August 2015
This is Not a story, it is real life, it is an account of both my state of mind at a certain point and what I perceived as my final attempt to find that one loving partner which I would hopefully stay with for the rest of my days.
I will be using fursona names only in this account and so here goes.
The majority of us whether we are male or female, furry, scaled or human, gay, bi, lesbian or straight need to feel loved and wanted, protected and safe, I am no different, yes it is true that I have had many failed relationships and no I won't go into details suffice to say that in the early part of 2015 I was at a very low ebb, not quite suicidal though those who know me know that I have tried to take that way out before, so yeah I was going through a pretty bad time in my life.
It is August 2015 and after a particularly vicious bout of depression I decided to check into my Pounced.org account to try and find the one guy for me, for the early part of August it looked like I would be destined to remain as a single gay furry guy, as some of you here on SoFurry will attest to I have posted many journals about yet another failed relationship or trying to find love on the site, and I am pretty sure that the majority of you were sick to the back teeth of seeing yet another journal from me.
I cannot deny that I have many wonderful friends here on SoFurry all sending me their best wishes and all, and while at the time those wishes made me feel a whole lot better about myself, the effect was short-lived.
It is now August 24th,2015 and again I am surfing the pages on Pounced.org, again there were guys of all shapes and sizes but none that really peaked my interest, that is until I found an ad for a guy calling himself Aspen Husky.
What was so special about this guy's ad that made me take a look? Well because I cannot afford to travel very far I need someone who is UK based so that I can get to see him as and when I get the chance, now okay straight away I am at a disadvantage with Aspen as he lives in the USA, however, on his Pounced ad he stated that at some point he is going to be moving to the UK.
So I message the guy and then I close down my page believing that I would hear nothing back from him. Oh, how wrong I was, within fifteen minutes I had an email telling me that I had a response, well please forgive the parlance here but my tail was wagging a mile a minute.
Of course, I made my reply back to him, we then decided to dispense with Pounced and take our chats to Skype. Each day I would sign in hoping to be able to text the Husky but I also believed that he would have found someone better, but each day he was there ready to lift my spirits again, we would talk about our many problems, again I won't go into details, we would also talk about our day-to-day life, our hopes, and aspirations.
We have both seen pictures of each other and still, he is there for me, February 24th, 2017 will mean that we have now been in a relationship for eighteen months and we are still very much in love, now I won't say that my depression has come to an end and I know that Aspen suffers greatly with it too, but we are helping each other through it.
Part of our depression stems from the fact that as of yet we have not been able to meet in person, but we do at least now know the sound of each others voice as we play games while chatting on Skype, to all of my Skype friends if you see me on there and message me but get either no response or a slow response then it means that I am probably in a game with my Husky so please don't take it personally, with the time difference and the fact that we both work most of the week I tend to block everything else out when we are in a game.
We are still working towards being able to move Aspen to the UK and I look forward to the day when I can actually hold him in my arms. We also realise that some of you may look at me as some sort of deviant as there is quite an age difference between us, my answer to you is this, we are both consenting adults and have no problems with the gap.
I know that it is still too early to talk about this relationship lasting for the rest of my life, but the way that Aspen makes me feel whenever we talk I truly believe that he will be the guy I will see out the rest of my days with.
We are not perfect together that is for sure, but please show me a relationship that is perfect, to me that would make us boring and I for one don't want to be boring. I would like to thank Aspen for being the one that has repaired my once shattered heart.
We use terms like babe, love, sweetheart, honey and even gorgeous, and I know that some of you will have a slight problem with that my response is that for us they are terms of endearment and love and I will make no changes in the way I talk to my beloved, I also use these terms in my stories and again they are meant as terms of endearment.
My love for Aspen is total and unconditional, folks ask me what I would like for either Christmas or my Birthday, sure I give them the standard answer of a gift or money or whatever but in truth, if I could have just one gift for all of my Christmases and all of my Birthdays it would be to hold and love my partner, the ever wonderful and loving Aspen Husky.