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Even though Samantha and I talked about having her involved in a threesome, I wasn't able to get some straight answers from her. When I asked her about Blain, she wasn't confirming or denying anything and instead, gave me answers that weren't truly reflecting her thoughts about him or her thoughts on the subject. But I suppose there's no easy way to ask someone to join in on a threesome without things getting a little awkward. So far, I wasn't quite sure how they would feel about it. Both of them were quite nervous when I popped the question and were rather doubtful at first but they weren't dismissing it either so there was still a chance to make this work. Me, on the other hand, wanted it to happen more than anything. And all I could do was to sit down with Blain and Sam and just honestly talk to them about it but I also didn't want to push them. I figured I'd give them some time to let it all sink in but the question was, how much time would they need to know for sure...? My suggestion of having a threesome together and telling them it's okay to have sex together if they wanted to seemed to have made them feel a little uneasy whenever they were seeing each other and tried to ignore that I ever mentioned it... Yet it seemed as if they couldn't let go of the thought either and with that in the back of their minds, we all somewhat continued like we normally did for the rest of the week. And while we all had great fun during Sam's stay, I was still hoping that we could pull this off... I figured that one of them would bring up the subject eventually once it started gnawing on them but neither of them would take the initiative to talk about it... And as the days passed by, my hopes of spending a night together with the three of us was slowly crumbling down...

On a Thursday night, four days after I suggested a threesome to them, there still wasn't any indication of whether or not they would go through with it... Time was running short because Sam would leave that Sunday, so we had three more days left... And if I wanted to make this happen between us, I knew I had to take matters in my own hands...

'Alright, lets light this sucker up...'

That Thursday evening, the three of us were hanging around at our usual spot at the beach. Even though the sun was already set by the time we arrived, it was no weather to spend the evening indoors and I suppose a lot of people thought the same. During the day, temperatures reached around thirty four degrees Celsius so you can imagine we had to cool off in the water. Spending the entire day on the beach wasn't all that fun because the beach was so crowded that day. People started to go home at around five o'clock. And by then, we had some fries and a burger from a kiosk not too far from our spot. Afterwards, we wandered around on the boulevard while everyone else was looking for a good time at the various pubs, bars and clubs Gainsborough Boulevard had on offer. But once the boulevard started to get too crowded for our own comfort, the three of us retreated to our regular spot at the lagoon, away from tourists. It takes about half an hour to get there by foot and the beach was mostly deserted. Every once in a while, we encountered a group of people who just sat there talking and having fun. When we finally arrived, the first thing that Blain did was rolling a joint while Sam and I got comfortable by placing towels on the sand and just sat down. I handed Blain my lighter and once it got lit, Blain inhaled deeply and slowly exhaled smoke through his nostrils. He looked at Sam when he passed the joint to her once he sat down...

'O-Oh no, noooo I don't do that anymore.'

'You sure? You don't know what you're missing. It's good stuff.'

'Yeah, pretty sure. I'm good, Blain.'

'Alright then...'

So Blain passed it to me instead... Once I took a puff and inhaled deeply, there was this kind of rush going through my body that quickly passed. I knew it would kick in sooner or later so I just waited for the buzz to come... It didn't take long for us to feel like we were floating on big fluffy clouds and it only took two or three hits, considering how strong this stuff was... Blain and I were staring at Sam with a goofy smile for a moment until she finally gave in...

'You know what, fuck it... I'm on vacation... Gimme that...'

Blain smiled as he passed the joint over to Samantha and when she took a hit, we expected her to cough her lungs out considering she hasn't smoked one in years but to our surprise, she still had it in her... And so, the joint got passed around until the three of us were stoned out of our gourd and could hardly move while we were lying down on our towels in the sand... And then the conversation started, which was always interesting, to say the least... Especially when no one really knew what they were talking about...

'Hey Blain...?'

'Mwuh...?'

'You said that you'd save this joint for a time when we're all feeling a little less mature than we did that evening...'

'Uh-huh...'

'Are we being less mature this evening...?'

'I have sand in my vagina...'

'There's your answer, Sam...'

'Hm... How come you never have any of that...?'

'I don't have a vagina...'

'Fair enough...'

'And I don't wear bikini's with a thong for a bottom... So no, I don't have those problems...'

'You've got awkward boners instead... Something we don't have...'

'Ha!'

'You make it sound like it's a pleasure, getting a boner when you're wearing swimming trunks, Ceylan...'

'It isn't...?'

'No...'

'Yet despite all of these inconveniences we suffer from, like sand in our vagina's and awkward boners, we're still wearing our swim-wear...'

'Uh-huh...'

'Hey, feel free if you ladies feel like taking your bikini's off... I won't judge you for it...'

'Taking off our bikini's wouldn't make the sand in our vagina's go away...'

'No but having a skinny dip would...'

'Sam and I probably would if we were able to get up... Not that you'd have a problem with that...'

'Hur, hur...'

'Get it, Sam...? Awkward boner, able to get up...?'

'Oh yeah... Yeah, I get it... Heh, that's funny... Hihi... One thing I've always wondered though, just out of curiosity...'

'Hm...?'

'Do you have control over it...? Like, decide when it gets hard or not...?'

'No, Sam... That's why there's this thing called awkward boners...'

'Has it ever let you down...? Ha! Get it...? High five...'

'I can't lift my arm up, Ceylan...'

'Oh...'

