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So today started out good. Very good. But today wasn't a 'good day' for me.

I didn't get late for class though I woke up late, and the Advanced English class, a new subject for me, was very easy and fun for me. The professor praised me, though it was only the first day. Intermediate English Reading was good as well, and soon I was flying back home.

I got a message from the store I previously worked in, and the manager asked me if I could work for someone else for a day, saying she'll pay me well. Of course I said yes. More money? Hell, yes!

Remember what I told you just a few days before? About a dragoness named Tulleine? That I might like her? Well, I was working at the store, but got bored when no customers came in. So of course I pulled out my phone and started to read a book. About an hour later, I got bored of the book as well, and started to scroll through the names of creatures I knew. I wanted to talk to Tulleine, so I started a chat with her. But then I realized that her profile picture had changed.

And you know what?

There was another dragon with her, a male. It was a picture of them being together, smiling happily, with hearts around them. They didn't look alike one bit, so it was obvious that the male wasn't her brother.

Yay.

Yay me.

Then Tulleine replied to my text. My heart was already breaking down at that point, but obviously, I couldn't let that show. She might have just liked me as a friend, and well... I have my pride. But it was hard. Hard. I quickly ended the chat as I couldn't take it.

I said before that I didn't know if I liked her or not. You know what? As others say, you don't know how something is important until you lose it. I liked her. I liked her a lot. Maybe I even had a crush on her. And I lost it.

All I could do at the time was just laugh and smoke heavily in sorrow. Empty laughs just escaped me even while smoking. I was laughing at myself. How dumb I was for not checking her profile before I gave her my heart. How dumb I was for thinking that I had a chance with her. A million thoughts swirled around my mind.

After that, I worked my tail off at the store. I just wanted to forget about it. And it helped. But when I finished work at midnight, organizing 13 boxes of groceries, the thought came back to me again. I was tired. And I didn't need those thoughts. But it just won't escape me.

I flew home back with heavy wings. Tired from the day's work, and the weight of being heartbroken was enough to really exhaust me.

Hopefully time will be the cure.

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