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Chapter 10 Sick day

I woke up alone.

I'd woken up by myself for as long as I can remember but this was my first time waking up alone. Having experience the warmth, comfort and security of being physically and emotionally close to people having it suddenly not there anymore was like discovering you'd been blind your entire life, seeing, and then had your sight removed again. I looked around unconcerned with the fact that I was in a crib, wearing a diaper, that the diaper was wet, or had been turned into a girl. All that mattered was that I was alone.

Not about to cry for help, again, (I hoped) I wriggled through the soft fleecy pink blanket trying to get to the headboard where I was pretty sure the monitor was and my paw landed on something soft, squishy, and fuzzy. Pulling the blanket back revealed my teddy bear looking up at me with big eyes, practically begging to be picked up and hugged. I tried to step over it but wound up putting a paw on it instead. Picking him up just to move him out of the way I couldn't resist stroking down and up the fur, feeling the soft bristles under the pad on my hands turned into pulling the toy into my arms and giving it a big hug. How weak was I that he felt so heavy in my arms? Why was the weight reassuring rather than scary?

The scent of a female Wolf wafted in as the door opened. I pulled on the blankets to try to cover myself and the bear up, but since my padded bottom was on the other end of the bedding I just wound up under the corner wearing the blanket like a hoodie.

"Awwwww... who's that under there? A pair of ice blue eyes, big teeth and a black nose framed by snow white fur came over the top of the crib to look under the blanket. A human child probably would have started crying at the display of dental weaponry but a fellow canine could recognize an infectiously happy grin and make the appropriate tailwag in response. "A teddy bear! Keeping his fox safe I see." If the sight of a former college student in a wet pink diaper clinging to his teddy bear was the least bit unusual she made no sign of it, quite the opposite. She leaned even more heavily on the crib, gave my snout a lick and unlatched the side of the crib.

"Oh they said you were adjusting nicely, I see they weren't exaggerating" In picking me up she managed to press my arms around the soft, cushiony softness of the teddy bear.

I was not "adjusting"! I wasn't going along with...

The Wolfess stroked down my shoulder, over my elbow and took my wrist gently and made me pet the teddy bear a few times. The tingle of soft fur under my paw was irresistible, and I couldn't stop myself from petting and hugging it even after she let go to sit down in the rocking chair. She reached into the deep pockets of the one piece skirt she was wearing and took out a black pacifier which she held out to me just out of my reach. I managed to hold out for a few seconds with my muzzle shut but my stupid baby girl brain wanted the comfort of suckling on something, wanted to follow the grown ups implicit instructions, and when she tickled my chin with her pinkie my muzzle opened automatically and I leaned forward to gently bite down on the nipple and started to suckle.

"Good girl" she said, and gave my ears a pet, filling my brain with warm comfy goodness as I suckled and relaxed my jaw muscles, slumping against her flat, thickly furred chest. It was odd simultaneously worrying about the effects of operant conditioning and enjoying it so, very, very much. A word and a pet had me playing with a teddy bear and sucking my pacifier like any other baby, how far could they take it if they tried?

The Wolf didn't seem interested in trying today. A few lovely pets to my headfur, down my back, and a lick to my nose to get me settled she shifted me a bit so i could look at her eye to eye.

"Alright sweetie. My name is Luna, today I need you to be a big girl, okay?

I perked my ears forward at her a little and stiffened my tail. Really? She laughed at my expression and eskimo kissed me nose to nose.

" We've been keeping your activities pretty fun, but we need to redo your immunizations soon so you can't get sick." Stupid idea of fun.

"I think you opted for the needle rather than a Tendril. It hurts more but it's faster."I tried without much success to keep my ears up and tail untucked, wondering what bo..past me was thinking. "That's the easy part. After the injections your body's going to think that it's sick and react accordingly. It's a good thing, it means your body's learning or still has the memory from last time. Have you ever been sick at all? Do you remember what it was like last time you got an immunization?"

I shook my head. Kin had good immune systems thanks to being engineered to resist even biological and chemical weapons, and since even humans were disease resistant these days most harmful microorganisms had died out, so the only time i'd ever been sick was the last time I'd been vaccinated as a kit. I remembered what I was told pretty far back, but had never heard of someone remembering being THAT little before.

While talking the Wolfess was getting me undressed. I tried to stop her to do it myself but she gently but firmly took my wrist and put my paw up under my chin and firmly told me to "keep them there", silencing my protests. I knew she was a Wolf and bigger and stronger even than my adult body, but it was disconcerting how little effort it took her to move me, like a truck that didn't even notice someone pulling on it.She put me on the pott.. Small conveniently placed toilet with pink butterflies. Two long strokes down my ears and back got the process started and when finished i was stood up and more than thoroughly wiped down. A gentle tap and a "good girl" got me to hold my paws out of the way under my chin still, though my tail wagged at the praise and smiling face.

