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What as the hardest in the narrative? The end? It's possible. But no. The hardest - this is beginning, because how you will start your story - will depend the story itself. That's why I always skip the start and write from the middle. But not this time. Not now.

As who am I? Well, for you I am just a lonely wolf.

I joke. I am not a wolf at all. I'm just a dog. The most common. And my name is Sinkler. My surname I have forgotten already...already I don't remember when. Ten years ago. Or hundred? It's not important.

Even I don't remember my appearance. Then I looked in the mirror rarely. Only I remember that before I had a bright-red fur. Probably. Most likely. Now it impossible - to discern it under the layer of ash eat in my fur.

And in my soul.

And how as old am I? I have lost count already. Though, I didn't count...I just remember that I was seventeen at that time.

Why am I writing all this? I don't know. It because of a boredom, maybe. Or this is the cry of the soul. After all, in this place I can speak out to no one. Expect that to tear to shreds posters and disfigured mannequin.

Well, somehow I have distracted. Let's start already, because I want cash in on the shock as soon as possible, try to start living again. But first things first.

I am, together with you will dive in this story anew. Really, I will do this not the first time.

I do only this because I have nothing left expect remembering the past over and over. But I afraid that sooner or later, I will forget even the past, and settle layer of ash on a some stone, because the rest of us are alive unless and until our memory is alive.

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I was standing in the middle of the beautiful summer park. Generally, the summer is my favorite season. In this period the sun warms you with its warm rays. Do You know, how nice to pass the paw over a warm, almost hot fur? Or how pleasantly to go to cool water amid the hot day? You can walk until dawn and, generally, swing from the chandelier. You can just to clubbing or gypsy in the park, on the soft green grass. And you can to go on a hike in the small grove, starting off outside the town. In short, all that one can wish for. And you can to rest from school. The same can't be said for winter. Good, that in this place winter not as good as summer.

I was standing in the middle of the park, near the big fountain (which, by the by, nightly be iridescent!) and was looking for place for I could sit down, because all seats was occupied. I decided to give_ ** ** _up on this idea and just to walk along maple alley. Actually I'm here not therefor. I and Nick negotiated to meet here.

Nick is my the best friend with eight years. It's just the one type of friends with which you exactly can go through the fire, the water, copper tubes, and concerts of One Direction. He pull out me from depressions repeatedly (which I had as near as damn it always), was nearby always. He was nearby ALWAYS. Even my father...no. But let that pass. Only not now. I don't want. Mustn't.

Well, he late, as always. He was detained on swimming lessons, probably.

It stands to say a couple words about him.

Many furries think that he is a werewolf (someone believes in werewolves still?!), because he a little bigger than the average grown wolf and have a fully black fur, but he is just a thoroughbred wolf. In his family all are thoroughbred.

He had softly, dense black fur that always smelled like...I even don't know how to describe this smell. Such smell of...of male, but unlike other males, and such...with impurity of still some subtle, but one and only aromas. He higher than me by two heads and this when he is...sixteen! He is half a year me junior, but he seemed midtwenties.

Meantime, coming to end of alley, I turned around and saw Nick in it start. Yes, alley was pretty long, but I have a good vision. Eagle's visio en, I'd say.

I went at a good clip to him, but already very fast I lashed out at run. As I wanted to hug him sooner!

In a two minutes I caught up him.

-Hay! Hi, buddy! - I shouted to Nick, who stood with me back to in a coupe steps from me.

He reacted nohow.

I approached to him and slap on the back.

-Hay!

He turned around dramatically and I noticed he was with headphones.

Today he is wearing, as usual, a spacious black vest and the same color thin spacious knee-length shorts. He wears this clothing always. In other clothing he felt hot because of very dense fur. I like it of course, because in this clothing mush of his body was open, and I liked it undoubtedly. Especially when he peeled off this vest...

How you already could notice, I draw attention to his body very much (even very).

The matter is that, as I said before, he's my the best friend from eight years. Already then I depend him. I wanted hang out with him more time, because he's the only who always ready to listen me. Definitely, I loved him still then. Even very. But since recently I start to like him...a little bit differently. In terms of my attitude to him didn't change, but I start...to look at him more often, and to hug. With each passing day I want to do it in increasing frequency.

