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Growvember

November 20th

I wasn't sure how long I was out. Did I go through a whole day? A week? Oh god, if I had slept a whole week, I was afraid of how big I was going to look.

"He's waking up...!" I heard someone say, it sounded pretty far off though. That either meant they were far away, or too small to hear well.

Facing the music, I slowly opened my eyes to the afternoon sun. I slowly and carefully lifted my head, trying to see where I was. Everything was smaller but I could tell I was on the outskirts of Kragsten. On top of me was Craig, the mouse looker smaller than ever.

"Good, you're finally awake." He sighed in relief.

"Please tell me it hasn't been a week." I groaned, still feeling incredibly sore.

"Nah, just a day, almost 24 hours to be exact." He slid off of me as the other giants came over to see me.

"How you feeling? Can you walk?" Chris asked as he kneeled beside me.

"Yeah, just sore still. Yay for quick recovery." I grunted and sat up, finally noticing Shawn was beside me, standing at his full height, and I was sitting, looking him eye to eye.

"I know what you're thinking bud. And yeah, I've apparently stopped. Grats on being the second biggest now." He smiled, giving me a gentle punch on the shoulder.

"Lucky you." I smiled back, wincing as I looked at my arm. The skin had healed back at least, but fur was barely there. It would be another day of recovery at least to get back to normal. Same with my leg.

"So, where is he?" I finally asked.

"Kevin? Nicolas is keeping an eye on him. He won't dare make a move with that bear over him." Shawn pointed off away from the city, the bear staring down the fox as he sat on the ground, still holding his balls.

"He spill anything useful?" I asked.

"Not much. Apparently they believe the government implemented this, believing torture brought it out of a scientist. All a lie of course. He was a lower level scientist. Some of the other information he gave had to be completely fabricated, that when we stopped to think about it, made no sense. They think aliens are working with the government to great a super weapon for them to attack other worlds, while now asserting they are new gods of this world."

"What about the white wolf?"

"Nothing bout him. Maybe they had a falling out. Maybe he stopped growing at some point. Who knows?"

I felt that pit in my stomach again. And I couldn't hold it back, I needed to talk to someone about it.

"I...don't think its just them thinking they are gods. I almost lost control yesterday and damaged the city by myself." I admitted. Shawn and Chris looked at each other worriedly.

"What do you mean?" Chris asked. I looked at him, and he could instantly tell that Kevin had figured out what we had done.

"Before I fought him, I just wanted to test my own strength. To see what it would be like to pluck a skyscraper from its base with one hand. And I almost did. I almost gave into that temptation. But...that wasn't all..."

I took a deep breath, Chris looked down at the ground.

"Shawn, that night when I rescued those furs from Hanolver, Chris and I went back and basically leveled the place, acting out on our impulses. It was already mostly destroyed and evacuated, so we saw no harm in it at the time. But thinking back, we were giving in to those impulses at that time. I'm sorry."

There was silence between all of us. Shawn took a deep breath before he spoke.

"I admit to it too. When I was smaller I was crushing cars, just wanting to feel then crunching under my feet. How it felt so simple to do. But we did fully give in to it. We still knew what we were doing was wrong, but still took the precaution to make sure no one got hurt. That's what makes us different from them, we still try to cause no harm." He confessed.

"I crushed a home..." Craig admitted. "It was abandoned, but I just wanted to do it, ya know?"

"We're monsters..." I muttered lowly.

"No, its just natural we want to destroy. Its in our instincts. We can't help it. We can only try to control it and not let it get out of hand." Shawn gripped my shoulder.

"Is it though? Are we in control? How many have I killed without even noticing? How many could I kill by accident just by growing? I know this is happening Shawn, it has to have been. Yet...I feel nothing. No remorse, no regret. When I know I should." This hit me as he talked. I never once felt guilty that I killed someone simply by walking.

"Because, despite your best intentions, you didn't do it on purpose. You know you aren't in control of this growth. Its not your fault. And don't you dare think it is bud."

I understood what he was saying, but I couldn't get Kevin's words out of my head.

"It still doesn't make us better than them. We're the same, just justifying it a different way." I looked back over at the fox. He caught me looking and was about to sneer back, but a quick growl from Nicolas had him looking down once more.

"Don't let him get into your head bud. He's not worth it. Ignore him." Shawn glared at the fox as well. Chris was on his knees, looking down at the ground, his hands in fists.

"He use to be my friend until this growth happened, and he hung out with those conspiracy furs. They twisted his mind. But I think I can get him back. I hope." Chris's voice was shaking the whole time, like he was trying to not cry.

"Chris, not right now. Lets see if we can get him to talk first. Maybe tomorrow you can try to reason with him." Shawn started to walk around me.

"And in case you were wondering, the other cities are safe for now. The one I scouted did spot another giant, thinking it was a rogue, but it went on by without a glance at the city. So it could be just a wanderer. We're going to go search for him tomorrow to see if we can get him to join us." Chris said back as he started heading towards the front of the camp. I nodded and laid back down, still feeling tired. Chris gave me a pat on the shoulder one last time before I drifted back to sleep.