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The rest of the day I spent my time trying to come to terms with what had happened to me, though to be fair I was starting to find that the good definitely outweighed the bad. During my first meal in my new body I was rather embarrassed to say that I made a little bit of a mess in my attempts to eat neatly. Jack had chuckled softly as he helped me eat the boneless chicken bits that he'd prepared for me.

"You definitely look the part of a cub right now Daren." He said softly as he used a wet cloth to gently wipe the sauce from the bits from my muzzle.

"I was trying, but it's not easy." I protested while trying to stay still to make it easier for him to complete the cleaning job.

"I know it isn't easy kitten, especially when you're dealing with a new body for the first time." He said smoothly as he finished wiping my muzzle. "I do have to say that you definitely have a healthy appetite."

"I was hungry." I stated simply, though I was a bit surprised how many of the chicken bits I'd managed to consume.

"Yes, you were, then again as far as I am aware this was your first meal in this body." He said with a smile, "Though I hope it wasn't too heavy." He mused before kneeling down to pick me up from my chair.

After my afternoon meal, I guess you could call it my lunch, I had a short nap as my body processed my food to some degree, though not enough to do much more than issue a few rather pungent whiffs of gas.

I spent the remainder of the afternoon in downstairs rec room with Jack, exercising my limbs, though I soon found that moving around on my hands and legs was easier than walking upright.

"That's the idea Daren." I heard Jack say as I paused for a short break, my legs and arms all the way up to my shoulders were aching from the effort of what I had been doing. "At this rate I don't think it will long before you'll be fully mobile again."

I looked over to where he was sitting as I panted softly. Ever since I'd come down here Jack had removed the shorts and shirt saying that they would get in my way, and I'd only get hot too fast in them. "This isn't easy Jack, I am trying I told him." As I lay there.

He smiled and nodded before turning to a small box in the corner of the room. "You look like you could use a change kitten, that diaper looks pretty well used."

I gave a small sound and looked down, realizing that I must've used my diaper a few more times since he'd last pointed it out to me. "I'm sorry Jack. I didn't even feel it coming." I began to apologize.

For his part Jack didn't say anything till he had me on my back with the tail-tape already unfastened. "Daren, I know it will take a long time for you to get used to this, but I don't really plan on pushing you to get potty trained for a long time to come."

I looked up at him as he unfastened the front. "Why not? I was a grown man before and..."

"You weren't happy Daren, I don't think you ever were happy, not since your mother left your family." He stated softly as he used some wet-wipes to gently wipe my front down. "Every time I've ever seen you in the past ten years I could easily see that you weren't a happy man. Instead I saw a trapped little boy in your eyes who didn't understand why he had to suffer so much and why nothing ever really ended up the way he wanted."

I had to close my eyes as I thought about what he was saying, it tore me up on the inside, but I really did have to admit that what he was saying was striking dangerously close to the truth of the matter. As much as I hated to admit it to even myself, his current treatment was making me feel like for once in my life, since my mother had left, that somebody cared about me.

"What are you thinking about kitten?" He asked as he fastened a clean, dry diaper around my waist before getting me to sit up so that he could do up the single tape above the base of my tail.

"Just about what you were saying Jack, an' I think it is kinda true." I answered softly, "My father didn' love me, I think he saw me as a burden. My crew didn' really care about other than the fact that I was a way for them ta get into their targeted locations without raising a fuss. Even my dealer didn' care about me 'cause he kept selling me stuff that he knew was gonna kill me."

Jack nodded softly before picking me up to gather me into a hug. "That's what I aim to change now Daren. You deserve to have a caring family looking after you and making you feel like you are special and deserve love and affection."

I found myself snuggling into his hug, I hadn't been hugged as much in the past ten years as I had been so far on this day and I found the change slightly unsettling, but at the same time a welcome relief from my previous existence.

He kept hugging me as I relaxed in his arms, "Daren this is a wonderful thing isn't it?" He asked softly, "Perhaps when your ready I can become your new daddy eh?"

The idea actually shocked me when Jack mentioned it, but when I thought more about it I was surprised at how well the idea sat in my mind, "I think it won't really take me long to get used to that idea Jack." I told him with a soft little smile.

"I am looking forwards to it kitten." He replied before I got back to exploring what I could do with my new body.

Several hours later, after dinner, I was laying in my new bed, trying to make sense of what had happened to me. So many things had changed for me, and I hoped that those changes would allow me to never have to deal with the horrible memories and nightmares that I'd had to live with for the past ten years ever since I'd escaped from the broken home where I'd grown up.

I was almost asleep when the door to the bedroom slowly opened slightly. When I looked over I couldn't really make out what was in the gap, it was like a shadow. After a moment the shadow moved and I realized that I was looking at an animated shadow, a black panther morph.

"Hello little one." A soft, purring female voice said softly before the panther moved to the side of my bed.

I looked up at her, taking in her features in the dim light of my room. It wasn't really all that late, but the curtains made it seem later than it was. After a few moments she walked over from the door and came over to the side of my bed and gently gathered me into her arms and hugged me against her breast. She rocked me gently and softly began to groom the fur between my ears.

For me the rocking and the soft noises that she was making, along with the grooming made my heart ache in the worst way and I fought to control my emotions but after a few moments there was no containing what my mind was screaming at me. "Momma!" I cried before sobbing uncontrollably. To the part of me that had never healed after my mother had left when I was six, this was something that I'd wanted for more than 18 years.

"Shhh little one, let it all out." She softly murmured while rocking me and letting me cry out the pain and hurt that my mother's abandonment had done to me. I barely noticed anything as she adjusted her hold on me before snuggling me against her naked torso, letting me feel the soft fur on her body.

"Jack, we didn't agree about this, but now..." I heard her say.

"Vivian, whenever I've had to defend Daren, for whatever he was charged with, I always saw something in his eyes that told me that he hadn't grown up properly."

I felt her nod slightly, "You said that his mother left his family when he was six?"

"That's correct, and after that I guess his father took to drinking."

"I don't think the core of this cub's pain is what his father did to him. I think what his father did to him was very bad, but at the heart of it this cub's pain comes from his mother's abandonment." She said softly, "Like a lot of young boys he probably had bonded strongly with his mother, and when she left..."

"It tore his heart out." Jack finished softly.

While they were discussing my past, my own cries had slowed down and I found myself with my muzzle circled around a small nub at the peak of Vivian's breast sucking on it softly. When I realized what I was doing I let go and looked up through tear filled eyes.

She looked down before very gently nudging me back to what I was doing before, "It's okay kitten, momma's here for you now." She said softly. "Jack, we're going to keep this one around, he needs it."

I vaguely heard Jack agree before the fatigue brought on by my busy day, and my emotional breakdown caused me to fall asleep in Vivian's arms with her nipple still in my muzzle.