The voice of reason - Ch 3 - Thought you had all the answers...

Story by MrGimp21 on SoFurry

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#3 of The voice of reason


One Saturday evening, we were supposed to go to a club. I have to be honest though, I'm not really someone who enjoys clubs and pubs and parties and all that. It's just not my thing. But Meagan always went along so I did too. It's something we always did on a Saturday, so this was no exception. Terry and I usually watch movies together first at his place and went to a club where we would meet the others. His parents were out that evening, to some birthday of some distant relative he didn't know, so he stayed home.

The moment he opened the door, he stood there with a big smile as usual. Once I got in, I took my shoes off. He told me to sit down and he ran up the stairs as I flopped down on the couch. I saw pictures of him when he was still a pup, and it was so funny to see. A big fluffy face with a big grin. That grin still hasn't changed in all these years. Really cute to see him like that... When he finally did come back, he flopped down on the couch next to me and showed me a couple of DVD's. 'Okay so, the Saw trilogy, The Grudge trilogy, or Dawn of the Dead?!' 'You want me to pick of what we're gonna watch?'

'No, I want you to pick one to start the evening off with!'

'Aren't we supposed to go to Now&Wow at eleven?'

'Didn't Jarod give you a call?'

'No...?'

'Oh... Well, Sarudja's grandmother had a heart attack. So Jarod went with her to the hospital.'

Would that mean that we didn't go to a club? I hope so... I'd rather sit here with Terry watching horror movies all night. 'Oooh... What are we gonna do now?' I asked him with a bit of a happy tone while he just shrugged his shoulders. 'Watch horror movies and laugh at exploding corpses?' Phew... I'm glad we weren't going... I couldn't resist smiling. 'You got popcorn?'

'Heeeeeeeeeeeeell yes I do!'

He got up and was searching through a pantry closet. he got out a very big tub of popcorn. Terry tossed it over to me, and I popped the lid. I took a handful of popcorn. Salty. My favourite... A few moments later, he got back from the kitchen with drinks and potato chips and stuff. He inserts the DVD of Saw and pressed play.

I've seen this movie many times. It's pretty scary, but after seeing it for more than five times, it gets kinda boring. I guess Terry got bored of it too. I noticed from the corner of my eyes that he looked at me every once in a while and remembered what he said about that girl to hook me up with. So I thought "It's now or never, Nic..." It was a bit difficult to find a subtle way to ask him without sounding all desperate and needy. 'D-Do you still see t-that girl...?' I uttered. All Terry did was watching the movie and stuffed his mouth with popcorn. 'What girl?' It stayed silent for a while, and when he finally faced me, I looked at him with penetrating eyes. 'Ooh, 'THAT" girl.'

'Yes...?'

'Eh...'

'Are you...?'

'No.... I thought she wasn't taken. But... She is...'

'How'd you know...?'

'Because I had a fight with her boyfriend when I was talking to her.'

'Ooh...'

Terry could hear the disappointment in my voice. All I could do was to stare into blank space. I really hoped that I could get to meet her but... Guess I won't be meeting her. As soon as Terry noticed that I was looking all sad and depressed again, he puts an arm around my shoulder and gave me a quick firm cuddle. 'Don't worry, dude. You'll find someone else.' I took a deep breathe and let out a deep sigh while I wasn't facing Terry. 'How come it's so difficult to find someone to be with...?'

'Depends if you're making it difficult.'

'You don't seem to have a problem with it. How do you do that...?'

'I don't really know. It's like I'm cursed.'

'Well, I'd call it a blessing if I could get laid with a girl every day.'

There was this awkward silence for a short time while I was thinking again. Terry and I had our serious talk's every now and then about love and sex. It felt as if everything he ever said to me didn't stick with me. I kept asking the same questions over and over again and yet he kept his patients... But still... Terry doesn't have a relationship at the moment, and some people think that we have a relationship, because we are always together. But did he ever give a thought about that...? I was just curious and wanted to know his opinion on that... 'Have you ever...'

