Dis-honest...
....you had to...right...
Dis-honest...
Mind racing, sleep won't find me tonight
As much as I hate it, I'm left in the unknown, filled with fright
A paradox I thought was dead & gone came back to life
It caught me slowly by surprise, cutting deeper than any knife
It sliced me further than needed
Time filled in the gaps with worry as I fell into doubt & possibility proceeded
Nothing or more than what it should of been
I'm hurting, more than any other time, more than back then
Words empty, promises never kept breaking into dust
I'm already over the limit, to continue is misery, I decision to be made, a must
Fickle is all that comes to a muddy mind knowing the worst, & frowning at the best
The answers already given, why bother with the test, why reassure the rest...
Dam it all if tomorrow brings what's to be expected
My part is meaningless, I've all but been neglected
Every choice had my hand clear
Every decision was made without an ounce of fear
Still is my heart
Feet at the ready, I'm ready to part
Shadows of why will follow till the end
Till I no longer walk, till I can no longer have wisdom to lend
Such is life now, as it always could of been, as it was always to be
I just never was okay with any of this drama happening to me...
Let it go, forgive & forget
That's not enough when the worst know how the better never met
This life is gone, why more struggle if by another who only breeds pain
To try again would only feed the lost, the self-centered, the vain
For what it's worth, the run was short, memories fast
No perfect image to really distort, I guess I always knew it wouldn't last
I'll pick opus the pieces worthwhile
Just hope you know, it was half-hearted with each & every smile...
---Thanks for reading---
---Always---
(Except you, you know who you are)