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It's a little late and I'm very sorry about that puppy... But Happy Birthday Conan. The funny things is, I'm not really a 100% sure how old you really are... Not that it matters at this point. I wish I had been able to send you your birthday present like we had talked about. I did get it for you in case you were wondering. I've decided that I'm going to put all your birthday and other gifts in a box and give them to you when... or I guess if I see you.

It's been hard for me to say the least. I still miss you like crazy... I wish I could talk to you and hear that sweet voice, wish we could watch movies or youtube and critique things as we go along, wish I could hear about your day... I know it has to be hard for you too... probably a lot harder and I couldn't possibly imagine what it is you're going through right now. Mostly, I just worry about you... I wonder if everything is going okay at school, I wonder if your GSA is doing anything fun and exciting, wonder what kind of projects you're going to be getting into. Have you gotten a hair cut? Did you get new glasses? How is Newton and your family? So many things that I want to ask you directly and know that I can't.... So again, I just write it hear in hopes that one day you'll see it and know that I still think of you and that I have kept my promise to wait for you. But how long is that? is it one year or two? And even then, will we still feel the way that we used to?

I like to think that we will and thinking about that day gives me a lot of hope. I suppose things here are good. Zeke is doing well, still streaming and getting really good at it. If you're able you'll have to watch it some time. He still has some mixed feeling about all of this, and I can understand why, but I think he is at the point where is would be willing to talk about things more in depth when we hear back from you. Ajax and Comet are being very good boys, and they get many belly rubs and ear scratches. I'm doing okay. Getting ready for a promotion at work, just trying to figure out what it's going to actually be! My boss just bought out two other restaurants and he's going to be integrating his own people into the current staff to help bring everyone into the family and let the new people know what we expect. So there are a lot of moving pieces (including me) just not sure where I'm going yet.

Um, we got a huge sectional couch for a $1.lol And it's really comfy. Plenty of room for 3 boys and 3 dogs. And the house has never been cleaner, everything that has happened made me need some kind of outlet, or five... so we have a rotating cleaning schedule, I've been working out and I help Zeke with his streaming. Not to mention writing and D&D. OH! I tried to cook some vegan "Chicken" meat alternative. It was actually pretty tasty, but then I started having an allergic reaction to it and had to go to the hospital. So... I tried puppy! But whatever was in that didn't appreciate being eaten.

We're closing in on October, which is my busiest month by far. It's Zeke's Birthday, our Wedding anniversary, I try to do a memorial for my son on 10/10 every year. Adding to this year is Fur Reality, which is a furry convention around Cincinnati. Never been to one before and Zeke is insistent that we go so I figured it was time. Decided to take my vacation for it and I plan to write another installment during that week to keep you updated on things. Should definitely be an interesting time and I hope that we will be able to take you with us someday. I'm throwing a surprise birthday party for Zeke and I think he's really going to enjoy it. As for our anniversary, we're going to this really nice Italian place and then probably to the U.S.S Nightmare, which is a Haunted Riverboat and I think it's going to be really fun!

The whole reason why I didn't post this yesterday was because we actually had our first Family reunion with both of our families. Not everyone showed up that we wanted too but it was a really good day. People stayed WAY later than what I thought they were going too which is really unusual for both our families but I'm glad that they did. I do wish you could've been there, get all of the introductions out of the way and everyone can start making you feel like part of the family.

I also want to apologize for not being as diligent with these updates as I promised I would be. After the last one, I feel back into a deep depression and it was easier for me to not write one. I apologize for my selfishness there, I should've been stronger for you and I promise I will be in the future. Writing this one I actually feel pretty good. When I stop and think about it, I'm just letting someone that I love know what is going on in my life and that shouldn't make me sad. I do still miss you deeply, how could I not? But I'm waiting to hear from you and however long that takes, I'll wait. Although, I suppose that if I don't hear anything after three years I might start to get worried again. To conclude, I'll just say this. I love you with all my heart Conan. I hope you enjoyed your birthday and I'm sorry I couldn't be there to celebrate it with you puppy. I'll post again next month.