'Have you ever tried hula hooping with a flaccid penis naked...?'

'No, Sam...'

'Shame... It's probably the first thing I'd do if I would wake up one day and discovered I had a penis... To just watch it flop around...'

'Awesome...'

'It's a missed opportunity, Blain... Sounds to me you don't appreciate what you've been given...'

'Why are we talking about my penis...?'

'Because you brought up the subject...'

'... Ah. Okay... Can't remember I did but since we're at it: do you ladies use your boobs as stress balls...?'

'We do... Whenever we feel stressed, we give it a little squeeze and all is well...'

'Interesting... Have you two ever farted through your vagina's...?'

'It's called queefing, not farting...'

'What's the difference...?'

'Queefs don't smell unlike farts... Doesn't change the fact that it's still quite the turn-off...'

'I once saw this video where some guy was going down on this girl and she queefed in his face...'

'Yeah, I saw that too... His reaction was hilarious... But to answer your question, no, not that I remember...'

'I might've... It sounded like the national anthem...'

'That's awesome, Sam...'

'I know, right...?'

'Can you queef the Transformers theme song...?'

'Nnnnnnnnnnope...'

'Shame...'

'I'm still wondering why we're talking about farts and genitals...'

'Hey, Blain...?'

'Yeah...?'

'If I had a penis for a day, can I take you up the butt instead for a change...?'

'No, Ceylan...'

'How about you giving me a blowjob then...?'

'... No.'

'Could we at least have a jousting tournament...?'

'Maybe...'

'Oh come, you're really gonna deny me all of that...? I'd finally have a penis and I'd never get to experience the things you always claim to be the best about having one...'

'What do you mean, take him up the butt instead for a change...?'

'Blain doesn't have a vagina...'

'Oh yeah, he mentioned that... But I'm still wondering about the "instead for a change" part of that particular sentence... Does that mean you and Blain had butt sex before...?'

'... We might've.'

'Oh my god...'

'What...?'

'You took Blain in the butt...??'

'She lacks the proper tools to do so...'

'I'm confused... No wait...! She could've used a strap-on...!'

'Like I said, she lacks the proper tools...'

'... Oh. So that means... Ah, I get it now...'

'I think weed has a whole different effect on Sam then it does on us, Blain...'

'Meh, she'll come around... She hasn't smoked one in years...'

'I can hear you...!'

That random conversation and the laugh fits we had lasted for as long as we were passing the joint around... But once the last hit was taken and it got stubbed out in the sand, that's when we started sobering up... The buzz I felt started to wear off and after an hour or so had passed, the effect worn off entirely... Even though the conversation we had started out funny, it became more serious in nature as time passed... Even though neither of us were revealing too much, it was enough to keep the conversation going and instead, put the focus back on me and my relationship with both Sam and Blain...

'How long have you known, Sam...? About me and Ceylan...?'

'For quite some years actually...'

'Did Ceylan ever went into details about what was going on...?'

'No... She mentioned whenever anything happened between the two of you but she never went into details...'

'Alright... So you've known for a couple of years and I know about you two ladies since a couple of days...'

'Back then, it felt as if we were just fooling around but now, it feels so much more than that... Which is why I had to tell you, Blain...'

'You've had your hunches...'

'I did but you and Ceylan never confirmed or denied anything...'

'And now you know...'

'Yeah...'

'I can't speak for Blain but I suppose it's not up to us to tell you what you should and shouldn't do... I mean, I knew about you and him seeing each other and well... It's something I still chose for... In fact, it's something we all chose for...'

'I suppose Sam can give you things that I can't... And I understand, I mean, I'm not the one to judge...'

'True, but I can also understand if this is not something you're both looking for... So if either of you were seeing someone else, I wouldn't hold that against you... It's the only right thing when you're allowing me to do the same...'

'Well yeah, but Blain doesn't really feel the need to commit himself to someone in the traditional sense and I'm not actively looking for someone to replace David... So there isn't anyone else for us to see at the moment...'

'But it doesn't feel right to know that I'm the only one having that choice...'

'Well, you're not the only one who has that choice... Sam and I could but like she said, we're not actively looking for someone...'

'That doesn't necessarily mean you wouldn't feel the need for it... And perhaps you two might not even be looking for love... So I'd understand if you'd want something that is less of a commitment to make... And there's no shame in that... I think we all feel like that at times...'

'Can I ask you something...?'

'Of course...'

'Doesn't this just complicate things even more for the two of you...?'

'Well no, not really... Ceylan and I know what we can expect from each other and stay honest about everything...'

'So what does Ceylan mean to you...?'

Blain was little taken aback when Sam asked him that... I knew that Sam was just looking out for me to prevent me from being hurt and I think she already knew what I meant to him... She just wanted to hear it from him instead seeing as she only ever heard my side of the story... It's just like when you're bringing your boyfriend home to meet your parents and they're trying to figure out whether or not he's good enough for you... So I wasn't going to answer this one for him... Blain was staring at me for a moment when Sam kept staring at him... He never had any problems discussing these kind of things if it were just me he was talking to but seeing as Sam was there that night as well, I think he was afraid that he might've said something about himself that would totally change everything Sam knew about him... But I wanted them to be honest without getting the wrong idea about each other... And before Sam might've said something that wasn't true, Sam played it safe and looked at Blain instead to hear him out first... I already knew what Sam was trying to get at but Blain wasn't aware of it just yet...

