for the lover of a good wolf 6-7
#3 of For the love of a good wolf
I was on my way to work after my wife and son had just left to spend a few days at my mother in laws when a storm rolled in. sky got dark. really dark and then the rain started there was not gradual build up to it just opened and poured a monsoon on the road. I made it to work with no problems but as I was walking in the door I got a phone call from a number I didn't recognize. i ignored it and it left a voicemail. I listened to the message because I had about 15 minutes before work started. the message from a state trooper. fuck this can't be good.
"Hello sir, this is trooper Wilson. there has been a car accident involving your family it was a very bad accident and we need you come as soon as you can." I immediately dialed the officer's number back and when he picked up I said who I was and asked what happened. he explained that a semi had lost control and hit my mother in law's car. everyone was hurt seriously, and they were trying to get the out of the car. I asked if I could get and escort from work or something, so I could get there as soon as I could. the officer said that they knew where I worked, and a trooper was almost there already to pick me up and drive me to the site. as we were talking the officer showed up. I climbed in and we took off, lights and sirens going and speeding the whole way. the trooper never said a work and I never asked a question.
when we arrived on the scene I was too late. I jumped from the car as we pulled up and ran towards my in-law's car. but all I saw was the three blankets on the ground. two adult sized lumps and a much smaller one next to them. they had gotten my family out of the car, but it was too late. they had all died before they could get to them.
the next few weeks were a blur. all I remember was the results of the trial said the shipping company was at fault due to several safety failures that could have been prevented. I was awarded 3.5 million dollars. after that I did nothing. I just sat at home didn't work, or shower or really eat except when people would almost force me to.
One day I just grabbed my backpacking and camping gear I had, went and bought some more supplies and just drove till my truck ran out of gas. I mailed the keys home to my family and told them where the truck was to be found and that I was going on a journey and would mail them when I could and that I was fine just needed time to find myself. I never wrote a letter just would send a postcard with the city or town I was in. I never called them or sent a return address. never wanted them to come and find me. I was alone in the wilderness and felt some sense of normalcy for the first time since the accident. that was 2 years and 6 months before I met Tatyana and the first time the darkness took control so abruptly and then all hell broke loose for me.
chapter 7
I had that feeling with my arms around her. that feeling of trying to make her feel better, comfort her. that was bad. it triggered all the memories and pain and emotions to flood by to the front of my mind. I screamed in agony and then Tatyana cried out even louder. I collapsed to the floor and tried to get away. I was unable to move I was paralyzed with a fear that was not my own. I could feel the pain and confusion and fear of the unknown coming from someone else as well as my own pain. I don't know how long this all went on for but when I regain control of my senses I was still on the floor surrounded by people.
Tatyana was on the floor next to me curled up in the fetal position crying, her parents were next to her trying to calm her down. I was in control of myself again, but it seemed different. I slowly got up looked around and simply stated that I was going to leave and started walking for the door. I was unsteady and wobbled slightly as I headed for the front door. it was almost like I was on autopilot. the people around me let me walk past and I made my way to the door. the urge to go back was there almost pleading with me to turn around, telling me this wasn't right and that I need to return.
Someone grabbed my arm to stop me. out of reflex I turned, grabbed their wrist and arm and drove them into the wall as hard as I could I heard a sickening noise that could have been bones breaking or something else and a cry of pain. but I went back to walking away. I got outside and when another man tried to stop me I stomped onto his knee hearing the bones breaking that time and watching him fall to ground in agony. I was almost to the edge of the clearing when I was surrounded by wolves. where the fuck did these wolves come from.
I recognized the lead wolf as the one I stared down that night at the elk. I looked him in the eyes.
"go ahead and kill me, end my suffering. "
I heard Ana yell out, "no one is killing anyone tonight! You need to stay here were we can help you."
"I don't want help, I left everything behind for a reason, I was feeling almost sane and normal being alone in the wilderness. I don't know what happened, but I can't go through it again let me leave or kill me, or I may just end this now."
I turned and punched the nearest wolf trying to get him to attack me, but he wouldn't. I grabbed my sidearm and put to my head. then I felt something stab into my shoulder. as I turned to see a syringe in my shoulder and apologizing to me. I fell to the ground and was out before I hit.