Hm...?

'Have you ever thought about the possibility of us being together...?'

'Whadda ya mean?'

'I-I mean... Us...? A-As a couple...?'

'Why is that?'

'I-I mean... Some people think we are. I see the look on Rachel's face whenever we are walking down the hallway...'

Terry just sighed and shook his head while he couldn't oppress a little smile. I didn't know why he was smiling in the first place. I was dead-serious... 'Rachel's just another brainless cunt hopping from one dick to another. And.... You're not. You're really sweet, Nic...'

'Heh...'

I couldn't resist smiling whenever he said something like that to me. It made me feel special, as if I'm the only girl he ever really liked. But there was nothing going on between the two of us. We're just really good friends... When he looked at my face again and noticed the expression I had on my face, his smile became even bigger. 'No, really, Nic, I mean it.'

It stayed silent for a while again as the two of us were watching the movie again. This guy's head just exploded. "Haha..." Meh, big frigging deal. The dude was dead the moment he got in the basement of Jigsaw. It's his own fault his head exploded...

After a while, Terry puts an arm around my shoulders, and I cuddled him. Terry loves to cuddle, and truth be told, I really love to cuddle with him as well. He's always so soft and fluffy and warm... But sadly, I had no one to cuddle with at night whenever I was alone in bed, except for my pillows. Isn't that pathetic...? I wouldn't know. Still... The things I did with my pillows... You don't wanna know... Trust me... I was just practicing when the day would finally arrive that a girl wants to have sex with me. She needs to remove all the cobwebs from my vagina first though. Get rid of the moth that's been trapped there for ages. Seriously, if I unbuttoned my jeans right now, it would fly straight out of my vagina, screaming "FREEDOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!" It's all a figure of speech by the way. I don't want you give the wrong impression and I'm very fond of my own personal hygiene. Just to let you know. But still... I was curious... Terry rarely talks about his "adventures" and whenever he did, it only made me more curious than I already was... He made it sound as if it was a wonderful experience... So I tried to find a way to get him to talk about it... 'So eh...'

'Hm...?'

'H-How was you're first time...?'

'Good...'

And his serious expression turned into a huge grin. Hell, I would have the same if I could brag about how many girls I had sex with... 'Did it hurt...?' I asked, while I was fully aware of my own naiveties. It made me feel really embarrassed... But all Terry did was smiling while he wasn't facing me. 'Hmmm, no.'

'S-So how was it...?'

'Well, what's there to say? I mean, as soon as I got a boner, I shoved it right in her and kept humping her from behind. I practically invented doggy style.'

I couldn't help but to chuckle after he said that. What? I thought it was funny... Apparently, he thought the same thing, seeing the expression on his face. So I kept asking... 'But did you ever fell in love with a girl...?'

'Well, it wasn't really "love" if you know what I mean. I liked them but... Never really fell in "love"...'

'Oh.'

'Hehe...'

'Would you treat me as the other girls if I was straight...?'

'Uh... I wouldn't know, Nikki...'

'But...'

'Hm?'

'W-Would you have sex with me if... I-If I was straight?

All of a sudden, I saw how his eyes widened as he almost choked down his drink. He had some nasty coughs, and I couldn't help but to laugh after witnessing that. I didn't know my question had such an impact. I guess it was really unexpected. Terry kept on coughing and scraping his throat as he smiled nervously at me. 'I-I, uh...'

'Heh.... Meagan told me you have a crush on me for a long time... But she doesn't know I'm lesbian, so...'

'Oh....'

'But... Would you...?' I asked quietly...

'Would I what?'

'Would you have sex with me if I was straight...?'

'Want the blunt truth or a bad lie...?'

'Truth...?'

'I would if you wanted to....'

'A-And.... Wh-What would you do...?'

'I'd do anything you wanted me to do...'