A quick floating sensation was all the notice i got before being scooped up and set belly down atop a very thick, very pink pre powdered diaper. Enormous paws wrapped around my sides and adjusted the padding a little before my still wagging tail was slipped through the hole in the back.. And kept wagging, sending the crinkly garment wriggling left and right under me.

"Awww.. someone's happy to be in their padding, but could you hold your tail a LITTLE stiller sweetie?" My tail bristled in indignation! Which let her tape the sides up left and right. "Thank you hon." I heyed ! at the trick, but was none the less sat up face to face with her.

"For your shots do you want two Soothers or three?" holding the delicious smelling sausages out in her paw. I drooled and barely stopped myself from nomming one right there, instead crossing my arms and turning my snout up. I could take my shots like a man thank you very much.

"Oh now you're being silly. There's no need to be in pain if you don't have to be. And you're going to want them when you get sick too. I'll tell you what. Take 2 and I'll let you play Ancient Forbidden Technique 7 on Big Kid mode.

I held up 1 finger

"Oh? You like the original?" her only response to my glare was to ruffled my ears and hold out one sausage. She plunked the pacifier, which I'd completely forgotten about, out and held out the sausage, palms flat. Two bites and it was gone.

"Good girl" she said, rubbing my ears. This time it was accompanied by a rising tide of warmth from my belly spreading down my legs and tail. "Beside the sausage, you're only going to get some protein paste today okay? We don't want your tummy associating any of the food with you getting sick, or it might make you sick the next time you eat it. Experiences like that can stick with someone." she popped open an enormous canister of nearly odorless blue goop and held some out on a spoon. I reached forward and poked it with my tongue giving it an experimental lick. It was kinda weird, like a mix of banana and that illegal blue food flavoring, but not really bad. Luna scritched at my neck a little and I had no problem holding still while she fed me half the jar. Well, less what didn't wind up on my shirt. She gave that a lick, along with my muzzle, and ears "Eat as much as you can sweetie, it's going to have to last you till dinner. Maybe with a snack in between." She coaxed me into another two spoonfuls before I shook my head, feeling ready to burst.

"Alright...." she carried me over to the rocking chair and sat me down, despite my efforts to lean over for the video game console. "Oh no, that's for later. I don't want to get you worked up before your shots young lady" I was surprised that even with one soother I was okay with the idea of being held and petted while watching a documentary on mammoths and their role in breaking down nutrients for the ongoing terraformation process. Most of it was pretty familiar, but I either didn't know or had forgotten that they'd been introduced on Old Mars before being reintroduced on earth. Hugging the big bushy tail made the difference seem to not matter.

She smiled at me, gave my ears a lick , and traded her tail for my teddy bear. She took my wrist and without thinking I started petting the soft fur, earning another "Good girl". She plopped the pacifier in my muzzle, stroked down my back, and placed my mostly limp form down on the changing table, belly down. I wriggled my legs a little, just noticing that I was in an enormously thick nighttime diaper despite it being da...AAAAAAAY!

A loud yip escaped my muzzle as i felt a hard pinch on my rump, my eyes watering. It didn't make any sense it didn't even hurt THAT much but OW! I wanted, needed to get away from it, the rubbing paw on my back applied some more pressure to hold me down, and a third pinch had me yowling loud enough to make the nurse flatten her ears.

"Okay, okay alright..shhhhh. Shhh...we're halfway done. That's the NTR series, viruses, bacteria and gray goo. "

"I ..idunno..what.. It...doesnt..notbad an i jus.jus..." I was glad for all the padding as she picked me up in her arms and sat me back down in the her lap in the rocking chair, shushing and cooing over me as i cried until snot started running out of my nose in rivers.

"It's alright sweetie, lil kits can't control themselves, shhh shh... little girls are allowed to cry. It's alright now shhh...

I was NOT a little girl! I didn't want to cry, but kept doing it anyway. She paid it no mind, held me warm and close and rocked me, petting my back until i was done. I wiped my nose with the back of my paw and had it cleaned by a handkerchief produced from somewhere. "Blow"

A few toots and a few minutes later I was sat down in front of a tray with the Wolfess behind me hugging and petting me. She nose my ears a little, but it merely felt comforting, not amazing. Somehow i think i liked that better. She reached around and set a few crackers, some almost non aromatic cheese, and a few pieces of synth sausage in front of me. I wasn't exactly hungry, but still wanted to taste something after the morning's breakfast of so called food. I gave the sausages a sniff but as far as I could remember, Soothers were pretty much odorless. Any one of the sausages could be the soother. I could hear the wolfess smiling as she put her chin between my ears as if watching my thought process.

