Sober Confronting

Story by lucifer94 on SoFurry

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a follow up to Drunken memories and Drunken love.

this was a story I had trouble motivating myself to write. i tried to get it emotional then throw in sex, but to be honest i don't know if the sex was actually needed. #virgin thoughts

anyway, leave a comment below on what you think.


I just stared at the ceiling, recalling the dream I had last night, my semen staining my underwear and crotch fur. These past two weeks I have been having certain dreams. In these dreams Jabil and I do...certain things, certain sexual things. It was bad the first time I had these dream, it is much worse when these dreams seem to escalate in content and I still get off on it.

I cleaned myself with the tissues on my nightstand, belittling myself for having these dreams in the first place. How can you have these kinds of dreams? How dare you think about your best friend like this? In truth, I was more upset with the fact Jabil was in these dreams then the fact they were gay. Actually I was more upset with the stuff I did to him in this dream, bound and gagged as I drilled his ass, calling him names while denying him pleasure. Seriously, I am a fucked up person.

The problems didn't just end with my head; my relationship with Jabil also seemed to suffer as well. I was purposely avoiding him at every chance I can get. I put more hours at my job then necessary, I haven't eaten anything that didn't come out of a box, and I am sure my hygiene suffered as a well. It was almost like I was reliving my childhood before I met Jabil, living behind a wall I made myself and just watching the world past on by.

I can't keep acting like this. The fact I had sex with Jabil will never go away, the fact that he opened up to me two weeks ago is never going away, all I can do is just figure out how to live with it. But how do you live with this? _How do you pretend that everything is normal while the inside of your head is a mess?_I have a whole day to figure out how to do it, better get started. My stomach growled for food. Even if Jabil is still here, I need to get something to eat.

There was a knock at my bedroom door. I knew who was knocking but that didn't stop my heart from skipping a beat. "Hey Ken," Jabil said. I remained silent, "I am heading to the gym to work out for a bit. Bethany is coming by around later to pick up the rest her stuff. I left the box with her stuff on the table."

"Okay," I muttered. I heard the front door open and close but I didn't leave immediately. I spent a few minutes just wondering what I should do. This was the first time I had the apartment to myself in a while. My stomach growled again, so I guess I know what I am going to do.

I went to the kitchen and open the refrigerator; this was going to be my first cooked meal in two weeks. I pulled out some eggs, butter, and ham. I put a pan on the stove and let the heat melt the butter. I cracked some eggs and beat them in a measuring cup. After the eggs were beaten, I took bits of ham and place them in the eggs. I poured the eggs into the pan and wait for it to cook. Besides the Omelet I also got some cereal to go with it. I set my food on the table and started to eat. Since moving in, Jabil and I usually ate together. It felt surreal just eating alone.

After breakfast, I decided to take a shower. I haven't taken a shower in awhile and there is so much I can fool people using cologne and a brush. I left the bathroom door open in case Bethany came over while I am in the shower. I turned the water on and stepped in. the warm water felt refreshing on my fur, washing away all the dirt and grime my fur seemed to pick up lately. It is probably time to get it cut. The hard part of having a thick coat is deciding when to cut it. As we both have a thick coat, Jabil and I help each other when we have to cut it. But with how awkward it is between us, would he be even willing to help?

As I finished my shower I heard a knock on the door. I wrapped a towel around my waist and answered the front door, "hey."

"Hey Ken," Bethany responded. Behind her was a stallion with a sleek black coat, "Jabil should have my stuff ready."

"Sure it is on the table," Bethany walk passed me without a second glance. Bethany opened the box and checked the contents. "So who are you," I directed at the stallion.

"Donny," he offered his hand like it was normal to talk to a semi naked husky. "So you would be Ken then, am I correct yes."

"Yeah," I answered. When I shook his hand I could already tell this guy was in great shape. The cloths he wore just showed how much the difference between us were.

"You seem happy," with his other hand he taped the tip of my erecting dick. I tried to use my towel to hide my boner, but all that did was cause it to fall off. Donny just smiled, "relax it happens to everyone."

I pulled my towel back up, "I am so sorry."

"No worries, I usually get that response from people," Donny leaned in close, "you two make a cute couple."

"What?"

"That's everything," Bethany said, "Donny."

"Yes ma'am," Donny went to the box and picked it up. As they both left Donny said, "Say hi for Jabil for me."

When they both left, I closed the door and locked it. Again my towel fell, showing my entire cock has slipped out of its sheath. Damn it Ken, don't you have any pride? My issues just seem to mound today. It can't get worse.

As I head to my room a figure appeared from Jabil's room. He was standing between me and my room, "what are you doing here?"

"I live here too," Jabil answered.

"That is not what I meant" I used my hands to cover my penis.

"We need to talk Ken and with how you were acting, this is all I could think of doing."

"Fine," I don't blame Jabil with how he acted. I admit I wasn't exactly making it easy on him by avoiding the problem like I have been doing. I grabbed the towel I left on the floor and wrapped it around me. I sat in the chair across from Jabil. We were both quiet.

Jabil was the first to speck, "I should apologize."

"For what," I had no idea what he meant.

"For...everything," he turned away, "two weeks ago I just messed everything up. I mean, I just revealed everything and thought everything was just going to work out. We just become a couple and live happily ever after. I didn't think that you would react to it so negatively."

"I didn't react to it negatively."

"You locked yourself in your room and refused to talk to me."

"That because," I stuttered. I was struggling to put what I was saying into words. I just said what I was feeling, "I was confused alright. I never thought about for this stuff before and...handled it poorly." Thoughts of our sex flashed in my mind, "I mean, wouldn't you feel the same if you had sex with your best friend."