'Wow, seriously...? You're asking me what Ceylan means to me, even though we've known each other our entire lives...?'

Blain looked at me instead to jump in and help him out but I just simply shrugged... It stayed silent for a moment before he spoke up his mind...

'Well, the thing is... Ceylan and I aren't in love... At least, that's what we've always told each other and it's something we made clear from the very beginning... And even though we're having sex, it still has meaning for the both of us...'

'In what way does it give you meaning...?'

'Ceylan is kind and sweet... I know she cares a lot about me and it shows in everything we do, even when we're sleeping together... But it was her choice not to make things too complicated between us because she also wants to be with women and have something I can't give her...'

'And Blain accepts that from me... If he allows me to see other women, I can't deny him from doing the same...'

'I see...'

'Just because Ceylan and I both don't want to commit ourselves to someone, it doesn't mean that we sometimes don't feel the need to... And I guess what defines Ceylan is that it's never been about sex... She has this urge to express her love and passion and wants to share her desires with someone she cares for whenever Ceylan feels the need to do so... And to know that I'm part of that gives everything I have with her meaning...'

'That's sweet...'

'I think most people don't understand why Ceylan would do the things she does... And even I don't always understand her reasons... But one thing I learned about Ceylan is that she has taken things into consideration... And sometimes, I had to slow her down before she might've done something she would regret... I trust her to know what she needs... But more importantly, I trust her when she tells me that she needs me...'

'Okay... Don't hate me for asking this but I'd really like to know this from your point of view, Ceylan...'

'Go ahead...'

'Well... Aren't you afraid that Blain might see this entirely different then you do...?'

'You mean if Blain would consider me to be a quickie...? A fuck buddy, for all that matters...?'

'Well, yeah...?'

'Oh, come on, Sam... You're missing the point, that's never been-'

'It's alright, Blain... I think that's a fair question... But would it really matter if he'd consider me to be one...?'

'Isn't that something only you can answer...?'

'I can, yeah... Because even if he did feel about me that way, we'd still give each other what we want... Except my needs would be more on an emotional level while his needs would strictly be sexual... And there's nothing wrong with that...'

'I see...'

'When I told you about him all these years ago, you saw how we grew as a couple... I told you all about it... The wonderful moments I shared with him but we also the fights we've had and the misunderstandings we've had about each other... And there have been quite a few...'

'Yup...'

'But we always managed to work things out... What Blain and I share might not be love the way people think it should be... But it's still love, nevertheless... It makes me happy to know that he's there for me, either as a friend or as a lover...'

'Heh...'

'That's why I never went into details, simply because I didn't want you to have the wrong idea about him... And if you'd really think he would be capable of doing something like that, you couldn't have been more wrong...'

'I could've asked you the same question because you're doing the exact same thing but I didn't, simply because I trust you... We're all close friends for so many years but I'd never imagine you'd think of me that way, Sam...'

It stayed silent for a moment when I saw that Sam was thinking things through... Looking at Blain, he was still a bit offended when Sam implied that she thought I didn't mean anything to him... I know she meant well and that she was looking out for me... But Sam was always a peoples person and she could easily see through someones intentions by hearing them out...

'I'm sorry, Blain... I didn't mean to make it sound like that... I just want Ceylan to be okay, especially after all she's been through... I always knew that you're good to her... I just had to hear it from you instead...'

'Heh... I knew it, I knew you'd hear me out sooner or later...'

'I mean, with all the stories she told me about you and everything you've done for her, I couldn't imagine you to be like that... I just had to know for sure and I'm sorry I had to ask...'

'It's alright... I'm just glad to know that you're looking out for her...'

'As long you make each other happy...'

'Yeah...'

'Nevertheless, despite claiming that the two of you aren't in love, it all still sounds an awful lot like love to me...'

'It is, Sam... I love him very much... But I can't commit myself to someone when I always feel that something is missing... And he can't commit himself to me when he knows he can't give me everything I need... It's not his fault and Blain understands that, he always did... But most importantly, he accepts me for who I am... That's why all of my relationships failed miserably, simply because the other was committed to me while I couldn't truly commit to them... That's why I don't want anything serious right now...'

'Because you also feel the need to be with women...?'

'Yeah... And I would perfectly understand if I can't give Blain everything he needs, you know...? If he happens to find a girl he likes, I wouldn't stop him from doing so... All I ask is that he'd tell me about her and be honest about how he feels...'

'Like you would stay honest about seeing other women...'

'Exactly...'

'... Huh.'

'That's why we chose not to make things too complicated for each other.... That's why we simply enjoy what we have and not think too much about it... Because if we'd let our feelings get in the way, I probably would've lost him years ago...'

'I see...'

Looking at Sam, I could see that she was thinking about the things that have been said... Every once in a while she looked at us and smiled weakly but only to quickly avert her eyes again... And sometimes it's difficult to try to get her to talk about the things that were on mind because she's usually the one trying to figure other people out... Sam just kept staring ahead in blank space and stayed quiet for a long time while Blain and I were just looking at each other... At some point, I gently nudged her chin up and made her face me...

'What's on your mind, sweetheart...?'

'O-Oh, uhm... Heh... It's nothing, really, I mean...'

'It's alright, you can tell us...'

'It's just... Ever since I've heard about you two seeing each other, I always wondered how you could make all of this work... And I just imagined things to be asymmetrical between the two of you, you know...? But it made you happy and well, that's all I ever wanted for you...'