One sausage out of six was pretty good odds if I just ate one. I put my paw out and ran it back and forth over them as if I could feel the difference, and finally settled on the first one all the way to the left. No one would use the first one right? These sausages had a grittier, almost straw like flavor to them which was different but altogether tasty. Even with a B in statistics I knew the odds were still in my favor, one in five, and hadn't shifted much just because i'd gotten lucky once. I nommed another one and waited, still no effects. I wagged my tail and pondered.

The odds were nearly fifty fifty now. I wriggled as if leaning back to get more comfortable listening to the Wolfesses heartbeat, which gave me an idea. I stopped my hand over each morsel in turn and listened to her heart beat speed up as it passed over the last remaining one on the left. With a grin I ignored the tail curling around me, triumphantly nommed the last three in one bite and grinned at her with my little milkteeth.

"Well, aren't we a clever vixy" her claws gave such a good chin scritch i didn't even care that she'd called me a vixen and instead concentrated on the important issue of the video game she promised. I made button pressing motions with my fingers, and was handed with a freshly printed controler made specially for my little paws, with the scent of hot cellulose plastic still wafting off of it. Thankfully I remembered most of the special moves, because unlike most of the other Ancient Forbidden Technique series they really were required to do well. I didn't even mind "big kid" mode that much, with the punches and tossing through various pieces of chinese history. I breezed through the first few levels but my eyes started drooping a little when I got to Lu Bu, and couldn't seem to get the timing on his Musical notes attack right. I pushed passed a slightly warm sensation from between my legs and tried again, barely beating him to move onto Guan Yu. two whaps with the Green Dragon Crescent Blade and i was back to Lu Bu.

"How about a lil break sweetie?" she took the controller out of my hands as easily as taking candy from a baby. The bottle of juice I got in return was a welcome consolation,I nursed on it as fast as I could manage. The infantile drinking vessel was the least of my worries. I didn't feel sick, just sleepy. If anything I felt good. Warm, relaxed, mellow. Way more than I should from one soother...

"Hey! You tricked me..." I said, getting even angrier as the Wolfesses tail started to wag, peering at the bottle suspiciously.

"It's not the bottle sweetie

"Whichwonwasit?" I huffed, feeling like she cheated.

She smiled down at me and licked my ears soothingly, settling the bottle back in my muzzle and making sure I had a few suckles before answering "All of them sweetie. Just on a time delay. One sixth dose each. I just tensed my tail a bit when I figured out what you were doing." Outfoxed by a Wolf! " Don't feel bad hon. You're doing pretty good for only your second time around, and barely into your first time at that" She held up the last piece, which i licked off her paw and swallowed, admitting my defeat.

"Such a good girl. " this time the ear pet and warmth were accompanied by a flood between my legs, rushing into the diaper. I opened my mouth to say something, but immediately found it filled by the bottle. She leaned me back, putting me against her with the least bit of pressure as my muscles went rag doll limp. Lu bu, seeing that i wasn't going to be fighting him, started playing a soft, soothing lullaby. I murrred at the complete relaxation and safety of the wolfs embrace, letting her take the bottle from me and replace my paws with the soft, reassuring weight of my teddy bear. She rocked me as i zoned out for what could have been a few hours or a few minutes before laying me down on my belly with my rear paws underneath me and ruffled my ears back and forth.

"Lil pinch honey"

I hugged my teddy bear and shut my tight and waited.. And waited.It felt like she was tugging the fur on my arm and then she rubbed my ears.

"All done!"

I looked left, and right, for the trick but she was tossing a needle into a bin.

"Didn.feel..."

"Of course you didn't sweetie. That's what the Soothers are for sillyhead" she rubbed my back and held up the pacifier again. "Open" and plopped it in my muzzle when I complied. She sat me down against the wall, which had conveniently extended a large, thickly padded sofa and let me sit with my head in her lap.

"So much easier that way wasn't it? What were you fighting for hmmm? There's no one here to prove how big and tough you are sweetie, I promise I won't tell." she checked the pacifier, but still felt the need to tap my nose with her paw. "Lil bit of a temperature, but I think we can get the last shots over with" she took the paci out "Open sweetie" I did so without thinking and was rewarded with yet another yummy treat, as well as a pet to the ears and a "Chew. Good girl. Gooood girl" as the pleasant tingle became a full body hum, my eyes drooping. I giggled as she took my paws and leaned me back back back, both of us letting out a "wheeeee" as I was put onto my back with her lovely, smiling muzzle bending over me.

