The Aftermath: 'Inner Demons'
#16 of Night Of The Brothers
_ And so here it is. After 6 years break; last chapter of the series. Yes; back then I planned to have this one more chapter that would conclude the story and sum things up. One of the reasons I didn't finish writing was because at some point I realized I wanna be certain that's all there was to this story. Then I kind of got occupied by life stuff. I am an adult now. I have less free time. Anyway! Enjoy! _
The Aftermath: Inner Demons
We all fail at some points in our lives. Some things small, some things not so much. Usually with each fail there comes a loss.
I'm sitting by the kitchen table, watching Emjay and Tyler having the time of their life while making breakfast.
''Come on, stop messing around and pass me the fresh cream.'' - Says Tyler to try and stop Emjay from goofing around... only to have some fresh cream smeared onto his nose. The natural canine reflex is to lick it off and so he does, resulting in Emjay giggling.
''You're lucky it's your birthday.''
My ears perk up. Birthday? That's right... we never told each other when our birthdays are. I don't have a gift.
''_ You don't have anything that Emjay would want anyway, Roy. '' -_The demonic voice chuckles. It is clear only I can hear it as nobody else reacts. _'' Besides... Tyler seems to be giving him everything he needs. A shame, isn't it? You seem to have outlived your usefulness. __''_I shake my head to get rid of the voice. Emjay notices that; ''You alright, Roy?'' I quickly nod - ''Aye. Itchy ear.''
''Yeaaa... I failed at some point... I'm not even sure when... but I think I lost Emjay...'' I think to myself as if answering that voice, my eyes glued to Emjay and Tyler who are currently licking fresh cream off of each others noses. So Emjay is exactly a month older than me. Funny, I always thought he's younger than me. He's 16 now. Despite that; he does seem to be a late bloomer. Still looking child-like and even behaving innocent. Guess when you got family to keep ya safe... you don't need to grow up so fast. The innocence is partially what made me fall in love with him. He's been through so much and yet he's acting like none of it ever happened...
Why can't I?
Roy seems to be sad... or maybe just deep in thought. Regardless; best if I talk to him. ''Big bro? Mind finishing up alone?''
Tyler looks a bit surprised but nods. - ''Yeah, sure. You helped a lot already anyway.''
''He sure helped you lick that cream off ya nose. Was it the first time?'' - The sudden comment from Roy caught everyone off-guard. I looked at him and so did Tyler and Jack. ''It's a joke, gee.'' - He chuckles a bit but seems to look a bit nervous.
''Roy? Can we talk?'' - I ask and he nods before we head upstairs into our room. Soon enough he closes door behind us and asks: ''What's up?''
''I can't help but notice things have been a bit... different recently.''
The fox raises eyebrow and crosses arms. - ''Not hard to notice, Emjay. You're the one who caused this.''
''Me?''
''I'm not stupid, Emjay. I know you and Tyler are closer again. If not you giving each others noses oral being the giveaway then the fact you disappear at night into his room; is. Yeah, I know.'' He adds the last sentence as I swallow. He's mad at me. To be honest... I'm mad at myself right now. I can't help my eyes from tearing up.
''Playing the victim again, I see. What's there to cry about? Yer the one stompin' on our relationship.''
''It's not like that. I just... wish I could be happy with everyone...''
''That's what sluts say.''
My ears fold despite the fact it is hard to believe what they heard. Did he just call me.... a slut?
''Roy, how can you say that....''
''You fucked with Tyler, with Jack.'' He starts counting on fingers. ''You then fuck with me. You willingly salivate all over some half-feral wolf and then go back to secretly bucking with Tyler and most likely Jack too.''
''What I did with Tyler and Jack were my first ever experiences. I didn't know you back then. I fell in love with Tyler but it caused problems because we had to hide with it. During the time you and I met; I thought Tyler doesn't want to see me agai-''
He interrupts me - ''So yer saying that if you were still together with Tyler; you'd never ask me to come with you to Furview? That we'd never have done anythin'?''
''What are you on about, Roy? If me and Tyler were still together, that would mean he'd never leave to Furview and I'd have never ran from home and met you. Things only could have went that way if we were to meet. Aren't you glad that despite all these struggles we're still together?''
''Are we? Are we together Emjay? Because you're doing Tyler instead of spending time with me.''