'I know...'

'The thing is, I saw you and Blain together and the things you share and it made me realize that David and I never had any of that... It all felt shallow, you know...? I've waited so long for "mister Right" to come along and once I thought he did, I gave myself to a guy who hardly ever gave a damn...'

'That still doesn't hold to any truth, Sam... You'd never know for sure...'

'Maybe but I'll never get an answer that would prove me wrong... And it changes the way I feel about it...'

'You mean "it"...?'

'Yes, "it"...'

'So what's stopping you then...? What's stopping you from going for it...?'

'You know why...'

'Is that something you'd only want to experience or is that something you'd truly need...?'

'A bit of both, I suppose...'

'So who's to say you can't have the same things with someone else other than me...?'

'Uhm...'

'Because I know you can... I believe that's also something we've talked, didn't we...? And there's no shame in that...'

It took a few moments for her to let those words sink in... And even though Sam and I knew what we were talking about, Blain seemed kinda puzzled and wondered what the hell we were talking about... But once Sam realized what I meant, she became very nervous all of a sudden and stared at me with wide eyes while I just kept smiling at her and caressing her hair... Nevertheless, that didn't really seemed to have calmed her down, not one bit...

'O-O-Oh, no! No, noooo, absolutely not, no, out of the question! I-I can't possibly do that....!'

'I'm not saying you should... I'm just saying it's possible... And ultimately, it's all up to you two...'

Sam sighed quietly and looked at Blain for a moment but quickly averted her eyes once he looked right back at her... Sam's face turned as red a tomato as soon as he did and a nervous smile appeared on her face... Still being oblivious, Blain seemed even more puzzled then he was before...

'You ladies mind telling me what this is all about...?'

'I wouldn't mind saying but I honestly don't think I should be the one telling you...'

Judging by the look on Sam's face, it suddenly dawned on Blain what we were talking about and why Sam was so nervous all of a sudden... He sighed quietly and glared at me for a moment... I knew he didn't like the idea of me involving Sam for some reason... But I was just hoping that they would at least talk about it...

'What did she tell you, Sam?'

'Ceylan asked me all kinds of questions about you several days ago... And how I'd feel if I were to join you...'

'So she did mention it to you then...'

'She did, yeah...'

'Us, having a threesome...'

'... Yeah.'

'Right, okay... You really want this to happen, Ceylan...?'

'I do, yes...'

'But aren't you afraid that this would change everything between us...? Everything we ever knew about each other...?'

'Things would only change if we allowed it to, Blain... But it doesn't have to if we all know what to expect from each other... You and Sam know how I feel about it... And I'd just like to know if you two would be comfortable in each other's presence if we did...'

'Right...'

'Can't we just at least talk about it, in all honesty...?'

Neither of them seemed all too thrilled about it at first... Blain and I talked about having a threesome before and he always seemed so excited about it but ever since I told him I wanted Sam to be involved, it seemed if he hardly cared about it anymore and I just didn't understand why... But I suppose that's what happens when no one speak up their minds and be honest about it... There was this awkward silence between the three of us while Blain and Sam could hardly look at each other, like they were ashamed or something... And I just sat there in the middle of them... After a long moment of silence, Blain looked at Sam while I stayed quiet, just so that they could talk about it together...

'I see... So I suppose you already thought about Ceylan's suggestion...'

'I did... But I honestly don't know how I feel about it...'

'Have you ever thought about any of this before...?'

'I have, yeah... Just not with you guys... I mean, I like you and Ceylan but I never imagined you'd have me involved...'

'Neither did I, Sam...'

'We're friends and I'm not sure if any of this would be a good idea... I mean, I know you're not looking for something serious and that you had some female company in the past but...'

'I've always been honest to them and they knew things wouldn't get serious with me... But I just don't want you to get the wrong idea about me, Sam... I never pretended to be something I'm not... So I won't start now...'

'How'd you feel about it when Ceylan asked you for a threesome...?'

'It's something we often talked about, something we've always wanted to try out... And then one night, we got lucky but we fucked up and well... The thought of it hasn't let us go since... I was always under the assumption that we'd have a stranger involved instead but Ceylan doesn't feel comfortable with the idea...'

'Do you know why Ceylan doesn't want to have a stranger involved...?'

'Wouldn't it be better if she'd answered that herself...?'

'True but I just want to know whether or not the both of you are on the same line on everything... I need to know that you and Ceylan thought things through together first, especially if Ceylan wants me to be involved in any of this...'

'Right... Okay, fair enough... I can understand that...'

'So what's her take on this...?'

'It's quite complicated... It seemed so straight-forward once... All the things she'd like to have, her expectations, everything that comes with it... Some people hardly give it much thought when it's all mutual, including me, but to Ceylan, it's so much more than that...'

'Alright so... What do you know...?'

'The reason why Ceylan doesn't want a stranger to be involved is because Ceylan is more emotionally attached to someone... I mean, if there was a smoking hot bombshell who's trying to seduce Ceylan into sleeping with her and Ceylan doesn't feel that emotional click she always mentions, Ceylan wouldn't give in to it... It's one of the reasons why she couldn't go through with it when we went home with Samira and Evelyn...'

'Uh-huh...'

'But at the same time, Ceylan feels the need to have both a male and a female partner... Except switching between them makes her feel like she's cheating on one another, which is why she wants to do this... To her, it's not about having a threesome but to be able not to "lie" against one another...'