'O-Oh...?'

It stayed silent for a long time as the two of us kept staring at each other... Terry placed his hands on my waist and looked me in the eyes again. It felt so awkward when he did and I just couldn't move... I was too startled to do anything... But there was something about those eyes... The moment he gently placed his hands on my breasts felt even stranger. And yet I didn't do anything about it... Maybe I didn't want to do anything about it... For the first time, I was being seduced. It felt so good to be honest, yet... Awkward... I closed my eyes the moment he gently started to massage my breasts. And all of a sudden, it didn't felt so awkward anymore... It sends a tingle down my spine the longer he was touching my body... I could imagine Meagan was doing that to me instead of Terry... And after a while, I felt how "Meagan's" hand slowly went down my jeans, rubbing over my panties, stimulating my clitoris. It felt strange to realize that I wasn't the one who caused those pleasurable feelings this time, knowing it was Terry who caused it but imagining Meagan was doing it. So I surrendered myself to "her"... Terry wouldn't know. I'm sure he'll understand... Or maybe I really was that desperate...

"Her" hands went under my top while I wasn't wearing a bra. I felt the palm of her hands touching my erect nipples while she gently started to kiss my stomach. I started to gasp the moment she slowly twisted my nipples... She lifts up my top and unbuttoned my jeans, slowly pulling it down to my knees as her hand drifted off to my crotch...

Slowly, I started to loose control of my body. With every gentle touch, it felt better than the last one... Soft squeaks escaped my throat while I had a hard time trying to oppress it. Her hands kept touching the right spots, and she knew exactly what she was doing. My panties got wet in no time... She let go of my breast. Instead, her hand went down to my inner thigh as her other hand pushed my panties aside. I felt how her warm fingers touched every inch between my legs. Meagan lifts up my top and I felt her warm breath against my nipples... I tried to relax as much as possible the moment she started to kiss my nipples... But I couldn't oppress a small sigh... 'Hmm......'

'You still like it...?'

'Y-Yes...'

She slowly pulled down my jeans and pulled my panties down... "Meagan" placed her hands on my inner thighs and moved them apart as I felt her warm breathe against my vagina... And I felt her tongue gently touching my clitoris. Over... And over... And over again...

'O-Oh whoa... A-Ah.... Hh-hah....'

'That's it... Just relax...'

'O-Oh dear...'

"Her" tongue wasn't covering just my clitoris anymore... Her whole tongue started lapping all over my vagina. And to add to my pleasures, her hands started going up to my breasts and she gently twisted my nipples while she was sucking on my clit again. A loud moan escaped from my throat while I tried to seize control over my body. I couldn't oppress it... She kept doing that for a while as the feelings kept building up. I wanted her to go faster, but she did the opposite. Her tongue went slower as my breathing became faster...

It didn't take long after that. And it happened so all of a sudden, I wasn't prepared for it. I let out a very loud moan... I felt how I was dripping... And I was there on the couch, panting my lungs out, trying to recover from the orgasm I had but... The moment I opened my eyes, it felt as if I had a reality check. I saw an exploding corpse and the end credits rolling on the TV... I looked down and noticed my jeans and panties on the ground, with Terry's head between my legs. My top was still on, but it got pulled up and revealed my breasts. And I started to feel really embarrassed and ashamed... So I pulled my top down and got dressed again while Terry got back on the couch again... And I sat there on the couch while I wasn't facing Terry, feeling too ashamed to face him... 'You okay...?' Terry asked with a rather uncomfortable tone...

'Th-The hell just happened......?'

'I uh... You didn't like it...?'

All I did was shrugging while I wasn't facing him... 'I-I guess I did...' And that's it... He sits back on the couch and I could see he started to feel embarrassed as well. He scratched the back of his head and I guess he didn't really know what happened either. 'T-Terry...?'

'Yeah...?'

'This stays between us, right...?'