This fox just doesn't get it. I love him just as much as I did when we traveled across the M3 road. ''Roy, you're the one not wanting to get intimate with me anymore which in fact drives me towards Tyler even more. I don't want to choose, okay? I love you, and Tyler AND Jack and I really wish we could all get along without 'mine' or 'his' or other labels that make no sense in this case because I love all of you.'' - I open the door. - ''And believe me... if you gave my brothers a try; you'd fall in love too. Oh and by the way; I sucked that feral wolf off because he spared my injured bottom. I figured that maybe if I pleased him; he'd let us go, and by threatening his balls I stopped the other 10 horny men from gangbanging me. So yeah... I'm a real slut, aren't I?'' I then leave, tired of the conversation.
What is he thinking, accusing me of stuff... I mean, yeah, I am doing things with Tyler again but I really don't love Roy any less. I sit on a stool by kitchen counter, rest chin on my paw and sigh. ''Why are there so many rules to love.''
''There aren't.'' - I get an answer from Tyler. - ''I mean... there are if you are in relationship just for show. But when it comes to true love... there are no rules. I mean... look at us. We are the very denial of so called love rules.''
I sigh again. ''I wish Roy understood that.''
Tyler sighs as well before sitting down next to me. ''So he knows?''
''He knew all along. He thinks you're stealing me from him.''
''Am I?''
It's been an odd year. And to think it all started with Tyler letting our little brother in on our secret. To be honest... Tyler has been paying more attention to Emjay than me ever since then. Then again... what they have is something different. I'm not really jealous since me and Tyler were just fooling around due to both of us being single. I love him but it's still as a brother. And it's not like they ever ignore me. Roy is the guy that bothers me. I sometimes hear him talking to himself in the bathroom. I wonder if I should tell them.
''Jack, can you help with chopping the veggies?''
''Coming.''
''That's what he said.''
''You don't get it.'' - I exclaimed to a black fox in the mirror. His red, glowing eyes follow me as I walk back and forth across bathroom floor. ''I want to be like him... I want to just forget all the bad stuff... I want to be able to love others like he does...''
_ ''But you're not like him. He's still got his family. Your only family member raped you for months. Which by the way; have you ever realized you've been through much worse than him? You're at same age yet he's always the poor baby that's been through so much. He got raped for a couple of days. You got raped for months.'' _
''Ye can't be serious. I can't compare such a thing as rape based on its length. Even a 5 minute rape shouldn't happen, like.''
_ ''And what about the fact you always have to do the dirty job? You killed Josh when saving Emjay. Then even more; also to save his sorry ass. You killed Dale too to protect yourself.'' _
''No... that's the thing...'' I lift my head up and look at the dark fox... ''Dale wanted to let me go... You made me kill him.''
_ ''You really think that would be the last you heard from him? Peh-lease.'' _
I rest against bathroom wall and slide down, holding my head. If everything is fine now then why this thing doesn't want to leave my head. Why am I talking to myself KNOWING that this inner demon is just me.
_ ''Exactly, Roy. I am just as real as you are... because I am you.'' _
''It makes no sense... leave me alone.''
I quickly leave the bathroom. I can't be mental. What if I can never trust anyone again because of this? What if one day I will kill someone close? Is rest of my life going to be like this? Did Dale take away even more than I thought?
''Ooof''
I bump into Emjay before quickly getting out of the house.
''Ooof'' - Roy bumps into me, seemingly in a rush. He storms out of the house. This can't be good. I look at Tyler and see him nodding at me. I quickly chase after him. I run for a good 10 minutes, nearly breathless, seeing Roy in the distance in front of me. At some point he stops and I soon figure out why. He's standing on the edge of a river bridge, looking down at the deadly fall. I slowly approach him. - ''Feels like a Déjà Vu, doesn't it?''
He looks at me with tears in his eyes. I only seen him cry once before... back when we thought we'd never see each other again.
''I don't know what to do anymore to make things right... I don't recognize myself...'' - He says through the tears, trying not to full-out cry.
''It's understandable, Roy... you've been through a lot... more than I.''
_ ''See?'' _I hear the demonic voice in my head and see that dark reflection in a nearby puddle. _ ''Even the kid admits it.'' _
I shake my head while holding temples with paws. ''This... thing doesn't want to get out of my head.''
''What do you mean?'' - I ask.
''Back then... at Dale's... I thought I was a goner... I wanted to die... I held a knife in my paw...'' - He takes out the butterfly knife... it looked familiar... it was the same knife he used back when we first met after incident with Dale... - ''And I was ready to end it all there... I knew that the drugs he gave me made it very unlikely to win against him even with a knife...''
I swallow. He never talked about his time at Dale's... this is the first time he's explaining what happened there...as if he was holding it in for a long time.