'What do you mean with "lie"...?'

'What Ceylan wants is to have a moment together with her male and female partner and just express herself in certain ways without feeling guilty of doing so...'

'You mean sexually...?'

'Not necessarily, I think... But Ceylan just wants everyone involved in everything she feels the need to express to her partners...'

'Okay...'

'But the problem is that Ceylan wants that emotional click with her and for that to happen, they need to bond first... But the kind of women who'd want to join in on us aren't looking for a friendship or an emotional attachment, simply because having zero commitment is the only reason why they'd go for it in the first place... I doubt a girl who'd get asked for a threesome would expect just hugs and kisses through out the evening...'

'I don't think she would, no...'

'Exactly, which is why Ceylan and I have talked about it for quite some time and discussed what we both look for in someone in order for her to join in...'

'So what about you...?'

'Me...? I'm not quite as picky as Ceylan is... I don't want it to be like a job interview when Ceylan and I both have our eyes on someone but I certainly need to have a click with her as well... Except the kind of click I need with a woman isn't nearly as complicated as Ceylan's...'

'And you'd be honest to her, in every regard...? About what to expect and what you'd like...?'

'Of course, it's the only way it'll ever work... But being honest has never been the problem... The problem is finding the right girl who'd feel the same about it as we do...'

'I see...'

I actually felt a little moved when Blain said all those things about me... It just goes to show how well he knew me and I couldn't have said it better myself... I think Sam wanted to find out if we were really that honest to each other like Blain and I always claimed to be... Sam had to know what our point of view was so I can understand the questions she had... And even though Blain misinterpreted her questions at first, he realized Sam had to know... But like he said, honesty was never the issue so he answered all of her questions truthfully... And while they both knew how I felt about them, I didn't know how Blain and Samantha would feel about each other... So I kept quiet and just let them talk some more...

'You weren't kidding when you said it was complicated...'

'Hehe, yeah... But still... Samira was smoking hot but Ceylan turned her down when things didn't felt right... Samira did everything to make Ceylan feel comfortable but in the end, it simply wasn't enough...'

'Because there was no click...'

'There was, except not the one Ceylan expected to have with her... And I'm pretty sure Samira could've satisfied all of Ceylan's fantasies but I think Ceylan missed the emotional aspect of it, which is one of the reasons why she didn't go through with it...'

'... Huh.'

'What I'm trying to say is that, out of all the women who could possibly join us, Ceylan wants you instead... Because she feels that you'd make us whole... She wants you to be part of us and it shows just how important you are to her...'

'Do you want that as well...?'

'I honestly don't know... I can imagine you're not after a guy like me...'

'What do you mean, a guy like you...?'

'You know, a guy who likes things to be more... physical...'

'That crossed my mind as well and I've been thinking about it ever since... I'm just, you know...'

'It's alright if it isn't your kind of thing...'

'I wouldn't know if it would be my kind of thing if I've never done any of it before... I'm not "that kind of girl" but that doesn't necessarily mean I wouldn't want to know what it's like to be one for a change...'

'... Oh?'

'Let's just say I'd like to experience a couple of things with a guy... But at the same time, I'm also afraid I might regret doing something like that, which is why I never did...'

'Is that what you and Ceylan were talking about before...? About having the same things that she and I have...?'

'Yeah... I just don't know what I'd be looking for in someone to make that happen...'

'Okay...'

'So perhaps a guy who'd like things to be more physical is exactly what I want... Except I wouldn't know for sure because I never dared to go that far, simply because I'm afraid that I might regret doing so...'

And then there was this awkward silence again... Even though I stayed quiet all along, I could tell neither of them weren't all that comfortable... I knew what they both wanted except they weren't telling that to each other... There was a lot of doubt and hesitation... I wasn't trying to convince them because ultimately, it was up to them... And if one of us didn't want to, then we'd simply call it off... But up to that moment, neither of them weren't dismissing it either... Because an idea is like a little seed... Once it starts to take root, it can only grow... And I know the idea hasn't let go of them since it got proposed... Sometimes, you can talk all you want but at some point, you'd have to ask yourself why you'd stop yourself from doing something you want... Sometimes, people need a little nudge in the right direction... And sometimes, the only way to let someone give in to something is to set an example... After a long moment of silence, I scraped my throat and when I did, Sam and Blain were looking at me instead...

'I think you two are needlessly overcomplicating things...'

'Why's that...?'

'Because I believe that we've all had the feeling we'd like to give in to a fantasy we never dared going after... After all, it wouldn't be a fantasy anymore if we did...'

'Uh-huh...'

'I've always wondered what's stopping me from giving in while it's actually not all too difficult... But the thing with having a fantasy is that it's always perfect and it always goes the way you imagine it to be... And that doesn't necessarily reflect back on reality... So a fantasy coming true might not what you expected it to be, even though you've got everything you thought you ever wanted from someone...'

'Isn't that the reason why talking about it is so important, in order not to create false expectations about each other...? '

'Exactly and I've had talks with the both of you about it before... About what you want to experience, how you'd like me to make you feel... But I've always believed that the person you're experiencing it with is what makes it so special... It's about giving and receiving what you want from each other...'

'And you believe we can...?'

'I wouldn't know that, to be honest... What I do know is that if there is something between us, we'd simply have to let it come over us and do whatever feels right without questioning it and without feeling guilty or ashamed about it...'

'Heh...'