May just as well to confess to it to him? I'm afraid. I don't afraid he's homophobe because this isn't that. He didn't miss out on none gay parades (on that I was never). And I don't afraid I can lose him, and even, Lord forbid, that once more I won't be able to hug him without being noticed. No, I am afraid relationship can eat away our friendship, because a love can go away, and with it will go away a friendship. I don't think so! It's too much of a risk.

Nick took out a headphone.

-Hi, Nicky! - Immediately said he when turned around.

-How did you find out that this is I? - I asked, and even didn't mad on him because of he named me Nicky (though, it's impossible to mad on him, he is so cute), though earlier I would rage, and now that sounds even...cute, in spite of the fact that my name is Sinkler. I don't know, how joint names "Nicky" and "Sinkler". Apparently, not all things in this world be amenable to rational explanations, especially if these things affect Nick.

-You clap me one and the same part of the body always.

-Ah, right. - I confused. How did he memorize? - What did you want to show me?

-Yeah! In the center, about library, new Starbucks opened. Can we go there?

-Why not? - I said, because more nowhere to go since everywhere where can to go we went already (after all places very a lot). - Whereon we will get to?

-On paws. I want to take walk. If I take the bus again, I will succumb on the spot!

-Well, good.

-And one more thing... - he inclined the head and looked at earth like committed offence puppy. - Can I...can I take you by the paw?

I didn't wonder at that already. He loves to take me by the paw often lately. Maybe, it gives him a confidence, or a calm, or something else.

-Do not think... - He started to excuses, - just for me so...a little calmer.

I stretched a paw without words, and he took by the my paw. I felt by the my paw his quick pulse and a small shiver, and it put on the alert me, because he took me by the paw many times, but presented the signs of excitement never since it was friendlily. Now all seemed as if we are in a sappy slash about sappy teenagers that love each other and can't to admit in that.

We, bit by bit, leisurely, went to the Starbucks. Nick led me by the paw through the big city that called...strangely, as I live here and don't remember it's name...or I just forget. A considerable amount of time has elapsed from since. But in my opinion I didn't know still then.

It's just, we came. On the way, no one drew attention to us, since in our time it's fine.

We came to Starbucks.

-Wow, - I only could tell quietly seeing it.

As it happens, it wasn't a Starbucks. I noticed that still from afar that this is too big house for Starbucks, but I thought i was mistake (nevertheless, I have eagle's vision!). It was a big shopping center with five levels. The walls of the house were made of a transparent glass, but because of the sun now it was mirrors, not windows (well, I think this is windows)

-Did you not expect, yes? - Nicky asked arrogantly.

-Well, yeah... - I replied not looking at him, - I expected to see another small café that proudly names itself a "Starbucks", and here is...

-And here are... - he interrupted me, - here are a lot of shops, several cafes and bars, a night club, a gum with pool, showers, and baths, a library, games room with computers, and cinema. As you can see, we have a great lot of entertainments. And all this the Shopping center "Sinkler".

-That means you led me here for to show me a Shopping center that bears my name?

-Well, this is my first goal, and the second...well, let's start from afar. Here's a mystery for you: who won a coupon for a free use by all services of the Shopping center?

-I haven't the least clue.

He approached from the back and put his paws on my shoulders.

-Yes, you are a cynic, though. The answer isn't right. The second mystery: who is inviting you at the date?

-What?! - I screamed. - Someone invited me at the date? - I made like a slouch. I knew this is he invites me at the date but I wanted to show that I thought never about it and it can happens.

-Well, that...I want to invite you at the date...I... - He started to mumbled casting down eyes. Because of that sight I confused, because I got used to it that Nick is bold and strong. Though, I understood him. Now I have mixed feelings, so to say...

-Okay. I understood you. Let's go.

Yes, just I have been invited at the date. It was suddenly. I assumed never, he would show his feelings to me so. I constituted myself hero of this another love story a la "I fell in love with my friend and don't know how I can tell it to him, what if he will come to hate me and yada-yada-yada", and that means I had to stay here now and, vainly trying to say by related sentences and to pronounce sounds, to offer him pass the time of day together.

-It's a true? - He wondered.

I turned and, sawing his muzzle, choke backed laughter, since he looked at me by some puppish sight, wherefore his muzzle seemed very cute and funny.

-It's true. Let's go. Where you wanted to lead me?

His muzzle broke into a happy, slightly confused smile.

-And it's a surprize. Let's go!

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