me tightly, i put my arms around him smiling, and took a big inhale his scent, as his warmth poored into me.

"Jeremy im sorry but we cant be boyfriends, i dont trully love you ... im sorry" he said lightly crying.

"FAGS GET A ROOM" we heard from behind us. i turned around and punched a large black wolf in the nose. he fell back and slammed his head into the wall, before i growled loudly and grabbed him by the shirt.

"IF YOU EVER CALL ME A FAG AGAIN I WILL BEAT THE EVER LIVING SHIT OUT OF YOU. DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME!" i yelled as people looked at us, the wolf was whimpering loudly as i punched his gut once more, and threw him to a group of people before going back over to alex, his eyes wide.

"DUDE! that was fucking epic as hell" he laughed. My heart returned to normal hearing him laugh.

"heh thanks now what did you want to say?" i chuckled rubbing the back of my neck getting some of the wolfs blood off my paw.

"well i found out that im way more straight, and i want you as my brother" he lightly chuckled

"eh i understand it felt wired kissing my own brother anyways" i laughed, trying to push through the feeling of anxiety falling over my mind.

"oh also jeremy..."

"Yeah man?"

"You just whooped Austin's ass" i looked back at the canine trying to get off the ground. his nose bleeding as he coughed up some blood before he ran away with his tail between his legs.

"Eh fuck him" i laughed and walked around to find dj and talked to him till school actually started.

"Good to see the love birds talking" dj said.

"eh we are just brothers again" i said.

"Yup.... also Jeremy" Alex said and i looked at him.

"hmm?"

"That sparkle in your eye is back." alex laughed.

"well i have my 2 best friends out of the 6 i know right here with me im better then i ever will be" i laughed and put my arms around shoulders. "also i whooped austins as so that made me feel better than ever." i added as we walked to the main hall way and split up to go to our classes.

yup its only ganna get better from here. i said to myself as i sat down next to my brother for class.

_ this is what i am meant to do, this is what i want to do. my life with my friends. Stories will be made, hearts will mend. life as we know it is about to get so much better no one understands. I'm going to be the best i am. im going to be who i am. life over death. life wins with me. thank you. i do what i do. forever and always. rest in peace old me. hello to the new one. _

i read back to myself from my note book and smiled showing to it alex and chuckled and patted myback.

"yup everything will be smoother now" i said as i felt my heart fully piece back to normal. i felt complete happiness. that, i haven't felt in a while... yup this is ganna be great!