'So instead I think we need to ask ourselves whether or not we'd like to act out on these fantasies... And the only question that remains is if we'd want that to happen with each other...'

'Alright, let's say we do all want to do this... What happens then...?'

'Obviously, we'd have to lay down some rules for each other first... I wouldn't want you to be restrained by them to get what you want from me but I can imagine that you two would want to make sure you're not going over the line... So you'd have to know how far you'd both like to go with each other...'

'You mean, rules for Blain and me...?'

'Hm-mm...'

'Right, okay...'

'And what if all is well and we decide to go through with this, where will it take place...?'

'Hm...?'

'Where would we do it...?'

'... Huh. Good question, Blain... That's probably the only thing I haven't thought of yet...'

'I mean, obviously, we can't do it in our houses...'

'What about your dad's house, Sam...?'

'He came back last week, so no... That wouldn't be an option...'

'Hm...'

'What if we just hire a hotel room for a night...?'

'Yeah, that sounds nice... It doesn't have to be an expensive five star hotel...'

'It needs to have breakfast included though...'

'Hehehe... Sure, why not...

'We can go on a little sight seeing tour the next day, like old times... Make it a day out...'

'Yeah, sounds good, actually...'

'Wait, hold up... You make it sound like it's already decided... Just so you know, we're only just talking about it, right...?'

'Of course, Sam... Nothing's decided yet... I can't do that for you...'

It wasn't all that difficult for me and Blain to understand but it seemed as if Sam had a lot of things to process... Even though she always had an open mind about these kind of things and wasn't the one who'd judge others for it, I think she was afraid for being judged instead... And perhaps that's always been one of the reasons why she never gave in and never got what she wanted from someone other than me... The way I saw it was quite simple but Sam didn't need convincing... What she needed was an opportunity, one she had to talk through with him... So I stayed quiet once more once Sam looked at Blain...

'How can we decide on rules when we don't even know how far we would go with each other...? Because obviously, it's not just up to me... If I'd really do want to go that far with you doesn't mean you'd be okay with that...'

'I don't know but I can be persuaded easily...'

'Just like that...?'

'No, not just like that... It takes a bit of work, Sam...'

'So you'd go for it...? With me...? If I'd, you know...?'

'Depends on you... No touching is also a rule, isn't it...?'

'Heh... Uhm, yeah... Y-Yeah, I suppose...'

'Have you ever had, you know... Certain thoughts about me, Sam...?'

'I can ask the same to you...'

'You're the one who said that everyone has thought of their friends that way at least once in their lives...'

'I guess I did say that, didn't I...?'

'Hm-mm...'

'Soooo I suppose that means we've thought about each other that way at least once...'

'And if we did, it's not exactly that difficult to imagine each other naked...'

'No, not really... Would you find it weird to see me naked if Ceylan and I would go at it...?'

'I suppose looking wouldn't hurt, right...?'

'I guess there's nothing wrong with that, no...'

'I also can't imagine seeing you naked would be disappointing in any way...'

'Neither do I... Ceylan never was when she saw us naked so I'd take her word for it... Even when she described your, uh... Well, you know... Hihi...'

'Ceylan described my dick to you...?? When...??'

'Uhm, yeah... She did a while back...'

'What'd she say about it...??'

'All she said about it was that it's above average... I didn't expect her to measure it or something so I didn't ask further...'

'She actually did once, just for the hell of it...'

'Snrk! Haha! Really...? She did that...?'

'Yup...'

'Soooo dare I ask what Ceylan measured...?'

'You really wanna know...?'

'I'm kinda curious now...'

'You do know that most women don't care about the size, right...?'

'We only say that just so that guys would feel better about themselves for having a small one...'

'Hehehe...'

'Then again, you're a big guy and Ceylan mentioned that everything is proportional in size so... Again, I guess I'd just have to take her word for it...'

'What did you mean when you said that you'd want a guy who likes things to be more physical...?'

'Isn't that obvious...?'

'To some point it is... You'd like me to be that kind of guy to you...?'

'Maybe... I mean, your charming personality, dazzling smile and above average pecker aren't the only reasons...'

'Hehehe...'

'Christ, I can't believe I just said that...'

'It's alright... I just wanna make sure if it's something you're really after...'

'It's not something that's decided on the spot, Blain... After all, we're just talking...'

'True...'

'What about me...? I mean, would you really go that far with me...?'

'I don't know... But I can think of ways to keep you satisfied... And I suppose going all the way is always an option if you'd really want that... It's just something we'd have to take real slow...'

Taking things slow is exactly what Blain and I did every since it first started with us... We'd manage to make things work simply because of it... And if I wanted to bring them together, then that's exactly what they'd have to do as well... They could talk about it all they want but that hardly seemed to bring them anywhere... Talking to each other about it wouldn't make them decide whether or not they would be up for it... So perhaps there was a way to make them more physically acquainted with each other without making things too awkward... That's how Blain and I once started... And maybe they could as well... A simple touch can change the way you see someone... When I looked at Blain and Sam, all they did were looking at each other every once in a while before averting their eyes again... I stood up, moved my towel closer towards Blain and lied down next to him... I gave him a kiss on the cheek and gently caressed his chest while Sam was watching us... She seemed a little startled to see that I did, especially after everything they were telling each other...

'Come here, sweetheart...'

