That Gay Goth Dog: New Beginning 2
#67 of That Gay Goth Dog
'Run and hid little boy, you cant escape us' a demonic voice yelled from the abyss in front of me. "NO!" i yelled back at it.
"come here Jeremy, i love you" i heard in hardens old voice.
"NO! YOU LIED TO ME, YOUR CHEATED!" i cried out.
"EACH TIME YOU SPOKE, IT WAS A CHAIN ON MY WRIST!" as i said that, chains came out from the ground, each link a solid gold memory, in wich zapped my flesh, my body, like it was nothing. "your love was fake, you never even loved me!" i said as my flesh started to burn, the chains, burning me. "i would rather take my life then come back to you." i snarled loudly, my k9s showing.
"Then ill just take everything from you." it said calmly back to me
"ITS ALREADY GONE!" i yelled then growled. "I GOT NOTHING LEFT!" i spat, spit literally slobbering out of my muzzle from rage. "WAKE ME UP!" i started jolting in the chains, slowly they broke off, then i flew up in my bed. drenched in sweat i looked around my cold, empty room, then slowly slumped back in my bed. My heart was racing, just as fast as my mind, and neither one seemed to be slowing down now.
"Jeremy?" a skinny black panther said to me.
"yeah, danny?"
"you okay, that seemed rough." he said looked at me confused, and worried. "you were just yelling, and tossing and turning... Hayden leaving you for a girl really fucked you up, huh?"
"dude, i just want it back, i want it all back.. The warmth he gave me, the happiness he showed me... I just want my husky back." i said softly and laid down.
"you'll find another one, i know you will." danny said trying to cheer me up.
"No, i wont.. music is my life, and it was his life, too.. He was strong, manly.. yet a bottom, and cuddly... where will i find that? i was lucky... I was so lucky" i said sofening my tone as i spoke, my mind racing a bit, while my heart just broke more. " now all i see is just fire" i paused. "hot, burning fire..." i growled again... "im sorry danny.." i said and lowed my voice, giving a soft whimper as my ears pinned back against my head, and my tail curled up around my waist.
"bruh, i have been your friend for about 5 years now, its okay, i know, your in a heard spot right now. But i got you, and so does nikki. She loves you as much as she loves me.. And you know we are getting married soon" he spoke and smiled, his white fangs clearly showing against his black fur. "i know. but your not him." i said turning around, facing the wall. Just then danny turned on Believe by Trans-Siberian Orchestra () and then curled up in his sleeping bag, letting the song fill the room. the song started, and my mind was just filled with sadness, the howling winds were like the plains of my mind, empty and sad, but with just a piano playing in the distance. The lyrics started, and my heart dropped, the lyrics telling the story of me.. My heavy heart was crying, but not a whimper came from my muzzle, i didnt want to cry again. "i am the way, i am the light, i am the dark inside the night. i hear your hopes, i feel your dreams, in the dark i hear your screams. dont turn away, just take my hand, when you make your final stand. ill be right there, ill never leave, and all i ask of you, is believe." i sand with the song, the power of the lyrics, calming my mind for some reason. "for all the years you borrowed, for all the tears you hide, and for all the fears you had to keep inside." i cuddled up to my pillow and let the singer fill the room.
i am the way, i am the light, i am the dark inside the night. i hear your hopes, i feel your dreams, in the dark i hear your screams. dont turn away, just take my hand, when you make your final stand. ill be right there, ill never leave, and all i ask of you, is believe.
His voice just ran over my mind, filling my empty space with nothing but colors. colors flying around in circles, creating a lovely picture of my body standing under a street light, with 3 shadows around me, but i was smiling, it was a group photo.. But who were the other 3, why was i so happy.. What was going on here.. I opened my eyes and heard the song come to the last verse, again i am the way, i am the light, i am the dark inside the night. i hear your hopes, i feel your dreams, in the dark i hear your screams. dont turn away, just take my hand, when you make your final stand. ill be right there, ill never leave, and all i ask of you, is believe.
"God, please help me make it through this week, to the new practice, and the new people im bringing into my life.. Lord, help me believe." i said softly and hear the song change to Christmas cannon rock by Trans-Siberian orchestra. () and as the rock balled played, i found my eyes growing heavier and heavier, before passing out into my dream world. But this time, with a smile on my face.