''Emjay... I'm sorry to say this but... y'have no idea what it's like... you lose track of time... every day is agony... you're not sure what to focus on... the starvation, the drugs, the pain in various body parts after getting beat up... or... the pain from..... being used... I had enough.... so much that I was ready to do one thing I thought I'd never do... and then 'he' appeared... He said he'd help.... told me to wait with my plans and see what happens. And by the end of the day... just as I was ready to fight for my life... Dale just let me go.''
I tilt my head. ''But... I thought you killed him in self-defense....''
He shakes his head while sobbing. It reminded me... that he's still just a kid, like me. - ''I... felt 'his' presence again... I wanted revenge... Emjay... I don't know what's real anymore... A strange being tells you to hold out a little longer... and on the same day Dale wants to let me go and the drugs loosen up as if on command just as I decide to take revenge...''
''You've been through a lot, Roy...''
''I don't know who I am anymore, Emjay... I hurt everyone around me... including you... including myself... I hope you can forgive me.''
He turns around, facing the river and opens arms.
I lean forward to let the gravity pull me towards river. That one second feels like eternity; life flashing before my eyes... for some reason most of those flashes were times with Emjay... I'm sorry, friend. I hope you can forgive me.
And then something stops me. Arms around my torso. I hear deep sobbing behind me.
''Please, don't leave me. I know who you are, Roy. You are a loving person that always saw good in the shittiest of things. Somewhere along the way you might have forgotten that but you can't just leave me.''
Tears run down my cheeks and fall dooown into the river as Emjay still holds me.
''I am hurting you, Emjay...''
''Nonsense! You saved my life twice. You nearly lost yours to save me. And I don't know what exactly happened with your Godfather but whatever you did... he deserved it.''
''Maybe he did... but that does not change the fact I am a murderer....''
''Then so be it! I don't care! If you jump; I'll jump too.'' - The husky is full-on crying now, making my back wet. - ''I can't imagine life without you, Roy. I don't know what you think of me and Tyler b-but you have t-to understand... sniffle... my love is not divided between you two... it.... it multiplies, okay? I don't love you any less than I did back then in the forest... you've been through so much... but you are okay now... let me help you. You don't need 'him' anymore. You're safe. You've got me, Tyler and Jack. ....Roy... I love you.''
I step off the edge of the bridge and turn around. My arms wrap around him and we begin to sob onto each others shoulders. A smile creeps on our muzzles as we begin to rub cheeks against each other. We start laughing with tears still in our eyes. We kiss. We hug... and I notice that the reflection in a puddle... is now my own. My chest feels even warmer now. - ''I love you so much, Emjay.'' - I mumble into his shoulder.
''I love you too. I want to spend rest of my life with you.''
I wipe my eyes. - ''And with Tyler.'' - He looks at me surprised so I add; ''I was stupid to get jealous about you and him... now I see how much you care about both of us... Do you... do you think he'll ever like me?''
''Like you?'' - He asks, surprised. - ''He treats you like his little brother, Roy. Think about it. You saved my life. And why do you think he lets you live with us? You're already dear to him and Jack, you just didn't want to see it.''
''I... really?'' It seems so unreal... I... got a family. A loving family.
My hug on him tightens; ''Guess what.''
''What?'' - He asks curiously.
''Happy Birthday.''
He hugs me tighter before perking ears up. - ''Oh crap! The birthday party!''
_ 30 Minutes Later _
''Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you!''
I look around. It's finally all as it should.
''Happy birthday dear Emjay!''
Roy, Tyler and Jack all hold a massive cake with 16 candles on it while they sing.
''Happy birthday to you!''
Everyone is happy... parents know about us and are starting to accept it. Everyone who hurt us is gone... And we are all living together with no one around to judge us... and we all finally get along...
''Emjay.'' - Roy gets me out of my little daydream. - ''Make a wish and blow the candles.''
''A wish, huh? I wanna say it out loud... since only you guys can make it happen.'' - They look at each other as I grin mischievously.
_ 1 Hour Later _
''You sure about this, Roy?'' - I ask.
''Hell, yeah. Unless your big bro is not ready for some fox.'' Roy's footpaws rub Tyler's chest and tummy. Him and Jack are standing beside the bed's edge while me and Roy were on our backs, butts aligned perfectly with their crotches. Jack takes his time, playing by rubbing his hot rod against my taint and balls, letting my soft fur tease it. Meanwhile Tyler is not amused by the teases so he tries to shush Roy by stuffing first couple of inches inside him (after sufficient lubing of course). The fox lets out a quiet rurr. Funny. This is the first time I see him bottom. He seems different as a sub. I lay there on my back, just watching him. It seems Jack also got curious as to how Roy and Tyler would do it after some awkwardness between them. Neither Tyler nor Jack knows exactly what happened at the bridge, but they quickly noticed Roy is different now. To me.... he's just like he was when we first met.