From the corner of my eyes, I saw how he nodded slowly. It's not like him to be insecure and feeling all embarrassed, and truth be told, that night was the first time I saw him embarrassed... 'Okay....' he said quietly while we weren't facing each other...

'Let's not.... Do this again... And... F-Forget it happened, o-okay...?'

Again, he nodded slowly. And just like that... We pretended as if nothing happened and continued our evening of watching movies. It didn't come to that... We started talking instead after it stayed silent for a long, long time. About what just happened between the two of us... I never knew why I allowed him to that night... But now I know...

I told him what I wanted, and what I wanted to feel... I told him what I looked for in a girl... The fact that I had sex with him didn't mean I was in love with him all of a sudden. And I guess that's what made it so awkward. It just happened... That's all there is to it... So my very first time having sex with someone was a really awkward experience...

When his parents came home at around eleven o'clock that evening, they noticed us sitting on the couch. Luckily, I was already dressed when they came home or otherwise, it would've been a complete disaster... Terry's parents were really nice folks. And I know them for as long as I know Terry. His mother asked me once if I was his girlfriend, and I said that he was just a very good friend of mine. They knew I was lesbian, but they didn't really seem to care about my nature. I told Terry that I was a lesbian a long time ago when I was spending the night with him after going out, seeing as it was too late to go home. I guess his parents overheard me, and they talked to me about it once they found out I had difficulties with being myself, and that I don't want to pretend that I'm someone else. They've always helped me a lot, even when they found out about my youth. They were just honest people who seem to care about me, and maybe that's the reason why I liked them so much. I just get to be myself around them.

Terry walked me back to my car when it was getting very late. Before I got inside, I looked Terry in the eyes and realized things have changed on how we would see each other from now on. My first time having sex with someone turned out kinda.... Awkward.... I mean, with a guy. And with my best friend for all that matters. And yet... I didn't really know what to think of it. Before I got inside, I looked at Terry and I could see he was kinda nervous. He just smiled weakly at me and... All I could do was to look at him... Once I got inside of my car, I looked outside the window and saw him walking away in the darkness with his head down... And after that, I drove off...

Once I got inside my own apartment, the first thing I noticed was that the lights were still turned on. I could've sworn I turned them off when I left. I threw my keys on the kitchen counter and as I got closer to the living room, I noticed that Meagan was lying on the couch, in her nightie, watching a movie by herself. I was kinda baffled that she was here in the first place. Usually, she doesn't spend the Saturdays here. Normally, she's at Fabian's place...

'I thought you'd stay with Fabian for the weekend...?'

All of a sudden, she looked up surprised and quickly wiped her eyes. 'Oh! Hey! I didn't even hear you coming in...' She tried to sound cheerful, but something in her voice gave away that she was sad... She sits upright on the couch and looked at me for a moment, but turned her head away. I stood there for a moment, hesitating on what to do so I sat next to her on the couch. Even when I sat next to her, she wasn't facing me... 'I haven't seen you in a while... Is everything ok...?'

'Y-Yeah, sure... Everything is alright... I-I just couldn't sleep so... I-I decided to watch a movie. By myself. Heh...'

'You sure you're ok...?'

There was something wrong with Meagan... I could see it in her eyes... She isn't as cheerful as she always was but... I couldn't make any sense of it... All she did was nodding slowly while she kept staring in front of herself. 'Yeah... Yeah, I'm fine.'|

'Okay...'

'So... Where've you been...?'

'I've been out.'

'You had a date...?'

'...Sort of.'

'With whom?'

'Terry...'

'Oh?'

She got down on the couch, with her legs going over my stomach. But because she was wearing a rather short nightie, I could see her thong and crotch... "Oh shit"... It was as if I was witnessing a car crash. I tried to look away but... I just couldn't. And to make it worse, I also noticed she wasn't wearing a bra either. I could see her nipples through her nightie... 'So, what was he like...?' Meagan asked, with a bit of a curious tone. 'Huh?'