The next morning i woke up, and noticed my friend, danny, was no where to be found. I got out of bed, my fur still soaked in sweat, and a strong musk came from my arm pits when i gave them a scent check.
"gah, guess i need to shower." i said and looked around the apartment. "well, do i have anything to do today? maybe i wont shower..." just then a knock came at the door. "who?" i said softly and got up to open the heavy oak door. "hello?" i asked
"Hey, im looking for a guy named Jeremy?" a muscular Shepherd said looking back at me.
"this is the shep you are looking for, now why are you looking for him?" i asked confused, literally looking at a mirror reflection of my self.
"well... i dont know, really.. My friend, Danny, told me to come over here, im not sure why, but he said to talk to you for a bit." the shepherd said smiling softly, a soft blush on his cheeks as well.
"ah.. well, come in. Sorry for smelling bad by the way." i said as he walked past me.
"Its all good, i have smelt way worse" he smiled. "you actually smell just fine, to tell you the truth." he said smiling, then sat down on a chair.
"Oh, well thanks." my tail wagged as i sat across from him. His features were toned, yet soft, normal shepherd fur pattern, his tail was a little curled up tho, almost like he was part husky. His eyes were a light blue, close to my hazel eyes, but with out the green. He stood about 5'8' where i was 6'1" and hes style of clothing was more Prep kid, then metal head, which was weird seeing as Danny was a complete metal head, like me.
"So tell me, why are you sad." the shepherd said to me, causing me to choke on my breath.
"what do you mean?" i asked confused. Was danny talking about me behind my back, was he bashing me, was this just a prank??!! my mind started racing.
"your rooms a mess, you have a strong musk to you, and your listening to Yanni, mainly the slower songs.. Its not hard to tell your sad. Whats wrong?" he said softly.
"Dude, i dont know who the fuck you are, but dont fucking come up in here fucking doing that." i growled and snapped at the fellow shepherd.
"Whoa man, im just trying to cheer you up, i guess ill just leave." he said getting up and pushing his chair in.
"no!" i barked and sighed. "sorry, my mind is just racing right now, a lot has happened in the past few months, and im just trying to cope with it all." i said softly.
the shepherd stopped and looked me over then sat back down.
"Well i got some time, lets talk." he said softly. i looked up at his blue eyes, for some reason, i gave a smile.
"well about 4 months ago, my husband called me and said he had enough of my petty "bull shit" as he said.. My father and mother died, and i was not getting over it, i became very self abusive, and i was harming my self a bit." i stopped and showed the new burn to my collection, this one being on the underside of my arm. "and, then he said he never really loved me at all, that he just went with everything because he thought that i would kill my self if he didn't become my boyfriend.. He made me a title, not a prize in life.. and now hes off with some girl, doing, well, hell if i know.. and im just sitting here, wishing i had my perfect boyfriend back. along with that, my band split up, because the singer left, and well, life just sucks right now." i said sighing softly
"i see where your coming from." the shepherd said softly.
"every night i feel like im being strangled by my memories, and there is nothing i can do to stop it." i whimpered softly.
"want a hug?" he said softly.
my eyes widened and i looked over the fur. he was handsome, but he seemed mature, for some reason, i nodded. i stood up as he did, and when he opened his arms, i gave him a huge, tight hug. "dont choke me!" he coughed causing me to loosen my hold on the German Shepherd.
"sorry." i said and let him go. "i did need that tho.." i smiled.
"No problem." he smiled back. "I love giving out hugs! i love people smiling." he chuckled.
"Thank you.. ... Wait, whats your name, anyways?" i asked after trying to thank him.
"My name is Hayden." he said.
".. wha. thats the name of my ex." i said, and his face turned white, even the fur.
"erm.. this is weird." he stated.. as color returned to his face. "if you want, you can call me Al." he stated.
"Okay, Al..." i smiled softly and looked out my window, zooming out into space, not sure what to do next.
'Well, fuck.; my mind side then looked back over to my new found shepherd, Al. 'wonder whats going to happen next..; i stated to my self.