When 100% is 50%
(April 18, 2018)
These aren't fully my thoughts; I'd like to keep my relations private. But these are some feelings I have now, and what I think will be more prominent in the future.
My head is spinning round and round, I can't see things properly, let alone hear sounds, It's scary when what you thought at first was right, Even if you chose to have hope instead, with all your might.
They say love is a powerful emotion, And I agree with what they say. For when you find that special someone, They turn the night into day.
I put in my all, with much devotion, I year to make them smile... ...to the point that I want to be with them physically, Even if its just for a while.
But a while may not be what it seemed to be, For my devotion may be, in technical jargon, inefficient. For when you put in 100%, and they give you just 50%, You really don't feel that sense of contentment.
You see, there's no such thing as putting in your love 200%, or 300%, Because that's euphoria to me; To put your devotion into multiple people, and giving me that '100%' Is putting me at misery.
They say jealousy is like a passing flu, But I really, highly disagree, It's that '100%', which is actually 50%, That's making me feel like I'm a tool.
I guess I'll stop loving for a while; I should have had less hope, right from the start... that while I was giving my all, they were giving me just a mere 50% of their heart.