'Come on! Tell me!'

'O-Oh! Well... It wasn't... Exactly a date...'

'Than what was it...?'

'I eh...'

'Hm...?'

'I-I eh...'

'You what...?!'

Of course, I didn't want her to know that I had sex with Terry... If I told her, she'd probably keep asking and stuff and well... I didn't want that... 'I went to the movies with him...'

'Oh...'

Giving that as an answer, she didn't continue to ask questions. I wasn't feeling that comfortable talking about my very first experience... Truth be told, I never felt comfortable talking about my love-life... But that didn't mean I wasn't curious in her first experience. Now would be a good time to ask, seeing as we somewhat already brought up the subject... 'Meagan...?' She turned her head and faced me, while I stared back in her lovely eyes. I always felt myself drifting away whenever I was looking in those eyes of her... 'Can I ask you something personal...?'

'Like what...?'

'How was your first time with Fabian like...?'

'O-Oh... Eh...'

'If you don't mind me asking...'

'Well, I eh.... I've been with him for more then 6 years now... And eh... He was the first guy I ever did with...'

'Did it hurt...?'

Meagan let out a sigh in annoyance. What'd I say to tick her off like that...? She asks me if I ever had sex, so why couldn't I...? Meagan closed her eyes for a moment and looked away... 'Something wrong...?'

'No, I just... I just don't wanna talk about it... I eh... I got a lot on my mind...'

'Relationship problems...?'

'No, Nic. I just don't wanna talk about it...'

'Oh... I-I'm sorry...'

And it stayed silent again for a long time. After a while, she told me she was going to bed. So she got up and hugged me and walked off to her bedroom. I saw how her butt was swaying under that short nightie of hers. I could just... Gaaah... How long do I need to watch her, knowing that I will never be able to be with her in the way I wanted to be...? She really means a lot to me, ever since we were just little kids. How come she never realized something was up with me...? Was it because I pretended to be straight whenever I was with her? Hell, I pretended to be straight with all of my friends, except for Terry. Terry was the only person I could truly be myself...

And it got me thinking again. I went to my room, got dressed in my nightie and made myself ready for bed. But the moment when I wanted to go to my bedroom, I could hear her crying quietly. I knocked on her door, but she didn't respond. So I let myself in. And saw how she was on her bed, curled up as a ball, holding on to a pillow. I couldn't stand to see her like that, being all sad... So I got in bed next to her. And held her close, cuddling, trying to comfort her from whatever it is she's sad about...

How long we've been cuddling like that...? I honestly have no idea... But she calmed down nonetheless, and at some point, she held on to me as well. And it was a wonderful thing to feel her arms around me, holding me close... To see her face being so close to mine... Her sweet lips whispering that I meant everything to her... As a friend... At that moment, the feelings stopped... And I had that reality check again... "As a friend..." I tried to get those feelings back by placing my hand on her lower-back... It seems like an innocent gesture for most people, but I felt tingles all over my body the moment I held her like that, while I realized I couldn't push it any further... This is the closest and most intimate experience that I'll have with her... But that didn't mean I couldn't tell her of much I loved her... 'H-Have I ever told you how much I love you...? A-As a friend...?' Her serious expression turned into a beautiful smile as her hand went through my hair. Again, I could feel the tingles going through my body and I cherished that feeling, knowing I wouldn't feel it ever again...

'Countless of times, Nikki...'

'No, I-I'm serious... You just mean a lot to me. And... I-I never, ever want to loose you...'

'You're not going to loose me... We know each other for more then 15 years now and I love you too... No one is gonna change that... Not even Fabian...'

