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Outside the circus area, Sasuga was chasing after the infuriated Panja, trying to catch up with him. "Hold on, Panja! Please, stop!" she kept calling out to him while following him, but Panja kept marching on. She finally got close enough to him and grabbed his arm, forcing him to stop.

"What?!" Panja snapped.

"Panja, please, don't be upset. You should be happy for Haz that he has found Rinami after being separated for so long. Come on, you're better than that," Sasuga said, trying to reason with him.

"Happy? Are you kidding me? How can I be happy when I could lose him!?" Panja retorted.

"Lose him? Don't be silly, Panja. You're not going to lose Hazard. You two are too close for that to happen, I can tell."

"That's what I think!"

"Then why are you so upset?"

"It pisses me off! It pisses me off that this is pisses me off! I always knew nothing was going to happen between me and him, that we'll never be more than friends, and I got used to accept that, despite all. But I also got used to how he never settles with anyone due to our curse, that he'll always be single. I was satisfied with that fact, that if I can't have him, nobody else can. I know that very selfish and not fair for Haz, but that's just how things have been forever! And I liked it! But now..." Panja openly said to the kirin and she was deeply stunned at how he viewed his relationship with Hazard. She knew Panja had affectionate feelings for the wolf, but she didn't imagine those feelings were so deep and complicated in that way. It was surprising to her that she kind of understood him, somehow.

"Panja, don't be sad. Who knows what will happen. It does seem Rinami is fond of Haz, but we don't know for sure what his take on that," Sasuga comforted him, petting his hand gently.

"Fond? FOND!? Have you seen the way she looks at him!? She's heels over head in love with him!" Panja retorted.

"Um, it's 'head over heels', Panja..."

"Wha-? Well, whatever! Point is I've never seen Haz act that way with a girl before, so something must be up! And you know what the worst thing is? What even pisses me off more? The worst thing is that I like her, too! The nasty things I've said about her back there was bullshit! I can tell she's a sweet girl and they look perfect together! Hell, I'd fall for her if I was in his place! But I can't bring myself to like her! Because if I do, then that means I also accept the fact that I'm losing Haz for good, and I don't want that to happen!" Panja's outburst reached its peak and it left the kirin speechless for words.

"Panja, I... I don't know what to say..." Sasuga muttered softly, almost breaking into tears to see the white lion so disturbed. Panja saw that he was acting cruelly by lashing out on Sasuga like this and started to cool down.

"I'm... I'm sorry, Sassy. I shouldn't be yelling at you. Fuck, I'm such a jerkoff..." Panja regretfully said, lowering his head down in shame.

"It's okay, dear. I'm not upset. I don't mind if you needed to vent off on me, as long as it'll help you feel better," Sasuga gently smiled, giving the big lion a tender hug, as Panja sighed and hugged her back, actually needing it.

"Heh, some surprise this turned out to be, huh? Damn tickets," Panja then chuckled cynically.

"No, don't say that. It was sweet of you to do that for me and I really had a blast, especially to have you with me. Don't ever regret what you did. Listen Panja, I believe Hazard and Rinami were bound to meet, sooner or later. Whither you bought those tickets, or some other way. Fate brought them together, just like how it brought me to you and Haz. Instead, you should feel good about it, because you helped in making that happen," Sasuga said and tried to cheer him up a bit, and surprisingly, what she said made a little sense to Panja.

"Thanks, babe. But, I want to take a walk alone. You go back home with Haz without me," Panja then requested, smiling down at her.

"Well, okay, if that's what you need to do." Sasuga nodded. She figured he needed some time alone to clear his head.

"Tell Haz I'm sorry and I'll see him later, okay?" Panja said and turned around, as Sasuga watched him walk away. She discovered that despite being a big strong lion, Panja was a very sensitive guy. She saw a side of him she never expected, and felt that she started to know him a little better now. She just hoped that he'd come back out of this soon and return to his cheerful and playful self. She preferred that Panja.

"Panja seems to really care about you, doesn't he?" Rinami said, still in her trailer with Hazard.

"He's... my closest friend. We've been together forever," Hazard replied, his back turned to the fox.

"That was insensitive of me, saying that stuff and imposing myself on you all. I don't blame him for hating me..."

"Nah, he doesn't hate you. Panja is too big hearted to hate anyone. He's just stupid sometimes, he'll come around."

"Hmm, you seem to care about him as well. You haven't changed at all, Hazard. Still the same kind boy I used to know," Rinami softly smiled and pressed herself against the wolf's back.

"Rina... That's not true. A lot of things changed. In me. I'm not the same," Hazard spoke cagily. He then felt her arms move over his chest and embrace him warmly from behind, leaning her cheek on his warm back.

"You're right. You did change. You've became older. Bigger. Stronger. Kinder. I want to know the new you, Hazard. I'm glad we found each other. I don't want us to part, ever again," the fox softly cooed and she pressed herself more against the golden wolf.

"Me... too..." Hazard gently whispered.

At the other side of the trailer door was Sasuga, unintentionally eavesdropping on those two. She didn't to go back in and decided to give them their much needed space. She leaned her back on the door and sighed softly; recalling what Panja had said and now hearing the tender words Hazard and Rinami were sharing. Was Panja right in his concern? Were things going to change, now that Rinami was in the picture? How would it affect her relationship with Hazard? Should she get worried too? All these questions were running through the kirin mind and she obviously didn't have the answers for any of them. She only hoped for the best and left it for the days to come.

To be continued...