Sam seemed hesitant at first but after a moment, she picked up her towel and placed it on the other side and lied down as well, looking at both Blain and me but stayed her distance... I kept caressing his chest and slowly moved down to his stomach while Blain had his eyes closed and had this little satisfied smile on his face as he dozed off... But even after a while, Sam had no intention whatsoever to make a move...

'I know you have a lot of questions on how to make things work if this is something you'd like to experience for once... No one can answer that... But as long as we all stay honest about what we want from each other, I know this will work...'

'Heh...'

'This is something we do for ourselves with each other and we may have different reasons for wanting this...'

'I just want a guy who's a lot more experienced, even when I am not all that experienced myself... I mean, what if I'm not any better...?'

'Then you'd have to let him know that... Tell him what to expect...'

'I-I know, I just, uhm... I just never imagined Blain would be that guy...'

'I think you already did... Like you said, his charming personality and dazzling smile aren't the only reason... But there's a difference between fantasy and reality... Knowing that it can actually happen puts things in a different perspective... And perhaps that's what makes the idea seem a little uncomfortable...'

'Have you felt like this before...? I mean, before this all took place...?'

'I did, yeah... I wanted him more than anything but he wasn't comfortable with the idea of us having sex together even though we used to when we were teens...'

'How'd you do it then...?'

'I wasn't trying to convince him to do it... We simply talked about it, which was awkward at first but it made it us think rationally instead... It took a long time for us to have talked things through but in the end, we both wanted the same... So we needlessly made things complicated for each other... There has been quite a few misunderstandings between Blain and me and even had a couple of fights over it but we always worked things out in the end... And I don't want any of that to happen with us...'

'I see...'

'So you'd have to understand that we're not trying to convince you... I want you to join us and that's all there is to it... And it's up to you to decide how far the participation on your end will go with me or Blain... Neither of us would expect you to do anything you're not comfortable with... But if you don't want to, we simply pretend this conversation never took place and we carry on like we always have...'

'Heh...'

'But if you do, know that this will change everything for us... But that doesn't always necessarily have to be a bad thing... We can steer it in the direction we want it to go... And things will only change if we allow it to, which is why we always need to stay honest to each other... We'll make it work, Sam... I know we can...'

'You'd really be okay with that...? If Blain and I would, you know...?'

'I would, yeah... I'd love to see him take good care of someone else for a change...'

'Hehe, uhm...'

'It'll be alright, Sam... I promise...'

Sam kept her distance while I was half on top of Blain caressing his stomach... He kept his eyes closed and enjoyed that little belly scratch I gave him... And Sam just kept staring at us... At some point, I stopped scratching his belly and placed my hand on Sam's cheek instead... I saw from the corner of my eyes that Blain was looking at me once I stopped scratching his belly... Sam had a nervous smile on her face the moment I moved my head closer to hers... She never seemed hesitant before, especially not that particular evening when we were kissing in front of him... But when she felt our lips being pressed together, Sam closed her eyes and just gave in... Tilting my head slightly to the left and opening my mouth just a little bit was enough... I could feel how her tongue was gently rolling over mine when I had my eyes closed... She always was such an amazing kisser... But when she stopped, Sam looked down for a moment and blushed while she was smiling nervously... And then I knew why... When I looked down at Blain, he just kept gawping at us with these big eyes again, like the first time he saw us kiss...

'You'd never get used to seeing that, can you...?'

'Nope...'

'Hehehe...'

So I started to give him those lovely belly scratches again... He closed his eyes the moment I did while Sam seemed intrigued by I was doing... Using my other hand, I caressed his broad chest but nevertheless, Sam didn't follow my example... Perhaps it was because she might've considered him to be something else at that point and not what she wanted him to be... But that always started with a simple touch... So I took her hand and gently guided her hand to his chest... She looked a little startled the moment I did but all I did was simply smiling at her... She just had to explore him in her own pace, that's all... Blain just kept his eyes closed and still had that satisfied little smile on his face while he wasn't aware that Sam was touching him as well... But that might as well could've been the aftereffect of the joint we were smoking earlier... Either way, the look on Sam's face was so cute... It reminded me of when she explored me that way for the first time... I can't say that I blamed her for doing so... He has the kind of body that every woman secretly dreams that their partner has... And I suppose that wasn't any different for Sam either... Her hands were slowly moving down, caressing his stomach... When her fingers hit a bit of a sensitive spot on his belly, his muscles contracted, making his six pack clearly visible... But when I took Sam's hand and slowly guided it down between his legs, Sam looked startled at me but wasn't retracting her hand either... When she realized her hand was gently caressing the shaft of his penis through his shorts, she had a little blush on her face but nevertheless, seemed to have liked it... And once Blain noticed someone was touching his penis, he sat upright, saw that I was holding Sam's hand and that we were both stroking his penis... As soon as Sam noticed he was watching us, she quickly removed her hand and averted her eyes again... So I simply took her hand again and made her caress his shaft with the tips of her fingers again... Except this time, Blain kept watching...

'You feel that, Sam...?'

'W-What...?'

'You're making him hard...'

And judging on the look on his face, Blain certainly didn't seemed to mind... Sam kept on caressing his penis while my hand went inside his shorts, tickling his balls with the tips of my fingers... Every once in a while, I saw his penis twitching inside his shorts, which was funny to watch... Especially when we talked about awkward boners earlier on... The look on Sam's face was absolutely priceless...

'Would you like to go on top of him...?'

'O-On top...?'

'Yeah...? You know, just to get a feeling for it...'