I felt how the tingles were going through my stomach whenever she told me that she loves me. But than I realized that... She wouldn't love me in the way I wanted it to be. All I could do was to smile weakly at her as she was still caressing my hair. I couldn't stand it anymore... She had to know what I felt for her... Terry once said that I had to tell her, even though she was already in a relationship. Just to let her know... But trying to bring it up was just so difficult... I had no idea how she would react, and I didn't want to put our friendship at risk. But I couldn't live with this secret anymore... All I wanted was for her to know... 'Meagan...?' Than she looked me back in the eyes, while she had a little smile on her face... This was harder than I thought it would be... 'Hm...?'

'There's something I wanna talk to you about... A-And... It's been bugging me for very a long time now...'

'What's up...?'

'Uhm... I-I eh... I-I don't really know h-how to say this... '

'You know you can talk to me about anything...'

'I just...'

'Go on...'

It stayed silent for a long time as I tried to come up with the guts to say it. For years, I worked my way to this very moment, and now that it's here, I was too much of a chickenshit to say it in her face. But I've come this far... And I'm still with her... So I tried to swallow that chunk that was stuck in my throat. And than... Finally... I could utter it out of my mouth... 'I-I've always had a... a-a crush on you... Ever since high school... A-And-'

But before I could continue, she interrupted me... 'Heh...' And I was really, really baffled... I didn't expect her to answer my love for her with the word "Heh". I also didn't know what to make of it... 'What...?'

'I know you do.'

'Wh-What are you t-talking about...?'

'Terry told me you liked me. And... That it went deeper than that.'

'H-He did...?'

'Yeah.'

'Oh, I-I eh...'

'Hey, it's ok...'

Than she grabbed my hand while her other hand went through my hair again. Each and every second that lasted, was cherished and remembered by me. I wish she kept doing that for eternity. The moment she looked me in the eyes again, I thought I knew the answer of what she was gonna give. 'Y-You mean, you...?'

'No... I'm sorry Nikki. I really like you, I really do... But... I don't like you the way you like me. I'm sorry...'

At that moment, it seemed as if my whole world shattered to thousands of pieces once again. And... I always knew that there was a possibility that she wouldn't like me in the way I wanted it to be but... Knowing for sure was a direct stab in my heart. And it really hurt. I was so shattered by that, that I had a very hard time not to break down in tears. Than I thought to myself that it was a mistake to have brought it up. And the list of regrets kept on growing. I was too ashamed and embarrassed to face her after I told her... It stayed silent for a long time while I started to feel sick... Nauseous... And I wanted to go to my room, to be in bed and drift away to my own fantasy-world, where everything was just perfect and where she'd love me in the way I wanted her to. But the moment I got up, I felt she took my hand. When I turned my head, she looked at me... 'But... That doesn't mean we can't be friends anymore... Right...?' she whispered. And I just stood there for a moment, not knowing what to do or to say to her. Meagan gently pulled my arm, and I sat on the edge of her bed. She cuddled me... But I didn't feel those wonderful feelings anymore... It was all gone... 'I-I... I-I'm sorry that I brought it up... Just... F-Forget it. I'm sorry...'

'It's ok, Nic...'

I looked at Meagan for a very long time. And I remembered all the things she made me feel. The nights I spend next to her whenever we had a sleepover. The things she made me feel whenever I was sad and she was trying to comfort me, like she was doing right now. The way she held me... To see her beautiful smile... Having a good time together with the simplest things. My fantasies about her... No... I wasn't planning to give up so quickly...

Her fingers kept twiddling through my hair as she was looking at me. And I was looking in her eyes. No... She just can't... She couldn't... The moment I closed my eyes, I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. And the moment I opened them, I saw the look in her face. All serious and... sad as well... She placed her hand on my cheek and wiped a tear away. And than... All of a sudden. I couldn't hold myself anymore. I looked at her and... I kissed her by pressing my lips against hers. Her eyes widened and I saw that she was really surprised... It only lasted for like... Two seconds. But it felt like an eternity to me... But once again, I had that reality check. She looks just... Startled... The hell did I just do...? 'Heh... I-I eh... I-I d-didn't know why I just did t-that... I-I'm sorry... I truly am...' But she didn't say anything after that...

