Life Lost, Living Love
Life Lost, Living Love
Waking up to the drumbeat
My heart races with the panic of a millennium
The fire scolds the flesh and burns away every drip of scum
The scum of my past and the darkening future that lies ahead
I know that soon I will be facing an immortal dread
For this night I can consider myself among the dead
I think of you as I slowly breathe my last goodbye
Please don't even try, I know you cannot empathize
Dieing out for the final time, it surely flows
Through the ashes where the others lie in sweet repose
Slowly fading from the remains of a life so dear
Moving distant now, I know I've never felt this clear
What is left but a burnt corpse upon the lonely bed
I think of all the things I really wish I could have said
I can see you seeing through me, but you do not speak
For you can't interpret this transparent entity
As I slowly place a kiss....
Upon the lips which I've sought for
Ten years to the day when I first saw my loved one
Your eyes full of joy and something untold begun
The need for a boy who just can't get his shit straight
A boy who could fuck up and you would still love
Forever...
We make this endeavor
Waiting for you is like waiting for the world to end
You know its coming, but you never really see it... friend
I think it's about time we find a way to push this through
I dream of one day laying face to face just holding you!
Cause I... don't... ever want to sleep... alone
Eternal rest will only come
Once you have shown up here
And see what we've become
I do not plan to burden you for all of these countless years
But know that I am watching over closely, keeping you from fears
Just know I'm here for you
Whatever you go through
So for tonight, sleep tight.
My love.