'Uhm...'

Sam looked at Blain but he simply just shrugged and I did the same once she looked at me... But he didn't actually expect her to do so... And after a moment of hesitation, she positioned herself on top of him... She just sat there for a moment, looking a bit embarrassed... So I decided to give them a helping hand instead and quietly whispered in her ear...

'It's alright...'

I took his hands and placed them on her hips... And once I did, he gently started to rock her back and forth, grinding her pussy against his shaft... Sam seemed to be so tense but loosened up the longer they were at it... Dry-humping someone might seem relatively innocent but it gives them an idea what it's like for them to be intimate with each other... And even though they might've felt awkward about it at first, it didn't really seem like that anymore once Sam gently started to thrust her hips as well... Blain slowly moved his hands down to hold her ass once Sam leaned forward to grind her clitoris against his shaft... It's funny how she loosened up all of a sudden once that first step was taken... But seeing her grind and hearing her gasping quietly simply didn't do it for me though... I had a good view from the back and even though I was quite enjoying myself seeing them getting it on, I just felt I had to step it up a notch... I had a perfect view of her ass and the idea was too tempting to let it slide.. And considering she was leaning forward, it shouldn't be too difficult... So I gently pulled her thong sideways and carefully started to rub her vagina... Seeing how wet she was already, I didn't have much trouble sliding two fingers inside her... And when Sam noticed I did, she looked back at me rather surprised but I just simply shrugged and smiled back at her... Blain was probably hypnotized and too distracted by her breasts going back and forth so he wasn't aware that I started fingering her as well... Sam made my job a whole lot more easier when she was grinding him back and forth like that...

Even though Sam felt a little embarrassed for doing so at first, it didn't really take that long for her to loosen up... She firmly gripped his shoulders and clenched her teeth when she felt she was losing control of her body... I pressed down on her back with my left hand and kept fingering her with the other... Seeing her writhing in pleasure and hearing her moan quietly with each thrust she gave was so exciting to see... Every time I pulled out my fingers, I saw her sweet juices dripping down those pussy lips... Sam was so carried away in pleasure that she was hardly realizing what was going on... And by the time she came, she gasped for air and her body was trembling... She let herself down and draped herself over Blain, catching her breath again... And Blain just looked at her with those big eyes again while I sat down next to them... Sam had her eyes closed as I caressed her hair but after a while, she opened her eyes and slowly started to realize what just happened... And again, her face turned as red as a tomato and seemed to feel quite embarrassed as she straightened her thong back...

'You alright...?'

'Yeah, I-I, uhm... I-I don't know what I was thinking...'

'How was it...? Felt good...?'

'Yeah... I just hope no one else saw that...'

'And so what if they did...?'

'Hehe, uhm...'

'You seemed to have been carried away a little...'

'Just a bit...'

She kept staring at us as if she expected someone to judge her for it but neither Blain or me said anything... And once she realized she wouldn't get judged, Sam closed her eyes and had this satisfied smile on her face... Blain and I were just watching her, hearing her sigh every once in a while... And when she slowly opened her eyes after a while again, she looked at me a little ashamed to realize that she let herself go like that...

'I feel so embarrassed... I can't believe I just did that...'

'It's alright... We won't think any different of you...'

'Heh... So what happens now...?'

'The question still remains the same... We can either do this together or not... And only you could make that choice... I just want you to draw your own conclusion and to have thought things through before we'd go any further...'

'Is it weird for me to want something like this...? Even if it was for just one night...?'

'No, it's not, Sam... Not to me...'

'Heh... Nothing seems to make sense right now...'

'It will, in time... It's simply just a little taste of things to come, Sam...'

'Do you even know how many puns you can make out of that sentence...?'

'Yeah, let's not get into it, shall we...?'

'Another pun...'

'You're ruining the moment here, sweetheart...'

'Hihi...'

I know this was a lot for her to take in... But what she wanted to have was simple enough... Blain stayed quiet most of the time because he didn't want to talk her into it... She had to draw that conclusion on her own... But I honestly think both Blain and Sam weren't exactly against the idea of having sex together but they seemed to be more afraid if it would change anything between them... And of course it changes things, nothing stays the same with someone after you've had sex with them, especially when they are friends... What I tried to make clear to them was that things didn't necessarily had to change in a bad way and it only would if we allowed it to... Everyone was nervous about the idea, hell, even I was because we had no idea how this would playout if we'd go through with it... You can't predict how these kind of things will go... Who knows, perhaps I would be the one to back out if all of this would take place, even though I'm the one who suggested it... But sometimes, the only way for you to know is to plunge into the deep... We talked about it and have taken a lot of things into consideration... And if we all wanted this to happen then maybe it was time to take the first steps very slowly with each other... I think everyone started to realize that after Sam and Blain had their little moment together... Blain and Sam were looking at each other while I stared right back at them... And then Sam stared right back at me...

'So, uhm... A hotel room, huh...?'

'Yes... I think that's the best option...'

'Okay...'

Samantha smiled and quietly nodded when she looked down for a bit... Blain stared at me with those big eyes again and then stared back at Sam who just kept looking at him... When he stared right back at me, I simply shrugged and smiled right back at him... It was just as much his call as it was hers... After a couple of moments, he quickly nodded as well while having a huge grin on his face... And me...? Well, I didn't have second thoughts encase you were wondering... I was intending to make it the best night of my life... For all of us...