"I did have sex with my best friend."

"I know but," I took a deep breath, "what if you didn't know your friend had affections for you? What would you do if when he confessed he also wanted to have sex with you? What would you think would happen after the sex? This isn't like in porn were the two just become lovers; there is more to it than just that. I never had any thoughts or ideas that I would enjoy having sex with my best friend." I moved to the couch, "after we had sex, I just felt so confused about everything. What am I suppose to do now?"

Jabil moved next to me on the couch, "I don't know what you expect me to do. When we had sex, I didn't think this would happen. I didn't mean for you to get so confused. It might not be much, but I want to help you." Jabil held my hand, "I remember being just as confused as you are when I started to think about this stuff. I want to help you get though this just as Donny had helped me."

"Donny, the horse that was just here?"

"Yeah, I started to have these thought after the three-way with him," I remember Jabil talking about having a three-way once but he didn't talk about what happen. "After that I just felt odd. I had thoughts about having sex with guys more often than with girls. That caused some tensions between Bethany and I and that led me back to Donny. Donny really helped me understand these...feelings I have."

"How so?"

"Well," Jabil turned away, "he gave me advice mostly. He also gave me tips on how to do gay sex.

I started to blush remembering all the things he did do me, "so he was the one to ride cock."

"Not exactly, he rode my cock to show me how it was done," I started to imagine that big horse riding Jabil. It was more arousing then I thought it would be, "so what are you thinking about?"

"Huh," Jabil pointed at my lap. My erection was noticeable even with the towel covering it.

I tried to cover it up, "relax, I have one too." Jabil then pointed to his own erection. We started to laugh, I didn't know what was so funny, but we both just laughed.

After the laughter died down, we both still had our erections. I got off the couch and stood in front of Jabil. I can't believe I am going though with this, "so how would you work with this." I dropped my towel, showing my erection to Jabil.

Jabil was silent for a minute, and then he burst out laughing, "are you trying to seduce me?"

"Shut up," I slapped the side of his head but he didn't stop laughing.

"Sorry, it is just so awkward see you try to seduce me." I felt like Jabil was mocking me, but when I tried to leave he caught my arm. "Hey, don't get so upset. It wasn't so bad for your first attempt. Sit down, I'll show you how to seduce a person." I sat on the couch, "alright young seducer-in-training we are going to start with simple teasing. The tease is mostly visual; you must put out what you are offering. It is easier for men to tease since all we have to offer is below the belt," he turned sideways showing his ass towards me, "so shirts are completely optional." He grabbed his shirt and pulled it over his head, "for better sexual appeal, grab from below and pull up."

He tossed his shirt and flexed, "is flexing part of the tease as well."

"Why yes it is," he smiled and continued to flex. "Next we must remove the pants." He turned his ass towards me, "always unclasp the tail clasp first, then twerk." He started to twerk, though I just laugh at his attempt. "In case of terrible twerking, immediately stop and move to the front of the pants." He stuck his pelvis out. With a quick hand he undid the button and slowly unzips it. He swung his hips slowly letting his pants just fall down his legs, he was not wearing underwear today. When his pants hit the floor he leaned close to me, feeling his breath through my fur, "I trust you can handle it from here."

"Yeah," I connected our mouths and pulled him on top of me. My hands wondered his body and through his fur. Our kiss got deeper when I pushed my tongue into his mouth, which he returned with enthusiasm.

When his hands grabbed my ass, I shrieked and broke the kiss. "Sorry, I wasn't thinking."

"No, I'm just...nervous."

"Relax, I only plan to do what you want me to do, we'll take it nice and slow. Here let's try something," Jabil moved my legs apart and aligned our penises. He grasped both of them in a single hand and started rubbing them, "enjoying it?"

"Yeah," I murmured, too engrossed in the pleasure to speak properly. I pulled Jabil close for another kiss. I felt Jabil move his hips and grind our dicks together. Before I knew it I have started to feel close to climaxing. I moaned into Jabil's mouth as my penis empties the small amount of semen it was able to make since my dream last night. Jabil shot ropes of cum across my stomach and chest.

We pulled ourselves apart and started to pant. Jabil just sat next to me on the couch and leaned back, "you need another shower."

"I know," I really don't want to move until my knot deflates, "Jabil."

"Yeah?"

"I really don't understand my feeling."

"Is there anyone who does?"

"No, I mean about for feeling for me. You told me you love me and I understand that, but I don't understand my feeling for you. Part of me feels like I can trust you, like really trust you, more than I can with some relatives. But I still feel odd just jumping into a relationship with a guy, even if it is someone I can trust."

"I understand that. To be honest I also feel sort of reluctant to start this sort of relationship as well. How do two guys who been convinced they have been straight all their lives start up a gay relationship."

"What about your feelings?"

"With loving you," I nodded, "I'm fine with this. I told you how I felt and I'm okay with that. You're still thinking about it, I'm fine just waiting for an answer. So take as long as you want."

"Thanks, but I feel like you are on the short end of the stick here."

"Okay then how about this? We become friends with benefits or fuck buddies. If either one of us is in the mood for sex, we can do it and not have it be so awkward. I am not going force you to have sex whenever I feel horny, but I have no intention of turning you down if you ask for it."

"And your fine with that," Jabil nodded, "alright, so starting from today, we are fuck buddies." I stood up, "so if that is everything I am going to take another shower."

"You go do that you dirty husky."

"Don't forget your part of the reason I am dirty."

"I know," even if it not much, I am glad somethings are back to normal.