For the rest of the night, we didn't say anything to each other. I stayed in her bed and I didn't know if she liked the kiss but... I cherished it, along with every other memory I have from her. And she was still right next to me. It didn't matter to me if she was startled or not. She knows now. I kissed her. And there was no one in the world who could take that moment away from me ever again. She closed her eyes as I scratched her behind her ear. That's a habit I never got rid off ever since I was little. Meagan fell asleep not long after that. And as soon as I realized she was asleep, I was looking at her beautiful body. The longer I was staring at her body, the more powerful the urge to do it became. And at some point, I didn't know what the hell I was doing...

"You know what happened last time when you did that, didn't you...?" "You really liked it." "I bet she did too." "Come on... Do it again. It's been a loooong, long time...."

It was another thing I always did. Whenever we had a sleepover, I couldn't help but to touch her. It started when I was younger once I realized I wanted more than just a relationship... One night, I realized that I could touch her in the way I never would otherwise. It was a wrong thing to do to exploit her like that. But that night, she would never know that I did...

I felt how my hand was automatically going down to her butt. I held her perfect round butt as my other hand was going under her nightie. I felt her breasts, while I tried my best not to wake her up. And realized that there wasn't anything more perfect than those breasts of hers. Gently scratching her chest fluff. Than not long after that, I felt how my fingers were desperately searching for her nipples, with the intention of rubbing them. My other hand however, was still on her bum and made their way inside her thong from the back. Feeling how warm it was the moment my hand reached her vagina. The fact that she was asleep only aroused me more. She could wake up any second. And what if she did wake up and found out I was molesting her in her sleep...? I never gave a thought about that. But she didn't wake up. I stopped for a moment to make sure she was still asleep. Once I realized she was still asleep, I decided to push things a little further. I gently got hold of her hand, and kissed her fingers. Licking was more like it. Than I gently placed her hand on my stomach and moved her hand down over my own panties. It was always an extraordinary feeling whenever I did that. The feeling aroused me a lot. So I made her hand slip down my panties. Her fingers felt cold compared to my warm vagina. But I didn't mind. I gently moved her hand up and down and realized how good it felt. I kept doing it for a short moment until I decided I wanted something else. Since her back was facing me, it wasn't that hard to move her legs up to my crotch. Once I realized her feet weren't touching my vagina, I moved down a little. I got hold of her right foot and rubbed it against my vagina. I can't explain how something like that feels but... I can tell that it feels so good... I tickled her other foot, so that her toes wiggled in her sleep... At some point, I noticed how wet my panties became. I didn't really remove them. I just pushed it aside and felt how her bare foot made contact with my wet pussy... The feeling of it aroused me even more, while I kept tickling her foot and her toes wiggled every now and than against my clitoris... I gently rubbed her paw up and down over my vagina and I kept staring at her butt and her face and well... It didn't took long before I reached an orgasm... I wasn't really prepared for that. Luckily, there wasn't much ejaculation fluids coming out and most of it got squirted in my panties. I tried to make it sound as quietly as possible... I had to recover from it. My body was shaking as I was staring at Meagan who was still asleep. I gently kissed her neck and wished she would do the same with me...

I always started to feel guilty after I did that to her. So it wasn't any different now. I went to the bathroom to clean myself up, changed my panties and washed my hands. And as I was staring at myself in the mirror, I saw my own reflection... "You stupid cunt... How the hell could you do that to her?" I didn't know... It just happened... And well, there isn't really a way to apologize. Imagine, me going like "Hey Meagan, I'm truly sorry for molesting you in your sleep, can I fuck you're brains out the proper way?" Yeah right, as if that's gonna happen... I splashed my face with water and crawled back in her bed again. I whispered in her ear of how sorry I was and kissed her forehead. But nevertheless, she didn't wake up that night. Or at least I thought so...