Dizzy...
Night thoughts - 74. - Y knot...
Dizzy...
Shouldn't be surprised by tired eyes showing something that, shouldn't, can't be
Still, I get such a chill, as dreams & nightmares hold hands, walking toward me
Letting my nerves diminish to the dust around the chaos building, with what I see
A future that can't be my own...
I stagger, slurring my struggles as pain filled memories are once again shown
Something more is continued, after the stories were written, pages closed, & worries left in the dark
Many "what if" moments gathered strength once again, finding a bonfires worth of past instances, becoming it's one needed spark...
Slumber last to find me, I sit & lay, on pins & needles as my hands turn back time, moment by moment, content to resentment
When my body begins to freeze, breath becoming harder to take
My body shocks myself for my last resort, then...in a daze...I wake...
Dripping in sweat & tears, I take a minute, finding my peace back from a memory lane with no lights
Eventually laying back down, I breathe easy as my mind readies for the next round of fights
Daybreak greats me with a feeling I try to maintain
With not much more to lose, I focus again, trying, waiting, for my smile to regain
"Dark thoughts hidden in night shadows, do more than fill an empty space...
They can lie, & convince you, things are only peaceful, in a peaceful place..."
Stay strong, like you have all along...
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