Her enormous paws gently massaged my belly moving up and down my fur , along my ribs, and easily circled my biceps to knead there. There was nothing but cubfat and fluff, no wonder I was so weak. She continued down my sides, to my legs, gently lifting them and curling them a few times before settling them down and kneading them as well, and licked my nose and eyes until I closed them. When she was done i couldn't have moved if i wanted to, and nothing could make me want to. Even my eyelids were too heavy to pick up.

"This is a heavy blanket sweetie, it's going to help you hold still for me alright?"

I nodded, which was about the only move i could make after the blanket was put on top of me and tugged itself tight. It was surprisingly soft, and somehow not being able to move felt reassuring when it should have felt scary.

"Big pinch sweetie..." her paw rubbed the opening in the blanket and then..

"Owowowowwyoowwwwwl....

"Alright, alright....3...2..1.Done.

The pain stopped as suddenly as it had started, a few quick strokes of the Wolfesses paw undid the blanket and i was scooped into her arms and then her lap as I sat down.

"Alright, alright there we go baby. Shhhh.. No more needle, ever, I promise, shhh" the world spun and I was back in her lap, clinging to her and sobbing. One, two, three strokes of her paw up and down my back and the pain seemed a distant memory. I couldn't even figure out why i was crying anymore.

"whymy.Whatswrong.iwhy..."

"Little girls cry sweetie. You can't help it. You're confused, sniffly, stuffy, and you just had a painful shot. And you're trying to fight it like a big boy would" she nuzzles my ears. "Just let yourself go sweetie, you'll feel better, but not good, I promise."

"Hwooo" my question sounded more like a howl.

"Lean back" I did so, pretty much falling onto my back wondering why she didn't just move me. She started stroking over my ears. "That's a good girl" I was no..I murred and she plopped a bottle of cool, blue flavored juice into my muzzle. "Just suckle, and relax. Don't try to fight, don't try to deny anything. Just relax and let us take care of you." the sweet liquid poured over the back of my throat, putting out the dry, scratchy feely that was building, but seemed to fuel the snot dripping out of my nose. She gently lifted up my legs, curling them, kneaded the hamstring and set them back down. I tried to move them on my own but they felt so very heavy.

"No sweetie. " she admonished, lifted my legs again. This time i didn't try to lift them and she nosed my ears "such a good girl" and let the warmth flow through me "A goood little girl who's going to drink her bottle aaal up. Take a niiice nap. And then wake up feeling so much better." there was something wrong.. With that. Nice. Cold enough to hurt my teeth just a little quenching the scratchiness in my throat."Such a lil sweetie" the rubbing became a lil tickle and a sweet, innocent girlish giggle filled the air.

I came to a few.. Something later. Hours. Minutes. Snot was dripping out of my nose and I couldn't breathe. I spot out my pacifier, more concerned with getting some air than a college student having a pacifier. Enormous hands lifted me and shifted me up, rubbing my back and making sounds that sounded vaguely soothing. Something fake cherry tasting was put on my tongue and muzzle which i spat out at first, but took a few licks up when it started to clear my nose a little. The pacifier made it's way towards over my whiskers to my muzzle but i turned up my snout and shook my head. The enormous paw held my head still and i felt something press into my swollen ear, but whimpered and it went away. A padded surface came up to meet me as the calming noises redoubled then COLD cold air hit my rump and slit, followed by some lovely rubs just above my raised tail and soothing wipes. Slick glass pressed uncomfortably against my rump for a second before sliding in and resting inside with an oddly soothing weight.

"That works apparently..." the deep female voice over my head chuckled a little. My rump was wiped, then covered in soft, crinkly, fluffy comfort then patted.

"There we are, such a good girl" I felt myself soaring through the air and sat up long enough to lick some red flavored drink out of a cup. The fluffy warmth holding me left making me feel so cold that i started shivering. I cracked my eyes open and saw her coming back with something warm, fuzzy and very pink, which she started slipping over my paws,tail and arms. She zipped me haltway in, then took off my shirt, and zipped me in again, wrapping her arms around me and pressing a teddy bear to my chest, which I took gratefully. For the warmth. She started rocking me, and singing a lovely, echoey lullaby, singing in resonance off of her own notes. I couldn't tell when the singing stopped and the dreams began.