Soon enough Tyler gets on fours, above Roy while gently, yet deeply fucking him. Roy's breathing aligns with Tyler's thrusts. In the meantime; his foxy paws travel up Tyler's torso before grabbing onto the fur and pulling him closer into a hug. Tyler blushes a bit but doesn't stop humping, which results in a single, cute moan from Roy as he partially wraps legs around husky's bigger frame.
In the meantime Jack grabs my footpaws for support as his hips begin to smack continuously against my bottom; digging his 7-incher with each thrust. He knows I enjoy it a bit faster and rougher in this position so soon enough I'm slightly rocked back and forth on the bed, my muzzle open as if I wanted to moan... and my ass getting done like a fleshlight.
Mmmr... I love this... My upper body relaxed on comfy bed, my legs held up for me... Jack's cock poking at all the right spots... I even like the way his balls glide across the base of my tail as he humps.
I feel a paw gently grab my own on the bed and I look to my left. It's Roy. He's looking at me lovingly before biting lower lip as Tyler nibbles at his exposed, foxy neck while still humping away.
_ 10 Minutes of Humping Later _
The room had a strong scent of arousal. Quiet bed squeaking could be heard, accompanied by mine and Emjay's moans. We were on our chests now, butts high up, getting fucked by his brothers who switched places. My pre-soaked ass from Tyler is now getting action from Jack. In this position and with our butts high up; I could see Tyler's impressive member disappearing into Emjay over and over. He could probably see the same with me. Our faces are purposely near each other so we go back to kissing lewdly while getting fucked. Jeeez.. My member is dripping onto bedsheets without me having to do anything. I didn't know anal is so good when done right.
Suddenly Emjay moans loudly into my muzzle and breaks the kiss, gasping. Tyler stops, a bit surprised before asking: ''Are you alright?''
''Nnn, yea... don't stop, please. It just feels like you're bigger than a year ago.'' Tyler resumes before adding; ''Achem... I kinda am. I gained an inch. I guess it's true. Puberty can stop as late as 21. I'm not complaining.''
''Nnnn, neither am I.'' - Emjay seems to be happy with the extra size. In fact; I am too. I can see his hole getting playfully tugged by the girth of Tyler's shaft.
_ 10 More Minutes of Humping Later _
All 4 of us are on our knees. Me and Roy in front of each other, making out and rubbing our pre-soaked members together. Meanwhile Jack and Tyler were behind us, humping away while pressing their chests against our backs, basically sandwiching us lovingly. Tyler held my hips firmly and gave me his entire length (minus knot) with each thrust while Jack has his paws on Roy's shoulders instead. With each thrust we kept getting pressed against each other. I had my arms wrapped around Roy, holding on for dear life as Tyler rode my ass. In the meantime; Roy held me with one paw while the other one held our leaking furhoods together.
Tension started building as we all got closer. Me and Roy held onto each other harder to try and not collapse as Jack and Tyler basically pounded away by now. Our wet holes started making loud schlorp noises as those brotherly huskyhoods abused us in the most loving way possible.
''Roy...'' - I started. - ''I can't take this anymore...I'm... I'm gonna...'' - I couldn't even finish as Tyler suddenly blobbed his knot inside me, causing my lil' g-spot to scream in pleasure. I let out a semi-cry and trembled in Roy's embrace as he got the same treatment, driving us both to a climax at same time. We kissed passionately while cumming over each others cocks and tummies. In the meantime; two large brothers groaned above us, relieving themselves into us and also kissing afterwards.
_ 10 Minutes of NOT Humping Later _
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''Best... birthday... ever...'' - I said along with an exhale. Roy simply nodded. We were both on top of my brothers' chests. All 4 of us facing the ceiling. Tyler played with my tummyfur idly while we rested.
''That reminds me.'' - Started Tyler. - ''Mom is inviting us for your birthday later on- And obviously I asked if Roy can come, she said yes.'' - He added when I was about to ask.
_ 2 Weeks Later _
Emjay and Roy stand in front of their new school. Students around them heading to their own destinations.
''What if people will stare?'' - Emjay asks while looking at his fox lover.
''Let them stare. There's a sexy fox and cute husky to look at.'' - He answers.
''But... what if they don't like us because of this?''
''I don't care...'' - The fox answers again and grabs Emjay's paw. - ''As long as I got you.''
''And I got you.''
They take a deep breath and head toward the school, holding paws.
The End
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