The Beginning With No End (chapter 9)
#9 of The Beginning With No End
Chapter Nine
I woke up, sitting in a really uncomfortable chair that sat in a hospital ICU room... I looked over at the bed and remember why I was here. Kyle. I got up and moved myself over to the side of the bed and looked down onto Kyle. I forgot how beautiful he was, I remembered why I went out with him in the first place at that moment and broke down into tears. My sobbing, unfortunately woke up Narei who was sitting upright on the chair also. He came over me and wrapped his arms around me from behind, holding me tightly by his chest. Narei whispered into my ear "He'll be ok, I promise" reassuring me of Kyle's progress. Kyle seemed to more stable this morning than he ever was last night in the bed. He hadn't gone once.
I stepped outside of the room to get some fresh air and a coffee from the vending machine, Narei followed me everywhere I went just in case I broke down again. As soon as I stepped outside my phone buzzed in my pocket, I took it out and looked who sent it "MUM" it said, I read the text saying that they were home and wondering where we were I replied "Kyle had an accident and was at hospital". I looked back to see Narei watching me, with worried eyes, the light was only just coming over and everything was in a bluish black colour, I loved this time in the morning, when I was up anyway. I grabbed a coffee from the vending machine in the door way and began to sip on it whilst I slowly woke up. Narei got a hot chocolate instead, since he didn't take kindly to coffee. We stood there, both leaning against the walls with our drinks. I turned my head and looked at him, and with a more happier and confident sound than last night said "I love you babes. I want you to know that nothing will ever stop me from loving you either." He looked at me, smiled and said "I love you too, I know that you love me. I want you to know that I will always be here for you". We carried on drinking, just watching the cars pull in, and out from the car park. Seeing doctors come and go, patients getting admitted and some discharged. I finished drinking, threw the cup into the trash and walked back through the hospital with Narei close behind. We reached Kyle's doors again, looking in and seeing him there laying perfectly still and peaceful.
We decided that we should leave now, we headed over to reception and asked them to give us a ring if there's any sign of activity, they agreed and we left. Getting into the car Narei drove over. I looked over, put my paw on Narei's leg and said "I love you. Sorry for all of this.", Narei ignored me, giving me the sign that it was a pointless thing to even say. But he did, however, look over and smile at me. Every time he smiles, my heart skips a beat, the fact that I know he is happy and he is happy when he is with me. "Luke, I'm sure Kyle will be fine. I know that he will be the priority of your thoughts for a while now. You did the right thing you know, but, I'm not too sure Kyle will see the good in this." Narei said, sympathetically.
"What do you mean?" I asked, with a slight tone in my voice
"Well, when some people try end their life's themselves they are doing it so they don't put burden on others or themselves. Kyle, must have gone through hell after I came into your life and I'm sure he wants out of both our lives and his. He couldn't cope perhaps. But at this point in time, it could be his dads fault?" He answered.
"Why, why would anyone do that though?" I asked, once again.
"Well, you can't ask that, because your closest friend has done so." He answered, a tone that gave off a vibe that I should have already known.
We sat quietly from then on and I looked out of my window and watched as the hedges, and scenery quickly passed. Narei put his paw on my leg, calling my attention... I hesitantly turned my head to face him, I only did so because I didn't want to let him see me cry to myself about Kyle. I always thought he hated me crying about someone, especially if it wasn't about him. Narei questioned me "Why are you crying baby?". I accidently snapped back "Why do you fucking think", I saw his expression change which made me realise what I had said "Shit, I am so sorry baby. I... I di..." I stuttered "It's ok, I understand, I don't blame you. It was a stupid question with a really obvious answer". We went quiet again as we pulled into my drive, got out of the car and walked into the house.
My parents greeted us, I said hi and walked upstairs to my room. Narei explained what had happened and Luke's mom went off to phone Kyle's parents to see if they were ok. My dad said that he didn't need to be with them and told Narei to go upstairs to see me. He came into my room, slowly and cautiously and whispered quietly "Is it ok if I come in?", I looked up at him and said, jokingly "You're already in aren't you?". Narei chuckled and smiled at me. I went to turn my computer on and sat there on my computer chair, Narei began to get undressed, I looked over and was shocked. I began to find my words "Narei, you know nothing is going to happen tonight?" Narei looked at me, without surprise and nodded, knowing that nothing was going to happen and crawled into bed, purposely shaking his ass in my face as he did. I giggled and spanked him, he let out a groan and continued to fall into the bed. He curled up, acting as cute as ever. A tear rolled down from my eye to my muzzle. Narei looked at me concerned and asked "What's u..." He stopped, interrupting himself "Never mind, that was a stu..." I interrupted "No, I am crying because I can't believe that I found someone who loves me, cares for me and is as kind as you. I wish I had met you sooner" He looked back at me, looking deeply into my eyes, almost ripping through my soul to see if I was telling the truth and being honest in what I was saying... There was a few seconds of silence "I... I... We... Ummm.." He stammered, trying to find words which he couldn't when he was this emotional. I find it really cute, but it annoys him to no end. He reached for his iTouch which was on my desk, opened up a note and wrote down what he was trying to say, he passed it to me and I read it out loud "I love you so much" I looked up at him, he knew he didn't write enough and I didn't care. I turned my computer off by the switch and climbed into bed with him. Placing my head on his chest so I could hear his heart beating... slowly, sending me to sleep...
We laid there, as the shadows slowly drifted across my walls as the sun set. We just slept, having hardly no sleep from the night before. Our chests grew and shrunk in sync as we both exhaled and inhaled air.
thanks so much for waiting, I haven't been able to write anything I've been really busy and having issues with a couple of friends of mine! Thanks for being so patient! LOVE YOU ALL!
Sorry its so short, kinda rushed to get this one out to you guys.